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2013 Resolutions

Monday, January 07, 2013

These are starting to be some pretty familiar goals!

I need to lose weight. It is hard for me due to messed-up hormones, but it IS possible. My GOAL for 2013 is to get down into the 170's. I did lose about 8 pounds in 2012 (that I KEPT off...lost 37 total and gained back...had understandable reasons). So I have my goal, but as long as I end the year lighter than I started it, I'm not going to complain.

I want to get my house clean and organized and our storage unit emptied into our own attic. This is a repetative goal, but I've been making progress. Only one room is what I consider a "disaster" and the rest of the house is just a few "hot spots."

Now that we've finished paying for Wayne's grad school, its time to get our finances in order, and get out from under our debt. Other than our house, we only owe about $5k in credit cards and another $5k on my car. Credit cards are totally doable this year, and I'm going to try for the car too, but it will be paid off next summer (2014) anyway either way (if we pay it off early, we can start saving to replace Wayne's 1996 pick-up).

Wayne is finished with his masters degree, so I'm clear to start working on my associates degree again, once I feel that I'm ready. Sadly, being "ready" means that I need everything else in our lives to calm down - I can't deal with school when I'm stressed over everything else. Not and both make good grades and be the kind of person you'd want to be around. So this is a back-burner for now, as I make some prepwork towards its eventual reality.

I want to get fit enough to pass the Air Force fitness test for my age...minimums of 33 sit-ups in one minute, 18 push-ups in one minute, run a mile-and-a-half in 16 minutes, 22 seconds, and a 35.5" waist...somewhere I really have to excel, because while those are the minimums, if that's all I can do, I still wouldn't pass. Finding the time to work out with a baby was harder than expected, but I'm making progress this year, now that he's a toddler. (repeat of 2010-2012 goals). Honestly, this one is kind of a back-burner. I'll work on it as I have time, but other things come first.

My son is a wonderful 26-months old. I would love to make him a big brother in the near future, but we will have to see how that plays out. I don't know if I can emotionally survive another miscarriage. My most important resolution is to be the best mommy that I can be.

  
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PIPSANDMSMAMA79 1/14/2013 6:14PM

    You can do this!!! emoticon I also want to make Myles (and Piper) a baby sister or brother this year as well, but don't want to get pregnant at this size when I had so many problems with my pregnancies due to weight before. I'd love to get as in shape as I can before we try again in Spring. I don't want another Fall baby, lol. I didn't make any weight resolutions this year because I didn't want to jinx myself. I told myself I wanted to get everything else in order and be more responsible and if I can pull the rest of my life in order, the weight would fall into place. So far so good, lol. We've got a year to do this! Good luck emoticon

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KTNEWJOURNEY 1/8/2013 3:43PM

    I know exactly what you mean by needing to have everything else settled and calm before trying to deal with school. I hope that you find the routine that works for you so that you can work on your degree again and spend some time on you!

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MRS.NG.06 1/7/2013 9:34AM

    HA HA HA..great photo! I have tons of those funny faces on my iPhone : )

2013 is all about change to better ourselves and the healthier you are all around, the better for everyone and the future of having a future sibling !

You can do it!

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DLDROST 1/7/2013 8:34AM

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it is never to late to start.

my sister lost 105 pounds at age 63 walking 15000 steps a day.

i have lost 44 pounds by giving up grain and sugar products at age 60..

i walk 15000 steps a day.

i use a salad plate as my dinner plate.

i keep mandrtan oranges in the fridge. when the sweet tooth comes on i grab one or two tablespoons of the fruit.

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Pantry Reset Whoops!

Friday, December 28, 2012

I completely forgot about how often we end up going out to eat with various friends/family/functions in December, so that didn't go as I'd planned. But I did make the Shepherd's Pie (using the ground lamb...evil evil evil) and the 3-bean chili (with venison sausage), as well as 2 boxes each of hamburger helper, chicken helper, and mac'n'cheese, 1 pizza and the pizza rolls.

