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Getting my head realistic

Monday, July 16, 2012

Six months ago I wrote a blog about getting back at it, getting mad at setbacks, and then I proceeded to do virtually nothing all winter and spring. In fact, I did so much nothing, I gained 10 pounds.

To be fair, I did have some medical issues. I developed an allergy to corn, and I experienced a couple of anaphylactic shocks. Not fun. I also found that I am allergic to my migraine meds. Also not fun.

My elderly mother fell in April, and the princesses and I were able to drop everything and go take care of her for a couple of weeks. Teaching online took a lot more hours than I anticipated, because of the learning curve. I'm hoping this fall will be easier.

However, it wasn't totally wasted time. I did some research and found a fitness program that so far works well for me.

With the advent of the corn allergy, my asthma has been especially bad this hot, dry spring and summer. I live, quite literally, in the middle of miles and miles of corn and bean fields. My allergist has advised me to stay inside with filtered air as much as possible. I went outside once to pull weeds, and within 10 minutes I was wheezing and itching all over. Not gonna do that again!

So I've had to find something that would meet my needs:
1. Be gentle with my spine. The scoliosis and lingering headaches from whiplash last year are making me feel pretty old.
2. Would fit with my schedule. Between teaching at a community college, homeschooling the princesses, keeping up with Purple Princess's therapy schedule, leading a troop of 60 American Heritage Girls, and interpreting for the deaf at church, in addition to household duties - I'm busy! Oh yeah, my husband wants me to spend time with him once in a while, too. I simply cannot spend 2 hours a day walking and working out.
3. Be something I can do inside without a huge monetary investment or huge clunky equipment.

Enter T-Tapp. (

I spent a lot of time (hours, in fact) reading her web site, reading all the testimonials, lurking on the forum, and reading reviews online. I bought a video - the Basic Workout Plus. (BWO+)

I started doing it in June, taking it easy, every other day, until I could do the whole BWO. It's only 15 minutes long, but it's HARD! I thought I was in decent shape. I could easily walk a couple/three miles with a decent pace. However, the BWO focuses on CORE strength. My core is limp linguini, I guess. My back and legs were quivering and half-set jelly after just 5 minutes! I had to take a couple weeks to work up to the 15 minutes. Then we got super busy with 4-H crunch, and I got smacked with a raging case of bronchitis. (4-H was a sweet success, btw. 2 girls, 8 projects, all blue ribbons, 1 Reserve Champion, 4 Champions, 4 projects going to State Fair.)

However, I loved the workout so much, I ordered more of her videos - primarily Total Workout (TWO) and Step Away the Inches (SATI).

So I started doing it again on July 1. I again had to work up to the 15 minutes, but this time it only took me a week to get there. I'm now on week 3 of doing the BWO+ on MWF and SATI on TThS. I rest on Sunday.

My goal for July is to continue doing BWO+ on MWF, and to build up to doing the whole SATI by adding 5 minutes each week. It's a 25 minute, 2 mile walk. I don't know why, but walking in place is much harder for me than walking on our country roads.

Her web site testimonials tout lots of inches lost. So far, I've not lost much, but I can tell I'm getting stronger. My weight hasn't changed, but that may be because I'm building so much muscle. While I am not thrilled with what I weigh, Teresa Tapp is right - it's not the scale, it's the inches that really matter. I don't want to wear a 22-24W any more. I want to wear a 10, or even an 8.

I don't know if I'll start running at this point. I don't know if it's necessary. To be honest, it's probably not a wise goal. My mother has had both her hips replaced. My sister, who is but 11 years older than I, has already had one hip replaced. I think I'd rather be kind and gentle to my hips to make them last as long as possible.

I'll post once in a while about my T-Tapp successes. It will be slow, and not much to trumpet. But it will be solid and reasonable and realistic. I'm famous for going gung-ho, then crashing and burning. I'm really trying to be realistic and reasonable this time. Gung-ho and crash hasn't been working well for me, obviously.

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WARMSPRINGDAY 7/22/2012 8:54AM

    Wow - you are amazing! And I see that you just emoticon
I, too, have found some challenges in the workout scheduling department. I've been using a lot of Leslie Sansone's Walk Away the Pounds DVD's. Unlike you, I find walking outside harder than walking in place; but as my core is strengthening, I'm learning to use my core strength and have been able to increase my time, distance and stamina. Like you, I've been walking, I've been exercising but the weight is just not dropping - well, it's dropping VERY slowly. Twelve pounds in six months - sigh! God is teaching me perseverance and endurance right now. I'm also taking advantage of the fitness classes they offer at my workplace: strength training, butts & guts, and Zumba. I shied away from strength training for the longest time, but somehow it is easier for me to do it under the instruction of someone and somewhere else. And I have lost some inches. Check that, maybe you are losing inches instead of weight?

