Iím having a bad day today - foodwise - which I canít really understand. Iíve been doing OK with food and exercise and was thinking yesterday that itís getting easier to be judicious about what I put in my mouth. (See my last blog about having willpower - HUH!!)
I am committed to continuing this effort until I reach my goal and I guess we all hit bumps. Last night I woke up feeling ravenous Ė but also too sleepy to resist the call for food. I was in the kitchen before I knew it and made 2 ricecakes plus low-fat cream cheese with cucumber + Juice. Not bad in itself but I canít remember the last time I had what my partner calls Ďa midnight feastí.
This morning I thought two things: Firstly - where do I enter those extra calories? If I set up an extra meal category ĎMidnight Feastí Iíll be setting a precedent I donít want to establish. So Iíll have to find somewhere. My second thought was: I must put it behind me and get on with a normal day. So Ė smallish but adequate breakfast Ė 1 egg spinach omelette(no fat in the pan - no cheese) and coffee. By mid-morning I was eating toast and marmite (3 slices I blush to admit) Ė and coffees (two). How does this happen when Iíve got so many well-moderated days behind me? STILL I have not established better habits properly. Scary! I know I can balance the calories out for the week but eating less doesn't seem to be an option right now.
Hey ho! Am now going for a walk in the sunshine by the sea Ė a long long walk and hoping to come back in better balance. I already feel better for letting it all out.
Where else could I say all this and know there would be acceptance?
Had intended to be blogging every day for a while to keep myself from the slippage I could feel coming on after a pretty good couple of months Ė but things go awry donít they? My partner wanted to take some friends (whom I donít even get on with particularly) down to my little cottage in the country and much as I didnít wish for any of it we all do things we donít want to for our partners donít we? Thatís the nature of being with someone. I actually wanted to scream Ė ĎDonít you realise how much harder itíll be to stick in my calorie range with all that food Iíll have to cook and serve Ė worse, sit at the table looking at it Ė and all that wine flowing that will be so hard to resist?í So Ė Iíve been struggling this week but it could have been worse
There was no time to Spark much Ė apart from tracking Ė but I just thought: ĎOK - Iíll have to be big and brave and get on with it on my own without support from SPfriends.í Actually my food and wine consumption have been better than they might have been. Lesson learned about determination Ė if I REALLY want it to work then itís up to ME Ė and no one else Ė get on with it.
I managed to resist most of those bright signs beckoning me to the cheeseboard and wine bottle in the knowledge that I would then avoid the disappointment that would otherwise await me on the scales later. I exercised when I could make the time and walked a lot Ė tho not as much as Iíd hoped. However Ė good enough - and although I am saying this in a tentative whisper Ė I really think I may have learned some more good Spark lessons Ė FINALLY!
Now I'm home and have a week ahead with no temptations so I can apply myself with renewed vigour. Hereís hoping . . .
. . . the friends that are staying with me in my little holiday cottage said - the minute they arrived - 'Good Heavens (well more or less that!)- 'you've lost a lot of weight'
YAY! That's what we all want to hear
Did well yesterday - 15 minutes chair exercise (thanks SusieXXX) due to my temporarily impaired state - two 20 minute walks (no time for a real hike) and altho we ate out - always a problem! - I had fresh crab and salad plus some steamed green veggies and 2 glasses of wine. When we got home I was totally knackered from driving down/shopping for them all/bed changing etc etc so I went to bed and left them to nibbles and wine.
So - well down near the bottom of my calorie range and feeling very saintly this morning
Iím hoping to blog most days this month Ė I need to renew my motivation and accountability and I guess this is the way.
Coincidentally a good friend of mine here is resolved to blog and post motivational pictures all this month Ė so Iíll be looking at those with interest.
Had a good eating day yesterday which is great but I moved very little. I can blame my cracked rib Ė and the fact that on top of that my sciatica returned yesterday. What I know about sciatica and me is that gentle exercise and stretches for my legs and hips generally alleviate the worst of the pain which is motivation in itself. So with no viable excuse for doing absolutely nothing, I spent some time yesterday looking into chair exercises and I tried some of them this morning combined with leg exercises to see how they suit my currently sore state. Went OK so Iíll continue with that for a while. And another coincidence: another SPfriend posted a blog about chair exercises and the fact that with those in mind there really isnít any 'excuse for excuses' Ė so to speak. She had already made this point to me and I was glad to have it re-inforced at a moment when I was looking for motivation. Thereís always something or someone somewhere on Spark that provides encouragement.
Other than that Iím hoping for a good food week Ė I have planned for one on paper but wonít be easy cos Iím away in my little cottage in the country and have visitors Ė Iím never good at coping with that in respect of food and wine but Iíll just have to try and remind myself to be disciplined at all points and also balance my heavier food days against my lighter ones. The trouble with loving good food and wine is that all my friends tend to have the same lifestyle but Iím hoping theyíll respect what Iím trying to do and not drag me from my path. Question is: - will I drag myself?!!
The upside, however, is that two of them are great walkers and there are really beautiful walks around my place so I can walk with them
Others can stay at home and drink the wine
So that's the plan - in theory anyway. Will I stick with it? Watch this space.
Four pounds gone this month. Iíd have liked it to be more but my monthly weigh-ins are bearing fruit with less scale obsession and no getting discouraged when loss in one week is not much and I donít bother to try. Iíve been trying the advice of a Sparkfriend by counting calories by the week. That is to say that I track every day but balance indulgent days against a lower intake on other days. Seems to work for me. Thanks STONECOT
So although Iíve had a difficult month cooking for a lot of visitors where I should have done well because I was in charge of the food (and wine!) I fell down a bit because Iím so easily tempted
I also had a very minor car accident which resulted in a cracked rib and impeded my workouts Ė any excuse Iím afraid! Need to perk up my resolve this coming month and just get on with it. Must give myself lots of these and you're all welcome join in!
On the upside, I am back wearing the jeans that I use as a yardstick of progress even when the numbers on the scale arenít what Iíd wish.