Thursday, August 29, 2013
It seems like forever since I've been on SP. And looking at my last blog post, it really has been a long time.
I've been meaning to write this blog for a few weeks now and always seem to get sidetracked. Tonight, while I'm eating my after dinner yogurt I'm going to finally do some catching up.
Back at the end of June I took a huge leap of faith and moved from Oregon to Nevada. I packed up a moving POD with my family's essentials, both household and emotional, and hopped a plane.
I had reached a point in my life where I was tired of being stagnant and never taking any chances. I knew I had my best friend and some family in Reno for support. Since becoming an adult I have never taken any leaps of faith, left my comfort zone or even attempted anything adventurous. I had become lifeless. I couldn't find a job, I was starting to do well with my health program but still felt like I was lacking something. I had also come to realize that it was not healthy for me to live in a state where 8 months out of the year I felt like I needed to be medicated because of SAD.
As of this moment, I can honestly say this has been the best decision of my life. One of my children isn't happy, but someday he will realize that this was a better decision than staying. Within two weeks I had a full time job. Within a month and a half I had a place to call home.
Not all of this journey was sunshine and roses, but I weathered through it. It took a huge emotional toll, which people couldn't understand. Through all the emotional crises, I managed to keep my health goals in mind. Even though I was staying with friends and family, I managed to lose 6 lbs.
I didn't succumb to my old habits. I'm very appreciative of my water habit now that we are in a much hotter climate!
It's coming up on a month since we've been in our new place. It's not what I had hoped for when I decided to move, but it's home. I feel like I'm finally settling into a routine.
The downfall? I once again moved into a neighborhood where everything is uphill! The good side-it hasn't taken long for me to adjust to those hills thanks to the ones I was used to climbing in Oregon.
There are still things I'm adjusting to. Like the altitude change, all the smoke in the air, and the fact that the sun definitely burns brighter here! (We won't talk about the weird sunburn my poor Oregon skin got the first weekend we were here).
All in all, I am very pleased with my decision to move. It's opened my eyes, made me more appreciative for those around me and has made it possible for me to finally start moving beyond my past.
Thursday, June 06, 2013
Two years ago I started up again on SP. I had big goals and started out strong, like most people do. I was doing great, but lost my focus. I still logged in, still did minimal exercise, but started eating poorly again. Lots of fast food, lots of processed foods. All the things that have kept me stuck for so long.
Even though I had let quite a few old habits creep back in, I stuck with getting all my water in every day. I still logged in, spun the wheel and read articles.
I still have weeks, and sometimes a whole month where I don't do as well as I'd like. I still keep coming back. Each time I fall down, I learn something new.
Sometimes I'm a slow learner. Especially when that takes me outside of my comfort zone, which has been to stuff my emotions and eat. Lately all those articles, all those blogs and posts are starting to sink in.
Even with my setbacks, I've made a lot of progress in areas I didn't think were important to this journey. My mind is more open, and I've let go of a lot of emotional baggage that was keeping me stuck.
All of these little victories are adding up to bigger successes for me. Sometimes throughout the day I'll notice something and just stop to let it sink in.
Like this morning. I have been packing for our upcoming move. Yesterday I moved a queen sized mattress set down the stairs by myself (the kids were at school and I wanted it done!). I cleaned the garage, rode my bike, and later that night my daughter and I moved the mattress set out to the curb to be hauled off. Two years ago, even a year ago, this would have put me out for days. I was sore last night, but not so sore that I couldn't move. I was tired, but a good tired. After a rest break, I was able to get up and do more packing and cleaning.
I expected to wake up extremely sore and tired, my mind had already retreated back to my old way of thinking that I had overextended my energy and wouldn't be able to do anything the next day. I was wrong! I fell asleep earlier than normal, got a wonderful night's sleep and woke up with a ton of energy. My legs are still a little sore, but nothing that can't be stretched out.
This is why I keep logging in, drinking my water, and keep working on eating better, even if the weight isn't coming off. Because two years ago I would have given the day up for lost and laid around all day. I wouldn't have had the energy to do all the things I did yesterday. I wouldn't be strong enough to haul mattresses, dressers and boxes all day long.
I'm physically and mentally stronger than I was two years ago. I'm tougher, and happier. I don't groan about doing physical activity.
I still have a way to go, but every I'm loving the surprises of feeling good every day.
Sunday, June 02, 2013
So, May sucked big time. I lost focus and let my emotions and old habits reign free. I took my measurements today, and gained in almost every place. Except my neck. I actually lost 1/2". I didn't really set any goals for May, and that affected my efforts. I forget how important it is to set those goals, and how they help keep me accountable.
