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When Fatigue Is More Than Just Fatigue

Friday, December 20, 2013

Three months ago, after nine months of solid, enthusiastic lifestyle changes, I lost my motivation - or so I thought. Suddenly, my workouts, varied as they were, just overwhelmed me. My goals seemed so far into the distant future. Drinking my water, cooking my healthy meals suddenly seemed like so much WORK. I was always exhausted, but wasn't sleeping well. Even my new love, jogging, had lost its lustre. I wasn't depressed and my progress had been slow but steady, so what was the deal?

I had no idea.

I tried everything the experts suggest: I tried a new type of workout in a new place (my sister's awesome gym), I read tons of positive experiences to reactivate that Go-Get-'Em attitude I'd had all year... but to no avail. The truth was, I was tired. Extremely tired. Exhausted.

And I was tired every single day. I persevered though, until early November, when my body, desperate for me to do something, keeled over one day during a study session with a student. No, I didn't say fainted, I said KEELED. As in, fell over. After that embarrassing (and scary!) episode, I was finally diagnosed as iron deficient. It explained everything! The constant, unrelenting fatigue, the sudden lethargy when it came to my former enthusiasm, always feeling cold, my mood swings... and on and on. It made sense; I was diagnosed as anemic when I was 16 or so, and warned again about low iron in my early twenties... but I'd forgotten all about that.

As of this week, I'm back on track, 8 pounds heavier, but happier and ironically, healthier. Now I am eating TONS of dark green veggies, drinking 8oz of green smoothie every day, taking a supplement, and being patient with myself when I need to take frequent breaks.

So if you're tired, give yourself a break - literally sit down and take a break. If you're ALWAYS tired, though, take more than a break. Sit down and evaluate your health. Could it be more than just feeling tired? Regular exercise and a healthy diet should invigorate you and boost your energy, not leave you feeling next to dead. Don't ignore your body like I did. It may end up hurting you in the long run.

Thanks to all of my friends (virtual and IRL) and family for checking on me and encouraging me!!!
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782298 1/7/2014 5:29AM

    Thanks for sharing. Take care. emoticon

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SUEPERWOMAN 12/27/2013 7:31PM

I'm so glad that you're feeling better!!

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YUDEL6024KA 12/21/2013 8:04AM

    I enjoy it, great blog emoticon

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ONLYTEMPORARY 12/20/2013 10:57PM

    Whoa, you need to cook yourself something in some cast iron several times a week. It helps build up your iron naturally as well as the food itself. That's how WIC had me deal with my daughters chronic anemia till she was 7. It worked great.

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CINA-MINI 12/20/2013 2:21PM

    WOW! That had to be terrifying! I am so glad you got checked out. Those symptoms sound SO familiar to me. Thank you for posting this. I am going to get checked out!! You may have saved me from being keeled over! THANK YOU!!!!

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SEAJESS 12/20/2013 12:49PM

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So glad you are committing to your health! Scary story with happy ending. Keep on taking care of yourself.

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BOOKWERME 12/20/2013 12:43PM

    Wise of you to find out what was going on...not normal to have all that stuff but so many would ignore it and keep plugging along. SO glad you are feeling better. emoticon

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CELEST 12/20/2013 11:34AM

    Goodness me how frightening. Thanks for sharing the symptoms, forewarned is definitely forearmed.

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FOR_THE_DUDES 12/20/2013 11:25AM

    Thank you for sharing your insight.

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40lbs Lighter, But That's Not the Best Part

Wednesday, August 07, 2013

I've lost 40lbs as of today.

If you wanna get all technical about it, I've actually lost 41 pounds.

...and I've lost 14 inches.

....and I can do more than double the number of pushups I could do 7 months ago in under a minute.

Even more exciting:

I can't remember the last time I called myself a loser. It used to be my daily mantra.

I'm painting again.

I need to create a new Vision Board/Goals Chart - I've nearly completed everything on the old one.

I need new walking shoes. I've worn out my current ones.

I'm pretty sure I could walk into a Krispy Kremes (the bane of my existence) and walk back out w/out indulging in anything. But I wouldn't even bother to go in to begin with. They don't serve anything I'd put into my body now.

