Friday, September 16, 2011
Since I took a day off on Wednesday, I'm technically a day behind (hence the Day 4 to relate to her calendar) but I'll be jumping to Day 6 tomorrow since my rest days will catch up and I'll be right back on track come Monday.
I'm still not sleeping well, but last night's sleep was a bit better than the past. It helps that we had a high of 60 degrees today and it was overcast and raining. That made for one of those days when you just want to cuddle down into your blankets and nap all day.
However, had to get that workout in!
Shoulders and abs day today. I have a hard time with shoulders. I just wish mine were more developed. Then again, that's part of working out, right? To develop those parts I want to develop!
Ugh, still feel like a weakling with all the various lateral raise-type exercises.
On the plus side, I put together a playlist for my iPod to put on shuffle when I'm working out. I have to say, I'm loving it! It's mostly stuff from my childhood/highschool/college years. Not really much in the way of modern music. I still have it playing right now. ("One Headlight" by the Wallflowers, which was my favorite song to row on an erg to during college...I swear, one day I will make a WoW machinema for this song of Regent Lord Lor'themar Theron singing about Sylvanas Windrunner. I have several scenes in my head that look great, but I don't know how to do it just right. Someday...)
Hmmm...I tried uploading a screenshot of my playlist, but it didn't show up. So here's a link:
Guess it's time for a shower and then find something for dinner.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Yesterday was supposed to be Day 3. I took the day off. I needed it. Anxiety sucks. =P I keep waking up from these dreams which I can only interpret as being the result of the upcoming changes. Like I had a dream in which my father had died some time ago, but my mom was still alive. (IRL, my mom died in 2000 and my dad died in 2008.) In my dream, she was diagnosed with leukemia before we went on a trip (IRL, she had breast cancer 3 times), and while we were on the trip we went to a botanical garden. And we all had to put on these special rubber boots to go through the garden, but mine didn't fit so I had to keep trying pair after pair. When I finally got a pair that fit, I was left behind from the tour group and couldn't find my mom. I spent a good portion of the dream running around, getting more and more hysterical because I couldn't find my mom.
I *think* it was in this same dream that a bunch of people fell into a frozen pond and my mom was one of them and I jumped in trying to rescue her, but I remember screaming something about it being my aunt...so that could have been a different dream.
I'm not entirely sure what the dream means, but I've been having a lot of dreams involving my parents, so I'm sure it has a lot to do with my fears of moving back into the house.
Yeah, after a night of bad sleep from that, I needed a day off. v.v
So today was Day 3. Leg Day! Unfortunately most of her exercises are using machines, and again, no gym membership means no machines.
I substituted a bunch of lunge and squat-type exercises, trying to hit all the muscles from different angles. For the record, I hate lunges. Always have.
Anyway, this is what my leg day looks like:
Walking Lunge (3 sets: 12 per leg, 24 total per set)
Close Squat to Lunge (Squat with feet together, step back for a lunge) (3 sets: 12 per leg, 24 total per set)
Push Press with Calf Raise (3 sets: 12 per set)
Close Reverse Lunge (Step back only slightly, lunge down...works a different part of the glutes) (3 set: 12 per leg, 24 total per set)
Side Lunge (3 sets: 12 per leg, 24 total per set)
Weighted Squat (Used my 8 pound medicine ball for this. It's supposed to be a 1-legged squat, but my legs were on fire at this point.) (3 ses, 12 per set)
Stability Ball Leg Curl (I like this one...good butt, hammy, and calf exercise) (3 sets: 12 per set)
Yesterday I also finished making a watch/charm bracelet that I'm calling my "It's Time for a Change" watch. I'm adding a bead for every pound I lose. It's in my favorite colors (rose gold and copper chain, with beads in garnet, sunstone, gold and creamy-peach pearls, red glass beads with a gold treatment, copper filigree beads, and peach Swarovski bicones), and has a butterfly charm to remind me that, even if I don't see them, I'm changing every day.
Here's a pic:
I'm very happy with the way it turned out.
Finally, a PSA: If you're going to be the gym b!tch, don't do it on social networking. In other words, don't be this girl:
That's all for now. Note to self: Next time, start the washing machine AFTER you take a shower. I hate waiting when I'm still sweaty and yucky from my workout.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
ARMS. THEY ARE JELLO.
Got up late again, thanks to a nice bout of insomnia last night. Ended up tweeting with Jezzie most of the morning until I was finally tired enough to sleep.
Had a ton of errands to do today, and debated what order to do them in. In the end, I decided to get the errands done before the workout because then I wouldn't have to shower before going out.
