Monday, June 02, 2014
You're just starting a new program and everything seems easy? You're full of optimism, the weight is just falling off, and even though you know in your brain that the quick loss is just your body being shocked by the healthier lifestyle that it will quickly adjust. You KNOW this, you still start doing the math: let's see, if I can sustain this rate, I could get to goal in one year instead of two...You tell yourself to keep your expectations low, but your heart still sinks when that scale creeps up that inevitable week. You know that feeling? That's where I'm at this week.
Trying not to let it get me down and focus on the fact that my measurements are down, confirming that I wasn't imagining that my belly wasn't stretching my shirts as much as it had been...Still frustrating, though.
Went to dinner with my bestie tonight who was home visiting from Phoenix. I did indulge a bit and get the beer cheese soup with my steak, but I got the green beans as my side, so I figure it all evens out. Kinda like having Diet Coke with your cheesecake, but I say it counts. Plus, with that serving of veggies I was up to six veggies and two fruits for the day, so I felt good about that.
Going to be eating away from home W-F when we go to Kansas City. The hotel we always stay at is walking distance from the ballpark, but also serves complimentary breakfast and dinner (and three mixed drinks or beers per adult), which means that DH is unwilling to pay for something healthier somewhere else. The breakfast isn't bad. As long as I stay away from the pancakes and pastries I can do pretty good with the eggs, sausage, and fruit. Dinner, though, is nearly unredeemable. It varies a bit but is usually hot dogs, baked potatoes, soup, nachos, and a very anemic looking salad. And it's all served buffet style. Yay (not). Try getting your minimum veggie allowance eating mostly hotel and ballpark food! It's like trying to find a black cat in the dark. Planning to take some of my own snacks, but other than baby carrots which I try to avoid as a higher carb veggie, the other veggies I like I don't like raw.
Oh well, it's a family outing. I'll just have to make the best of it and remember that two days will only do permanent damage if I let it become the slippery slope to relapse.
The good news: I got my weekly blog done already and it's only Monday!
Sunday, June 01, 2014
It's food prep day, and I'm not feeling it. Already decided I'm not getting to the stuffed chicken breasts and that I have enough in the freezer to get by until next food prep day. Beef stew is done, but still needs to be portioned and frozen.
Yet to get to on my cooking to-do list:
Make and freeze pasta sauce in 1/3 cup portions
Shred and portion cheddar cheese
Make and freeze spinach turkey burgers
Make and freeze the filling for the stuffed chicken breasts since I'm not confident the fresh spinach and mushrooms will still be good by the next food prep day
Make and freeze portions of turkey chili
Not feeling it. Pretty much rationalized that I'm just going to do the pasta sauce and cheddar cheese tonight and work on the chili and burgers Monday and the chicken breast filling on Tuesday...
Also have a cold trying to take hold of me that I'm combating with home remedies. Considered popping open a can of chicken noodle for it, but decided I didn't want the sodium so I ate one of my homemade, frozen packets of broccoli beef for lunch instead, so yay me for that. Planning to have some of my newly-cooked beef stew for dinner. The thing I like about my homemade beef stew, and minestrone, and chili, and broccoli beef is that it tricks my generally-veggie-avoiding-self to get in a veggie serving or two. I'm not as big a fan of the minestrone as my husband is, which is good because he eats A LOT of it!
My son had his wisdom teeth out on Thursday and is still pretty miserable. He's supposed to start summer school Monday and I'm worried I didn't give him enough recovery time. Hope he does okay at school tomorrow!
Well, think I've stalled long enough on starting the pasta sauce. Better get at it!
Saturday, May 24, 2014
15 years ago, when we got a diagnosis of autism, I wasn't sure this day would come. Every IEP goal for the last 15 years, my eye has been set on this goal (and of course, raising an independent adult).
Today was the day. I took off work yesterday and was madly mowing, cleaning, and cooking in preparation for the party. I was going virtually nonstop from 6am to 10pm and still didn't get everything done I would have liked, but luckily, the undone items on my to-do list were semi-optional like cleaning out the fridge and giving myself a mani / pedi.
The school building opened up an hour before the ceremony and was first come, first seated so we got there right when the doors were supposed to open and found that the parking lot was completely full and people were parking down the street! I was afraid we might not be able to get a seat in the gym! Luckily, my folks got there before us and saved us a seat.
I think I spent so much time preparing for this day that the gravity of it hadn't hit me yet. I didn't even bring kleenax and felt perfectly fine -- until "Pomp and Circumstance" started. Oh the water works! Luckily, my step-mom DID bring kleenax!
With 300 kids graduating, it took awhile to get to the H's. I don't know how I missed it since I was watching him intently as he crossed the stage, but my mom says he hugged his diploma before stepping off the stage. **sob** We waited through the S's to see his girlfriend walk the stage and cheer for her. It was amazing.
