Tuesday, July 09, 2013
I imagine most people start a new year at the end of December. This year, I am starting it over on my birthday. On the 8th, I started a new job! This is the job I left to move to California, (or the same company) and I am finally going to be making strides financially to recover.
This week is my start a new year of my life week. I started a new chapter of my life. A new job brings promise, challenges, and mostly a new outlook on life. I am trying hard to make this change a positive one. After the last year, it is time to put myself back together and move on. It has been a slow process and the healing is still happening from everything, but slow progress is progress none the less right?
My bestie will be helping me in this journey again as I will be helping her. Accountability and check ins and my spark friends and my beachbody team will be there to keep me in check.
Starting over IS healthy, even if you have to start over every day.
Saturday, August 11, 2012
After looking at my page, I realized that I have not blogged since January. Maybe that is one of the reasons this journey has been going nowhere at all. Since I have only managed to remain active on one of my teams (and that one was lucky to get about one post a week), I want to apologize to all my Spark Friends out there.
Let me fill everyone in though. If you have read some of the updates and such on my friend feed, you will know that my boyfriend and I have broken up and I moved back to Indiana. It was quite a shock for me and I was pretty much blindsided. This happened in April/May and I moved back to my home state at the end of May. To say my life has been turned upside down is an understatement. I have struggled since May with stomach issues, anxiety, stress, and my RA seems to want to try and flare during all of this. I am trying to make Indiana my home again, although it is difficult. I loved the Bay Area so much and was so very happy there.
On top of all this, my father went into the hospital in February and to make a long story short, ended up having surgery on his neck in March. He has regained the ability to walk and has some use of his hands (which is a huge improvement over what he went in with), enough to feed himself. He will be having another surgery in September, this time to correct the spinal stenosis in his lumbar region.
I wonít go into details, but living at home at the age of 35 with parents that constantly fight (dad is going back on anti depressants this week thank goodness), and forget that you are a grown adult is quite Ö. Stressful. I am grateful they are letting me stay here to get back on my feet. I am blessed to have found a job so quickly (within 2 weeks of being home). I am truly trying to count my blessings rather than feel sorry for myself and at times that is extremely difficult. I am currently living in my motherís sewing room, with a twin size mattress and box springs on the floor, with a small table as my living space. My clothes are in a suitcase and duffel bag. I am hoping to pick up a second job here soon to help me get my bills in order and paid off and/or down in a much shorter time frame.
I will try and keep posting and keep everyone updated. This was an extremely short version of everything that has happened in my life the past few months. The good news? I have been bouncing around with the same 4-5 pounds the entire time. Which means I have not gained and have not let myself emotional eat too much! This is a huge milestone for me and I am forever grateful for Spark for helping me. I know I have not lost, but maintaining my weight within a few pounds after everything I have been through is a huge victory in my book!
So I apologize to everyone for not being around as much and I am hoping to change that. For my Twilight Challenge Team members who read this, I am ready for the BD2 Challenge we are preparing for and I am going to try my hardest to get down a couple sizes by November!!
Wednesday, January 04, 2012
I seem to be getting a tad bit better at the goal setting and actually making it happen! So I am putting my 2012 goals out there. I will be printing them off also, so I can post them where I can see them daily throughout the year. I totally reset all my stuff here on Spark, so all my previous tracking and measurements are gone. I am starting fresh for the new year!
1. I want to lose at least 35 pounds this year. My eventual goal is to lose 65 more pounds, but that is apparently to big a number for my brain right now. Losing 35 pounds will also put me at another small goal for me, which is to fit into my size 12 jeans (you guys know the ones--that one pair of jeans that do not stretch at all!!).
How: I will be utilizing my January partner from my Twilight Challenge Team, Mamachef, and also using text notifications to cry out for help! I will track my food at least 6 days a week, and stive to keep within the parameters Spark has set for me.
2. I want to run in a real 5K this year. Last year I was able to do the virtual one, and this year I want to experience a run with everyone else!
How: I am re-starting 5k training and taking it slow once again. I am dragging my boyfriend into this one also. I am gonna make him run it with me! We will find a race that we can afford and go from there!
