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OK - here I go . . .

Wednesday, September 01, 2010

September is a new month - and I blush to add the beginning of my second year on Spark. I've made very little progress really although I've learned a lot and developed better habits which is, of course, a large part of the whole point.

I am pledging to make a bigger and more consistent effort at slow/steady weight loss and to be accountable - principally to myself. In short to take responsibility for treating myself better in many many ways. Eating and exercising better and logging everything . . . Oh yes - and drinking the water.

I also need to stop rushing about so much and stop avoiding the fact that what I really need is to settle down to making my life better.

I also want to commit to Spark friends and to my teams - where would I be without either?

I'll report back tomorrow.

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TWOTIMESS 9/1/2010 1:45PM

We'll be here for you!

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NEW-CAZ 9/1/2010 9:06AM

    So pleased to hear you're putting you first Sonia.
You ARE important...think of all the people who rely on you, you are important to them.
And you owe it to yourself to take care of that body.
And that doesn't just mean good food and exercise, some pampering wouldn't go amiss.
A great plan for yourself and I'll be here to support you hun, emoticon emoticon

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Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Have been away from home – and this site – on and off all summer. There were things I just had to do and in the way that life has – they just kept piling up. Of course I could have said ‘no’ to some of them – ‘NO’ that little word that I sometimes find immeasurably and ridiculously difficult to utter.
Last week when I decorated my son’s family house was truly the last straw. They live far enough away for me to have to stay over and as they were on holiday with their little children it seemed an ideal time to get the work done without my delish but rampaging grandsons. I was already fairly worn out from the work required to get a kitchen installed over the summer in my other house but they really need some help so I went straight to them, already pretty well worn out and feeling disconnected from my own main home and from my partner and friends whom I hadn’t really spent time with all summer.
Anyhow, I got there and found a lot more work than I had thought. I was also a lot more tired than I thought. On top of that, halfway through, I developed a stomach bug – the sort that really stops you in your tracks and lost a day of working. Also my son’s wi-fi router wasn’t working so I was disconnected from Spark too. I know it is perfectly possible to track on paper but I was so-o busy and felt I had no time – indeed all I did was work – eat – sleep. Definitely no tracking time. No exchanges with good Spark friends. So now I feel disconnected with Spark itself. Never thought that would happen – I’ve enjoyed being connected with Spark so much.
Basically I have crashed and burned. I am not only tired but discouraged. Pounds that I have allowed to sneak back don’t help. I awoke this morning thinking it would be better to leave the site - I haven't contributed anything here for ages and am not losing weight. It would be easy not to re-connect with you all – but then I thought how much I would miss you - and what would I do without you?? I haven’t done terribly well on the weightloss front but am making very slow progress with both food and exercise. I just KNOW that it would be the end of all my efforts if I didn’t log on each day and find all that great information and all that great encouragement and support and good friends – and the trackers of course.
SO – this week I am taking responsibility and trying to stick with it - trying to stay within my calorie limits, exercising, even when I just want to lounge about, and tracking it all. Back where I should be in fact. Hoping to make contact with those Spark friends I have neglected - to encourage those who are also ‘down’ – to rejoice with those making progress – to share a joke. All the things that make Spark what it is.
Re-establishing one of my original streaks is another aim – I am certainly tired so am spending far more time sleeping than I want to, though I’m OK about that for the moment, but an original streak was to get out of bed and DO something rather than just transferring myself to the couch. Definitely have to start that streak again (but at least I know now what’s needed) – in fact having to start everything again – but thanks to Spark I know that I can and I WILL. This is the moment to re-connect and give myself some me-time.

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CMFARRELL36 9/9/2010 4:43PM

    Just catching up with you since you went to decorate at your son's.
I'm so happy that you have decided not to throw everything from the past year or so with SP down the drain.
I'm now away to read through your September blogs, and will get back to you.
emoticon Just keep remembering you have friends here.

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IAMANDARAMA 8/24/2010 9:07PM

    I am so with you on this. Let's do it together.


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DEE107 8/24/2010 5:59PM

    great job and see you are connected again

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CORKYTHEMOM 8/24/2010 11:33AM

    emoticon back Sonia to SparkPeople! I am so PROUD OF YOU for not giving up on yourself and your positive attitude in starting over!

emoticon Visit my SparkPage anytime. I offer lots of moral support, encouragement and positive buddy system.

emoticon You're never alone in this journey of healthy living. With the help of your SP friends and teammates .... TOGETHER, WE CAN DO IT!! YOU ARE A WINNER!!