Yes, girlfriend. After his diagnosis, I was so worried that romantic love might not be part of his experience as an adult, but Gabby has had his whole future planned since 8th grade. She's so adorable. I'm not sure what her disability is because how do you ask another mother that question, but her name totally fits her. It's so funny watching them together as she chatters nonstop while he mostly nods. She wasn't even officially allowed to date until she turned 16, but when she spotted him at freshman registration in 8th grade, she exclaimed, "Geoffrey, you're going here too? Now we can go to PROM!" She told me recently that she's decided they should finish college before they get married. Seriously, she's given this a lot of thought. I just love her. I'd be so happy if Gabby ended up being my daughter-in-law!
They'll both be going into the school district's transition program. Although he had the credits to graduate, the program helps him with life and work skills. They said he probably doesn't need the academic program they have and suggested he enroll in the local junior college for a couple classes concurrently with the transition program. However, until he turns 19 in October, his dad still has primary custody and I'll be surprised if he enrolls him in classes. I'm hoping that Geoffrey decides to live with me when he turns 19 so I'll be better able to support his growth. His dad isn't even willing to get him tested for driving aptitude, which is essential to his independence.
Anyway, enough doom and gloom. Today was the culmination of 15 years of IEPs and advocacy and I'm optimistic that one day Geoffrey and Gabby will be living on their own, happy and thriving.
Here's Geoffrey with my husband and me:
Here's Geoffrey and Gabby at prom last year (just like she predicted):
Sunday, May 18, 2014
Made my son help clean the house Saturday. He cleaned the upstairs and I cleaned the downstairs AFTER I mowed the lawn. After that, my everything hurt last night. You'd think with a power mower it wouldn't be so hard on my body, but it sucks every time!
Spent today grocery shopping and cooking until 4:00 when we had to leave to go to my MIL's for dinner. We go every Sunday and I love them, but sometimes I'd like my Sunday evenings to myself! I shouldn't complain, my MIL needs our visits as respite from being a full-time caregiver for my FIL.
Anyway, both my boys (DH and DS) were excited about the new recipe I tried today and DS was bummed he couldn't have it for dinner, but I was making it to have later in the week since we were having dinner at MIL's. They're bacon and spinach stuffed chicken breasts. They sure smelled good; I'm curious to see how they turned out when I have one for lunch tomorrow! I suggested to DS that if he wanted to make himself some spaghetti tomorrow that one would probably taste good on his spaghetti with pasta sauce over the top. He was all proud of himself for making his own spaghetti last week. I'd rather he not eat gluten, but at least it's not junk food.
Since it was grocery day, bought the stuff I need for my other DS's high school graduation party next weekend. Had to buy sodas for the party. Felt really guilty about it, but tried to remember that not everyone shuns liquid sugar like I do. DS wants brownies and chocolate cake and I'm planning on getting a Jimmy John's platter. Planning on also making nachoes and homemade vanilla ice cream and thought I'd get a fruit platter. DH wants to make little smokies (ick), so I bought the stuff for that. Supposed to have about 20 people here, so we'll probably have WAY too much food, but oh well. You only graduate once, right? Planning to take off work the Friday before to cook, clean, and maybe mow again.
Also have to take off work on Thursday for my younger son's EEG / MRI. He's been having scary memory lapses and the neurologist has no way to know what's causing it until we do the EEG / MRI. We have a family history of epilepsy and I knew I shouldn't have done it, but Googled "seizures and memory loss" and scared myself half to death with what I found. Fingers crossed that we can figure out the problem and that it's an easy fix. The Thursday after that, the poor kid is having his wisdom teeth out.
Well, that's about it for my week. Spark on, friends!
Sunday, May 11, 2014
Don't have much time for anything fancy blog-wise, but made it a goal to blog weekly, so here's me keeping my commitment to myself, as perfunctory as it may be...
Was surprised by my nearly 5 pound weight loss this week. Mostly because I wasn't perfect, so I was expecting 1, maybe 2 pounds to come off. Amazing the difference it can make when I'm not eating like I hate myself. Skipped Mother's Day dessert today. Eventually I'd like to be able to incorporate occasional indulgences both so that I'm not feeling deprived / left out and also so that I don' feel like a buzz kill in social gatherings. But for now, it's more important for me to keep on a sugar detox as much as I can.
This week, my husband decided to start a program with me on Monday. I hope he follows through. He has a long history of flaking on me on this stuff. However, we each came up with our own goals, so maybe by framing it in ways that are meaningful for him, it will help keep him on track.
Spent most of Mother's Day weekend cooking. I've been doing cooking marathons on the weekends lately and I really like it. I cook up several different soups, my favorite Chinese dish, and some paleo bacon-wrapped chicken thighs and freeze them in portions to eat during the week. Maybe I've gotten lazy, but I really like not having to cook when I get home from work!
Yesterday, I made a big vat of minestrone and some roasted veggies and put a roast in the crockpot for stew. Today I made chili, more roasted veggies, and broccoli beef. Didn't get to the beef stew or spinach burgers, so hope to get those done tomorrow night. Yay for having an extra freezer in the basement!
Well, it's past my bedtime, so signing off. Have a good one!
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