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A great day!

Saturday, June 09, 2012

Whew! It is hot out! One of these days I will have a car with air conditioning! Anywho...I had a lovely day once I had my shower and revived my flagging energy. Hit a wicked sale at Fashion bug; new jeans, two new tops and a shrug. Then I got a hair cut and I treated myself to a new set of nails! I decided I needed to reward myself for doing so well. In a while, once my laundry is done, I am going to strip my hair and try a different color.

I haven't felt this good and excited about taking care of myself since before I got sick. 3 years is a long time and I am very long overdo. Now all I have to do is get motivated to get my apartment done and to start exercising. Perhaps tomorrow morning I will explore the apartment complex's fitness room, see what they have and what I will want to work out on.

So laundry to finish and light supper and early bed. I am going with a friend to the memorial tomorrow . It's going to be a long day!

  
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DIBANANA 6/10/2012 12:42AM

  Sounds like you are happy with life. Good for you!

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A sad end to a really weird week

Saturday, June 09, 2012

First of all, how weird is it that I was so happy that gas was down to $3.64. How WRONG was it that it took 35.00 dollars to fill my little car from just below half! I am so grateful I have a job so I can afford to fill it up.

This has been the oddest week...Twilight Zone odd...everything has been just ...off. On the up side, lost another two pounds. I was up at 5:30 this morning, at the store by a little after 6:00 and was home, groceries put away and breakfast done by 8:00. I was oh so good during my shopping trip...actually been pretty good all week. I think my head is finally in the right place and I am deliberately making better choices.

Yesterday was pay day and my weigh in day. Normally on pay day I splurge at Mickey D's for breakfast. I looked up the calories of my usual breakfast and holy moley was I shocked! I can hardly bring myself to admit it here...1,130 calories...**grimaces* It wasn't even that big a breakfast! *LOL* The worst culprit was the large mocha frappe. My very favorite goodie.

Anyway, I had a Jimmy Dean Turkey Sausage and egg bowl. 240 calories, 50 calories worth of cantaloupe. Yeaaaaaaah...much better. I also had a salad, more cantaloupe, carrots and yogurt for lunch. Much better choices. Today at the store I started looking at low cholesterol food items. I bought morning star sausage and griller patties. I did buy non fat sliced cheese...*shudders* I'll try it. Lots of salad stuff, 100 calorie whole wheat sandwich thins, no sugar jam...again we'll see.

Now, as for the week, as I said it seemed like everything was just this side of "normal." Busy days, but they seemed to drag, everyone seemed to be in strange moods all week. Wednesday tension went over the top and there was lots of whispering and mini meetings and worried looks. I heard the word hospital mentioned more than once. Thursday, my supervisor called me into her office and told me our COO had been rushed to the hospital the day before, had coded twice and one of those times it took 30 minutes to bring him back. It didn't look good. He seemed to rally a little during the morning, but on my way back from lunch, our chief accountant stopped me and told he had just died.

I had known the man for years, he started as an MRI tech when I was still just an operator. (I am getting ready to observe my 23rd year with the company) He left for a few years and then one day showed up and was hired as our COO. I was never close to him, but he had close friendships with my supervisor, office manager and several people in my office. (not to mention our five diagnostic centers) I was sad that he died and so very suddenly too, but I really hurt for my friends and co-workers who are hurting right now due to the loss. I haven't cried once, and truth to tell, I have been feeling rather guilty for not being more upset. I mean, I saw him everyday and did a little work for him. But I never developed a comfortable, breezy friendship with him like the other had. *shrugs* I wonder if there is something wrong with me?

They are having a memorial/celebration of his life tomorrow which I will attend in support of my work family. I need to go out today and find something to wear. I am really dreading tomorrow...

I so don't want to go out...I just want to curl up and take a nap. I made the mistake of sitting down! Must...get...up!

  
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HEYRED221 6/10/2012 12:35PM

    So sorry to hear about your boss, that is sad and like you said, especially for your co-workers that were so close to him. And way to go on the 2lbs!!!! Keep it up, you are doing fantastic.

Happy Sunday and have a good week - probably be another weird one at work I would suspect.

Carolyn

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EVERLEARNING 6/9/2012 8:21PM

    Sounds like his passing is not really your loss, which is OK. We can't be close to everyone we work with.
Being there to support your friends and co-workers is definitely the right thing to do. Good for you, standing up for that job. It's not a fun one.......

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AQUAGIRL08 6/9/2012 8:01PM

    Everybody deals with loss in their own way. Perhaps the fact that all you want to do today is curl up and take a nap, is just your own way of coping. Sometimes when someone dies, the survivors are left with a feeling of numbness until the reality of the person's passing, becomes real to them. Attending a memorial service or funeral may give you some closure since your co-worker died so suddenly. Don't feel guilty if others cry or feel sad and you don't. Please cut yourself some slack. You are in my thoughts.

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GLITTER60 6/9/2012 6:03PM

    maybe you will cry at the memorial.

