Hey Sparkers I need to get this off of my chest so bear with me... As you may know I have been totally slacking on my workouts:( Not to mention the fact that I havent been striving for "extra" physical activities as I had in months past, I have also overindulged in foods and such, I am up 1 lb and I'm not proud of it...I know its just a pound but it has taken a major toll on the little self confidence I had managed to build up after my 30 lb weight loss :( I have found myself thinking very negative thoughts (again) such as "why even bother, your body sucks anyway" "I knew I wouldn't stick to this" "who cares" and I could go on and on and I'm reaching out to you to help stop those hurtful thoughts!! I know I'm probably making too much out of this but I know you all understand where I'm coming from and I want to stop it before it gets totally out of control...Sorry to come on here with this but I just had to get it out of my system... my insecurities as usual...ugh...
Sooooo the other day DH and DS and I went shopping, soehow we ended up in the lingerie section...I have never bought lingirie before lol (remember I have always en overweight) DH pointed a couple babydoll type items and said they were nice and I agree they were very nice but I just don't feel ready to wear something like that!! Now my question to you is how can I get over this? I'm pretty sure wives wear these for their husbands all the time, why can't I?
So yesterday at the rec center I went to the front counter to return a basketball DH had borrowed and the lady at the front desk said "wow you just keep getting tinier and tinier every time I see you" I was taken a by surprise, cause well I'm not really used to random compliments like that I just said "thanks, I still have a long way to go!" It was perfect timing for such comment because I was really feeling discouraged since the scale just won't budge, clothes are fitting much better though!! So thank you front counter lady!!
As we all know weekends are tough nutrition wise...they are for me anyway.
More so during summer months family, fun, sun and food.
So Friday my DS had a t-ball game (he played really well btw and had a good old time) I was snack smart and brought my own low cal popcorn to the game and all that and then ruined it with some candy that made my tummy ache Lesson learned, moving on...
Saturday was bad.....had a birthday party to take my son to so we went shopping for a gift in the am...kid wanted pizza for lunch and I caved in...I had planned on eating a "light" lunch knowing there would be tons of food at the party, well although I didn't eat much pizza I could have made a better choice "bad mommy"lol
burgers and hotdogs at the party, had one of each and some pasta salad...carb mania lol my son had an awesome time though. No birthday cake for this chick!!
Sunday fathers day I ate like it was my day though! Started the day out good with a green smoothie cooked (and ate) DHs fave breakfast chilaquiles and eggs, then I made sushi and lettuce wraps to take to my parents' house and well had a few more pieces of sushi than I intended...and 2 tacos and a couple of beers carbs carbs carbs!!!!!!!!!!
Good weekend, need more self control on portions!!!
Add 1 visit to starbucks on each one of these days btw
So Saturday we had my Grandpas 92nd birthday celebration, I got all dolled up and DH said "You look very pretty" he always says that so it was no big deal...the next morning we were getting ready to go and DH asks me "So, how much do you weight now?" I said "138-139ish why?" he said "You're looking great!" I said "ok thanks??" hubs "seriously, you are looking really thin and your hard work is paying off!!"