Your DVD's sound good and I'm going to check out the website. Do you need to get down on the floor for these? I struggle with that. I have a Biggest Loser cardio DVD that I bought and a BL strength training DVD that I have borrowed. I do my workout in our basement because I have a better place there and so as not to bother my husband at 3:30 a.m. I'd like to get a little area set up with some matting/carpet, etc., but right now I just don't have it and I don't have a good place to get down on the floor. So I have my eye peeled for workouts that don't require this.

Like you, I would like to run, but the fitness trainer at my work place has several criteria that need to be met before she would release me to run, and I've tried to follow her guidelines. After all, she is the expert. Some people suggested some of Jeff Galloway's books on running. They say they are excellent, and I've been reading the blogs of LDRICHEL who is following his running program right now in preparation for a half marathon this fall. She has never run before and I was impressed with his training program. I was looking up information on it for a friend, when I came across a book he has on walking - Walking The Complete Book. I thought I'd like to read that and found it on Ebay for $1.00 plus shipping - yay! I highly, highly, highly recommend it! Really, I do - even if you never want to run. He takes a section to introduce running, but the book is about walking and I wish I had read it before I started training for my 10K. For me, it has been well worth the read. Now if I can just conquer this plantar fascitis and the hip pain that is bugging me, I feel like I could walk forever, and I feel validated.

Dear me, I have written a chronicle! Forgive me! So glad to see you still pushing on this journey. Blessings, my friend.

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OUBACHE 7/19/2012 8:09AM

    It sounds like your summer has been busy and full of challenges, but you keep rising up to meet them. Slow and steady wins the race, and you are taking this at our own pace -- that's good. I'm going to have to check out the t-tapp program. Hang in there -- you're doing great.

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SPARKLINGHOPE 7/18/2012 2:53PM

    So glad you found something you like. emoticon

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WORDGIRL830 7/16/2012 11:41AM

    You are so on point with this. Gung ho does not work for me either, and time has proven it. Congratulations on the success with 4h! And congratulations on establishing where you are and being kind to yourself with readjusting your goals. I'm right there with you.

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SIBLEYHONEYBEE 7/16/2012 11:33AM

    I have been doing T-Tapp off and on for years. I really enjoy her workouts. Lately I have been doing the Step Away the Inches workout. I think it is harder than walking outside because of the form and the fact that you are going roughly 4 mph. That's pretty fast! I like this workout because it focuses on intervals with raising and lowering the heartrate consistently. I was doing the BWO+ with a kettlebell workout on MWF and then the Total Workout TTSa with just the BWO+ on Sunday mornings basically just for a stretch. This is when I really felt my best, but I don't feel like I have an hour to devote to exercise along with an hour to clean up each day. This is fairly unrealistic for me at this point.

I'm glad you have found T-Tapp. I believe Teresa's Physical Therapy approach to fitness is really going to help you with your various injuries and family history. The Total Workout is REALLY intense. I really feel like an athlete when I can fit that one in on a regular basis. I have a hip that feels chronically out of place, which makes the balance portion of the workout extremely challenging, but I can still do it!

I hope you can post on a regular basis to let us all know how you are doing. Some people are paying attention!

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I'm back.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

I'm so glad 2011 is history. I feel like I am living that proverb that says something like, "It's not important that you fall down. What's important is that you get back up again."

In 2011, about all I managed to do was log into SP most days and track my food and exercise. No time to blog or chat. And some days, I didn't even have time to track my food.

My failures and roadblocks in 2011:
January: An emergency appendectomy.
February: recovery from said appendectomy, the beginning of 6 weeks with bronchitis.
March: continued bronchitis
April: Starting to get back up again
May: Car accident and whiplash, resulting in daily migraines
June: Daily migraines from whiplash
July: 2-3x/wk migraines from whiplast
August: hired as adjunct instructor at local community college
September - December:
*barely survive adjunct instructor job,
*teach 4 classes my first semester,
*take 2 online classes,
*assist my in-laws while my mother-in-law battled leukemia, (now in remission!)
*homeschool my daughters,
*and be the troop coordinator for the local troop of American Heritage Girls.

I'm exhausted!

Unfortunately, in all that craziness, I let my weight creep back up again. Finding time to exercise was difficult. I still did it sometimes, but not enough to keep the weight off.

