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Very disappointed in myself . . .

Monday, December 14, 2009

A very bad weekend. No point in going into details - a weekend away with a friend and more food than I have had for many weeks sums it up. I thought I was prepared and I don't how I let it happen. All I can do is put it behind me and get back on track.

The lesson to learn is how bad I've made myself feel both physically and psychologically.

A BIT LATER: Thanks to wonderful Spark comments I re-read this and saw how negative it is. SO. . . despite feeling bad today - entirely self-inflicted obviously - I am upping the exercise and making something positive come of something negative. Also reflecting on how things could have been different.

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TANITHSTILES 12/14/2009 10:39PM

  Hi Sweetie,

Awesome that you turned it around. Smart woman keep it up! So glad to have read this today and that you're learning to focus on the positive. It really will get you further than you've gone before.

Much love across the distance,

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TSEWARD 12/14/2009 1:24PM

    Sounds like you are handling your weekend aftermath very well...Isn't it awesome to hear our spark friends talk back to the negative stuff in our head? I too had a bad weekend...K make that week. My calories have been in the multiple thousands and my bad habits have reared their ugly heads. thank you for sharing your change to a positive mindset!

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LINDA25427 12/14/2009 9:07AM

    I ate 2 pieces of kentucky fried chicken yesterday it was brought to the house along with all the fixing .I didn't eat anything else but the chicken and I took the skin off it but it was 740 calories for just the chicken I should have left that bird in the bucket , but it was so good ... all we can do is pick ourselves up dust ourselves off and start all over again . The one good thing is I got protein that my body needed . Smile it's not the end of the world . Take care . Hugs emoticon

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LKWQUILTER 12/14/2009 8:06AM

    Hey, we are human and do "mess up" every now and then. You know what you did, it is in the past, and now go forward. Admitting, accepting, and forgiving yourself is big steps toward not doing it again (as bad). That is what I tell myself. ((HUGS))

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ROBBIE53 12/14/2009 7:41AM

    Don't dwell on it and don't beat yourself up. Put it behind you and move on. Everyone has a slip up once in a while.

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SKEPCHICK 12/14/2009 7:29AM

  Look at what happened, specifically, and see if you can figure out why it happened. See if you can extract info that will give you a plan to handle a similar situation in the future. Were you served trigger foods? Were you taken aback by the amount of food placed before you? Did your friend make all this food, and you felt socially obligated to overeat to show your approval of her efforts?

Simply letting yourself feel bad is not all that productive unless you also learn something about how to avoid a repeat or at least how to limit the damage if you face something like this again.

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Plodding on thanks to SparkPeople

Friday, December 11, 2009

I don’t blog enough – principally because I only really want to grizzle about slow progress and how boring is that for everyone?

I really hoped to be 14lb down today – yeah – I know – strange number but I’m in the UK and am accustomed to significant goals being identified by each stone lost. Anyway I’m not there. I’ve been up and down the same few pounds for a while and I decided to weigh in every 2 weeks and faithfully resist stepping on the scales in between- to give myself a chance so to speak. Spose I’ve also been undereating – gently - in an effort to stop my mini yo-yo-ing and get down through my first stone. No - don't descend on me like Alice's pack of cards - I just thought that it would make me feel better.

I felt I was doing OK but such is human nature that last night – not any old night - the night before the Great Weigh-In – I just ate far too much. Sabotaging myself? Or did my system just scream – ‘ENOUGH!!! Food is needed!’ Either way the lesson is learned. As another Sparker wrote on a board (thank you VandaLee) ‘We need to do what we need to do every day. One day at a time. One step at a time’. That really went to my heart. It was actually in connection with exercise – but to it I would add – one meal at a time.

In the meantime I am actually now in the high 100s - (pounds) rather than the low 200s and my BMI is into 'Overweight' (just) rather than 'Obese' so that is a small achievement.

Other achievements are that I am learning something about portion control – that an omelette – especially filled – only needs to be one large egg and not two. Large portions of vegetables make small portions of meat just as filling – and actually I do love vegetables. I have started making vegetable soup with beans for protein – not high in calories and very filling. Can even be a snack in small amounts.

And exercise – my greatest problem. I’ve got it now - do what needs doing every day – however tired – however unmotivated. JUST DO IT!!!! Even if I don’t enjoy it it’s a means to better health and less weight. And it is getting easier. Also – I have to say – my little grandson loves it when I do it. Sometimes he joins in but mostly he giggles like a maniac, saying – ‘that’s SILLY Granny!’ May just change my name on here to SILLYGRANNY.