3. I want a nice long streak of exercising 90 minutes or more a week. My record is only a lowly 10 weeks. This is something that I need to become consistent on anyhow. I have not been consistent with exercising in years.
How: I will start by going to the gym or apartment fitness center at least 3 times a week. If this is for my 5k training only to start, I will work up to cross training as the year moves along. I will start strength training at least 3 times a week (to start). I am wanting to join the January Challenge, as soon as I find out what is wrong with me knee.
4. Go to bed earlier.
How: Get the apartment cleaned up and kept clean. Prepare my lunches when I get home from work so I am not running around at midnight trying to get it all done right before I go to work. This will be hard for me to start, as I am a night owl by nature. Being off work for so long spoiled me rotten, and now I have to get back up to at least 6-7 hours of regular sleep.
I am also going to try and post monthly goals for myself and keep those posted on the fridge where I can see them every time I want to go mindlessly eat on the weekends or at night.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
So I have not blogged since my Twilight Challenge Team's 100 day countdown to Breaking Dawn. Such a long time, and I know that I need to do this more often. I was losing faster when blogging.
I am finally employed full time AND part time, and we are currently looking for a cheaper apartment. Hoping January brings us a new (and much less expensive) place to live.
It is hard to believe that Christmas is less than a week away. It has not seemed like Christmas since I moved west--I am wondering if the warmer winters are having that effect on me! I have our tree up, it is small, but cute. I got mom's package yesterday, with all the presents (and homemade peanut butter cookies) from the family. At least we will have a few presents under the tree!
I am grateful that I did not have to move back to Indiana. I am thankful for finally finding full time work, even though it will take us a move and a few months to be fully caught up with bills. If we can move in with a friend it will save us a nice $500 a month. Rent out here is exorbitant. We are looking for just ourselves though. Hoping that something comes up soon!
I have missed being on here, and last week I worked about a total of 60 hours. Going from about 15 hours a week to 60 something was overwhelming! I have tomorrow off paid though from my new job, so I can get caught up on some sleep and get some stuff done for the weekend. For the record, working retail during the holidays kinda stinks.
So, hoping after this week i will be able to catch back up with everyone and my work load will slow down to about 50 hours a week. Catching back up on here is the main thing. I am still figuring out how to work in fitness minutes, as I pretty much drop into bed at night right now. Since I work retail, and have worked the shipment and replenishment (ie--moving and carrying boxes all around the store and constantly twisting and turning to fill the shelves with product) I am and have been getting my heart rate up, but not sure just how much. I have arm muscles again--small but they are there! woot!
I hope everyone is having a great holiday season, and wish the best to everyone!
Tuesday, October 04, 2011
I figured I would knock everything out in one place for this one!
We had a list this week that spelled out ALICE for our Weekly Challenge in our Breaking Dawn Challenge!
A-Accomplishment (non-scale victory) -- I do my measurements at the beginning of every month, and today when I did my measurements, I had definitely lost in places! My running and strength training (which I have just recently started getting consistent with) is starting to pay off again! Hoping by end of challenge I will be able to fit my jeans again!
L--List-write down everything I can think of besides eat and post it! This was kind of easy for me as I have pictures posted on the fridge of me in high school and when I was down at my lowest weight around 125. One of my vision collages is also posted on my fridge!
I--Incentive--Plan a reward for the release of BD! My reward is going to be a new pair of shoes and a mani or pedi--depending on my cash situation!
C--Challenge ourselves this week to do something we haven't done. This past week I finished week 6 and started week 7 today of my running program. That is something that I never DREAMED I would be able to do. I ran for 4 minutes at a stretch today, and next week is week 8!!
E--Expand my knowledge and tell my team about it. I read an article the other day in my Shape Magazine (bought a few months ago-well, November of 2010) about salt/sodium and how in the long term it can really be damaging to our systems. By cutting back to 1500mg a day, it could prevent up to 92,000 deaths a year from heart disease, stroke, and other illnesse.s. I was floored by that and not only that, but the fact that it is such an accumulative effect on our bodies over time.
I didn't do the Burpee part of this challenge. There is something similar to the ones in some of Coach Nicole's videos and when I tried them, my hip started screaming at me. So that is something that I will be working my way up to! I will be trying to get to the point I can do that!
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