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I had a dream...

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

I dreamed that I had lost a lot of weight and It must have been the first day of school or something but I went to school and I was walking through the hallway feeling good and fit and sexy and I noticed a few people from my high school in my dream that were walking by and I was thinking "yeah look at me now"and I then waved at them and for some reason I felt real confident in my stride and I was smiling and I was looking at my self in my dream and I notice I had a waist/shape. I know why I had this dream because in high school I wanted so bad to look good and have a shape and I wanted guys to be attracted to me and I wanted to look great in my clothes and you know what !this dream made me feel really good (in the dream) and even when I woke up! I had this sense of "I made it" feeling or something like that then after a while I felt like I missed out on part of my life because of low self esteem and being over weight. I just hate when I have this sense of (un)accomplishment for example like there was something I could have been or done in the past but never got to experience how it felt. I don't mean any thing bad or illegal, I just mean experience what it would have felt like to look good and attract guys more and be looked at when I passed by or be liked by a cute guy. I missed out on that feeling totally! I am still struggling to feel wanted and appealing but like in my last blog "I have to realize" that things were meant to happen and somethings weren't. I hope I regain confidence like I had in my dream whether its to attract a man or to run my own business or anything I chose to do in life.

  
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QUISSEY 5/8/2007 11:50PM

    .....And guess what you will feel that way again. But not cuz some guy thinks you are hot ...but because you know you are hot! You keep on doing what you are doing you will get there.

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This is nothing wrong with having motivation though

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

You see that out fit! I really want to wear that but I might have to buy a butt/hipp panty from the Jc Penny catalog too because I have no hipps and no butt but I am working on that too. I love denim jump suits and dressy elegant denim dresses!!!!!!!! I have renewed motivation to lose weight! Im going to buy that suit!

  
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AJIOTAL 5/9/2007 6:58PM

    ooouuu good i dea RIAH! I use to say I am goign to lose weigh tand get into "a certain out fit" and I finally did so I am going to buy a large or meduim, kinda scared to go as low as the meduim though, thats like a size 8-10 for this jump suit.

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RIAH929 5/9/2007 12:47PM

    Buy the suit. I do that too. I have an outfit I purposely bought 1 size too small. I want to see how long it will take me to get into it. I can get into it, but buttoning the pants is a struggle. CRUNCHES! CRUNCHES! CRUNCHES!

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I have realized.....

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Losing weight is something that I have to REALLY want to do, not something that I think I NEED to do. If I go at losing weight with this attitude like "my doctor says or my mom says or my husband or wife says then I will not be 100% ready to lose weight for my self. If I don't feel like I'm wanting to do this for me, then I need to get ready for starting over multiple times untill I know that being healthy and fit is a life time decision.

  
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RIAH929 5/9/2007 12:42PM

    This is so true. Not that anyone has said that I needed to loose weight. I don't look like I weigh as much as I do. I have had the opposite. My husband wants me stay the way I am. He says that I am starting to look anerexic (I think that is how you spell it.). That is why after I have lost weight and gotten to 160 or 150, I ending up gaining it back. This time that will not happen. I don't like fitting in size 16, 14, or even size 12. I was unhappy being that "fluffy" and it showed!

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KEIAHNAM 5/6/2007 10:50PM

    WOW, this needs to be one of those weekly featured community highlights, it's so true! We have to be in this for ourselves, and it has to be something we really want. People come and go, but we're stuck with ourselves forever. Might as well be healthy and happy :)

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QUISSEY 5/5/2007 11:00PM

    Amen! I started two years ago losing thirty pounds for my hubby, now I'm losing 62 lbs for me. I'm almost 40, and refuse to be plagued by the same diseases as my family. I love your page, the info is sooo true. Water, water, water!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Congrats on your loss, keep moving girl!

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LEANLIVIN 5/4/2007 3:19PM

    Yes! You are so right. When it comes to our health and issues with regarding losing weight and maintianing that weight loss, we all need has to have a deeply ingrained unrelenting sense of "lead, follow, or get out my way!!!" Wishing you all the best!

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VIBRANTHING1 5/4/2007 2:41PM

    I agree. Too many times in life we concern ourselves with what others want or expect from us. You seem to have a positive, refreshing attitude. Good luck and congrats on your success so far.

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Reflecting back.....

Thursday, May 03, 2007

So I was passing time and commenting to fellow sparks friends..just saying hi and stuff and I noticed my old comments to them sometime I was the last one that commented on their page and I then noticed the dates on which I commented which were back in november 2006...back in nov and december 2006 i was 237!!! wow time flys and so did the weight!! the weight just went flying off of me! I should be gratefull! I was really shocked about how much time had went by and how much weight I finally lost!

  


Im starting May out at 208.

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

My goal for April is to lose 12 pounds and weigh in on May 31rst at 196.

I havn't been in the 90's since I was 19. Im 25 now.

  
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BEAUTYNTRAINING 5/3/2007 11:10AM

    I am sure you will reach your goal!! From your posts on the BootCamp Forum it looks as though you def. have the motivation and drive. You are an inspiration to me too!

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REDVELVET21 5/3/2007 1:24AM

    You can do it. I am aiming for a 8.5 lbs loss to put me at 50 lbs gone!!!

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WEDNOMOR 5/2/2007 8:08AM

    Just lean on ALL of us for a little help... we can certainly push you to meet your goal...! You're going to feel so accomplished on June 1st!! Anything is Possible...!

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BUTTERFLYBEAUTY 5/2/2007 2:10AM

    Great goal ! You will be out of the 200's and into the 100's! I am trying to get out of the 300's for the second time, and back into the 200's lol :). Congradulations on your current loss! Keep up the amazing work :)

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