Tuesday, November 01, 2011
I have been trying to do it for some time – on and off. Firstly I lost heart with myself. Secondly there’s been a bit of hiatus in my life – two weeks working away - which always involves meals out and hotel living generally - and then a collection of pieces of bad news. My longest standing friend, in Cumbria in the north of England, is in the last stages of emphysema, another treasured friend is undergoing chemo at a London hospital. A valued colleague of my partner and good friend to both of us had a stroke in Corfu and had to be transferred to London by air ambulance – an extremely complicated procedure it seems. He and his wife are considerably older than we are and when I hear what his wife had to go through to get him the attention and help he needed I can’t imagine how either of them got through it. Currently he is in hospital in London and is stable. So I’ve been driving around a fair bit visiting these friends, helping with the chemo runs and in the other case saying a definitive goodbye which was, of course, extremely harrowing. But it’s time to kick myself into a frame of mind where I stop complaining and count my blessings. ALSO I have to get on with this weight loss journey which I keep stalling.
In the meantime I have been discharged – finally – by my cancer specialist after the five years it takes to be considered clear. Definitely a plus.
Thanks to the great food tracker here on Spark – the best as far as I have found - I am happy to find that the accountability that it gives means I have lost a few pounds - another plus. In my gratitude for that I am finally finding the motivation to get going on Spark again in the hopes that I can actually lose a serious number of pounds. My current aim is to lose 30lb by my birthday in the first week in March 2012.
I would ask everyone to wish me good luck – but we all know it’s hard work and not luck that gets us to where we need to be.