Monday, March 28, 2011
Well – I’ve dragged my partner kicking and screaming into a more confident state of mind. His extreme worry over his angina diagnosis was due to winter blues, as far as I can see, which he suffers from really badly, exaggerating his fears about his condition. The specialist has told him, after considerable testing, that he is not even in need of a stent as yet – so that’s made us both happy.
I have also attended to various family commitments and responsibilities that took up a lot more time and energy than I expected.
I feared I hadn’t been looking after myself properly - Sparkwise that is - I have certainly exercised – cardio and strength - pretty well every day because now I miss it if I don’t do it. Foodwise hasn’t been so good. It’s always been a problem for me to eat right unless I am completely focused on my diet. Now I’ve faced ‘that moment’ – i.e. getting on the scales again - I find that I have gained back seven pounds – not a small amount and I’m ashamed. I would like to have clung more limpet-like than I have to the improved habits Spark had instilled.
However, I don’t intend to waste the effort that has led to this point. A friend blogged about ‘strugglers and motivators’ a while ago - a blog that really went to my heart. I certainly can’t claim to be a motivator but SHE motivated ME to focus on putting a stop to the struggling and yo-yo-ing that have characterised my journey here and to strive for more consistency. I really need to stop letting things get in my way and make getting healthier no-matter-what a priority.
So here I am – yet another fresh start with yet more resolutions. I just hope I make a better job of it this time despite the fact that I am away on and off working for several weeks to come.
to all my Spark friends and many thanks for your patience and tolerance.