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2014 Update

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

It's been a while since I wrote a blog...almost a year in fact...

I have struggled so much with my weight over the last couple of years. I went from about 145 lbs up to 200 lbs. I'm back down in the 190's but so upset since I was so happy when I was in the 140s. I need to tighten my belt, for lack of better words, and get back to watching my diet and really and truly get back to counting calories since I know that works for me.

What really is heart breaking for me is going up in size in clothing. I went from wearing a size 8 to a 14, now back down to 12. I hate buying new clothes when I ones I love just sitting in my closet now being worn.

The good thing this all is that I truly never gave up working out. I might have not been doing it at the intensity that I was in the past but that has change about 5 months ago. Five months ago I found CrossFit and fell in love. I have found through this program that it is very humbling and empowering. I have done more things that I have never thought I could do.

Right now I'm having to find the balance between what I doing in CrossFit and what I'm eating since its more weight lifting than cardio, in my opinion. So starting this past week I have added a little bit more cardio in the mornings to help supplement my workouts.

Like I said I'm back in a size 12 even though I have only lost between 5-10 lbs over the last 5 I've lost inches and put on muscle. I really need to get back into the Bod Pod and I think that will give me a better idea of where my body is changing instead of looking at the scale alone because we all know a pound of fat weighs the same as a pound of muscle, muscle just takes up less space. I really need to get away from the scale and not putting so much emphasis on what I weigh and more what I look like and what I can do in the gym.

So here are my goals for 2014:
Drop 2-3 clothing sizes
Master Double Unders
Master Box Jumps
Up the weight on: Deadlift; Front,Back, & Overhead Squats, Power/Squat Cleans, Power/Squat Snatches, Push Press, Push/Split Jerk
Cut 2 or more minutes off my mile average

Update Photo of ME!

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OMMAMA7 2/10/2014 2:57PM

    I gained a bunch back too, but I'm also back at it. We can do this!! Let's make this year AWESOME!!!

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FEARLESSNOW 1/15/2014 8:33PM

    Good luck with cross fit!

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GOLMAR25 1/15/2014 1:13PM

    I think it's smart to throw away your scale and go by clothes, no matter how tempting it might be to start weighing yourself again after you start seeing results! I am in the same boat as you, having to buy new clothes and all.. It's depressing as hell (even more depressing when the number on the scale shows exactly in how much trouble you are).
But I believe that setting some major fitness goals, other than weight loss alone, could be something that could help the process as well as help see things from a different perspective! I signed up for a half-marathon in April, and Iím not much of a runner. Started training this week and figured that running 13.1 miles will sure be a lot easier if Iím 20-30 lbs lighter by that time (or about that, no exact figures since thereís no scale and allÖ) Good luck girl, keep pushing! We definitely can do it! :)

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Living Life?

Monday, April 22, 2013

I feel like I'm just floating through life and not really living it. Every day it's the same thing, get the kids up and out the door for school, have lunch with the hubby, kids and hubby come home from school/work, have dinner, hit the gym (most days)....rinse and repeat. I don't have anything that I'm excited about anymore. I used to be excited about going to the gym since I knew that I would be seeing the results in my body but for the last six months I have been losing and gaining the same 6-7 lbs over and over. Though I'm not giving up...I will get back to where I was a year and half ago.

I need to find the happiness I had a year or so ago. Not that I don't have happy times, but on a regular basis I can't say that. Here's to looking more into myself and get past this floating feeling of life.

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KALISWALKER 10/31/2013 5:46PM

    I understand how you feel. Sometimes we have to change things up so we can re-spark. I will send you an invitation to the next 5% Challenge.

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FIFIFRIZZLE 6/13/2013 9:03AM

    Have you felt this way before? Is this how you felt before you released all that weight, and then gained some weight?
Is this what the fat is for? To insulate you and help you float around in your life?

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MSGETHEALTHY35 5/13/2013 11:44AM

    I know I'm late responding and I know what you mean. Maybe try thinking about some hobbies, etc that you used to do and reconnect with one of those. Like for me i like finding out about different arts, crafts, and DIY things to do to improve my home. I used houzz(app) for house ideas and Pinterest is great for ideas from health to DIY projects. Depending on what's your interest trust me just being on Pinterest will spark some ideas. I have also signed up for volunteering programs and go help others. Push through those feelings and find some things just for you that make you excited. It may take a little time but I have been there this too shall pass. emoticon emoticon

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ALLIEALLIE2 4/23/2013 3:17PM

    I hear you! Sometimes I feel the same way, try doing something different maybe a fun family day trip or a night away with your DH, Thanks for posting this and look we are not the only ones who feel this way. emoticon

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CHANGINGSAM 4/23/2013 11:55AM

