Monday, December 03, 2012
I continue to be terribly disappointed with my lack of weight loss. I never imagined this would be so hard for me. It has never been 'easy' for me, but once I would start down the path of weight loss, I always saw results.
This time around, post baby and with a sedentary job, I'm finding it terribly difficult. Essentially I only see results if I have no slip ups and limit my calories to 1200 a day. I am exercising about 4 times a week. It's hard to constantly have to say no to foods that I used to be able to indulge occasionally in small amounts and still lose weight. It's frustrating to see the scale bounce back and forth within the same five pounds for the past YEAR.
Yesterday I got angry and cried and wanted to totally give up-- but what good would that do? So here I am, a week before my birthday and three weeks before Christmas ( as in, month of extreme temptation), determined to buckle down. I've drank some water this morning, I will be eating my oatmeal soon. I'm going to spinning class tonight and going to keep my calories around 1200-1300 for the day.
Never ever give up. That's my motto.
Thursday, July 26, 2012
I just weighed myself-- up two pounds from 1.5 weeks ago :( I'm super disappointed and thinking that part of it is water weight due to my period and going out to eat twice yesterday. Still, it's frustrating to see the numbers go up already. Two and a half weeks in, only one pound down.
I feel really annoyed but I know that eating for comfort or hating myself over it is not the solution. Clearly this is going to be a much bigger struggle than before I had Amelia. I have a doctor appointment and I do want to see if they can check my thyroid again. I took a low dose of thyroid medicine when preg with her, so maybe there is still an issue. Other than that, all I can do is decrease my calories and work out more, and cut the sugar out.
Sunday, July 22, 2012
This has been week two of my efforts to get back in shape and lose weight. Let's just say that I'll be happy to maintain at this moment, and I won't be getting on the scale for my weigh-in tomorrow. I don't think I did utterly horrible, but vacationing with my mother and toddler was a tad stressful, I didn't have as many opportunities as I would've liked to exercise, and I probably had one splurge a day. I did manage a 3 mile run on the beach yesterday, but I'm sure it wasn't enough to amount to a loss, so I'd rather not look till next week.
That being said, I can't wait to be back on track tomorrow! I took our dog for her walk tonight, and we were both happy about that. Tomorrow is a walk (possibly a bit of running?) and step class in the evening. No booze, definitely no cigarettes! (I slipped tonight, I'm ashamed to say). Workouts planned daily through Saturday, and I'm looking forward to them.
Here's to a great week to come!
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
I promise I won't be counting my days forever, it's just helpful now in the beginning-- kind of like ppl keeping track of their sobriety. And food certainly can be addictive for me.
Anyways, today started well... I went to spinning class and felt good and tired afterwards. Stopped at the store and a friend's house, relaxed during my daughter's nap. It all went downhill as I watched my husband drink beer after beer this afternoon. I'm already somewhat stressed as I'm trying to pack for a 5 day trip with my mom, but to top it off, he's drinking A LOT in front of me. Alcohol is a major temptation for me, and although I'm not cutting it out completely, I avoid it most days. I think all of that combined and I snapped on him-- repeatedly. I kept apologizing, but I was tired too, achy from working out so much lately and tired from doing two loads of laundry, packing, cleaning, etc.
I did have two glasses of wine-- one while cooking ( I LOVE a good glass of wine while I'm preparing a meal, I don't know what it is about it! Almost more than I enjoy it during the meal) and one with dinner. Here comes the tempting part-- my husband passed out on the couch at 8, and I thought about having a mixed drink and one of his cigarettes. Horrible, I know! I guess I could be considered a 'social smoker' because I sometimes smoke when I drink, but I know even the occasional cig is bad, and definitely does not fit in to the healthier lifestyle I'm trying to lead. PLUS I was irritated that I thought I couldn't take my evening walk with the dog while husband watched our toddler, but I decided to put her in the jogging stroller and take my chances with trying to move her to the crib once we got back.
Success! We walked two miles and she is sleeping soundly. No cigarettes or more drinks for mama, and I burned almost 200 more calories today! Awesome :) I'm so proud of myself for reducing my stress with a healthy activity, and I know my dog appreciated it too. Now I'm off to read for a bit and catch some zzz's.
Monday, July 16, 2012
Woo hoo! I've survived my first week of being back on track! I feel so great and very proud of myself. I've had a lot of great workouts, and I ran 3.5 miles Saturday morning with our daughter in the jogging stroller, no stopping to walk! It really kicked my butt; however, I'm really excited about it because I haven't ran that far since the fall. I'm planning to run a '5 miler' on August 17th and am confident I will be ready for it.
Last night my husband got angry with me and I wanted to leave the house or finish the piece of carrot cake in the fridge (which I have actually eaten, but it took me three days to eat-- for one piece). Instead of doing something that would make our argument worse or be unhealthy for my body, I took a nice walk with my dog and daughter. More calories burned, and he had calmed down by the time we got back. Win/win!
I'm going on vacation with my mom later this week, but I know I will stay on track. I told her I need to exercise at least Thurs and Sat for 30 min, and I plan to eat mostly salads and lean protein when we go out to eat. Vacation, here I come!
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