But we're almost out of Mountain Dew (the hubby's biggest challenge) and I have our freezer restocked with meat, most of it individually packaged for portion control and faster thawing. We're still working on eating up the leftovers from the Christmas Eve dinner I made, 2 roast chickens with stuffing, homemade mashed potatoes, from-scratch gravy, and homemade pumpkin and pecan pies (Christmas Dinner was out with hubby's family, so no leftovers). I'm thinking of cooking the 2 leftover pizzas and cutting them up into small squares as part of the munchies for our New Year's Eve party.

Being sick hasn't helped much - the 3 of us have alternated being sick all month, with me and the little one both down for Christmas, and the hubby spiking a fever the day after. The little one seems all better, I'm on the mend, and hopefully hubby's meds will start helping him soon. Me being sick means grabbing take-out instead of cooking...

Oh well, I can still use things up slowly. My plan is for Mon-Fri to be fairly strick meat-veggies-fruit-dairy, with a bit of cheating with the pastas & pizzas over the weekends. I do have an acorn squash and 3 sweet potatoes that I need to figure out what to do with as well (one of my best friends, that is over a LOT with her daughter is deathly allergic to cinnamon, and also allergic to pecans and maple, so some of the "easy" ideas are off limits)

  
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KTNEWJOURNEY 12/31/2012 9:45AM

    That is a hard thing to do: getting the "bad" things out of the house. I like to make sweet potato chips by slicing the sweet potato super thin and then baking them with a little bit of salt! You can also do the acorn squash with butter and more savory seasonings like cumin.

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KOFFEENUT 12/28/2012 1:49PM

    Sounds like you have a plan for getting the new year started on the right foot - and having everyone in the family healthy again will certainly help! Glad you were all able to kick the "bugs" that attacked your family over the holiday. Best of luck as you tackle the challenges of 2013!

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Pantry/Freezer Challenge

Monday, December 03, 2012

In an attempt to prepare and reset for the coming year, without being wasteful, I'm trying to use up a few things that are lurking in my pantry and freezer. But I don't want to just go all-out and splurge on bad, junky meals for several days either. I want to work them into a plan that isn't so terrible.

The "culprits" are:

2-3 frozen pizzas, in varieties that I like but the hubby doesn't
1 large bag of Pizza Rolls
6 boxes Hamburger Helper (4 Lasagna, 2 Cheeseburger Mac)
2 boxes Chicken Helper (Parmesan Crusted)
4 boxes store-brand mac'n'cheese
1 large container couscous
1 can Chef Boyardee Ravioli

The slightly less-guilty are:

2 boxes HH Stroganoff, Whole Wheat
2 boxes CH Lemon Herb Chicken, Whole Wheat
1 box Dreamfields rotini
2 boxes whole wheat spaghetti noodles
1 box Rice-a-Roni brown rice

Other things to use up, due to age and a desire to defrost the deep freeze:

grass-fed ground beef, 1-lb pkg (I'm thinking spaghetti)
ground lamb, 3 1-lb pkgs (I'm thinking a 3-bean chili and homemade meatballs for later)
venison sausage, 1-lb pkg (I'm thinking shepherd's pie)
veal stew meat
cubed venison
bay scallops, mussels, & smoked turkey sausage (thinking low-country boil)
sirloin steaks (marinade & grill)

ground turkey, 6lbs (all the must-go HH)
b/s chicken breast, about 5.5 lbs (4 lbs for CH, 1.5 lbs unclaimed)

  
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AMBROSIAHINO 12/4/2012 8:41AM

    My hubby wants to go low-carb after New Year's and I'm supposed to be following a reduced-carb diet anyway because of medical issues. I need to get back to where all my carbs come from fruit and veggies, with breads being a rare treat.

Some plans got swapped already - venison sausage is thawing in the fridge, to get made into chili. The shepherd's pie will be getting made with ground lamb, which I think is hilariously evil. From-scratch potatoes for that, I have plenty.

