Monday, January 09, 2012
Just caught the tail end of one of my favorite movies, "Meet the Robinsons." One of the the best things I took away from this movie is there is no shame in failure. Failure is learning and through it all one needs to "Keep Moving Forward!" I wish I had learned that lesson earlier in my life. I am grateful I am learning and applying it and more often now!
I had a great day! My only complaint is that it FLEW by in a heart beat. I have been going since 6:00 this morning and I could swear I just got up. Now is after 8:00 Sunday night. What the Frack?
Anyway, my point is, that it was suddenly 7:00 and too late to bake my dinner. So, being the somewhat resourceful and flexible person I am, I made myself this huge, delicious, satisfying salad. While making the salad, I cut up veggies to use over the next two or three days, and cooking up enough chicken to use as well. As i was cutting up my veggies, I couldn't help sneaking little bites. Omigosh, they tasted so good! At one point as I was rinsing my radishes, I popped a piece in my mouth and smiled at the crunch and the little bite in the flavor. As I did, I glanced in the the mirror that hangs over the sink and I was surprised at what I saw. The person smiling back at me looked so happy! Her eyes were shining, her smile was huge and she was dancing! What a moment it was.
Did I mention my salad rocked? *grins* I had lettuce, spinach, radishes, celery, red bell pepper, green onion, grape tomatoes, carrots, a little shredded cheese and a little ranch dressing. The dressing was actually incidental as there was so much flavor from everything else. all I can say is YUM!
Oh! Had a go at the Weight Watchers Dark Chocolate Raspberry Ice Cream bars. According to the nutritional info, two bars equals one serving. Just for giggles and since the first one tasted sooooo yummy, I had the second one. I think for the most part, one bar will suffice. 1 serving is only 190 calories, but unless I really am feeling the need to indulge why waste the calories?
On yesterday's adventure I bought two salad plates to see if using smaller plates will help me not feel as if I am "depriving" myself as I eat smaller portions. (I have a huge problem with portion control) Looking forward to trying that.
Also bought a pair of 2 pound and 3 pound hand weights to use when I get bored with the resistance bands. Step up the routine a bit. Baby steps, baby steps.
Okie dokie, time for bed. Long day tomorrow...I wonder what it will hold?
Sweet sleep my friends!
Sunday, January 08, 2012
Holey Moley! It is freaking windy out! It's Zip up the coat, pull the hood up, hold on to the car door or it will hit the car you're parked next to, practically flying in to the store, MAN it cold... windy.
It is so beautiful and clear out, the mountains look as if they are right down the street, instead of miles away. The sky is so blue and the clouds drifting by are in shades ranging from gun metal grey to dove grey to brilliant white. There was one point where the sun was behind a large white cloud and it looked as if the cloud had a shimmery halo surrounding it as sun beams shone out the bottom of the cloud. Made me wish I could paint, it was so lovely.
Okay on to the topic at hand. I read through the cookbook and chose three recipes to try. Two salads and a vegetable dish. I vowed I would make the recipes as they are written, even if I don't care for an ingredient or two. I really dislike some reduced fat/non fat things. I would rather use full fat/full calorie items in smaller quantities then eat what has always seemed to me oddly flavored(or flavorless), different textured substitutes. There are also several herbs for which I never developed a taste. However, The dishes look so good and so inviting I am willing to try these recipes once (maybe even twice) in an effort to expand my palate. If I absolutely cannot stand the flavor in the recipe, I will find a substitution. The only item I will not even try to incorporate is fennel. I despise licorice (The smell is enough to make me nauseated).
I am determined to succeed! Everything I purchased yesterday and today is wonderfully healthy. Oooh! Oooh!Oooh! I found a Weight Watcher's frozen dessert that is dark chocolate raspberry! How cool is that! Erm, no pun intended....I am looking forward to my adventures in cooking (and eating) this week.
Now I to finish my daily excursion through SP, finish watching "Sherlock Holmes," which I have never seen, get my kitchen in order so I can do some prep work for the week, work on my room and get some dancing in! Baby steps, baby steps!
Here's to finding joy in this beautiful day!
Saturday, January 07, 2012
It is a beautiful morning and I'm feeling good! I didn't lose any weight this week, but I didn't gain any either! BONUS!
I have been walking on my 15 minute breaks, not going too far or too briskly...but going nonetheless. Having been sedentary for so long (partially enforced, then out of habit), it is going to take me some time to get my energy level and fitness back to where it was before my illness. Baby steps, baby steps. Before I know it, I will be walking a mile or two with a smile on my face and a spring in my step!
