Sunday, August 17, 2008
Ok - I am so frustrated with myself. Why can't I stay on track? Why do I constantly allow myself to cheat, to not exercise, to drink that Dr Pepper, to EAT junk? I just get sooooooo stressed and think the food/soda will make me feel better. I am losing ground and know it. I have posted this type of blog several times as of late. So, something is going wrong with me, my attitude, my ambition, my drive. The downward spiral has set in and it is also effecting my self perception.
Things that stress me out:
Before I moved I would post a goal list on my blog for the day. That helped me stay focused on my tasks. Then at the end of the day I would update the blog with accomplishments. I should start doing this again.
I used to do a trek for myself with goals for the month. Then I would post daily accomplishments in my journal. I should start doing this again!
People say "hey at least you have caught it now." Yes, I have caught it, but a can't seem to overcome it. I keep trying to simply make myself feel better and allow others to stroke my failure. Since I lost the initial 35 lbs, I just think I am doing fine, when I am not! I have gained back weight and my clothes are tight. So, what is going to help me do this?
I need suggestions, I need help. Should I go back to stage one? Should I go back to the provided meal plans?
Thank you for any advice.