So I'm back up to 250. I started 2011 at 244.5. So I only gained 5.5 pounds for the year. Not bad, considering all I went through.

But it's 2012 now, and like everyone else, I'm facing the new year with determination. I've been here before, and I've learned so much.

I've become certified to teach online, so now, instead of being on campus 25 hours a week, I'm only there 2 hours a week for my one face-to-face class. The rest of the time, I'm online at home. That means I'll be able to take a walking break when I need to. I'll be able to oversee the Princesses homeschooling easier. I'll be able to meal plan better, and cook more healthfully.

Yep, I'm getting back up again. I've laid out weight goals for the year, and I hope to be in ONEderland by Christmas.

Just wanted folks to know I've not disappeared. I'm here, and I'm back.

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    Keep coming back! As long as you don't give up, you will make it.
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WARMSPRINGDAY 1/14/2012 10:09PM

    So glad you are back. You've had a difficult year. But what a blessing to know that you have not given up. We can do this, my friend.

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FREELADY 1/11/2012 2:12PM

    Wonderful to hear your voice!

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OUBACHE 1/11/2012 11:18AM

    What a year. 2012 can only get better, right? Glad to have you back!

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    Welcome back. I've missed hearing about you. Pam

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Sigh...another setback.

Friday, May 13, 2011


God continues to give our family reasons to praise Him even when the situation is challenging.

Last Saturday, we were on the way to my mother's house when we were rear-ended at a stop light.


My husband and I, just a couple days prior, had managed to walk a 5K in exactly 60 minutes. And I had begun running telephone poles again. Quite the progress, considering where I came from this winter - emergency appendectomy in January and persistent bronchitis in February, March, and the first part of April.

During the crash, my head snapped forward and back, giving me whiplash.

I already have scoliosis, so even "mild" whiplash would give me extra problems. I've been to the chiropractor three times this week, and already have next week's appointments lined up.

In the mean time, I'm not allowed to lift anything. I'm not allowed to power walk. I'm only allowed to leisurely stroll, and at that, less than a mile. However, thus far, I've not felt well enough to walk much more than just daily walking around in the house.

emoticon BUT I AM NOT GIVING UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm heartily sick of set backs. But instead of it making me discouraged, it's making me MAD!

It's like the forces of the universe are joining to prevent me from losing weight and getting fit. And I refuse to accept it!

I know my back and neck will heal. I know that the more careful I am now, the sooner I will heal. I'm eating nice and nutritious foods to help the healing.

I told myself that I could have two weeks of not walking. Then I would begin AGAIN! If it takes me another 6 weeks to build back up to where I was last Friday, then so be it.

I WILL get in shape. I WILL lose weight. I WILL. And I WILL give God the glory through it all.

So take THAT, appendectomy. emoticon

Take THAT, bronchitis. emoticon

And take THAT, Mr. Man who can't drive sensibly in rain. (Yes, he got ticketed for unsafe driving in conditions.) emoticon

I'm going to walk.

I'm going to run.

And eventually, I'm going to walk a 5K in less than an hour again.

And then I'm going to walk and run a 5K.

And then I'm going to run and walk a 10K.

And then I'm going to run and walk a half marathon.

From hence forth, they are not setbacks. They are speed bumps. They are simply God's way of keeping me from going too fast, like I did last year. They are simply extra lessons God wants to make sure I've covered. What doesn't kill me only makes me stronger.

And through Christ, I can do anything. emoticon

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OUBACHE 5/18/2011 9:40AM

    Good grief - how awful. I'm impressed and encouraged, though, by your positive reaction to the setbacks you've experienced lately. I agree that these things can and do make us stronger. Try to find small ways to fit activity into your day. Maybe you can lift light weights or take several short walks. I'm sure things will look up for you soon and you'll quickly be well on your way to 5Ks and more.


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TUBJUMPER 5/14/2011 4:58PM

    That's the right attitude!!! Keep Sparking!!!

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WARMSPRINGDAY 5/14/2011 12:47PM

    Sorry for the speed bump. I know about them all too well. I've been badly derailed. But I am taking baby steps to get myself moving out of this funk and on an upward spiral. Your determination is inspiring. I hope you heal quickly.

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MRILEY123 5/13/2011 6:26PM

    Oh, I'm so sorry this happened to you! On top of everything else! You're right to call it a "setback," though -- it's not "the end." And you're also right that while you are waiting for 2 weeks you can eat healthy meals and even lose some pounds that way. I know you'll be doing another 5K before you know it.

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Working towards the goal...

