Valentine's Day Confessions...

Sunday, February 14, 2010

I am a "teacher" at a daycare center. I have four 1 year olds in my charge but there are 12 kids on the first floor where I work and they all gave me a Valentine. Now, I don't think most of them understand the reasoning or the fun behind Valentine's Day but their parents do. Hence, I have several different chocolates to choose from when I am feeling weak! I admit, I picked through and ate all the good stuff already (quietly and alone in the dark). The mediocre stuff (which turns into the good stuff when I am jonesing for some chocolate!) is out in the open where anyone can see and eat it. Now I am doing my trampoline because I feel guilty.

I watched a show today about people who lost weight with extreme measures. One guy lost his first 100 lb by drinking 500 to 600 calories of a protein shake diet. He was closely monitored by a doctor--he was quick to point out. I have shakes at my house; I bought a kit last year. I could do that, right?! Wake up, Amanda; this is why you are taking so long to lose weight! Diet and Exercise, Diet and Exercise! So the guy lost a ton of weight by drinking shakes and not eating anything-there are always exceptions to the rules!

I am working through all the demons in my head that are keeping me from attaining my goals...mostly, I just say the Lord's Prayer when ever I am tempted and that stops me from getting crazy. My Aunt told me to say positive affirmations to the mirror every morning while I brush my teeth. I have been trying that and it really seems to work!

My fiance stubbed his toe on my trampoline last night and when he told me that I left it in his way I just replied that beauty takes effort so I need it... He told me that maybe for some people beauty takes effort but not for me (AWWW!) I need that trampoline to lose weight but not to be beautiful; I have that already. Of course I cried for about half and hour about that one. How come I don't see that?!

Anyway--Happy Valentine's Day my fellow sparkers! It is a good one!

~Amanda~

  

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HARPER369 2/15/2010 6:22AM

allowing for misakes like that is just part of the journey, I allowed myself to have chocolate yesterday so I did not go over bored waiting then giving in and it is ok to give in just for thses types of occasions, and I know what you means on those positive affrimations, I do it in mirror while I'm at the fridge, while I'm in my car of course I need too, I have also started to keep a journal so I can see in writing just what I am eatting every bite, like and taste (blt), I have a wonderful husband but I never get compliments like that , you go girl Report Inappropriate Comment

Lots to say...so little time!

Tuesday, February 09, 2010

Life has been a roller coaster ride for me lately. I started a new blog so that I could keep in touch with a few family members that can't seem to figure out how to read my spark blog and I don't seem to have enough time to post on both. Therefore, I am a stalker at Sparkpeople but I don't comment or blog anymore. Not that I am not watching and listening--everyone is such a help to me!

I saw a nutritionist last month. She gave me a breakdown of what I should be eating (VERY HELPFUL) but she listed me for 2000 calories and I feel like that is way too high. I followed her diet for a few weeks but I felt like I was overeating. I lost 2 lb a week for the first two weeks and then 1 lb a week after that. I am not complaining about 1 lb but I really think that the only reason I was losing any weight at all was because my body wasn't used to eating healthy and when the weight loss slowed down it was for that reason. Sparkpeople recommends that I eat between 1500 and 1700 so I am going to strive for that instead. I will still do the breakdown that the nutritionist listed as far as when to eat protein, carbs, etc.

  

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AMANDATHEGREAT 2/14/2010 6:53PM

Thanks, guys. I am going to be diligent and stick with no less than 1500 but no more than 2000. That way I am covered. Also, I have been counting my points as a backup--I am supposed to eat 27 points a day on WW Report Inappropriate Comment

HARPER369 2/10/2010 10:26AM

sometimes they recommend higher calorie take to start out with depending on your weight and height, if your intake should be higher because of height etc, not following these guide lines could hurt your weightloss goal, your body needs a certain amount to function and decreasing your calorie intake could cause your body to slow down your metabolism (starvation mode). did the nutritionist just start you out on 2000 or was it more of a permanent recommendation? if you need to lose a large amount of weight 2000 to start with is most likely the best way to go then downsize as your clothes down size to normal recommendations Report Inappropriate Comment

AMYRWATSON 2/10/2010 6:32AM

I even think that what Spark has recommended it to high because I never seem to make the it and am always under. I thought that I would always be over so no wonder why I can't lose weight because my metabolism can't work because my calories are under. It is hard work. Good luck. Report Inappropriate Comment

Biggest Loser, WhooHoo!

