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My airing cupboard

Sunday, December 20, 2009

About 18 months ago I declared war on my airing cupboard – well actually on myself if truth be told. All my bedlinen and towels etc were in fact on the shelves but higgledy piggledy in no order and the more I searched for things the worse it all got of course. It’s a big cupboard with space for a drying rack and very warm. Great as I live in a flat with no outside drying space – except it was not easy to get to the drying rack. So I set about it on the understanding (with myself) that I would keep it in tidy piles of everything – each pile with a place of its own. And I did for a while.
I went through the same process with the freezer – binned some food - de-frosted (and about time too!!) and made a promise to myself that I would de-frost regularly.
I am generally not a good housekeeper – my philosophy is – ‘Oh that’ll do – other things in my life are more important’. Today I have proved that is not so. I HAD to deal with the freezer which had almost more ice – and that snowy stuff that grows in freezers – as there is outside. Unusually we had six inches of snow two days ago and now it has frozen solid. In both cases it’s hard to get rid of.
I have quite a few people coming to stay over Christmas so I need room in the freezer first and foremost and I have had to dig into the airing cupboard to find a lot of decent matching bedlinen for all of the bedrooms. All of it has driven me mad – quite unnecessarily.
The conclusion (and the reason for this blog) is that I am hopelessly inconsistent. Of course the airing cupboard and freezer are so-o much easier to deal with than the 50lb I need to lose. Inconsistency means two steps forward and three back in a much bigger ways than mislaid sheets and towels on a few shelves. I am on my way to the second backward step if I am not careful.
When I’m happy and busy as I have been in the last few days visiting my sons and their families I stick to the food plan – the exercise is kind of taken care of by my energetic grandson and everything is hunky dory – or at least guilt-free.
One day back at home – ONE day only – bored to death by domesticity, and therefore diving into the Christmas goodies which I so enjoyed baking and I am going to be in trouble with the scales – and also the guests - if I don’t stop NOW.
All this for lack of self discipline. I know - get back on track pronto - and I WILL because I want to get to where I want to get to. I just wish right now that I had a magic wand for the Spark journey, the freezer and the airing cupboard.

  
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TSEWARD 12/20/2009 9:38PM

    Wow, you have a lot going on! Your home is going to be so warm and welcome to your guests. I appreciate your comment on my page...I will take your advice. As I read it I remembered this strategy helping in the past. Getting started with a careful healthy breakfast is so important to the days success! If I start out with a sugar shock or no protein, I am sure to be on the sugar roller coaster all day. I am visiting stopbeingsweet.com again, as this site helps a lot. I wish you could see my linen closet! wow. would make yours look fantastic. I agree, though, that consistency is so important, and that inconsistency in one area can affect another. Sounds like you are doing great adjusting to the transition to home and the daily hum-dwa chores that must be done. Have fun with your guests!

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HOWDOIHEARTTHEE 12/20/2009 12:23PM

    Hang in there....have a Merry Christmas.

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Recouping . . .

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

. . . . thanks to you wonderful Sparkers. Several kind and bracing comments on my self-pitying blog made me re-think my day and get on with it.

SO -

Yesterday: stopped moaning about my bad weekend - did extra exercise - took care over food - generally kicked myself in the backside - planned better ways to deal with difficult situations.

This morning: nearly 1 pound gone of the three that I put on over the weekend. So that's that - I'll work my way down the rest and it will all be done and dusted.

Now just need to stick to a resolution to avoid doing that again - it's bad for my process here and ultra bad for my psyche – though I don’t expect miracles.

Must just add that were it not for you lovely lot I would quite possibly have faded off the website in shame because these things always seem to me like the end of the world. As it is I will just plough on. So - thank you Spark friends.

  
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PATIPAJ 12/18/2009 8:43PM

    If I haven't learned anything else from my life, its that
I AM NOT PERFECT! I wrote a blog on that, by the way.
A stellar performance is not something I even aim for anymore.
I just want to stay in the game and each day I will SWEEP!
I like little quotes. Like this one:
"It isn't the mountain ahead that is wearing me down,
Its the grain of sand in my shoe" Well, how silly is that?
I rest my case.



