Saturday, June 04, 2011
I know that its been a while, but my boyfriend is now gone.... ha ha it makes it so much easier to use the spark when he is not around and hanging over my shoulder every minute (but my apartment is so small, its not really like there is anywhere else for him to be) but with him here, I find I pick up on his nasty eating habits, take out, fast food, late night munching etc. so as for my calories I have no idea what I ate when he was here, nor did I get to the gym ("but baby don't you want to spend time with me?" or "I came all this way to see you") On the bright side we did go walking... a few times some where long so were short and they were all at night which I'll admit, I love walking at night.
When my boyfriend is here it really seems like I can't get anything done! My house was clean before he got here - mostly there was a few things that I needed to get done, and what should have been maybe an hour's cleaning has turned into about an afternoon's worth of work more if I sweep and mop which I need to. Him helpful, no I when I would leave for work and he would be here for about 6 hours by him self he could not even bother washing our breakfast dishes, or rinsing then off! He would watch movies, and nap ignoring his homework until he had to leave and then stress himself out so much that he would screen headaches after 5 mins of looking at him homework, so I had to help him do that as well. And try and control my emotional state so the stress that he created dose not effect me.
I started dating this guy, because he seemed so together, much more then most people my age. He had a life plan, how he was going to make the translation from university to the workforce, the classes he needed, what he needed to do to become an MP and it sounded like he had it all worked out and researched! Nope! He had a plan, which has now fallen apart, because he did not check his facts!! Providing that he does not fail anymore classes, he will graduated this Christmas. By then I will half way finished of my second degree!! I know that he took a year and a half off from university and i understand the reasons, and its fine, but right now I really feel like this guy might drag me down with him, where as I am working hard to get want I want in life.
A house back in the city I love, a good career, a trip to Europe which is no big deal to him (as he has been there 3 times, as he has family there all which his parents payed for) Nor do I really care about the white picket fence with 2.5 kids and a dog and two cars and swimming lessons, baseball torments the basic suburban dream. Kids - don't really want any, dogs - I'd rather a cat (he's allergic) I hate baseball! I really do - I don't like most sports! Heaven forbid I am a girl. his favorite line lately "My girlfriend is being a girl again"
Sorry sparkers, I had to get all this out some where, espically since it seems that saying this to him well it just bounces off his thick skull.
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Well, here I am again! I went back to the gym on Tuesday and increased my weights and man did I feel it. I was still sore two days later, and as a result I took a long break from strength training to let my body heal. And I olny sorta kept up with my cardio and I did not track at all, my boyfriend was down and with him here I don't track and I will admit that I spend most of my time with him and we lazy around watching movies and cleaned up my house a bit and made pies which are mow in my freezer.
I am going back to the gym today and although I am not sure what I am going to be doing I know that I am going. I have to go twice a week to keep my membership! I went Tuesday and I have to go today.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
I went to the gym this morning, and I did group power. Today it was instructor L and normally I do this class with instructor M. AS a result the class which I normally feel beat out after wards, didn't really seem to that hard, and I had an easy time of doing most of the exercises, which is odd, as I have missed about 2 weeks ago.
The routine was different but the same muscle groups were still worked, I am wondering since it was a new routine for me if that impacted how difficult I found the work out, or could it just be that I kept my weight a little bit lighter because I was expecting it just as challenging.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Ok so the plan has changed a little bit not much but still if I don't put it out there...
Tonight I resist my program and got all my new settings programed into the spark and I even updated my page with the new attitude that I am planning to adopt with the slogan of:
"A woman who is convinced that she deserves to accept only the best, challenges herself to give the best. Then she is living phenomenally" said by Maya Angelou. I want to be this new healthy person, who can take life and all of the tricks it can play in short I want to be a femme fatale, with that certain je ne sais quoi quality.
So the new plan is:
group power 3 times a week for my strength training
treadmill and bike or machines of torture aka (the stepper or elliptical) twice a week.
Outside/ At home fitness:
Walking around town
Wii fit & Will sports
taking advantage of things I can access at work like the canoe, open kayaks.
Healthy eating starts at the store, so I will read labels, and try and skip the pop and chip row most of the time.
I need to learn to make meals in advance again, just like I did when I was school, for the nights that I have to work late, and I need to remember to save calories for a snack during work, because eating one to one and half meals a day is not healthy and is not going to help me reach my goals.
I am not going to share my goals with the people around me, as I find they judge to quickly and tend to mock and bring all sorts of negative energy into my life and I don't want that, (since these people are mostly family) I will keep them out of it. My friends are normally great but now that we are all working in different spots we have trouble meeting up. My boyfriend is great, but he has a lot of bad eating habits that I don't want to pick up, but I have gotten him to agree that he not allowed to bring fast food into my house, whether I am home or not. Also since he is military - he will be gone for most of the summer, I think he has maybe half a month off starting at the of this month.
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