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It's an ill wind . . .

Saturday, December 26, 2009

I was laid up with flu over this holiday and whilst it was no fun, I am no great lover of Christmas - (yeah - I know - 'terrible' - 'spoilsport' - etc) - and it kept me away from the jollity and from the FOOD - hoorah!!!! No temptation to eat or drink anything much - so through no virtue on my part I kept to the food plan. Wish I could claim that I was 'good' but actually all I was was flu-ridden.

Trouble is I'll probably make up for it at New Year, which I love. I'll just have to summon some genuine fortitude and stick to my resolutions!

  
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TSEWARD 12/29/2009 7:02PM

    Thinking of you and so glad you are feeling better! I am sad you were sick, but glad you made it through the holiday with a great platform of healthy eating. Your great habits will help you during your next holiday.
Hope you are having a great start to your week!

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MADDE3333 12/28/2009 8:19AM

    Sorry to hear you were sick! I am glad you are feeling better.

I think we need to enjoy the holidays and realize we are human. Taking one or two bites, and tossing it away is going to be my motto from now until after New Year's.

Madde
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Food planning . . .

Monday, December 21, 2009

. . . or not!

I have a new scheme to keep me on track while I'm busy running up to Christmas and doing a lot of worthwhile but to me boring domestic chores.

I started going off track out of boredom with household tasks and the new plan, which I read about in one of the million discarded diet books I have accumulutated, is to eat a healthy breakfast with plenty of protein - at the table and NOT on the run. Immediately after that I must commit to a definite period of time before the next snack. I MUST eat that snack exactly as planned at the correct time and nothing before that time. Then I commit to a lunch and a lunch-time etc etc. Sounds reasonable and I just thought I'd see if it works for me.

All of that - time spent on decisions and skeleton planning - was last night and I was quite looking forward to starting a new eating approach this morning. Except that I woke up feeling terrible and the last thing I am able to do is eat. I feel so bad that I have an appointment with the Dr tomorrow - not like me at all.

I remember my elder son saying to me when he had disappointing results in primary school - 'Oh no Mummy - even when I try . . . . . .' Just how I feel right now.

  
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TSEWARD 12/25/2009 2:51PM

    Oh my! I am thinking of you and I hope you are feeling better. Thank you for stopping by and for the goodie. I hope you have a great time with friends and family.....and that you haven't run out of towels for the guests yet. :) Looking forward to hearing from you when all the hubub is over.
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My airing cupboard

Sunday, December 20, 2009

About 18 months ago I declared war on my airing cupboard – well actually on myself if truth be told. All my bedlinen and towels etc were in fact on the shelves but higgledy piggledy in no order and the more I searched for things the worse it all got of course. It’s a big cupboard with space for a drying rack and very warm. Great as I live in a flat with no outside drying space – except it was not easy to get to the drying rack. So I set about it on the understanding (with myself) that I would keep it in tidy piles of everything – each pile with a place of its own. And I did for a while.
I went through the same process with the freezer – binned some food - de-frosted (and about time too!!) and made a promise to myself that I would de-frost regularly.
I am generally not a good housekeeper – my philosophy is – ‘Oh that’ll do – other things in my life are more important’. Today I have proved that is not so. I HAD to deal with the freezer which had almost more ice – and that snowy stuff that grows in freezers – as there is outside. Unusually we had six inches of snow two days ago and now it has frozen solid. In both cases it’s hard to get rid of.
I have quite a few people coming to stay over Christmas so I need room in the freezer first and foremost and I have had to dig into the airing cupboard to find a lot of decent matching bedlinen for all of the bedrooms. All of it has driven me mad – quite unnecessarily.
The conclusion (and the reason for this blog) is that I am hopelessly inconsistent. Of course the airing cupboard and freezer are so-o much easier to deal with than the 50lb I need to lose. Inconsistency means two steps forward and three back in a much bigger ways than mislaid sheets and towels on a few shelves. I am on my way to the second backward step if I am not careful.
When I’m happy and busy as I have been in the last few days visiting my sons and their families I stick to the food plan – the exercise is kind of taken care of by my energetic grandson and everything is hunky dory – or at least guilt-free.
One day back at home – ONE day only – bored to death by domesticity, and therefore diving into the Christmas goodies which I so enjoyed baking and I am going to be in trouble with the scales – and also the guests - if I don’t stop NOW.
All this for lack of self discipline. I know - get back on track pronto - and I WILL because I want to get to where I want to get to. I just wish right now that I had a magic wand for the Spark journey, the freezer and the airing cupboard.