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TSEWARD 12/15/2009 9:51PM

    You are welcome! I agree...I would have given up long ago if not for the right word at the right time from my Spark Friends. Including you! I really needed the reminder to focus on what I am doing right. I did some things better today, others, not so good. Instead of the beat myself up blog I planned, I plan to list what I did right along with what I could do better.

One of the things I love about the UK is that it is the home of Wallace and Grommit and Shaun the Sheep. These claymation cartoons are so much better than anything I have seen come out of the USA thus far for kid shows. And I enjoy them too! (Kid at heart)

Thanks for checking in on me!

Hugs,
tseward

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Very disappointed in myself . . .

Monday, December 14, 2009

A very bad weekend. No point in going into details - a weekend away with a friend and more food than I have had for many weeks sums it up. I thought I was prepared and I don't how I let it happen. All I can do is put it behind me and get back on track.

The lesson to learn is how bad I've made myself feel both physically and psychologically.

A BIT LATER: Thanks to wonderful Spark comments I re-read this and saw how negative it is. SO. . . despite feeling bad today - entirely self-inflicted obviously - I am upping the exercise and making something positive come of something negative. Also reflecting on how things could have been different.

  
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TANITHSTILES 12/14/2009 10:39PM

  Hi Sweetie,

Awesome that you turned it around. Smart woman keep it up! So glad to have read this today and that you're learning to focus on the positive. It really will get you further than you've gone before.

Much love across the distance,
tanith



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TSEWARD 12/14/2009 1:24PM

    Sounds like you are handling your weekend aftermath very well...Isn't it awesome to hear our spark friends talk back to the negative stuff in our head? I too had a bad weekend...K make that week. My calories have been in the multiple thousands and my bad habits have reared their ugly heads. thank you for sharing your change to a positive mindset!
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LINDA25427 12/14/2009 9:07AM

    I ate 2 pieces of kentucky fried chicken yesterday it was brought to the house along with all the fixing .I didn't eat anything else but the chicken and I took the skin off it but it was 740 calories for just the chicken I should have left that bird in the bucket , but it was so good ... all we can do is pick ourselves up dust ourselves off and start all over again . The one good thing is I got protein that my body needed . Smile it's not the end of the world . Take care . Hugs emoticon

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LKWQUILTER 12/14/2009 8:06AM

    Hey, we are human and do "mess up" every now and then. You know what you did, it is in the past, and now go forward. Admitting, accepting, and forgiving yourself is big steps toward not doing it again (as bad). That is what I tell myself. ((HUGS))

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ROBBIE53 12/14/2009 7:41AM

    Don't dwell on it and don't beat yourself up. Put it behind you and move on. Everyone has a slip up once in a while.

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SKEPCHICK 12/14/2009 7:29AM

  Look at what happened, specifically, and see if you can figure out why it happened. See if you can extract info that will give you a plan to handle a similar situation in the future. Were you served trigger foods? Were you taken aback by the amount of food placed before you? Did your friend make all this food, and you felt socially obligated to overeat to show your approval of her efforts?

Simply letting yourself feel bad is not all that productive unless you also learn something about how to avoid a repeat or at least how to limit the damage if you face something like this again.

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Plodding on thanks to SparkPeople

Friday, December 11, 2009

I don’t blog enough – principally because I only really want to grizzle about slow progress and how boring is that for everyone?

I really hoped to be 14lb down today – yeah – I know – strange number but I’m in the UK and am accustomed to significant goals being identified by each stone lost. Anyway I’m not there. I’ve been up and down the same few pounds for a while and I decided to weigh in every 2 weeks and faithfully resist stepping on the scales in between- to give myself a chance so to speak. Spose I’ve also been undereating – gently - in an effort to stop my mini yo-yo-ing and get down through my first stone. No - don't descend on me like Alice's pack of cards - I just thought that it would make me feel better.

I felt I was doing OK but such is human nature that last night – not any old night - the night before the Great Weigh-In – I just ate far too much. Sabotaging myself? Or did my system just scream – ‘ENOUGH!!! Food is needed!’ Either way the lesson is learned. As another Sparker wrote on a board (thank you VandaLee) ‘We need to do what we need to do every day. One day at a time. One step at a time’. That really went to my heart. It was actually in connection with exercise – but to it I would add – one meal at a time.

