Friday, February 21, 2014
I'm into the last 3 days of my vacation and it has been wonderful! I've puttered, shopped, cut all my hair off, went to the Goddess Temple for some soul nurturing, spent time with my baby girl cat, learned all the ins and outs of my new TV and Blu ray, spent time with my adopted family, and am generally relaxed and oh so happy!
Oh yeah, I almost forgot...went to the movies and was automatically given the senior discount...they didn't even ask! *LOL* I giggled through the rest of the day! (who am I to turn down a $4 movie and discounted munchies) I must be starting to look my age, and I am all right with that. I may be 55 now, but inside I am only 16...well, maybe 21 depending on what I am doing! *Grins*
I live such a blessed life! I have everything I need...The most important of which are my friends and family. You fill my life and soul with such love and sunshine! My heart is filled to overflowing with love and gratitude for everything in my life.
This is going to the best year yet! Thank you for sharing my journey with me!
Monday, February 17, 2014
(Disclaimer: Ramble ahead! This is simply observation and how I am working through certain aspects of my life and ways of thinking.)
I have been ruminating a lot this vacation and here is one of the topics that continue to chase around my brain:
While I wholeheartedly appreciate the excitement of upcoming holidays and special events, every time I see a post that counts down to a certain holiday or time...I feel as if people are living in the future instead of living and enjoying the now. Every day has it's joys, beauty. and promises.
This is not to say I don't ever do this and I totally understand that there is preparation involved for holidays and excitement in the anticipation, but I am learning more and more that focusing constantly on future events, one can miss all the beauty of today. (Of course retailers don't help with pushing holidays months ahead of time)
I am learning that in living as much in the now as I can, time seems to slow down a bit. How often do we find ourselves saying "Where did this day, month, year, go?" "Didn't we just have Christmas, Easter, Thanksgiving?" Time flies by fast enough as we grow older!
I am beginning to think one of the reasons time seems to pass so much more slowly as children, is because children for the most part, live in the here and now. To me, it seem as a child I had no real concept of past and future. I lived pretty much moment to moment, not worried about what I did the day before, or what was going to happen the next day. Obviously, when we become aware of holidays, birthdays or other special events, we'd get excited, but I think it was usually during the couple of weeks preceding the event, not months.
As I grew older and more and more was expected of me, time seemed to speed up exponentially. Too soon it seemed we were expected to think of the future and that is when I believe time started to speed up. For me it was about age 16 and every year just got faster and faster in their passing.
I guess what the universe is trying to tell me is to slow down...to live in the moment more often. It is obviously understood that we have to focus somewhat on the future. I am not that naive. However, when I have a few minutes, an hour or two, or if I'm lucky, a day in which I don't "have" to do anything, I love to cover the clocks and put away my watch and do what I want to do without a schedule. I can fully immerse myself in the here and now and time seems to just slow down. Nap if I feel like it, read until I decide to stop, meditate until I'm done, work a puzzle, crochet, eat when I am hungry, not because it is a certain time or anything else I can dream up.
Okay...Ramble dying out...this was just going to be a paragraph ramble...hmm...yeah, no.
Sunday, January 05, 2014
My the time has passed quickly! I have gotten a lot done(not that you can tell by looking at my apartment! *LOL*) Bags of trash to take out, boxes of books to donate, bags of clothes to donate. I have brought stuff out to the living room to sort through as I watch the 49ers...Also have laundry going...Now to watch with baited breath to see who wins the game. GO 49ers!
I have been with Spark People for 7 years this month. I am back to the weight at which I started SP. This is in no way SP's fault!! It is choices I have made, decisions I have made, my own mindset and negativity. There were health issues I had to deal with for a couple of those years from which I have since recovered. Yay me!
I posted a pic from the my faire in October. I have never looked like this, even at my heaviest. Since my surgery, my weight has totally redistributed itself. In looking how the bodice fits, I see that I am carrying more weight in my middle than I used to. I was always slender in my midriff, carrying most of my weight in my belly. (I was a bottom heavy hour glass with a very definite waist.)