For June, I'm refocusing all my efforts. I'm writing my goals out and putting them on the fridge. I'm rededicating time to actually track what I eat. I will quit letting my brain talk me out of doing my ST.
The only problem with June, we are moving out of state on the 21st. That doesn't mean I can't stick with my goals, it just means that I am really going to have to be aware of what I'm doing and not get distracted.
With that being said, my June goals:]
1) Absolutely no fast food. I've tried cutting it out slowly, and that's not working. I'm just going to have to go cold turkey on this one.
2) Work on getting sugar out of my diet. Read labels, and avoid anything with sugar(or any of the equivalents) as one of the first three ingredients.
3) Get back to ST 3x a week.
4) Water, water, water!
5) Add to my exercise routine.
6) Set daily goals for eating, exercising and daily activities.
7) Start making weekly meal plans, and sticking to them.
8) Find at least one positive event that happened for the day!!
9) Look in the mirror in the morning, and tell myself one reason why I'm worth getting healthy.
10) Journal. I may change this to journaling first thing in the morning instead of waiting until bedtime. I always crawl into bed and then remember that I didn't journal. By that time, I don't want to get back out of bed and do it. I'm still journaling more than in the past, but I'd like to get it up to a daily habit.
11) Spend less time on the computer.
Okay, I think I can manage all these for the month! I am bound and determined to get some inches and fat off my body this month!
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Yesterday was my birthday. Normally not a big deal to me, but I've been super stressed lately, anxious and feeling unappreciated. I've been doing very well controlling my emotional eating, but yesterday I made up for it.
The bad news I binged, and I got sick with a stomach ache last night and my head was feeling weird. I didn't get a sugar high, but my body crashed like I had. I was lethargic but couldn't sleep, grouchy and had a super dry mouth.
The good news is that I haven't had a sugar binge in almost six months and definitely not one like yesterday's, and last night while I was in bed I realized that I used to feel like that ALL THE TIME! I don't like feeling like that anymore. The fact that I was able to say "Hey, you ate like crap today and look how it is making you feel", is kind of a big step for me.
Before I wouldn't have associated the nasty way my body was feeling with the food I had eaten, but last night I was able to. I don't know how to explain the way I felt at that moment, but it was sort of like when you're working on a puzzle and you have all these pieces that look the same but none of them quite fit right and then you find the piece that matches and you get excited and then feel a sense of accomplishment because that piece put you one step closer to finally seeing the whole picture.
I still have many other puzzle pieces to "find" and put in their proper place, but I'm okay with that.
Today I'm back on track, drinking my water and eating healthy foods so I can help my body feel and work the way it's supposed to.
Tuesday, May 07, 2013
Since putting away my scale I am strictly relying on NSV's to show my progress. I have to say that I'm happy with the decision, and the results. I think my current NSV is my favorite. Yesterday I had a busy, active day. In the past, even the recent past, I would have been sore the next day. Today, I'm feeling good. Even my knee that was bothering me yesterday at the end of the day feels back to normal this morning.
Since January, my NSV's are:
1) Down a pants size. Still tight, but getting more comfortable every week.
2) I was finally able to buy a smaller size underwear! When you have to stop and pull up your undies every few steps, it's a sign they are getting too big.
3) I've lost a total of 6 inches. It may not seem like a lot, but every inch helps.
4) I can comfortably sleep on my stomach again!!!
5) When taking progress pictures, my back fat is decreasing and my shape is coming back.
6) I need to buy a smaller shoe size, again.
7) I'm actually starting to increase my daily veggie intake because I want to, not because I have to.
8) My plantars fascitiis is getting much better. It's now only in my left foot instead of both feet, which makes walking and moving much easier.
9) I'm journaling more and dealing with the emotional issues that have kept me stuck for so long.
10) I've increased my ST work out time and have added some new exercises to it. Now I just need to remember to track it!
11) I have more energy than last year. Fall and Winter used to see me sleeping the days away while the kids were at school. This past year, that rarely happened. I was up cleaning and taking care of business instead of feeling depressed and tired all the time.
Sure, my ticker doesn't move down with pounds dropping off, but I kind of like these results better. I've been working very hard to change my mindset from losing weight to being healthy. Taking the focus off my weight and putting it onto my overall health is making this much easier for me.
Eventually I will break out the scale again just to see what it says, but not util I choose to. It won't be because everyone else tells me that's the only way I will know if anything is changing. I have proof that my body is changing for the better every single day.
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