Thursday, April 28, 2011

I have been toying with the idea of signing up for a 5K. I've got my plans, and now I have to save my money for the entry fee. Our car died at the end of March, so we just got a new (to us) car, so finances are ...snug. I hope to have the money in the next couple of weeks.

But... I've got a much larger goal in mind. It's a big, over-reaching, you-gotta-be-kidding kind of goal. And it will take me a couple of years to get there. I don't know if I can do it, but I'm certainly going to try.

(Amaran looks around, to make sure the coast is clear...)
(whisper mode on)
I want to run the (mumbles) Disney Princess Half Marathon.
(whisper off)
(Amaran ducks her head in embarrassment.)

The rules for the aforementioned race say that runners must maintain at least a 16 min per mile pace.

I've been walking for a while. I can easily knock out 2 miles right now, which is pretty good, considering I almost died in January. (appendicitis surgery) I have goals of working back up to 4-5 miles per day. I know I can do it. I did it last year.

Today, I ran a little during the walk. Just from one telephone pole to the next, before my legs and lungs gave out. Just one telephone pole, not much I know, but it's a start.

What I'm really stoked about, though, was the pace I kept the entire walk. When I got home and logged it in the SP fitness maps, I had to do it twice, because I thought I made a typo.

2 miles. 35 minutes. 3.4 mph = 17 minutes per mile!

That's only 1 minute away from the minimum for the race! (See, I can't even bring myself to type the whole name in regular voice mode.) And I did it for 2 miles!

I've got so far to go. More than 100 pounds I need to lose. A questionable hip. A questionable foot. Asthma.

But today, I almost felt like I could do it.


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ANGEL_GRAVER 5/1/2011 2:26PM


I believe that you can do it! You are going about this the right way... starting with smaller goals. Just keep adding a little bit at a time, and before you know it, you will be there!

I am hoping to be able to run in the competitive portion of the Race For the Cure 5k in Indy. It is one year from now. I can do the walk portion just fine. I need to start working on the running part. I've never been a runner, so it's gonna be a long haul, but I think I can do it!

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WARMSPRINGDAY 5/1/2011 10:35AM

    Amaran ducks her head in embarrassment - why would you duck your head in embarrassment? This is an awesome and worthy goal. Hold your head up high and go for it! You will not regret it! I am so proud of you!

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CANDYGRAM36 5/1/2011 9:08AM

    I love dreams...they keep us moving forward. Next week, you might be able to run 5 steps past the pole, the next week, it might be two telephone poles...just keep moving (praising God with every step)! emoticon I totally believe in you. Keep up the great work!

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DUNCAN99 4/28/2011 7:47PM


You CAN do it. It will take some time. But you can.


And as you do more, the weight will improve, the mobility will improve. I don't know about the foot, we'll have to see. But you CAN make this happen!

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O Glorious Day!

Friday, April 22, 2011

O Glorious Day,
by L. Wilbur Chapman
(recently recorded by Mercy Me)

One day when heaven was filled with His praises,
One day when sin was as black as could be,
Jesus came forth to be born of a virgin—
Dwelt among men, my example is He!

* Living, He loved me; dying, He saved me;
Buried, He carried my sins far away;
Rising, He justified freely forever:
One day He’s coming—O glorious day!

One day they led Him up Calvary’s mountain,
One day they nailed Him to die on the tree;
Suffering anguish, despised and rejected;
Bearing our sins, my Redeemer is He.

One day they left Him alone in the garden,
One day He rested, from suffering free;
Angels came down o’er His tomb to keep vigil;
Hope of the hopeless, my Savior is He.

One day the grave could conceal Him no longer,
One day the stone rolled away from the door;
Then He arose, over death He had conquered;
Now is ascended, my Lord evermore.

One day the trumpet will sound for His coming,
One day the skies with His glory will shine;
Wonderful day, my beloved ones bringing;
Glorious Savior, this Jesus is mine!


This is my favorite song lately! I remember singing it as a child, and I was delighted to hear it recently recorded and receiving airplay. It's theology is great!

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WARMSPRINGDAY 4/22/2011 8:10PM

    I haven't heard that song for years! It's a great song! Salvation story in a nutshell. Thank you.

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FREELADY 4/22/2011 7:00PM

    What amazing events! What amazing love!

Thank you for sharing!

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ICNWTBS 4/22/2011 10:11AM

    This is wonderful. I've been thinking about His sacrifice all morning and I figured if He could do what He did for us, me giving up junky food is nothing. :)

Thanks for sharing this beautiful song.

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