~ Monika ~ emoticon

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TWOTIMESS 8/24/2010 11:30AM

    So glad you're back with us - ease yourself back into things - you didn't sit idle this summer - renovating homes is a major thing! Soon you'll be back on your streak and you'll feel better!

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NEW-CAZ 8/24/2010 11:23AM

    Hi Sonia
Totally understand where you're coming from but like Linda Kay says it was a break that was a necessary break and it can be demoralising thinking of the hill you need or want to climb again.
Take a step at a time, do what your can/want and enjoy the process.
All your SP friends understand that real life goes on and takes precedence over Sparks- just do what you can.
Some people only leave messages on team boards and don't interact otherwise-each to their own.
Your mojo will return once you've rested-remember I know how hard you've been working recently..........and a person can only do so much.
You know where I am if you need me. You'll get there I know it!
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LKWQUILTER 8/24/2010 10:16AM

    Don't give up--accept you took a SPARK BREAK, even though not on purpose or what you wanted. Even when we are "down and discouraged" just logging in can help remind us what we need to do--take care of ourselves and we can get healthy! Smile today--that burns calories too. ((HUGS))

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AAAAAAgh!! I think . . .

Monday, August 02, 2010

One of my resolutions/streaks here was to get off my couch. Well I haven't had time to look at it lately - never mind sit on it.

Work on my new kitchen took up a lot of time and energy and although there is still work I need to do - tiling - plastering - papering - it's not a huge amount which is a good thing because the kitchen saga is beginning to bore even me :-s

So what I thought was: two days more and it would all be done and dusted. The couch was beckoning! Now my younger son has rung to ask if I could help with his sitting room while his wife and kids are in Scotland visiting her family - starting on Wednesday . . . HOORAH!!!

Got to be done - they have bought their first house and have been living with bare plaster walls for long enough. He has his own (new) I.T. business with no time to spare for decorating - so - more plastering/papering/painting for me! Am, of course, happy to help them out - and give him a papering lesson too - got to be good for me & better than lying around reading as I do too often.

So - off I go again . . .

PS Whatever else it's certainly good for the weight loss of course - another 1.5 pounds gone this week :-))

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MEDDYPEDDY 8/7/2010 2:46AM

    Sounds fantastic - congrats!

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NEW-CAZ 8/2/2010 4:32PM

    Sonia hun your poor hands LOL.
Just think of all the fitness minutes you'll rack up and all the bending and reaching will be fantastic exercise......albeit draining emoticon

Try to get some "me time" though.......cos you're worth it emoticon

Hope you sleep well I'll catch you 2moro...
Laters emoticon emoticon

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TWOTIMESS 8/2/2010 3:02PM

    Great workout! Start your own small decorating company and get paid to get fit, LOL!

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CMFARRELL36 8/2/2010 2:07PM

    Hey - all that bending and stretching for papering and painting emoticon
So Exercise and also less time to think about eating - way to go!

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Escaping to the Common

Sunday, July 25, 2010

It was raining when I got up this morning – ‘Pity’ I thought. I’ve been so busy in my little house that I haven’t had time to enjoy the glorious countryside here and with about an hour’s work left to do I had planned to walk afterwards. I decided to hit the shops in the nearest town for a break but in the end I didn’t – not a great shopper really.

At lunchtime the rain cleared and the sun came out with amazing strength. There was also a breeze – which cleared away the mugginess quite quickly and off I went. Perfect weather and a perfect place for walking. I’m so lucky to have this house although it’s a big job to get it renovated. I wanted a project and I love making things come together so all in all it makes me happy. The house is on the edge of the village common – a proper common with a rota for grazing rights – and overlooked by the ruins of Corfe Castle – you can sense the history.

It’s a great place to escape to – from work in the house, from myself sometimes because the tranquillity really calms me and takes me to a quieter place in myself.

So – I walked a lot – said hallo to everyone I met – it’s that sort of village where people are automatically friendly - came home – did strength exercises and stretches. I marvel, these days, at the fact that I find long walks and exercising normal. I’ve always eaten reasonably healthily – probably more than I should (tho I have the Spark tracker now to keep me disciplined!) However, I just wasn’t moving enough to balance calories-in and calories-out. It’s taken months on Spark and loads of encouragement from the articles and exercises available and from Spark friends to get to a point where it’s no effort to go out without my car and walk a lot or do strength exercises and it’s great. Not only great for me but for my sons who were in despair about having such an unfit Mother with no energy or enthusiasm for much except lounging on the couch with a good book. They worried about my health and my longevity but now they see they no longer need to because I am making progress – albeit slowly. Also my grandsons – well, the elder one aged 5 – has noticed. Apparently he actually said to his mother: ‘How about that? Granny can run now!’ Out of the mouths of babes and all that . . .

