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Sunday, October 12, 2008

So when I think I'm going to do something great for myself I tend to start out well, but eventually I panic or find some excuse to mess up my groove. I haven't gained all my weight back, but it's close enough to feel like I have to start over. I guess I became overwhelmed. I just don't know if I know how to finish anything, let alone anything that is GOOD for me. It's annoying and frustrating and makes me want to shake the stupidity out of myself! I know being healthy is good for me, but the bumps on the road to good health tend to look like mountains to me. the best way to express how I feel. I know I need to do this, but when I dive into something I tend to panic and pull myself right back out and retreat back into my comfort zone.

It's effecting me, my family and especially my relationship with my boyfriend. He was healthy and happy when I met him. Now we both veg, eat crap and we're both depressed. It has nothing to do with the relationship, but we've found comfort in our little rut and it's hard to get out of. I know it's from lack of exercise and eating right, but I know it'll all get better if I just freakin try!

I know I can, but I have to take it one step at a time.

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*AMBER512 10/20/2008 3:44AM

    I certainly know what you mean about wanting to remain in your comfort zone! I dislike leaving my own. =P

It's so easy to feel overwhelmed by it all. That's why I've had to take it one day at a time. My weight goes up, my weight goes down, but as long as I feel good about myself, that's all that matters!

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Meditation - what a great thing!

Saturday, September 06, 2008

I finally got to meditate for the first time. I had bought a cd called " The Healing Waterfall" by Max Highstein a few months ago, but never "found the time" to listen to it. My main problem is finding a quiet place to do it, but since it was nice outside I thought I'd try outside in our backyard.

How wonderful it was! The meditation only lasted about 20 minutes, but it was awesome to listen to a good easy meditation. The female voice was clear, soothing, and didn't sound annoying like the other guided meditations I've found.

I was refreshed and now I know I need to do it everyday, at least until it gets too cold outside. Then I'll have a problem finding a nice place to meditate. emoticon

Guess I'm just going to keep harassing my boyfriend to finish the bedroom so I have an official place to meditate!

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KIRI427 9/13/2008 2:16AM

    A- best get his rear in gear... emoticon

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August 31st, 2008 - Day 1

Sunday, August 31, 2008

My boyfriend and I had a long discussion about our health last night. I had been trying to get motivated to exercise. However, I stumbled on an old friend's facebook note and she had lost over 100lbs and looked amazing. She told me she joined SparkPeople and after looking at the site - I decided to give it a try.

So far - is pretty nice. It's flexible and lets me make my own choices - unlike other websites I've found.

My boyfriend, Ang, and I went jogging along our backyard trail. He kept ahead, but kept encouraging me - I kept cursing and hating it. I know my thoughts will change on the matter, but running has NEVER been my favorite thing to do when it came to exercise. Though, it's supposed to be one of the best things.

Though - I could tell my body liked working out - it's just going to take some time for the rest of me to get used to it.

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JEANELLEN59 9/1/2008 9:25AM


Glad you are here!

Running has not been a favorite activity of mine either. But I have also been trying it out. I am 58 so I have been trying it out slowly.

There are a couple of teams on Spark you might like to try:
Rookie Running Group is one. One one of their threads is the Couch to 5K training program - gets one from the couch to running 3.1 miles.

Good luck on your goals.

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MISSCARRIEANN 9/1/2008 12:07AM

    Tomorrow will be my official day 1! "I kept cursing and hating it."- I know how you feel about that! When I get on an eliptical or treadmill, the first 10 minutes, all that is going through my head is 'I want to get off, I want to get off, I want to get off', but eventually I get used to it. Hang in there!

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BJUMPINGFORJOY 8/31/2008 11:17PM

    Just remember the little red engine that said I think I can, I think I can and then said I knew I could. One day you will say I knew I could.

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REBA1058 8/31/2008 9:24PM

    Hang in there ... you'll get used to it!

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