Anyway...whatever the reason....I said enough as I saw that pic and I have already made changes and rethought my goals. I reset my Spark program and am now going through the starting program again and doing the 28 day program on Sparkcoach. I am setting smaller monthly weight loss goals, rather then trying to decide what my ultimate goal is going to be. Having been heavy for so long and somewhat older, not to mention the lack of hormones, I have no idea what my ideal weight should be. I believe it will be whatever weight at which I feel my best, the weight at which I am most active, and the weight at which I believe I look my best.
My head set is where it should be, I have stocked up on healthy food, I have my resistance bands, little stair stepper and walking shoes ready and where I can put my hands on them at anytime. I am finding pics for my vision board and participating every day on SP. Although with the exception of one day 43 days ago, I was on a 405 day log in streak. So only 363 more days til I break the old streak!
This is going to be a FABULOUS year and I am going to make it so!
Sunday, December 01, 2013
Happy December! I have been AWOL a few days, or perhaps it's a couple of weeks...my time sense is off a bit apparently. Anyway, it has been a rough one. The dark "UGH" returned three fold as several friends have lost loved ones over the past couple of weeks. My ex-husband lost not only his nephew to cancer, but his mother two weeks later, also from cancer. I have been feeling so helpless as I see my friends suffering. I know there is nothing I can do. I have spent a lot of time talking with my ex and I'm grateful we are still friends. Another friend almost died in a car accident, but is thankfully slowly on the road to recovery.
I am starting to come out of my funk...I had the best Thanksgiving I've had in a long time and I am actually excited about the coming month. I was perusing my blog entries from the past year and in reading my posts from a year ago, I felt the need to repost a couple in part. It's just what I needed to see today!
The first is part of my 11/29/12 post:
I read a Daily Spark Blog this morning on how to stay on track through the holidays by Tana Jolliffe "Enjoy the holidays and still lose weight." I had a stupendous "Aha" moment when I read one specific comment that made me stop and think:
''I try to remember that Thanksgiving is a single day in November, and Christmas is a single day in December. The holidays do NOT include all the days in between--unless I let them!''
Growing up, the holidays were all encompassing, from Thanksgiving and the arrival of Santa at the end of the Macy's Parade, until Christmas day..and sometimes even till New Years. I have always lumped the whole month into "The Holidays."
What a great shift in thinking! By not indulging (or over indulging) through out the whole month, I can indulge a wee bit on each "Holiday," and not feel the least bit of guilt. I am going to post that quote in my cubicle at work and on my bathroom mirror to remind myself every day. I feel so empowered! Silly as it may seem...this made my day!
I want to end this year on a high note! I don't want to slink into the New Year with my head hanging because I allowed myself to get carried away during the Holidays. I do not plan to make "Lose weight" a resolution for next year! (Not that I make resolutions, I prefer to set goals) Anyway...I am going to print up and keep the quote I mentioned on Thursday where I can see it...on my fridge, at my computer at work and laminate a copy I can carry with me as I journey through the holidays.
I will set daily goals this month, living in the here and now. I know I have a long term goal: To get healthy and fit! But I am working really hard to live in the here and now. So I will go day by day.
I will be blogging much more often as an act of accountability. I will weigh myself once a month on the first day of the month. I will participate more in my teams and be more encouraging to my my friends and teammates. I will accept more challenges.
1. Meet my calorie range
2. Dance or walk for 15 minutes(more if the spirit hits me)
3. Find a new motivational quote and meditate & comment on it in my blog.
Life is good and This is going to be a spectacular December!
This is my Spark! I have copies of this all over to remind me! "
I'm full of hope and excitement. I weighed myself this morning and in spite of having not exercised over the last couple of weeks and Thanksgiving and what not, I only gained 1 pound! Color me amazed! Pretty jazzed am I and I look forward to this month and what it holds! My head held high and a real smile on my face!
Since I spent Thanksgiving with one of my best friends and her family, I am going to cook my turkey today. (We had ham at Sandy's house, which was excellent!) Going to go start it now, then do some more laundry and work on my room. Wednesday I woke up to squishy carpet in my bed room and two inches of water in my bathroom. Still cleaning and rearranging. Tonight I'm going to decorate my Yule tree. WooHoo!
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