For once i dont have a billion things planned this week. Scott got upset last week that i had something planned literally everyday the past few weeks. i understand where he is coming from, but its hard for me to not have plans, between my horse, second job and friends there is always something going on. This week though i told him that Monday and Thursday nights i would make no plans and not go see Honey those nights so he can actually see me. when he worked nights i needed something to do at night so i wasn't just sitting at home by myself so now that he's on days its hard to cut back on making plans.
This is my goals this week-
Max of 2 sodas this week
Max of 1 Starbucks coffee
Min of 3 gym workouts
No fast food meals
Max of 2 glasses of wine
all of these goals are very attainable and very close to how my week was this past week. I have my company christmas party on Wednesday night and i'm nervous about what food and drink options i will have. I will be skipping the alcohol and will drink water to help prevent any unwanted calories.
I have also decided i am not drinking any alcohol until Daccia's wedding, other than wine which i'm also cutting back on.
My workpants are getting looser, i'm still not stepping on the scale until I am down a pants size. My size 33 waist jeans are too big but the 31's are too small so i've still got a little work to do.
having a plan definitely makes me feel more confident in my ability to eat healthy this week and make progress towards my weight loss goals
I found these pins the other day and thought i would share. if you are on pinterest follow me even if you just follow my fitness board called "sexy & i know it" just let me know so i can follow you back :)
this one is what inspired my goals for this week :)
This blog is completely unrelated to health or weight loss. its just simply to inform you of a wonderful event that happened in my life recently :)
Scott and I decided it was time to take the next step in our relationship. We have been together almost four years and have now owned our house for 4 months. So we decided it was time for a puppy and the search was on.
We went to visit a puppy he found online at a rescue and we decided we just had to have him. I was incredibly excited as i've wanted a dog since mine passed away 5 years ago.
We got there and looked at the puppy and his 3 brothers and this is what we came home with......
Yes! We got two of them :) that is our babies Levi and Maverick. We have had them a couple of weeks now and though they are still puppies and are naughty at times, generally they are great and we couldn't be happier. In the picture Scott is holding Levi and i am holding Maverick.
they are adorable and inseparable. I take them on walks a lot so the nice thing is i'm getting more exercise trying to tire out these two. The rescue was insure what mix they are but were thinking they were a lab/boarder collie mix. But after taking them to the vet and hearing them bark we really think they are a lab/hound mix. The boys are believed to be 4 or 5 months old and full of energy
More adorable pictures........
The following pic is from the rescue of our two puppies and their brothers :)
In 112 days my good friend Daccia will walk down the isle and marry her best friend Ian. I'm so very excited for her, though i'm not in the wedding i'm just happy to be there for her big day. i'm so looking forward to fun with my friends and the memmories that night will create.
So i'm using her big day as a marker for a goal. By her wedding I need to be under 190 lbs. Now i haven't stepped on the scale since my doctors appointment, but i'm making progress no matter what the scale says. i've already exceeded my exercise goal for the week and i still have 2 workouts planned on top of my normal activities.
As her big day approaches, i have to remember I have 112 days to dedicate to my goal. Thats a big number but it shrinks fast. I just have to take it day by day and keep myself accountable.
Have a great weekend Spark Friends! Make the best of it :)
To my dearest spark friends. i'm sorry i have been MIA especially the last month. I can't even expain why and you all know i'm not a fan of excuses, so plain and simple I did not make spark a priority of any kind. I did track my workouts which was great, but i'm sure i forgot a few and I will try to be there more for all of you from now on.
I went to the doctor about my issues (not sleeping, no weight loss after working out a lot, moodyness etc) and he was nice enough to run tests but apparently there is nothing wrong with me. Which is great news! he did however change me to a new birth control pill which i will start this upcoming sunday. He also said i need to take a benedryl every night an hour before bed to help me sleep. The benedryl thing is totally working! i can sleep and only wake up maybe once all night, i really forgot how wonderful it is to sleep for more than4 hours straight. The doctor did say that if i continue to feel depressed that he has no problem prescribing my anti depressants but i really would like to avoid this and hope that adding more exercise will help because i'm not a big fan of medicating.