Frozen pizzas will be for me and the little guy on Sundays, while Daddy is out playing golf. Pizza Rolls will be their go-to on my nights out this month.

I did manage to cram everything from the deep freezer into 2 coolers yesterday and defrost & clean that. Now all that chicken is individually bagged in sandwich baggies and frozen, and the ground turkey is split into 1-lb packages, so portioning will be easier and thawing faster later. Also made about 2lbs of meatloaf and froze it, pre-cooked. That's one of my goals, is to have healthy pre-assembled meals waiting in the freezer for our new go-tos on busy days (that's why I'm starting the prep work NOW for next month, LOL)

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22JAMIE 12/3/2012 11:58AM

    your culprits are like my go to's. lol I'm doing the same thing. Getting rid of what i have slowly and not buying any new "junk"

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MRS.NG.06 12/3/2012 10:35AM

    Sounds like you got some great meal plans ready to be cooked : ) as long as you space out the "culprits" and counteract them with some sort of exercise and water, you'll be good. I think the worst thing about those types of meals is the sodium levels..that'll bloat ya up like a whale big time! Baby steps mama! : )

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111BUTTERFLY111 12/3/2012 10:29AM

    And if you decide you want to donate it to a local food bank, wouldn't they be pleased!? Keep up the GREAT work!

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CAGMUAHFO2 12/3/2012 10:27AM

    Good idea of using it over time and not all at one time. I wish you the best of luck!! emoticon

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Failing

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

At least that's how it feels. I am all the way back up to 220, after being down to 195 just back in August. The first 15 pounds were at least a happy gain, but I've gained 10 more since my D&C last month. It doesn't matter what I eat or how I try to exercise, just looking at food seems to cause weight gain. I know its hormones and the fact that mine are unbelievably screwed up (thank you genetics) but its depressing.

I have 2 options right now - just deal with getting fatter every day so we can start TTC once I have the doctor's ok OR go back on birth control pills and give up on having another child in the near future. I'm stuck in maternity pants right now (which is doing some very bad things to my head) because my friend (from the July post) won't give me my fat pants back.

I don't know what to do. I don't know if I'm ready to try again so soon after our recent loss, but the idea of actively preventing another baby turns my stomach...but I can't deal with the weight-gain either! I worked so hard and now its all been for nothing.

  
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22JAMIE 11/28/2012 12:37PM

    i have no idea how it feels to be in your position but i think i would want to wait a while to ttc . I wouldn't think of it as preventing a new pregnancy but more like doing what i needed to do to get ready for the next pregnancy. taking the time to loose some weight will make you healthier and happier over all and will work our better for you in the end i would think. and don't look at it like all your progress was for nothing. because you did so well before it means the work outs will be easier this time around. Don't give up things will work out!!!

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AMBROSIAHINO 11/28/2012 8:13AM

    SHERRYGAYL - my only option for hormonal control is birth control. It regulates the parts of me that don't work properly and helps with weight loss and preserving my remaining fertility. I lost this pregnancy due to coming down with the flu...just days after the shot became available (since the shot takes 2 weeks to protect you, even if I'd gotten it that fast, it wouldn't have helped).

I was able to dig out a pair of my "fat pants" from earlier this year. Not being in maternity pants helps my frame of mind alot. A therapist isn't really an option right now - but I'm trying to spend more time with my friends and not much time alone. I'm not ready for alone time yet.

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SHERRYGAYL 11/27/2012 6:45PM

    Oh, sweetie, you have a lot of things going on that are out of your control! I highly advise you to talk this over with your doctor to see what your options are for hormonal control, weight loss, and fertility; as well as with a therapist to help you sort all this out! Grief is grief, regardless what anyone else's opinion on your "right" to grieve may be. Losing a pregnancy is a very difficult time and you need to find out what happened to cause the problem to see if this can be prevented in the future! You also would benefit from forgiving yourself for the weight gain and just doing the best you can to get back on track. But this is really too much for anyone to handle alone. Please seek out a good therapist! Grieving and hormonal is not a good combination for rational thought!