I am proud of myself. Everyday.

Yeah - I'm totally enjoying this getting-healthy thing.

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BOOKWERME 8/12/2013 8:26PM

    I am so proud of you!!!!!! NO emoticon good enough to express the delight of success!

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CELEST 8/12/2013 3:55PM

    My word thats a LOT to be happy about. You look amazing, you really do.

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SUEPERWOMAN 8/10/2013 10:18AM

You're a beautiful woman with so much to be proud of. It sounds like the weight loss is really opening you up to finding what gives you joy. That is great!

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GYPSYROVER 8/9/2013 12:10AM

    emoticon You look fantastic, and sound so positive! All your hard work & success brings a new confidence with it! emoticon emoticon


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EDDYMEESE 8/7/2013 10:03PM

    Looking great!!! Nice job!!!

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LILLEAN 8/7/2013 9:18PM

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TIGER_LILY_613 8/7/2013 9:16PM

    Wonderful !
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TRYINGTOLOSE64 8/7/2013 9:07PM

    You go girl!! Congrats!!

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MIDNIGHTER1 8/7/2013 8:41PM

    You have done a fantastic job. New goals and plans because you conquered the old ones. Wow! You are a goal achiever .Be proud because you are looking good. emoticon emoticon

Damn Krispy Kremes ,they are worse than Twinkies. lol.

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    Congratulations on your lose! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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When You Lose Inches, Buy New Underwear

Thursday, June 20, 2013

A few days ago, I updated my status with the statement "My clothes have been falling off me lately..." Well, gee, I didn't mean LITERALLY.

Oh, if I only knew.

So today while walking around the grocery store with a friend, we were casually chatting about our volunteer work when suddenly - my underwear started to slide down my hips. I actually hadn't noticed that it had slipped from my waist and settled around my hips, I guess because we'd been running around all morning. But walking slowly in a store? Different story!

By the time I realized what was happening, it was almost too late. I managed to catch them (whew!) by casually (and weirdly) resting a hand kinda low on my hip and leaning to one side. If you're laughing by now, it's okay. I was laughing hysterically while my friend kept asking, "What? What is it? What's so funny? Why are you leaning like that?"

We eventually made it out of the store, me leaning and laughing the whole time. In the car, I confessed that I was actually happy about what my sliding-off-my-body panties meant. Smaller waist, right? Cool!

But now I need to buy some underwear.

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ALAINEBUG 6/22/2013 10:49AM

    One of the best NSV I have seen! You have a beautiful spirit!

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CLAUDEM1 6/21/2013 4:39PM

    Yay!! May the inches continue to "fall away."


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CINA-MINI 6/20/2013 10:50PM


I was totally laughing! Great job on the loss!

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ONLYTEMPORARY 6/20/2013 6:03PM

    That is funny! Try losing your half slip!

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LADYBIRD82 6/20/2013 9:28AM

    I love to buy new under ware, my drawers are so full with new bras and panties you can hardly close them. A new addiction. Makes me feel sexy and I haven't felt that way in a long time. Best of luck on your journey. emoticon

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SCARLETCURLZ 6/20/2013 8:16AM

    emoticon Funny! But congrats!

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ALICIA214 6/20/2013 12:21AM


Always a good reason to buy new undies. Maybe you should invest in a pair of suspenders so the slide doesn't happen again. Now that picture has me laughing..

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POINTYSIDEUP 6/20/2013 12:11AM

    ha ha ha! Awesome!

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BOOKWERME 6/20/2013 12:09AM

    I've had half slips fall off in service..once at someone's door..just puddled (fabric) at my feet and we were laughing so hard we could hardly breathe (Thankfully, no one home that day). I am happy for your inch loss success!

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GYPSYROVER 6/20/2013 12:03AM

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Weird Things That Make Me Feel Happy Now

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

6 months ago, if you had asked me what made me happy, sadly, I would've REALLY had to think about it. Other than my family and volunteer work, I probably wouldn't have had much to say. I might've MIGHT have admitted that food was all that truly made me feel good.
A jar full of jellybeans? Total bliss.
A box (yes, a box) of Krispy Kreme doughnuts? True joy.
Well not anymore!