So two lessons learned – two small steps forward. That ‘s what Spark is all about. Taking information and inspiration from the articles and from the great tips and motivation on the message boards and putting it to good use. Also the pleasure of using personal experience to gee someone else up when they’re in trouble with themselves – or cheer them on when they’re doing well - as others do for me. All of that means that I don’t have the slightest intention of giving up despite setbacks. This is not normally my case – ‘normally’ I abandon ship as soon as it gets difficult or disappointing.

The other thing is Healthy Reflections. They never fail to make me think and often they give me flashes of insight into my black soul which inspire me to work on myself and consider all sorts of things – not just my unhealthy lifestyle.


I just lu-urve Spark.

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SHCUTTER 12/13/2009 9:04PM

    Great inspiring blog post!

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TRENTDREAMER 12/11/2009 7:33PM

    "I just lu-urve Spark."
* Me too! Thank you for your comment on my post yesterday. I really appreciate your encouragement.

ns on your progress so far. Going below 200 and moving out of the Obest range (or "O-Town" as I like to call it) is actually a huge accomplishment. I was dancing on the ceiling when my BMI fell below 30 and can't wait to be able to start my weight with "one hundred..."

When I was in my last plateau, trying to break 220, it just seemed like the day before weigh-in I would do something to keep me above (usually eating out). It really was frustrating.

Kudos to you for keeping/plodding on. Continued success to you!

- TD

p.s. SILLYGRANNY would be a really cool name imo.

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MNNICE 12/11/2009 11:08AM

    YES! That's the attitude it takes to be successful! Keep it up!

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Behaving myself

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

I’ve been away for a few days in great countryside – we don’t have nearly as much of that here in the UK as you all have there – so it’s a real joy. I’ve done my garden there – ‘put it to bed for the winter’ and walked in both rain and sun round the village or in the fields – kept out of the pub and away from alcohol and have eaten well and carefully. The local farmers all sell great produce from their shops so it’s easy to get delicious stuff and as there are no supermarkets nearby it’s the only option – hoorah! So apart from a minor skirmish with my central heating everything was great AND I kept on track.

Back in Brighton, all the local artists and craftworkers – and there are many – have Open Houses so those who wish can go and get great original Christmas presents with the minimum of fuss and crowds. It’s really inspiring to see what they do and how creative they all are. I’ve booked for a textile course for after Christmas learning to treat and manipulate fabric and yarn to make unusual and opulent wall hangings so I may have an Open House of my own next June when they all open up again. I love making beautiful things and having an end product – not particularly to make money although it never goes amiss of course – just because I enjoy it. Guess anything that keeps my mind and hands occupied and stops me putting things in my mouth is a bonus!

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TANITHSTILES 12/9/2009 4:01AM

  Oh nice, we just went to a friend's studio open house this past weekend. It was inspiring without a doubt.

I'm busy crafting like mad myself. Holiday wreaths and gifts for a party next weekend.

Nice country air is so delightful, just that crisp clear inhale of winter really gets the neurons firing.

Have a great week!

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The Sofa

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

First of all – as we don’t have Thanksgiving in the UK I have not been obliged to struggle with all those food temptations. Christmas will be another thing but we haven’t got there yet.
I thought I would dance down this road I started on with such enthusiasm – as it is I am only plodding round the bends and round each new bend is disappointment. The greatest of those is my slo-ow weightloss.
I am able to keep food temptations at bay thanks to the nutrition tracker but exercise is another thing. I have forced myself – with difficulty – into daily cardio and strength. I had not considered how much I love my sofa – but lolling on it is just the best thing. I have made myself get off it and I now do 60-ish minutes on the stationary bike with my laptop and Spark (better than taking the laptop to the sofa). It doesn’t expend much energy as I’m working on the laptop as well – 500ish calories according to the tracker on the bike.
I walk once or twice a day – 30 minutes each time – I don’t know how many calories – it’s enough to make me pant - but only gently.
I get a bonus ‘step’ workout every time I return from walking, shopping or visiting friends because the lift in the mansion block where I live in what used to be the nurseries on the top floor (6 flights) is broken down. Certainly a bonus but with several bags of shopping it’s no fun. Just hope I continue to use the stairs when it’s fixed – I can barely speak when I get to the top – so back to my sofa!!
What it comes to is that my ‘temptation’ is lying around as much as possible.
The only way forward seems to be to energise my whole life somehow and to stop putting exercise in a capsule from which I emerge only to sink back on the sofa where ideally someone peels me grapes and brings small portions of delicious food (LOL! Who would DO that?)
I am away for the next few days – somewhere very beautiful with great countryside to walk in – and a house to finish renovating. Perhaps that will gee me up . . .
Oh - and there's no sofa as such . . . .