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A Shade~y Day

Saturday, June 02, 2012

Well...summer has announced its arrival with triple digit numbers! *sighs* And awaaaaaaaaaay we go! Yes, I hate summer and no, I have NO earthly idea why I am still in the high desert! There are saving graces, the best of which is AIR CONDITIONING (at least in my apartment! My car...not so much). Come September, the mornings and evenings start to cool down a bit, just have to wade my way through 3 months of "dry" heat! *LOL*

I woke up this morning with the best of intentions! I was (and prolly still will) get my kitchen done and start on my chaotic living room. However, my little girl cat is VERY needy today, so I am spending a lot of down time cuddling, petting, and grooming her. Normally she only likes to be held for a maximum of a minute and half(yes...I timed it) usually long enough to say hello to me when I come home from work! Lately though, she needs to be held a bit more often and for quite a bit longer (for her). I came to do the kitchen a while ago and she was weaving figure eights around my ankles or just kind of following me just out of eyesight. I am always afraid I am going to step on her, as she is so quiet and sneaky!
Anyway, I'll be taking frequent "Shade" breaks today and I suspect tomorrow as well. Like I'm worried about it! Heck...I'll love on my baby anytime. emoticon

Saw my regular doctor's partner on Thursday. What a trip she was. I really liked her, but she had very definite ideas as to what I need to do to lose weight. She also told me I need an inversion table for my back. She says they are not too expensive "only" 300 dollars and up. I just looked at her and smiled...Really? Yeeeeeah....Don't think so. Although I did have an interesting vision later that day as I ruminated on what she said. I saw myself on the inversion table, horizontal...and then Shade jumps up, sits on my stomach and looks at me as if I was crazy, then proceeds to walk up and down my body, making me her very own teeter totter! It was such a real vision that I started laughing out loud and got some very strange looks from my co- workers.

While I am grateful for her input, I think I will continue to do what I am doing...except I REALLY need to add regular exercise. Now that I am feeling better, there is no excuse not to be exercising and tweak my food plan to be more effective. On Thursday I realized that I have a wonderful 3 month stretch in front of me before the start of my busy season. I have to see the doctor again in September and I know she expects weight loss! OH! On a side note, my cholesterol has gotten out of hand and she has put me on medication. Now on top of everything else I need to study what I need to do to start lowering my cholesterol. I know exercising is key, as well as healthy eating, but I need to see if there is anything specifically I need to do, cut out or add, to help me be successful!

So, baby steps. First thing is to forgo soda, period. I am a huge water drinker, and actually don't consume a lot of soda to begin with, not even once a week. However, I really feel I need to delete it from my diet altogether. Next, I need to get moving. I have a little stair stepper I will use and may try to get my fitness room and try the stationary bike. Oh! Let us not forget my dancing! *LOL* Last year I bought a yoga dvd for plus size exercisers I want to try, but need to get my living room in order first to I have room, as well as having a feeling of calmness and serenity.

I have also determined not to have the TV on unless there is something I truly wish to watch. No more having it on for company and background noise and getting stuck to my chair, sucked into whatever is on. No more channel surfing when I KNOW there is not a thing on that interests me!

The next step, once I master that, is to reduce the amount of time I spend online. I can spend hours here and not really do much of anything. I will devote time here on SP and check email and such. But I am going to limit the amount of time I spend on certain social networks. I have already stopped playing the games to which I used to lose hours and hours (and not a little money).

I feel the stirrings of excitement and have a giant sense of possibilities. For now, I need to have lunch (since I seem to have missed breakfast) and do what I have planned to do. Life is good!


  
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HEYRED221 6/4/2012 3:02PM

    I can completely relate to the heat issue, not quite as hot as NV, but here in Albuq., NM we have been hitting mid-90's. I hate the heat. Would be so happy if it was mid-70's year round :-) I hope you got a lot done and have a wonderful week!!!

Carolyn

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LORELAI19 6/2/2012 3:53PM

    Life is good!! Now is the time to start living well!! Enjoy your new journey!
~L

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It's a beautiful morning

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

I had the best weekend! I didn't get done nearly as much as I had planned, and much to my surprise, I am perfectly okay with that. I am relaxed and there is a long forgotten feeling of contentment. I'm even looking forward to going to work! (Put's hand to forehead...Nope, I'm not sick! *ROFL*)

Didn't overindulge this weekend, quite pleased with myself, although I am not resting on my laurels. Oh yeah....When I weighed in on Sunday, I was so excited to see I lost 2 pounds in spite of myself! Yay me! *LOL* Imagine what I could do if I really put my mind to it!

Well, time to finish getting ready for work. I wonder what the day holds in store for me?

Here is to a splendiferous day!

  
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EVERLEARNING 5/30/2012 12:08PM

    Well, yayyy, YOU!!
Sounds like you're taking GREAT care of yourself!! And better yet, appreciating yourself!
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Today...right this moment...I love my life~

Sunday, May 27, 2012

I feel so good today and dare I say it...hopeful! I am going to do everything in my power to keep this feeling with me. It's hard to believe this used to be my normal state of being. I miss it...I have missed me.

I got all my laundry done yesterday and made a dent in the kitchen. I was at up at 5:30 and at Wal-mart by 6:30 this morning and had my groceries put away by 8:00.

I am sitting here watching my Shade play with a plastic pull tab and playing hide and seek within the folds of a throw that is halfway off my ottoman. I love her so much! She brings me such joy. When I come home from work, she recognizes my car sounds and jumps in the dining room window waiting to see me. One of my favorite times of the day!

I am going to work on the apartment some more in the next two days, but for now I am heading for the movie theater to see "Dark Shadows." Wow, two movies in a week...last week I saw the "Avengers" and just loved it. Gotta love the AMC theater 5 minutes from me. First show of the day is 5 dollars.

Have a Splendiferous day!
Ame

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LOSINGLINNDY 5/27/2012 4:01PM

    emoticonContinue your joyful day.

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HEYRED221 5/27/2012 1:36PM

    So glad you are having an awesome day! That's such a wonderful feeling. Enjoy the movie and many more happy days!!!

Carolyn

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EVERLEARNING 5/27/2012 12:47PM

    So glad to hear you're having a wonderful time. You sure deserve it!!

You be sure to bookmark this blog, and refer back to it when necessary.

Give Shade a big smooch!
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SUNSHINEYDAYS 5/27/2012 12:21PM

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Sounds like you are doing absolutely fantastic ! Making leaps and bounds of progress in all directions and enjoying your life - fabulous !
I saw Avengers too - great movie ! Loved it !

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