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Overwhelmed

Sunday, July 18, 2010

I am overwhelmed by the response of my last blog entry. I never really thought anyone reads these, so it's amazing that it was picked to be a popular blog post. I truly appreciate all the comments that everyone has left. It helped me to realize what a tremendous support system this really is. Thank you all so much!

  
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THATS_LOVELY101 7/20/2010 5:53PM

    It's a great realization to have. Happy for you! Way to go!

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I'm Not Fat!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

I went on a run and walk tonight just to relieve stress and get in some extra steps. While I was on my run, I had the thought, "I'm not fat". What was weird about thinking this was that I didn't immediately have 3 other thoughts attacking that one. It seems that I actually believe that I'm not fat now. It was such an intense moment of realization for me, but it's something so simple. I felt like yelling it out loud. It was liberating and powerful. I am growing stronger everyday, both physically and mentally, and I'm proud of myself. And now I can fully realize that. :-)

  
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ANDYLIN90 9/16/2010 1:13AM

    Wow, I get it! What a moment for you when you were able to truly see yourself. Congratulations.

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PANFRIEDTROUT 7/24/2010 7:20PM

    w00 h000!! emoticon

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MASE72 7/23/2010 1:07PM

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KIN59VARA 7/23/2010 9:53AM

    Yell it from the rooftops!

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LIVELOVELAUGH79 7/22/2010 1:21PM

    amazing feeling isn't it...so freeing. Congrats

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NYARAMULA 7/21/2010 1:06AM

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RANDOM00B 7/20/2010 5:36PM

    Yes!!!

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NORDAKOTA 7/20/2010 9:59AM

    Yeah --you are NOT fat!!

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TONISTRELEC 7/20/2010 9:01AM

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HAPPYNSMILING 7/20/2010 7:30AM

    emoticon And it feels so good, don't it? Keep it up!!!

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WEMINICH 7/20/2010 5:37AM

  I love that feeling!

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LESSISMORE2010 7/19/2010 10:04PM

    That is great! Next time you feel like yelling it, GO FOR IT! You deserve it :)

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CBACH71 7/19/2010 6:51PM

    Fantastic! Keep up the positive thoughts!

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KARENE10 7/19/2010 5:58PM

    AWESOME!!!!

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THINKNPRETTY 7/19/2010 2:38PM

    Awesome feeling!

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WEIGHTDIP 7/19/2010 12:50PM

    That's a great thought for all of us today.

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DACSAC 7/19/2010 11:23AM

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HEALTHY-BEAR 7/19/2010 11:21AM

    Isn't that kind the ultimate goal that most of us are looking for, feeling good about yourself? Congratulations!!!

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NABDULSABOOR 7/19/2010 11:19AM

    think positive to be positive

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KRYSTAL234 7/19/2010 10:31AM

    keep up the hard work!

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CINDY1TWO3 7/19/2010 9:59AM

    Wonderful! I am glad your mind caught up with your body. I can't wait until I can get thin and then realize it.

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MOMMAPEARLS62 7/19/2010 9:00AM

  Changing a mindset is an awesome goal. emoticon emoticon

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JACKKELL 7/18/2010 11:51PM

    Fantastic!!! I can't wait to feel the same thing!! I'll get there!! Way to go!!!
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LUBAML 7/18/2010 11:28PM

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PAVLEJOBY 7/18/2010 10:50PM

  You are brave!

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TCICHOWSKI 7/18/2010 10:11PM

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AGENTNER 7/18/2010 9:46PM

    How long did it take you to come to that conclusion....that is the place that I would like to find in my mental battle. Only it feels like everyone keeps telling me I am fat...do you have any suggestions to help me find my inner peace???

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LOSINGITALL4ME 7/18/2010 9:45PM

    Keep up the positive thoughts! Awesome!

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SLEEKKITTY 7/18/2010 7:29PM

    It takes awhile for the mind to catch up with the new body, congrats,

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IAM_HIS2 7/18/2010 6:47PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon So happy for you -- enjoy your new self!!!

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TOSTAYHEALTHY 7/18/2010 6:29PM

    Your insight is remarkable. Look forward to reading more blogs.

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Sandy :)

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ELLAPOR 7/18/2010 5:57PM

  emoticon Way to go!

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DEVINEGODDESS 7/18/2010 5:47PM

    emoticon It's awesome that you have a great new mindset!!! Many congratulations to you on this and on your weight loss!!!

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SMILESALOT4 7/18/2010 5:29PM

  Congratulations! emoticon

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ROSEREDD58 7/18/2010 1:37PM

    Keep up the good work and positive thoughts!With that attitude anything is possibe!

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LACIEBARBER 7/18/2010 1:33PM

    Good for you Amanda!!!!

Great positive self-motivation!

Lacie

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ADIPOSEROSE 7/18/2010 12:48PM

    "Whether you think you can or you can't--you're right." That applies to how you see yourself, too, Al. I know I'm far from "not fat," but I'm 30-odd pounds "not fatter" than I was, and starting to like the lady in the mirror again. Oh, she still has work to do, to release the beautiful woman who's been trapped in the cold marble for so long at last, but *I* see the changes in me, and I've stopped worrying about whether anyone else does. It's taken me two decades to get back to where I was before I helped life do this to me (and mostly, like it or not, did this to myself) but that girl in the goal picture on my page isn't as far away as she used to be. I'll never be 38 again . . . and the blouse I was wearing (which I made myself) is long gone . . . but I suspect that when we stop seeing ourselves as fat and undesirable and unworthy, others do, too.