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Need a new plan (edited)

Monday, November 26, 2012

I was doing VERY well early this year, eating whole fruits and veggies, grilled lean meats, and avoiding most bread and processed carbs. Then I got pregnant and started eating "how I wanted" instead of how I should have.

Now, I'm hitting the holidays, and have gained back over 20lbs of what I lost earlier this year. I lost the baby, I'm not pregnant anymore, there is NO excuse for me to keep up with the junky eating and gaining weight! But I can't stop.

I honestly think that I need to go back on my birth control pills to straighten my hormones back out - but we were wanting to start trying for another little one again soon, which makes the meds pointless. I don't WANT to get pregnant again until I'm back under 200lbs but I don't want to prevent it either. I'm such an emotional & hormonal mess that its no wonder that I keep reaching for cookies and doughnuts and Halloween candy (that we still have some in the house is both good and bad...I haven't eaten it all but I COULD)

I'm trying to get my tracking back in place, and sticking to an appropriate calorie range again, but then I turn around and I'm ravenous, which screws that up.

Partially, I've lost my motivation. I had a HUGE goal/deadline back over the summer (trip to Hawaii with hubby for anniversary and starting TTC) that I met and surpassed - we don't have any big plans coming up, my work schedule changed causing most of my routines to fall apart, and I'm depressed. I know I'm depressed, but my friends and family aren't there for me (a few friends are, but I can't lean on them all the time) and my hubby is in over his head. I keep trying to keep a happy face for my 2 year old, and that seems to be fooling Daddy too. Depressed means binge eating and drinking (at least I'm saving the alcohol until after the little guy is in bed - he doesn't need to see his mommy like this).

I know I'm rambling, my head is going in so many directions on this, hopefully I can get some form of focus back again soon. Deciding what to focus ON is becoming the hard part

  
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22JAMIE 11/28/2012 12:43PM

    i'm hungry all the time!! even when i have a huge meal i'm only satisfied for about 15 max. that's just how i have always been and there's nothing i can do to stop it. so i understand what your saying. plus i tottaly get the depression thing. i'm back up to 220 as well, we can work together to get our number down if you want. :)

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AMBROSIAHINO 11/26/2012 9:44AM

    MRS.NG.06 - with my son, it took about 14 months of TTC. The most recent pregnancy, it was my first cycle off the birth control. Both times, was on Clomid, because without that, I don't ovulate. Getting to the weight I want, even if I were to postpone having more children until I get there, would realistically take several years. My doctors aren't very helpful at the moment, the OB/GYN that I had and LOVED with my son moved away, and I don't like the new one.

MCSPRYGADA - if talking about things would help me, I would. I've been trying that, and all its doing is making my friends and husband uncomfortable. I don't have money for a therapist and the last one I saw pissed me off beyond belief (apparently a man staying home with his sick wife that is in too much pain to get out of bed without help, is "enabling" her...that isn't recent, but its burned into my mind from when it did happen)

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MRS.NG.06 11/26/2012 8:53AM

    Not sure how hard it was for you to get preggers but 1 month after I stopped by my BC pills, I was pregnant. It might help to at least get you on cycle with the pills and the best thing is you can stop whenever you want...would hate for you to be pregnant when you arent ready with your weight...its crucial for you to be healthy and where you want to be ahead of time. I hear you on the depression, you aren't alone! xoxo *HUGS* the girls on the Fall mom's board are getting more active if you want to chime in with being accountable for, it may help have that support that we all need...xoxoox

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MCSPRYGADA 11/26/2012 8:19AM

    I'm an emotional eater also. Try and pause before you're grabbing food to focus on what it is you really want or need. Usually with me it's when I'm tired, I've found that if I give myself just a 20 minute catnap I wake up refreshed and have no desire to eat. Another trick I do is go for a walk around my block. If I get home and still want to eat I do, seldom happens.

Sorry about your loss, don't write off speaking to a therapist or trusted friend about it. emoticon

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