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SUZY6281 12/8/2009 9:38AM

    Yep, I hate exercise too. So, I worked on making it fun. If you don't consider it exercise, then it becomes less of a chore and more of a treat. Consider biking, skating, dancing, hiking, skiing, or rowing. I try to get outside several days a week and get a bit of exercise. I'm no spring chicken, so I did have to work up to it. My solution was to start a little at a time, because frankly, if I watch the eating, I will lose weight. Getting exercise in at least for me is a good way to build healthy bones and muscles at the same time.

Try parking your car further away when you shop. Walk the mall and window shop. Take a stroll downtown. The more you vary your routine, the less chance you will have of getting bored with it.

You can do it. Take it from me, a total couch-potato at one time. If I can do it, anyone can.


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Struggling but trying to stay focused

Thursday, November 19, 2009

I thought I was doing quite well at one point and I have been trying . . . . in fact I’ve upped my exercise (yes really!!) contained my alcohol consumption thanks to a very handy hint from another Spark person and kept a close eye (pretty successfully) on my calorie consumption. I have learned a lot about healthier living and about myself. All seriously good stuff – definitely an improvement on my life before August - PS I call it. ‘Pre-Spark’ that is.

I’m not sure about ‘focus’ though. I have days when I’m focused – days when I’m inspired – but mostly I plod along in a desultory fashion and in itself that discourages me. I’ve lost 8 lb since August when I joined – doesn’t seem much compared with stuff I read on here about people losing 5lb or more in a week. Yes, I know it’s not about anyone but me. I know I’ve no patience. I just want to see results. There ARE results of course – I’m a bit more flexible than I was and climbing stairs is no longer the end of the world – quite!!

It just doesn’t feel enough. I'm not giving up though thanks to all of you.

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TANITHSTILES 11/20/2009 1:01AM

  I totally understand what you mean, as I've lost focused in the last 2 days, but sometimes that's just the way it goes. Trick is getting back on the horse and not beat yourself down.

Put the blinders on when you read how others are doing , wish them well but keep in mind: they don't live in your skin.

I know this is cliche but remember good things come to those who wait. And those who do the hard work. Easier said than done and it's a lesson that sometimes I have to keep in the front of my mind.

Like BrendaB49 said, onward and upward ...because going back is not an option.

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1GR8FULGAL 11/19/2009 2:21PM

    Hi, Please remember it's not about what your neighbor is doing. We are all unique people. I agree with the other comment; those quick lbs off do not last. They are prob. not learning new habits that will stick with them. Also, rapid weight loss can even be dangerous.
You are doing just fine. I say use your Nutrition Tracker the best you can. It really helps me to keep focused. BUT, on that note, I think we all lose our focus sometimes, but that's why you have SP!!! YIPPEE!! You have an entire community of support at your fingertips, 24/7. One other part that seems to help most of us is to be/get involved, which you have been doing. Take full advantage of all the wonderful resources this site gives you. There is a wealth of info here in addition to the support angle. Aren't we lucky??!! All the best to you. Nance

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SARALYN09 11/19/2009 11:32AM

    You are doing great!! You are facing the right direction, and moving slowly THAT WAY!! Don't worry about those "5 lbs in a week" people. That is way too fast, and won't stick! You will be way less discouraged in the long run, because you are doing it.. slow but sure! This is a lifestyle of positive choices & changes.. not some quick fix!! Hang in there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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BRENDAB49 11/19/2009 9:17AM

    I can say that I have and really I am still there too when it comes to staying focused. I lose it when I have days that I have a lot of errands to run and I am looking at the clock to see where I am suppose to be or what is it that I should be doing now. Yes, I get discouraged too when I see great numbers for weight loss and I am losing a pound a week and my SPoints are not adding up to what I would like them to be but then I look at where I came from and smile because I have come a long way. I still a long way to go but this is something that I want to do and I am going to stay on the road as long as it takes. If it takes me longer to reach my goals then that is the time that I have to take to make a difference in my life.

I do hope that you do not loose the focus. Know that everyone is different and your results may not be like everyone else but at least you are still moving forward and not backwards. A half step forward is better than a whole step back. So onward and upward...

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