Tuesday, November 06, 2012
I had my 6-month check-up with my regular doctor yesterday, after not seeing him since my appointment back in May. He said I'm doing great and look much better that I did (although the scale is back to the same place now as it was then) and to keep doing what I'm doing.
Now just to get back into my size 14 pants...right now, all I care wear comfortably is maternity pants, and that's not putting me in a good place emotionally or mentally. Two more days until I see the OB/GYN for my post-op appointment. Then I can decide where to go from there.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
I went to my 12-week prenatal check-up yesterday, thinking everything was going great, only to find out that I lost my little one when I had the flu a few weeks ago. Totally blindsided and completely devastated. I'm having surgery on Thursday.
Thursday, August 23, 2012
But for the happiest of reasons - I'm pregnant! As of this morning, I'm only sitting at about 4.5lbs over my pre-vacation weight.
The house is caught up to the same point it was pre-vacation. Luckily we plan on co-sleeping for the first year, so we have about a year-and-a-half before we have to start trying to "make room" for more than diaper storage and clothes. Now to get super serious on straightening the finances out, so we can save that next tax return to cover my maternity leave!
New roof gets put on the house next week, along with some sheetrock repairs in the garage and a new attic access (complete with drop-down ladder, no we didn't have that...) getting installed. So, that gives hubby the month of September to reinsulate the attic and put down some plywood, so we can get the stuff out of the storage unit and back at home. Besides, I'll need those maternity clothes back! I should have at least a pair of jeans and pair of black pants that will work over the winter, plus all the tops.
Thursday, August 02, 2012
As of this morning, I'm down a total of 37.6lbs. WOW, that's almost 9lbs from what I posted a month ago!!! Down to 195.0 from 232.6!
Right now, the house is still looking pretty good. I've been maintaining about the same level we got to for that July 4th party, which is good considering we've been gone almost every weekend the past month.
Finances are up, but we're getting ready to do a whole new roof on our house, and that's not cheap, even with the insurance helping. I have a goal for the end of the year, and right now it looks to be acheivable, but we'll see. Hoping to be down to just car & mortgage after tax return season (next spring).
Its official, we are finally TTC our second child. I took my first round of Clomid this week, and the "magic days" are while hubby and I will be on our anniversary trip in Hawaii (our son has Grandma out to visit and stay with him for 2 weeks). Hopefully, my post next month will be with some awesome news!
Friday, July 27, 2012
I just realized yesterday (kind of slow on this, LOL) quite how deeply my weight affects me. When I am over 200lbs, ESPECIALLY when up around 220+, I am very self-concious, and trying to hide myself. Under 200, I am feeling so much more confident and sexy. I actually had a mental picture of myself showing up at a friend's Halloween party in the buff, and explaining that I was Bottecelli's Venus (was a good laugh...and if my hair were a bit longer, I'd actually consider it, LOL)
I've done a TON of clothes shopping over the past month, getting together clothes that fit decently, both for work and to show myself how much my hard work has paid off. The downside, I've spent over $400! (At least it was out of my personal spending money, that has NOTHING to do with paying bills, and clothing is part of what that is meant for). The upside...I have several pairs of AE jeans in size 14 (down from a tight 18), some Old Navy shorts in both 14 & 16, AE shirt in XL (down from XXL) and some Old Navy shirts in a L (down from XL and XXL). I got a new bra, that is down to 38DDD from a 40DDDD(G). The size 14 jeans are already getting a little loose after only a month, but I have a friend handing off some size 12's that she can't wear anymore (she's a 8/10 now).
Had a conversation with my husband last night, discussing my actual goals. His reaction to "another 70 pounds" was just "good luck" but when I detailed examples of clothing size for my goals, he seemed to think that maybe I wasn't speaking craziness. So, my goal sizes...
Pants, I want to get down to at least a size 8 in American Eagle. Shirts, I'm thinking M/L depending on the store...I would really like to get my chest back down to a 36 C/D. These are things I see as totally attainable and even not too distant in the future. The idea of being able to just walk into ANY store and get a new cute bra is appealing, especially Victoria's Secret...I haven't been able to shop there (due to cup size!) since I was 15/16!
Mostly though, the sizes I just listed are the "me" I still see in my head, the person that gets confused and upset by what the mirror shows. I know that's a bit outta date considering how long its been since I've been that small, but that's still the "me" I remember and want to be again. And I'm getting there, and this time, I have the knowledge and the tools to STAY there, and to appreciate it instead of thinking I'm fat already, so what does it matter if I stuff my face with cookies and milkshakes?
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