Starting Over

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

I have been back at it again for about 4 weeks. I purchased The Spark and have been reading a little every day or so to keep me motivated. I have lost about 4 pounds. So a pound a week. I don't care if it takes me forever to get back to a healthy weight i just want to get there at some point. So far getting my Spark back has been pretty easy. I am remembering the way i'm suppose to do things from when i was on it before. The only thing i'm having a struggle with is exercise. Not that i don't want to but being able to do it. Every time i have worked out i have hurt my knee and can't work out for several days. I guess i'm going to have to where a knee brace to work out. I'm not sure if the knee problems are from the extra pounds, age, or that i'm out of shape or all of it. But i'm going to keep going. Not being able to exercise like i want is making the pounds come off slower so it's a little discouraging at times. I just keep telling myself. Don't give up! Don't give up! Keep going! Keep eating right! Keep moving!

  

Getting burned out

Sunday, April 13, 2008

I can feel myself getting burned out on focusing so much on my weight. I am starting to wonder how I will ever stay at my goal weight as hard as I am working now to get it all off. I feel like if I get a little bet of focus on something else in my life I get off track. I don't want to gain it all back when I reach my goal.

Speaking of goals. Even though know I am getting closer to my goal of 150 it feels like it keeps getting farther and farther away instead of closer. So I decided to change my goal to 170. It feels less intimidating right now. I still want to reach 150 but I don't want to focus on that right now. I want to focus on getting to 170 by july.

I am still eating in front of the tv. I just can't cut that habit. I am going to start logging my food again today. I was loosing faster when I was logging.

So here I go again.... Picking my self up and dusting the dirt off of myself. I am going to get motivated again. As much or as more as I was in August of last year when I started SP. I need to give myself a pep talk every morning and add motivational things to my motivation board like I did at the start.

  

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NOBLE28 4/14/2008 10:32AM

Hang in there girl, you have come to far ...this too shall pass. Think one pound at a time. Reach for the moon and hold on to a star. The moon is 170 lbs. and a star is 172. The moon will drop a star and it will be 171...another star will be 170. Just stand your ground and keep catching those stars Report Inappropriate Comment

NEVA2LATE 4/13/2008 8:20PM

Amber, you're doing fantastic! ... You just keep plugging along, and try not to focus too much on long term ... keep doing what you're doing and it will soon become second nature ... I keep waiting for that day to happen ... lol Don't give up, and don't let Sandy give up either :) Report Inappropriate Comment

DTRMNEDME 4/13/2008 7:29PM

I agree 100 percent. I have lost my spark and If I don't get it back soon I am not going to even try and continue much longer.. If I can't get anywhere I have to realize it and move on and maybe put my time into spring cleaning. I intend to try and finish the mothers day challenge though. I love you all but I am loosing it and faster all the time.. I am so proud of those of you working so hard and losing weight. you deserve a lot of credit. hugs, Sandy Report Inappropriate Comment

SWEETBAMA 4/13/2008 7:06PM

Do you give yourself a cheat meal or day every now and then or some time to be free from all this diet/exercise/get healthy "mumbo jumbo"? I think setting a smaller goal for now is a wonderful way to keep moving forward without getting overwhelmed with numbers. You can always change it as you go. I'm a firm believer in babysteps!! Hang in there! Report Inappropriate Comment

MELLIE810 4/13/2008 5:40PM

Amber~ I know what you mean about focusing too much on the weight. I think we all have a tendency to do that & neglect to remember that we are also getting healthy along the way. Making your goal more short term (achievable) seems like a good plan to me. Good Luck! Report Inappropriate Comment

KATHYS_JOURNEY 4/13/2008 2:22PM

Hi Amber, You are doing great! I know it seems not to be, like you are a hamster in a wheel, but you aren't. It's a trick. Step back and take in all you have accomplished and give yourself a big pat on the back. Your weight is bound to fluctuate no matter what stage you are in. Just realize that it doesn't have to be pretty, it just has to be. This is one of my favorite quotes: "Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strength. When you go through hardship and decide not to surrender, that is strength." - Arnold Schwarzenegger This speaks volumes to me because I tend to burn out also. Chin up! You are doing great and you have renewed resolve and commitment. Keep up the good work. Kathy P.S. Sometimes I think I need to change my goal to 10 lbs. and forget about the long term. The thing is, I can do that if I choose. 120+ lbs to lose is really daunting and I get discouraged. I'm with you, though, renew my commitment every day and if I stumble I pick myself up (and get back in the race. That's Life .....la la luh la la) LOL Sorry, I'm rambling again. Just keep going, okay? Report Inappropriate Comment

Half way there

Sunday, March 30, 2008

I made it half way! Yay me!!!