So I realised today on the common yet again how immeasurably grateful I am for Spark and all its goodies – both sorts!

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TSEWARD 8/1/2010 9:15PM

    Wow that picture is beautiful ...makes me want to be there too. Nature is a great medicine for all that Ails us. A good walk outside is so much more enjoyable than walking treadmill inside. I enjoyed your grandsons comment. What a little dear! Sending you hugs emoticon

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NEW-CAZ 7/26/2010 4:53AM

    Morning Sonia totally understand you wanting to escape the chaos in your place right now and a walk certainly clears out the cobwebs LOL.

I think it's great that you now enjoy moving and it's no longer a chore.

I love the pic and think you are one lucky lady to live in so picturesque an area and that the inhabitants are so friendly.

Have a good Monday emoticon

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MADDE3333 7/25/2010 6:05PM

    That's a beautiful photo...thanks for sharing! emoticon

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IAMANDARAMA 7/25/2010 5:49PM

    What a wonderful place to be (in every respect - lol!) Now you can breathe again, you are in a wonderful place to do it. Simply fabulous.

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The Long Haul

Monday, July 12, 2010

Well – the kitchen is out and the resultant mess cleared up. I had forgotten what hard work it all is and how long it all takes – clear all the cupboards and find places to put everything. My one tiny spare room is stuffed with stuff. Set up some kind of kitchen area in the sitting room with the kettle, microwave and George Foreman. Fortunately I’m good at camping

This weekend I helped a neighbour take my cabinets and appliances out and I am left with a completely bare room. Hard labour, dusty hair and washing dishes in the bathroom all in one neat package. HOORAH! Today the electrician arrives for nearly a week’s work - fortunately he is charming, easy going and a sound electrician who knows my house well so that will almost be a pleasure.

The following week is the plumber and finally the fitters will move in. Then I can put everything back together and it will be back to the best possible normal. Seems like a long haul but making the best of the process whilst focusing on the end result is the key. Bit like Spark really

I have worked really hard over the last week which has resulted in a 4 pound loss. Clouds and silver linings come to mind.

I’m not sure how this fits with the Slowest Loser Team – but as I haven’t lost an ounce since the middle of June it could be counted as slow loss. I assume that these pounds have just been waiting for an excuse to scuttle off to where they belong and that all energy expended in the house has given them permission to go. The fact is, too, that the Slowest Loser principles have made me relax and stop chasing unrealistic weight losses each week – only to give up when I don’t live up to my own expectations. So – no pressure – the weightloss could be said to be the result of steady perseverence.

The point is – really – that I feel I have finally ‘got’ it at least for the moment. I say ‘for the moment’ because I have let myself down so many times with so many attempts at dieting that I can’t quite trust myself when my eating habits improve. However – I have to say that somehow all the attention I have been paying to the Nutrition Feedback Reports has led to my giving time to this process and eating in a more balanced way than I probably ever have. Consequently I feel much more balance in my system so am just not as ‘hungry' as I used to be.

On top of that the 10 Minute Daily Exercise Streak Challenge has led to consistent Strength exercises – either online Spark Workouts or a section – often two – from Coach Nicole’s Fit Firm and Fired Up (which started my appreciation of short regular exercising) - on top of walking 30 minutes - and rising - most days. Moderate exercise for a body that has really had none for a long time. A good Spark friend has encouraged me to be more serious than I was about stretching after strength exercises and consequently my muscles and joints, which were screaming at me to treat them better, are beginning to feel really comfortable – yet another reason to stick with the process for the long haul.

All in all everything has come together well and my attitude has changed. Just don’t let me slip - all you good Spark friends of mine – I may yet need a kick in the ‘right place’ and if you notice - please feel free ;-)

Thank you SparkPeople and Sparkfriends – at the moment it all feels very good.

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MEDDYPEDDY 7/15/2010 3:53PM

    I am not one for kicking anybody but I can cheer you along and send my best congratualtions to your achievements! You seem to be doing great and it really makes me happy! Hope it continues and I´ll do my best to support you!

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NEW-CAZ 7/12/2010 9:19AM

    Hi Sonia
Hope you enjoy your time with the electrician- I know it's unrequited love hun but you can live in hope emoticon emoticon

Totally understand the upheaval of getting a new kitchen sorted- you have my sympathy but like you've said focus on the end result.
emoticon on losing the 4 pounds and for taking this journey a step at a time. I know you'll get to your goal and along the way you'll get fitter and feel amazing emoticon

With you all the way emoticon

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