I went off my birthcontrol for about 6+ weeks now and i thought i would feel better off it. Many of my friends have found that they just feel better not being on it but i am having the reverse. I feel worse, i threw up twice yesterday because of how bad my cramps hurt. I really hope going on this low hormone pill will help me feel like myself again. The doctor also said there has been almost no cases of women gaining weight on this pill because of the consistancy it gives people in their hormone levels. So fingers crossed.
Are any of you sparkies big planners like me? its driving me crazy to not have a 2014 calendar yet because i want to put goals etc on there. I think my fitness goal for 2014 will be 12,000 fitness minutes. I know that doesn't sound too agressive but it will force me to be better about tracking. Themore time i spend on spark the more motivated i feel to be halthy and we all want that.
Its officially 17 weeks and 3 days until my friend's wedding so my goal is to be 185lbs or less by then. I have to lose over a pound a week but under 2 so i think that is completely do-able.
I have some news to share sometime next week so please stay tuned for that! its great news and I also think it will help me achieve my fitness goals and just feel better.
I hope that you can all forgive me for my recent lack of support. I really do love and appreciate all of you and I want to prove that i can actually be a good friend who is supportive and motivating.
So i thought about it today... i gained 57 pounds in under 7 months. In order for that to be true, that means i over ate by 950/day for that entire 7 months.... yeah i dont think so! actually i know better than that. There has to be another explanation. I do have to say i deserved it after hardly eating 800 cal/day for months in order to lose the pounds just to gain back almost twice what i lost....
this also made me realize that weight loss and gain isn't as simple as calories in, calories out and BMR. If it was i could lose weight incredibly easily but the body doesn't work quite like one would think. Not to mention weight loss is so much more than physical its mental and that part of me has never seemed to come to terms with health or fitness in general.
I was listening to a SparkPeople Podcast as I was doing things around the house tonight and one of the guests said this "there are no "good foods" or "bad foods" " there are just calories and you want to make those calories count by eating the most nutritious foods. And the problem with labeling your food as good or bad is the shame and guilt you feel when you eat something bad. I was beating myself up before kickboxing tonight about how i ate so bad today even though i was within my calorie range. And i certainly could have used my calories more wisely and chosen better foods but i tracked every bite today and still wasn't over in my calories.. i should be happy and excited about that. But instead i was upset, felt guilty and killed my awesome mood i had going because i chose Taco Bell over an apple for dinner. I can't keep doing this to myself... i really cant.
The reason for my wonderful mood was 2 things: i made a motivation board tonight that i put up in my fitness room :) it needs more work and decorating but its started and that makes me feel accomplished. number two: my awesome bf Scott called me on his lunch break to tell me he is moving all our workout equipment to the new house tomorrow!!!! finally i can lift weights at home
Today I read a blog about being a "closet eater" which i had never heard the term but that is so me! I hide it when i eat McDonalds breakfasts (which has been under 3 times a month now) or if i drink a soda I hide the bottle in the garage until garbage day so Scott doesn't see it... REALLY?? i'm hiding empty cans and old garbage?!?! yupp total closet eater, or like at work when i take a treat fromt he break room I wont eat it at my desk by my coworkers, I always eat it in the breakroom where they cant see me... why am i so ashamed and hiding?? because i'm scared everyone will judge me for eating a brownie when i say i'm trying to lose weight! that is exactly it. so i'm done. done worrying about people judging my eating habits just because i'm trying to lose weight. I'm also done comparing myself to the other girls in my kickboxing class..... the don't have 67 pounds to lose so they're bodies have a better range of motion plus most of them have been kickboxing for months or years and here i am in week 4.
Today was all about me realizing that this is MY journey and although i share it with my spark friends and those around me, its still My journey. its no one else's business to judge what i am doing, and what other people are doing doesn't have anything to do with my journey. I'm just glad to have love and support but i need to be kinder to myself and stop worrying about people judging me.
i'm letting go of the bad thoughts and regrets and i'm moving on.