I need to get my butt into gear though. I feel myself slipping back into my old ways. I am still watching my portions, but I have not been doing the basics. Logging my food, drinking lots of water, eating consciously. I need to stop eating in front of the tv. every meal I say I am not going to but I end up right in front of it every time. It's a long time habit. I have ate in front of the tv every since I can remember. Now my almost 3 year old is the same way. He will not eat if he has to sit at the table. So I am making an effort for us to eat as a family at the table every night. I think I should at least be able to do it for one meal a day right?

I want to look good going to the water park, beach, pool, or whatever this summer. I don't want to have to hide my whole body this year. I want to take my kids to the summer places and not be self conscious and just enjoy being there.

  

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GEMINIINLV 4/8/2008 4:08PM

Way to go Amber! I am so proud of you...I eat in front of the tv all the time...i need to change that as well....Again way to go girl! Keep up the good work.... Report Inappropriate Comment

MICHAELA2780 3/30/2008 9:37PM

Congrats on makin it half way... And I understand completely about eating in front of the TV...we do the exact same thing (including my son who is nearly 3, too)! Good luck changing that habit!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Had a good week

Sunday, March 16, 2008

This week was my birthday week. Today was my birthday. I am now officially 27. Wed. I went shopping and went to Lane bryant to get some summer clothes. It has been warm here lately so I need to get some new clothes. I grabbed the 16's and to my surprise they were to BIG. It was a wonderful feeling to get into those 14's. I thought it was just because Lane Bryant is a puls size store that in regular clothes I would still were a 16. So today I dug out the old size 14's there are NOT plus size and the FIT. WOO HOOOOOOOO! What a wonderful gift to myself for my birthday. My mom gave me a Lane Bryant Gift card. I told her next time I will not need Lane Bryant Clothes anymore. One more size and I am out of the store for good. I will miss the Right FIt Jeans though. I will have to find some Jeans somewhere else that I love just as much.

I had the best time shopping this week. I now enjoy shopping again. I hated it before.

I am so excited about all of that! So the fact that I gained .4 pounds this week did not bother me one bit. I know it was the Ice Cream cake My hubby got me. It was made with low fat ice cream but when you eat more than one piece it does not make much difference. lol

  

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EMMASMART 3/22/2008 6:36PM

Welcome to shopping in a regular store. I hope to follow your example one day. Emma Report Inappropriate Comment

LADYINRED09 3/17/2008 1:37PM

Happy Birthday! And congrats on the smaller size! WOOHOO!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

ECLIPSEGIRLY97 3/17/2008 9:41AM

Happy Belated Birthday. Don't you love buying smaller clothes? I think its one of the best feelings. Report Inappropriate Comment

I've got your back

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

I took this to represent how we are supporting each other. There is one other photo in my photo album that I took at the same time.

GO PEEPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  

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ECLIPSEGIRLY97 3/4/2008 8:24PM

LOVE it.... Wanna come to Florida and take pictures of me and the hubby? ;) Report Inappropriate Comment

GEMINIINLV 3/4/2008 8:10PM

AWESOME!!!!!! Like little soldiers Report Inappropriate Comment

LADYROSE 3/4/2008 4:56PM

I love it!! We has the best Peeps E-V-E-R!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

COREYLOVE 3/4/2008 4:43PM

I totally stole your photo and used it for our team icon -- I hope that's okay! If it's not, let me know and I'll change it back! Report Inappropriate Comment

COREYLOVE 3/4/2008 4:42PM

I love it Amber!! Good one! Report Inappropriate Comment

MELLIE810 3/4/2008 2:16PM

Totally cool Amber!! Report Inappropriate Comment