Here are some things that make me instantly happy now...

Wearing a sweaty shirt for awhile after my workout.
Feeling a muscle buuuurn during Pilates.
Being out of breath during a Zumba routine.
Feeling antsy when stuck sitting at my desk.
Walking - anywhere! Everywhere!
Parking reeeeally far away from a store entrance, and getting weird looks when I get into my not-pristine-or-new Volvo.
Filling a shopping cart with fresh produce, oatmeal, whole wheat breads, and a new, exotic food I've never tried.
Perusing a Farmer's Market with the intention of eating what I buy right away.
Waking up hungry... for something healthy.
Dying of thirst - but only for water.
Getting super excited when someone says, "Hey, are you doing something different?"
...and it turns out, losing 30lbs pounds makes me feel pretty happy too.

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BOOKWERME 6/25/2013 4:42PM

    Ditto Celeste'!!! You are just beautiful! emoticon

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CELEST 6/25/2013 3:59PM

    What a great blog and what a WONDERFUL SMILE.

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ROBINJOY61 5/28/2013 5:21PM

    What an Awesome Blog! I would have to say that the things that used to make you happy, unfortunately, still make me happy, sometimes. But that kind of happiness just doesn't last. The new things that make you happy are starting to make me happy. Although, when I come home from the Y and my husband gives me a hug and says "gross, you're all sweaty!' DOESN'T MAKE ME HAPPY. Inwardly, though, I wear my sweat like a badge of honor. I used to go to the Y and go through the motions, but never work up a sweat. I hated getting sweaty. Then I took a class there, ( Stride and Strength) and learned that I am capable of So much more than I had been doing!
I am thrilled for you that you have lost 30 pounds! I look forward to the day when I can say that. I'm really just starting out.

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REYVNCFOX 5/28/2013 4:18PM

    Well done - it is amazing what allowing a little bit of happiness in allows to happen.

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KBEHNKE81 5/28/2013 2:28PM

    Some of my favorite things, too! I'm glad you found happiness in these healthy things. You look pretty happy (and pretty pretty!) in your photo. Your smile is sunshine! Have a great day!!!

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What to Do When SP Goes Offline for a Few Hours

Friday, May 17, 2013

As we all know, our beloved friend, SparkPeople, was offline for a few hours last night due to technical difficulties. Now that we're all back online, I thought it prudent to prepare for the next unexpected night without SP.

What to Do When SparkPeople Is Offline
1. Freak out. Seriously.
2. Sit in hungry fear, occasionally whispering, "What can I eat?"
3. Make your own Spark wheel. This will take up valuable time while serving as a distraction from the absence of the real wheel.
4. Imagine all of the witty things you were going to post on the message boards.
5. Keep working out until SP is back online - sort of a fitness "rain dance."

Seriously though, I was surprised at how well I coped without SP last night. 5 months ago, I would've freaked out, wondering what to eat, trying to remember my water intake... but last night, I was okay. I estimated my dinner calories (rotisserie chicken w/out skin, a huge salad, and some fruit salad) successfully because I know what 3oz of chicken looks like now. Thanks to SP's suggestions, I'm now an AM workout chick, so that was already done. Although I did miss my SparkCoach Woohoo! after my day was done, I went to bed feeling good.

Not to say that I don't NEED SP, though. I do. Desperately some days. But it's also nice to know that SparkPeople is training me to be just fine when I'm on my own.

Huge thanks to those who worked super hard to get the site back online - Thank You, Thank You!

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ONLYTEMPORARY 5/17/2013 10:26PM

    I kept checking in and finally got through to do my stuff at 11:13 last night. Whew!

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BOOKWERME 5/17/2013 3:08PM

    I thought it interesting the SP posted about the prolems on FaceBook..which is where I found out SP wasn't working at that moment.

I never panic about stuff like this..SP won't leave you just practice all the good things you have already learned and be patient. They will be right back.

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  Freaked me out too....LOL

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KELLI9001 5/17/2013 12:22PM

    Wow...I didn't know they had techy problems. Glad I missed it but happy you coped well and are ready for the next time. Great way to plan ahead!

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JANUT57 5/17/2013 11:27AM

  emoticon well said!

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