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

Okay. So I am sitting here watching The Biggest Loser and I am criticizing the players. "Holy Cow! Did you see the size of that guy?!" and "She's not that big...how come she got on?" "Watch them cycle...they are going so slow!" So first of all, I don't know why anyone gains weight (I don't even know why I gained weight!!!!!) I don't know why someone doesn't seem big enough to be on the show (crazy!) but I also don't know what happened to them in their life that got them picked....and I have not ridden a bike since 2007 and I could only ride down to the end of the street before I was so sore that I had to walk it back home so I can't really talk! Am I the only one who thinks that if I gained like 50 more pounds I could totally be on this show?! Crazy?!

Every time I watch this show I think that I need to get my butt up and exercise but usually by morning it has passed :) Seriously, though; I am doing my treadmill every morning even though I hate the treadmill and I am eating what I need to eat but not limiting myself too much because I want to be able to do this forever...not just until I lose the weight.

So enjoy the show everyone...

  

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MSCHMIDTRO 1/5/2010 8:52PM

The show is fascinating to watch even though it scares me too! Report Inappropriate Comment

Winter Wonderland

Sunday, January 03, 2010

So it is cold and there is a wind advisory until 1 pm here in little ole Connecticut. I got up, washed some dishes, and went back to bed! My tires are not the best and I don't want to risk driving anywhere so I am hunkering down until the wind advisory is over. In the meantime, I am going to jump on the healthrider that my fiance has in his living room and watch tv while I am exercising. New Year, new mindset! I read on the Jillian Michaels website that you should jump during commercials but I don't know; I feel a little silly! I mean, do I change into workout clothes? Do I just wear a sports bra? There's a sight, huh?! Anyway, no pain no gain I guess (even if the pain is feeling like an idiot!!!)

  

Nutrisystem? New Lunchbox? What Am I Doing?!

Friday, January 01, 2010

Do You like my new lunchbox? I didn't buy it although I really wanted to. I am sitting on the couch watching Biggest Loser reruns and thinking about what I am going to do to make this a better year for me. So I googled Nutrisystem after watching a commercial with Marie Osmond. I set up a user profile and went through all the steps until I got to the part where you add you credit card info. and then I snapped out of it. I can barely afford to pay my rent and car payment so I don't think this is a good move! Then I started looking at lunch boxes because mine has a ripped inside. Again, got all the way through before waking up. What is the deal? Well, last night (this morning?) I had 3 glasses of wine. It wasn't the worst thing I could have but I am still a little down on myself. When I woke up this morning I was sure that things will be better. I asked my fiance to make me a bowl of oatmeal and he told me he didn't have any. I didn't bring any to his house because he said he had some and it turns out he had an empty box in the pantry. No problem, I will find something else, right? Well, it was a typical bachelor's house so he has nothing except alcohol, peanut butter cookies and something in the freezer that says Lobster and looks like a hot pocket. So, I made some tea and had 3 cookies...but I put something that looked like sugar in my tea but it turned out to be something else (I don't know what it was but it is a grain of some kind). Therefore, I had cookies for breakfast. Since I am a new person, I will be starting over right now instead of waiting until tomorrow to start over! I am on Sparkpeople reading some motivational stuff and then I will take a shower and start over :)

  

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AMANDATHEGREAT 1/3/2010 9:38AM

Thanks for the advice. In the middle of the year I was all about bringing stuff with me everywhere I went but somewhere along the way I stopped. Time to get the old cooler out again! Oh, and it was grits that I put in my tea! Comment edited on: 1/3/2010 9:39:22 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

POPPIN26 1/3/2010 2:55AM

Do not give up! You can do it! Sometimes things happen to strengthen us! Since it seems like your sometimes between houses I would keep some items like oatmeal or crackers, tea, dried fruits and stuff in your car! That way you'll have something with you! Have a wonderful New You Day! Report Inappropriate Comment