So here I still am Ė not following any extreme plan or putting myself through any pressure Ė I pretty well know by now what to do and what suits me. Guess that if I consider the knowledge Iíve accumulated here re food consumption and exercise Iíve not been wasting either time or effort over the past few years - nor encouragement received - thank you Spark and Sparkers! It would just be great for this finally to be the moment when I put it all into practice and become fitter and healthier - not only lose some pounds but keep them off in a controlled and less frenetic way than I usually go about things.
Iím not actually weighing-in yet because weekly weighing can turn me into that lunatic that I donít want to be. So Ė no obsession - no urgency right now and it seems to suit me. Iím happy with how I feel - healthier and more energetic - jeans fitting me comfortably - regular exercise - healthy food NOT accompanied by gallons of wine. Thatíll do nicely for now.
. . . and very happy to find myself doing so. Dunno where my oomph went but itís certainly been in hiding for a long while. I started entering food and movement into my trackers after New Year without actually worrying about cals in and out, just to get back into the habit. Iíve been walking - thanks to Coach Nicoleís blog detailing walking plans to follow and collected other recent articles, trawled Secrets to Success and other Sparklersí blogs. As always the motivation is here now I have come to look. Just remains for me to act on it. So now Iím taking more serious notice of what I consume and getting back into some sort of exercise Ė nothing drastic, just gentle and regular.
I have to say that a few days of an acute kidney infection has got me on track in ways that I would never have imagined. Somehow, my body knew what it SHOULDNíT have Ė very little meat or strong cheese Ė no coffee or alcohol Ė nothing sweet - and what it SHOULD have - loads and loads of water which I normally find quite hard. Currently itís my beverage of choice. Much better portion control and I havenít had a glass of wine for over a week. So Iím looking after myself and NONE of itís an effort right now. Long may it last! Iím clinging by my fingernails to the new and better preferences and hoping for them to become entrenched habits - finally.
Iím finding it hard to get going here again and I had promised myself January would be the month when I started to re-group and lose some of my regained pounds. I know Iím too easily diverted and de-focused and the work involved in having fun over the Christmas/New Year period , plus the family rows that came from nowhere (which have really brought me down) and working away from home for the first week of January followed by a kidney infection that was a lot worse than it needed to be because I ignored it in favour of all the above have combined to set me back before Iíve even got going.
I have to make a decision about all this Ė certainly thatís whatís needed if Iím ever to achieve a healthier state of both mind and body. So, regardless of the fact that Iím not really ready, Iím going for it Ė just have to see what happens Ė no real plan although Iíve been searching around for the inspiration that is always available here if I just look for it and beginning to formulate a way forward. Iíve been around on Spark long enough to know the HOW of doing it Ė I just need to find the positivity Ė and gumption - to follow that through. Truly hoping that this will be the year.
There was quite a lot on Spark yesterday about the support, encouragement and understanding that all of us give each other. Where Ė as someone asked Ė would we all be without each other? Indeed! I - for one - would be long gone. As it is, I simply canít bring myself to let down all of those who have kept me going Ė all of them with far too generous souls to hold departure against me but still I just canít do that. For me that kind of friendship is the essence of Spark.
Itís a while since I blogged. I have not given up, but have been focusing on other things. Iíve been in Dorset finishing the renovation of my tiny country cottage. It went well Ė and there are only a few final things to do. It has taken the best part of five years but I wanted a project and have done most of it myself Ė tiling floors and walls, painting everywhere, putting up shelves and making curtains and lose covers. Oh Ė and digging most of the garden over. Of course Iíve had help with the technical or really heavy stuff Ė some paid Ė a lot from my sons. The work has certainly been good for calorie burning but even so Ė in these last few weeks I totally lost focus and ate (and drank!) what was easy. I tried to plan but not enough Iím afraid. I tracked nothing. Typical!! And frightening that habits that I thought I had put in place forever just slithered out of my grasp. *TRY HARDER* as my school reports used to say.
I am actually slightly horrified at how close I am to the end of all my renovations. What am I going to do with myself NOW? Iím a person who needs to have a project on the go. SO Ė my next project is going to be - - - ME!! I donít weigh more than once a month Ė on the 25th - so I donít actually know for certain at the moment, but Iím more likely to have gained rather than lost this month despite all the hard work I have put into the house. What Iím really doing here is owning up to the fact that Iíve been B-A-AD Ė big-time. Having no time is my excuse but I could have been better if Iíd wanted to Ė there was a great blog to this effect recently Ė Ďif you truly want to then you can find the the timeí was the message. Iím engraving that on my brain! What I really need to do is get back the discipline that I had acquired and that was really helping me to shed pounds Ė FINALLY - after several years of stop-start here on Spark.
So thatís my aim for the next six weeks Ė eat better Ė certainly drink less wine Ė and re-launch some formal exercise Ė before my most recent efforts are wasted. It would be terrible to let go of the progress I have made. l have to REALLY train my bad habits out of myself so I donít fall back on them when stress or other things occur in my lifeĖ but itís harder than I expected. Shouldnít they have gone by now? Well Ė apparently not. Today I read another blog by another Sparker Ė the essence of which was Ė when tempted in whatever way Ė take deep breaths and think it out rather than giving in..
So many words of wisdom here on Spark which I store in an ĎInspirationí file on my laptop.
So dear Spark friends Ė I thank you for all the times you have inspired me and even me. I will happily do the same for you
My younger grandson has just reached three years old almost without my noticing - time flies when you're having fun!
He went to his Pre-school for the first time this week having been prepared by his parents plus a home visit from his teacher AND a preparatory visit to the nursery where he spent an hour without his Mother.
Despite all he was apparently OK but quiet whilst he was there for his first 'proper' morning and had a rather puzzled look.
When my daughter-in-law arrived to pick him up his face lit up and he squealed: 'Mummy!!! You found me! Well done!'
Brought a tear to my eye when my son recounted it!