    I'm right there with you. emoticon

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OMMAMA7 4/23/2013 10:19AM

    Oh also, if you are into affirmations, there's this one that my non-traditional church (I'm not really religious, more spiritual haha) always says, it's something like "I am alive, awake, alert, joyous and enthusiastic about my life" Maybe saying that to yourself every morning might help you start feeling it after a while? emoticon

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OMMAMA7 4/23/2013 10:16AM

    I've had many times where it feels as if I'm going through life in a fog, going through the motions. I recently finished that book "Women Food and God" and it was really great - that's basically what the book is about. How we don't allow ourselves to FEEL what we are going through, we numb ourselves, sometimes with food, sometimes other distractions because we don't think we can handle it, and then it becomes second nature. I started the book probably a year ago, but it just wasn't the right time for it to click with me, but over the last few weeks I finished it up and it's amazing. Just a thought if you are interested. It's not a religious book, it's funny at times but really honest and relatable and inspiring. It's helping me a lot to be more in the moment and not shutting off uncomfortable feelings, which helps you be more present to enjoy the good feelings as well. And it's giving me hope that there's another way to live, especially with "dieting" that I can be present enough to listen to my body enough to maybe not have to track everything and stress about weight the rest of my life.

Sorry didn't mean to ramble and give a book review. Basically...i can SO relate. Other than my recommended book LOL...Think positive. Believe it will get better and that you will find something interesting to be passionate about and bring you back to being more happy and excited. Try to see the magic in the world - get out in nature, love yourself, see the beauty and positive attributes in yourself - you deserve it! Get together with friends more, find a cause to volunteer with or a club to join. These are some of the things I've done and am doing to come out of my fog. Good luck with yours! Keep us posted :)

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PROGRESSINWORK 4/22/2013 10:17PM

    Been there, done that. Stagnating, like a small body of water with no flow, just crud and goo building up, that the word I used.

Then, I started online college classes. And I felt like I was doing something to better myself, not just taking care of everyone else. Now that my kids are a bit older (3 and 5) we also make it a point to do fun things as a family, something for us all to look forward to, circus, museums, zoos, fairs and festivals, anything that we can do together. I am also starting belly dancing classes this week and I am super excited about that!

If going back to school or work isn't an option, find something just for you, a hobby (check out your local parks and rec. department to see if there's any groups you might like), a new exercise class, or do something you've always wanted to do. . Involve your family in new activities; change up date nights (if you always do the dinner and a movie, try an arcade, bowling, go-carts, or a museum), find something fun for the whole family like an amusement park (museums fall in this category too!), a fair or festival, or a fun run.

You just gotta hunt for something that excites you. emoticon

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GKUMAR8 4/22/2013 10:00PM

    I went through something similar a little while back- there was just this dullness in my life .. just a lack of inspiration... This site helped inspire me lot.

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GINNABOOTS 4/22/2013 9:57PM

    I feel the same way. Maybe you could change up your routine a bit. Do something different at the gym. Possibly go away for a weekend with your family or maybe just your husband. I wish I could offer you something better to say but I am going through the same thing since November. emoticon emoticon

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SCRAPPINPOLLY 4/22/2013 9:47PM

    I can so relate. That's when I started going back to school and got a job. I've never been more happy.

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The Past....

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Funny how the past molds you into the person you are today...

So last night at dinner my son brought up fighting at school and during the conversation my husband asked me if I ever got into a fight at school, to which I told him yes; that when I was in middle school school some guy hit me and knocked me into a pole. Some how this led me to say that I end up having guys hitting me, which turned into a conversation of the person I was involved with before my husband and how he had so much control over me.

This guy was on constantly asking me where I was going, who I was going with, who I talking to; and at one point put his hands on me to the point of choking me out and pulling a gun on me and holding to me at gun point. Because of this guy I have major control issues, to the point where it has caused major problems in my marriage. I still have, not necessarily flashbacks, but when I hear certain songs or even catch a glimpse at someone I'm brought back to that time in my life. What I think threw me for a loop is that my husband asked me if I ever wanted to see this guy again. Why in the world would I ever want to see him, other to go up to him and tell him that my life is 100 times better now. Though I don't think I ever will do that, in fact if I ever do see him I would probably turn and go the other way. Though thankfully I don't think that I will ever see him again since I no longer live in my home town.

My point is that what happens to us in our past, wither we were the ones who cause it or it happened to us, molds us into the people we are today. And I whole heartily believe that I am who I am because of my past. I'm better with my control issues since I have gotten into therapy. And out of all that I keep a tight control on I've never did on my's the one place that has been completely out of control. Maybe I need to let go of control in some areas and focus it on my eating.