In the meantime I am actually now in the high 100s - (pounds) rather than the low 200s and my BMI is into 'Overweight' (just) rather than 'Obese' so that is a small achievement.

Other achievements are that I am learning something about portion control – that an omelette – especially filled – only needs to be one large egg and not two. Large portions of vegetables make small portions of meat just as filling – and actually I do love vegetables. I have started making vegetable soup with beans for protein – not high in calories and very filling. Can even be a snack in small amounts.


And exercise – my greatest problem. I’ve got it now - do what needs doing every day – however tired – however unmotivated. JUST DO IT!!!! Even if I don’t enjoy it it’s a means to better health and less weight. And it is getting easier. Also – I have to say – my little grandson loves it when I do it. Sometimes he joins in but mostly he giggles like a maniac, saying – ‘that’s SILLY Granny!’ May just change my name on here to SILLYGRANNY.

So two lessons learned – two small steps forward. That ‘s what Spark is all about. Taking information and inspiration from the articles and from the great tips and motivation on the message boards and putting it to good use. Also the pleasure of using personal experience to gee someone else up when they’re in trouble with themselves – or cheer them on when they’re doing well - as others do for me. All of that means that I don’t have the slightest intention of giving up despite setbacks. This is not normally my case – ‘normally’ I abandon ship as soon as it gets difficult or disappointing.

The other thing is Healthy Reflections. They never fail to make me think and often they give me flashes of insight into my black soul which inspire me to work on myself and consider all sorts of things – not just my unhealthy lifestyle.

So I am still going for it - EAT CAREFULLY/PROPERLY – TRACK EVERYTHING – DRINK WATER - TRY TO DO ALL EXERCISE WITH ENTHUSIASM - WALK EVERYWHERE.

I just lu-urve Spark.

  
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SHCUTTER 12/13/2009 9:04PM

    Great inspiring blog post!


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TRENTDREAMER 12/11/2009 7:33PM

    "I just lu-urve Spark."
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* Me too! Thank you for your comment on my post yesterday. I really appreciate your encouragement.

Congratulatio
ns on your progress so far. Going below 200 and moving out of the Obest range (or "O-Town" as I like to call it) is actually a huge accomplishment. I was dancing on the ceiling when my BMI fell below 30 and can't wait to be able to start my weight with "one hundred..."

When I was in my last plateau, trying to break 220, it just seemed like the day before weigh-in I would do something to keep me above (usually eating out). It really was frustrating.

Kudos to you for keeping/plodding on. Continued success to you!

- TD

p.s. SILLYGRANNY would be a really cool name imo.

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MNNICE 12/11/2009 11:08AM

    YES! That's the attitude it takes to be successful! Keep it up!

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Behaving myself

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

I’ve been away for a few days in great countryside – we don’t have nearly as much of that here in the UK as you all have there – so it’s a real joy. I’ve done my garden there – ‘put it to bed for the winter’ and walked in both rain and sun round the village or in the fields – kept out of the pub and away from alcohol and have eaten well and carefully. The local farmers all sell great produce from their shops so it’s easy to get delicious stuff and as there are no supermarkets nearby it’s the only option – hoorah! So apart from a minor skirmish with my central heating everything was great AND I kept on track.

Back in Brighton, all the local artists and craftworkers – and there are many – have Open Houses so those who wish can go and get great original Christmas presents with the minimum of fuss and crowds. It’s really inspiring to see what they do and how creative they all are. I’ve booked for a textile course for after Christmas learning to treat and manipulate fabric and yarn to make unusual and opulent wall hangings so I may have an Open House of my own next June when they all open up again. I love making beautiful things and having an end product – not particularly to make money although it never goes amiss of course – just because I enjoy it. Guess anything that keeps my mind and hands occupied and stops me putting things in my mouth is a bonus!
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TANITHSTILES 12/9/2009 4:01AM

  Oh nice, we just went to a friend's studio open house this past weekend. It was inspiring without a doubt.

I'm busy crafting like mad myself. Holiday wreaths and gifts for a party next weekend.

Nice country air is so delightful, just that crisp clear inhale of winter really gets the neurons firing.

Have a great week!





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