  
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TSEWARD 12/20/2009 9:38PM

    Wow, you have a lot going on! Your home is going to be so warm and welcome to your guests. I appreciate your comment on my page...I will take your advice. As I read it I remembered this strategy helping in the past. Getting started with a careful healthy breakfast is so important to the days success! If I start out with a sugar shock or no protein, I am sure to be on the sugar roller coaster all day. I am visiting stopbeingsweet.com again, as this site helps a lot. I wish you could see my linen closet! wow. would make yours look fantastic. I agree, though, that consistency is so important, and that inconsistency in one area can affect another. Sounds like you are doing great adjusting to the transition to home and the daily hum-dwa chores that must be done. Have fun with your guests!

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HOWDOIHEARTTHEE 12/20/2009 12:23PM

    Hang in there....have a Merry Christmas.

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Recouping . . .

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

. . . . thanks to you wonderful Sparkers. Several kind and bracing comments on my self-pitying blog made me re-think my day and get on with it.

SO -

Yesterday: stopped moaning about my bad weekend - did extra exercise - took care over food - generally kicked myself in the backside - planned better ways to deal with difficult situations.

This morning: nearly 1 pound gone of the three that I put on over the weekend. So that's that - I'll work my way down the rest and it will all be done and dusted.

Now just need to stick to a resolution to avoid doing that again - it's bad for my process here and ultra bad for my psyche – though I don’t expect miracles.

Must just add that were it not for you lovely lot I would quite possibly have faded off the website in shame because these things always seem to me like the end of the world. As it is I will just plough on. So - thank you Spark friends.

  
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PATIPAJ 12/18/2009 8:43PM

    If I haven't learned anything else from my life, its that
I AM NOT PERFECT! I wrote a blog on that, by the way.
A stellar performance is not something I even aim for anymore.
I just want to stay in the game and each day I will SWEEP!
I like little quotes. Like this one:
"It isn't the mountain ahead that is wearing me down,
Its the grain of sand in my shoe" Well, how silly is that?
I rest my case.



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TSEWARD 12/15/2009 9:51PM

    You are welcome! I agree...I would have given up long ago if not for the right word at the right time from my Spark Friends. Including you! I really needed the reminder to focus on what I am doing right. I did some things better today, others, not so good. Instead of the beat myself up blog I planned, I plan to list what I did right along with what I could do better.

One of the things I love about the UK is that it is the home of Wallace and Grommit and Shaun the Sheep. These claymation cartoons are so much better than anything I have seen come out of the USA thus far for kid shows. And I enjoy them too! (Kid at heart)

Thanks for checking in on me!

Hugs,
tseward

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Very disappointed in myself . . .

Monday, December 14, 2009

A very bad weekend. No point in going into details - a weekend away with a friend and more food than I have had for many weeks sums it up. I thought I was prepared and I don't how I let it happen. All I can do is put it behind me and get back on track.

The lesson to learn is how bad I've made myself feel both physically and psychologically.

A BIT LATER: Thanks to wonderful Spark comments I re-read this and saw how negative it is. SO. . . despite feeling bad today - entirely self-inflicted obviously - I am upping the exercise and making something positive come of something negative. Also reflecting on how things could have been different.

  
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TANITHSTILES 12/14/2009 10:39PM

  Hi Sweetie,

Awesome that you turned it around. Smart woman keep it up! So glad to have read this today and that you're learning to focus on the positive. It really will get you further than you've gone before.

Much love across the distance,
tanith



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TSEWARD 12/14/2009 1:24PM

    Sounds like you are handling your weekend aftermath very well...Isn't it awesome to hear our spark friends talk back to the negative stuff in our head? I too had a bad weekend...K make that week. My calories have been in the multiple thousands and my bad habits have reared their ugly heads. thank you for sharing your change to a positive mindset!
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LINDA25427 12/14/2009 9:07AM

    I ate 2 pieces of kentucky fried chicken yesterday it was brought to the house along with all the fixing .I didn't eat anything else but the chicken and I took the skin off it but it was 740 calories for just the chicken I should have left that bird in the bucket , but it was so good ... all we can do is pick ourselves up dust ourselves off and start all over again . The one good thing is I got protein that my body needed . Smile it's not the end of the world . Take care . Hugs emoticon

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LKWQUILTER 12/14/2009 8:06AM

    Hey, we are human and do "mess up" every now and then. You know what you did, it is in the past, and now go forward. Admitting, accepting, and forgiving yourself is big steps toward not doing it again (as bad). That is what I tell myself. ((HUGS))

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ROBBIE53 12/14/2009 7:41AM

    Don't dwell on it and don't beat yourself up. Put it behind you and move on. Everyone has a slip up once in a while.

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SKEPCHICK 12/14/2009 7:29AM

  Look at what happened, specifically, and see if you can figure out why it happened. See if you can extract info that will give you a plan to handle a similar situation in the future. Were you served trigger foods? Were you taken aback by the amount of food placed before you? Did your friend make all this food, and you felt socially obligated to overeat to show your approval of her efforts?

Simply letting yourself feel bad is not all that productive unless you also learn something about how to avoid a repeat or at least how to limit the damage if you face something like this again.

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