BRAVO on your "corporal restructuring," and more importantly, on your decision to like that beautiful lady in the mirror after all! emoticon

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SPARKIE1964 7/18/2010 12:31PM

    AMEN!

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SUNNY1432 7/18/2010 12:27PM

    emoticon Amazing what a positive attitude can do you a person! Congrats on finding that in yourself! emoticon emoticon

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DESERTDREAMERS 7/18/2010 11:28AM

    Many congrats on the new life-think! emoticon

I'm still "fat" - but no longer obese or morbidly obese. I have hopes of soon being in a normal BMI. I laugh when I see my shadow when I'm walking my dogs - who is that skinnier thing?

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AUSSIECOLE 7/18/2010 11:10AM

  Congratulations on finding a new mindset. May those nasty self defeating thoughts stay far away.

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DEPAULGIRL09 7/18/2010 10:51AM

    Awesome!!

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JOY1918 7/18/2010 9:41AM

    emoticonon this discovery and your achievements. emoticon

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MESEATURTLE 7/18/2010 7:49AM

    That i believe is the ultimate liberating feeling!!!!

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RETIRED4NOW 7/18/2010 7:03AM

  Way to go. So often we tend to beat ourselves for being human and have downfalls on the way to being someone better. I know I am guilty of that. I hope I get to the place you are at right now.

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NANHBH 7/18/2010 2:16AM

    So often, self-hatred is behind our weight issues. I do believe you have crossed over to self-love! Awesome! Good luck on your journey.

Be well,
Nancy
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The Run and Lindora

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

I just realized that I hadn't updated after I ran my 10K mud run. It went really well. My friend who I signed up with didn't train as much as I had, so I ended up walking more than I would have otherwise because I didn't want to ditch her. We had a blast. It was much harder than we thought it would be, but we made it in an hour and 43 minutes which I think is pretty good for two non-runners through the mud and over and around obstacles. We're doing it again next year. It helped me to feel and realize that I am strong, powerful, and beautiful. I loved the exhileration!

This week marked the beginning of a "diet". My parents both lost 35 lbs. last year on the Lindora program and know that I have been trying to lose weight as well, so they ordered me the online program for Christmas. Since I was in the middle of training for the race (and still breastfeeding my daughter), they knew I wouldn't be able to actually start the program until about this month. I was hoping that I would lose all the weight I wanted to as a result of training for the race (and I have lost a LOT, but still have those last pesky 4 lbs.). Anyway, so I decided to start the program just to see what it was like to eat a high-protein, low-carb/calorie/fat diet. I'm hoping to lose those last four pounds for sure, but I'm also hoping for a greater awareness of how things like protein and carbs affect my body. I've never tried to limit or cut anything completely out of my diet before (I'm more of an "all things in moderation" kind of girl) so this will be quite an experience for me. Here's my Lindora journal entry for today:

"I am so glad this is the last prep day! I feel like I've been eating SOOO much. It's actually been really hard to get in such big meals, snacks, and all the water that I've been drinking. So far I'm doing pretty well. Excited to get going on the protein days but nervous as well. It'll be the first time in my life that I've ever even thought about limiting my carbs (which I love so much)! I can do this though. And it's not like I have tons of weight to lose. I'm really in it for the lifestyle change and changing my thinking to healthier habits. I just need to be more aware of what exactly I'm putting into my body. Here we go!"

So that's it. Tomorrow is my first day of all protein and very limited carbs. Nervous and excited. Wish me luck!

  


God's Provision

Thursday, May 06, 2010

I was on my run last night and just happened to start thinking about how God knows what we need better than we do. I thought I needed a weight machine- He gave me dumbbells. I thought I needed to take fancy classes at a gym (requiring a gym membership)- He gave me great workout videos (thank you, Jillian Michaels). I thought I needed a treadmill- He gave me a safe neighborhood to run in. It's funny how many things we "need" in life that we're just fine without. Last night, I ran 5K for the first time and I feel really good about myself. I don't think it would have happened if I would have had a gym membership or treadmill (I find it sooo hard to be motivated while running on a treadmill). I have officially lost 16 lbs and am 4 lbs away from my goal. I'm amazed and impressed with how far I've come. So, my conclusion (which I've known all along, but need to be reminded of sometimes) is that God knows what we need and is our Great Provider.

  
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RETIRED4NOW 7/18/2010 7:06AM

  God looks down on his children - and, knows what they need. What a wonderful Master we have. With him, you can accomplish anything.

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DARINGR8LY 7/8/2010 4:21PM

    I'm sure he was smiling when you wrote this blog. To want what the Lord wants for us is true happiness.

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HONEYBEEDEBBIE 5/6/2010 11:52AM

    What a wonderful God we serve! If He gave me everything I "thought" I needed, I would be in such a mess! Sometimes, I am like a spoiled child, "GIVE ME WHAT I WANT!!!" I'm so thankful He is a good Father to me, and is patient with me.

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Running

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

As of the first of the year, my husband and I (along with my dad and a couple of our friends) are signed up to run the Camp Pendleton 10K Mud Run this June. In light of that, I have really stepped up my running routine. Saturday, I even managed to run my husband's four mile route! I didn't run the entire time, because I'm not used to running up hills, or for that distance, but I made it in 48 minutes, which I don't think is too bad. I'm excited for all the progress I've been making. A couple weeks ago, I had to go buy smaller jeans because my post-preggo jeans are now too big. I'm still waiting to fit into the pre-preggo jeans, but I feel like I'm on my way! Just a quick update since I haven't spent much time on here lately!

  


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