Sorry if this is a bunch of rambling, but its just the thoughts that have been running through my head over the last day....

Now I'm off to the gym....Later Dayz!!

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TRUETOU 6/13/2013 10:10AM

    Good job on the weight look fantastic !!!

I too would like to transfer my control issues to myself and my eating...I think it would be far more beneficial for everyone.

Thanks for sharing...

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CHANGINGSAM 4/18/2013 1:25PM

    Thanks for sharing this. I wholeheartedly agree. emoticon

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Saturday, April 13, 2013

Perception is a funny thing. Especially how we perceive ourselves. Lately I have a different perception of what I look like than what I actually look like. In my mind I still feel like what I did when I was 40 lbs lighter:

When in reality I actually look like this:

It might not be obvious to some but I can see the weight gain in my face, not to mention my whole body but I don't have any full body shots of what I look like now...I'm too embarrassed to take any. I really hate that when I get a look of myself in a mirror it's not the same imagine that I have in my head. It's very disappointing. But I have 2 choices: 1) stay this way and be happy with it or 2) kick my a$$ in gear and get the weight back off. And I choose option.....2!

This past week has helped a long way in getting the weight back off. I have kept my calories down and got my a$$ back in the gym. What is also helping is that I'm doing a Dietbet. I put in $25 dollars and bet that I could lose 4% of my starting weight in 4 weeks. I just hit half way last Friday and only have 2.2 lbs to go in 14 days, which is completely attainable. Yes, I would love to win more money than just my $25 dollars back but the biggest pay off is that the weight I lost and getting happy again.

So here's to losing some more weight and getting stronger over the next couple of weeks, along with getting back to a happy for me weight.

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CHANGINGSAM 4/16/2013 10:33AM


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    Sounds like you're on the right track. Go for it!

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TIME4CARRI 4/13/2013 11:54PM

    The really great thing is that you know what you need to do. This little bump is totally reversible and you are living proof that you CAN and WILL achieve your healthy weight. Unlike some of us, there should be no doubt in your mind and that is encouraging! emoticon emoticon

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STRONGMOMMA2014 4/13/2013 8:30PM

    Best of luck to you as you keep working at your goals. Whatever works for motivation, still gets you where you want to be at the end! You can do it!

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Just a Bit Stressed

Thursday, February 07, 2013

Waiting games suck big time. We are waiting for our federal tax refund to hit our bank account and according to the IRS website the funds were sent to our bank yesterday. It's only been one day sent the money was sent so there isn't much to be worried about, but somehow someone hacked into our state system and stole information on those who filed state taxes and it can affect our return this year. That's a lot of money to be taken from us and it's what we are using to jump start our savings for a house in the future along with trips with the family. I really shouldn't worry until next week since that is what the site said but I can't help how my brain thinks. More than likely it will show up tomorrow, at least that is what we are hoping for. But since I really can't do anything about it today I'm going to focus on what is positive.

After my couple of pity party days I gained a bit of weight but over the last few days it has been coming off, woo hoo! And the weird thing is that I'm not hitting the gym as hard as I have in the past, for instance I didn't get but 15 minutes in on Sunday since my legs were still tired from the week before, only did about 45 minutes on Tuesday ( I went to the gym later in the day than normal and in was packed with a bunch of wanna be show offs [ not the same as those who made resolutions to lose weight this year]). My goal of the month is to get as close to the mid 170's as possible. I have backed off on my running since I am in real need of some new running shoes, which I hope to get really soon.

Ty and I were talking over the weekend, and he asked me a question that I have been asking myself too. Why was it so much easier to lose the weight when I started back in 2010 than it is this go around. The only thing I can say is that I haven't given up completely. I think some of it is from being dissatisfied in certain areas of my life. Some are in my control and others are in other peoples control. So I'm going to just keep plugging along until I reach where I want to be. Just hoping I don't have another 40 lb set back.

Later Dayz

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CHOCOHIPPO 2/21/2013 9:46PM

    Glad you're back on track. It is a hard road to hoe, but you can do it. And soon you'll find your spark again. You can do it.

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BRIDGIEEE 2/7/2013 11:38AM

    I'm glad the extra weight is coming off for you! Yay for that!! Sorry you're stressed, hopefully the tax issue won't affect you at all...but believe me, I understand. I stress about everything!!

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OZARKMARY 2/7/2013 11:19AM

    There is nothing I can say that you don't already know. BUT, being in the same boat so to speak with adding 35lbs, I am struggling to get back on the wagon. I'm just going to remind you to get back in the habit of doing the "little things" that add up...drinking more water, tracking your food and adding steps. emoticon emoticon I am down 5! Yay me!

Hope your refund is there soon and that you get some wheels. emoticon

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