I am going to start dancing again, starting with 5-10 minutes in the morning and working my way up to where I was a pre-cancer...I used to dance 45 minutes to an hour at least once a day. I remember times when I would have my scheduled morning dance, and having had a bad day, would come home and dance until I felt better. (I miss the endorphins!)
On the nutrition front, I did fairly well this week. I ordered The Spark People Cookbook yesterday morning before work and thanks to Amazon and being a Prime member, it was waiting for me when I got home from work last night! Huzzah! I will be spending a lot of time delving into the treasure trove and making a grocery list for my next foray to the market. What an adventure I am going to have! Since I live by myself, I'm looking for recipes that I can stretch over a couple of days, incorporate into left overs or that I can freeze for future meals. Before I venture forth, I will be cleaning out the fridge and cupboards in the next couple of days. Baby Steps!
Yes, it is a beautiful morning and it is going to be a splendiferous day!
Bright Blessings on our adventure this day!
Monday, January 02, 2012
Well, here I am, day two and feeling great. I have laid out my food for the day, I'm getting ready to exercise and I am half way through my water. I am taking small steps to ensure my success.
Even though I have set my first major goal, I am breaking that goal into smaller goals. In setting goals of a ten percent weight loss at a time, I feel much more confident in my ability to reach my goals! Baby steps, baby steps!
I have created a graph in Excel to track my weight loss. I have mapped goals in different colors, added graphics and encouraging phrases to help motivate myself. I LOVE seeing the graph go down with each pound lost.
I am working on getting back in the habit getting on SP every day to do what I need to do. My next step is to get involved in my teams again. I really believe that not interacting with my teams is a huge contributing factor in my apathy.
Next I will choose one or two people whom I really trust to let them know I am starting this journey again. Actually, I have already connected with a dear friend and I consider her not only a best friend, but hopefully a Spark Buddy! *grins*
So, over all day two is going well. Still a long ways to go, but I am facing the right direction and moving forward. Not too bad, not too bad at all.
Sunday, January 01, 2012
I woke up in the most negative place today. I have been fighting extreme negativity since Friday afternoon having gone through my yearly evaluation. Instead of motivating me, I felt shot down and worthless. I work so hard and am always on time and miss very little work for call outs. I always accept assignments with a smile and do what ever I am asked. Yet, I came away from the meeting feeling as if none of that mattered. It sounds as if I am whining, but I'm really not. I'm trying to understand my boss, which is nigh on impossible. It seems that no matter how hard I work and try to do things to her level of expectation(she is a perfectionist), it is never good enough. Not to mention she brings so much stress on herself and that stress spreads to everyone. Once I am in negative mode about one thing, it so totally snowballs into all areas of my life, which drives me absolutely crazy!
I have been dealing with negative thoughts for a long time now. Until my illness I was one of the most positive people I knew. (It drove my ex husband crazy! *LOL*) Part of it I know is the residual chemo fog. My memory and ability to express myself is finally coming back to relative normal, but I still second myself way too much. I miss the sunshiny, excited about every thing, life is beautiful me.
Luckily for me, I came to Spark People today to start my annual New Year's "get my life together" adventure. My inner critic was laughing at me and insidiously talking me down . Especially when I weighed myself this morning. I was horrified to have proof that I gained just about all my weight back. Oh, my inner critic went into overdrive!!! I slunk to the weigh in page and with heavy heart entered my weight. Oh the ignominy! There was a point this morning where I almost just left the site and figured what's the point, I'll only fail again. Then I remembered that the only way I can fail is to not try at all.
Then a little voice started whispering softly to me, telling me that it knew I was upset, but that I had done it once and I could do it again. It reminded me that I know what to do and that I am not helpless nor am I alone. The inner critic keep getting louder and louder, but I imagined it was on the radio and I just tuned the sound down. The little voice(My higher self) grew stronger and I actually listened to it for a change! *LOL*
I read a lot of articles and comments this morning and felt little flicks of excitement going off inside me. I joined the January Jumpstart Challenge and went to Target and bought a pedometer, a pair of 3 pound weights andthe 28 day Bootcamp DVD( then joined that team as well!). I'm going to clean out my fridge and make space in my living room so I can exercise! I may even walk to and from work a couple of days a week. (A little over a mile each way.)
Negative Nellie is no longer welcome! Positive Polly has moved in and I know as I develop positivity in this aspect of my life, it will waterfall into other aspects of my life as well! So here is to 2012...New Year, New Attitude, and New Me!
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