In our talk last night, I mentioned to Jez that I really wanted to treat myself to a pretty potted plant or some fresh cut flowers to brighten up my room a little bit. Problem is I have a black thumb and my room's window faces the completely wrong direction to support a live plant. Fresh flowers would be nice, but they's shrivel too quickly and I'm notoriously bad at throwing them away.
Well, I went to Michael's today to get supplies for a jewelry project I've had in mind (a weight loss charm bracelet where I add a charm or bead for every pound lost), and while I was there I had a brilliant idea: fake flowers! So I bought 3 stems of fake roses (2 with 2 buds each, and 1 bloomed rose). They're pink (to remind me to love myself) and have that fake "morning dew" stuff on them to make them look wet. I always liked those. So now they're prettying up my altar beside my bed (I'm Pagan) in a pretty pink vase.
I also can't wait to start on my bracelet. I got a watch face too, in case I decide to do that instead. I like having options.
As for the workout: When I got up this morning, I was definitely suffering the DOMS (Delayed Onset Muscle Soreness) from yesterday's workout. The good thing is that I feel the pain exactly where I SHOULD feel it. My triceps and chest are definitely sore...not debilitatingly sore, so I could still get stuff done, but sore enough to feel it.
Today was biceps and back day.
When I was running errands, I picked up another set of resistance bands since some of ours broke. They made substitutions much easier.
The exercises were the following:
Wide-Grip Lat Pulldown. I used the Light and Medium resistance bands together, and wrapped them around our Iron Gym pull-up bar. Kneeled down below, and was able to do the move.
One Arm Dumbbell Row. I've always liked this one. I put all 4 plates on the Reebok Adjustable Dumbbells (a set is like $70 at Target) so each one was about 12.5 pounds each. I was definitely feeling it. I'll probably need to get at least one of the single adjustable dumbbells that goes up to 25 pounds in the future for this and a few other exercises.
Seated Cable Rows. Again, I used the Light and Medium resistance bands together, wrapped around my feet.
Underhand Cable Pulldowns. This is where I began to notice my wrists were feeling a bit weak, so I did close-grip lat pulldowns like the wide-grip pulldowns. Again, used the Light and Medium bands together. I'll probably double-check my form on this one against the videos and see about how to do it correctly next time.
Dumbbell Alternate Bicep Curl. This one didn't need any substitutions. I put 3 plates on the dumbbells (10 pounds). DEFINITELY went to fatigue on this one!
One Arm Dumbbell Preacher Curl. I had been doing barbell preacher curls on my stability ball for my previous program. This felt...different. Again, I was feeling it in the wrists at this point, so I'm going to double-check my form again. Otherwise it wasn't so bad. I did take off a plate from my dumbbells, lowering them to 7.5 pounds.
Standing Biceps Cable Curl. I used the Light and Medium resistance bands together again, and stood on the middle of the bands.
I notice that yesterday's workouts were a lot of "pushing" motions, while today's are "pulling." I like that kind of balance.
Meals today aren't quite the bust that they were yesterday, but still could be better. I got some nice lean steaks for dinner tonight, though, and picked up the ground chicken for the meatloaf muffins. I can't wait to try them! (I'm tired of turkey and wanted to try chicken first.) I didn't pick up anything for dinner tomorrow, so that will require another run to the store, but I'm okay with that. It gives me a chance to go through some recipes.
But now...dinner. I bought the steaks, The Guy can cook them. =P
Monday, September 12, 2011
Okay, trying this again.
A couple weeks ago (week 3 into my last attempt at Blizzcon or Bust) I tweaked my back. I wrote about it on my wordpress journal if anyone cares to read about it ( firebudgie.wordpress.com/2011/09/09/
k-again/ ). I actually got up without any pain today, which was good because I had decided to start the LiveFit program. I'd been looking at this for a while now, and since my back was feeling better, I figured now was the time to go for it. The first phase will end a week before Blizzcon.
However, I can't say that I'm starting off so great. I woke up late so there's no way I'm going to get in all the meals I'm supposed to eat. I'm just not prepared, food-wise. I was planning to go to the store this morning, but again...got up late. In addition, The Guy is sick again (I hate sounding cynical, but I swear he's milking it for sympathy/to get out of doing things lately) and wants to bring home Taco Bell. Despite telling him how important this is to me, he just doesn't seem to get it. If I don't cook all the meals, his solution is always fast food. He always has an excuse for fast food: He's not feeling well, and Taco Bell is something he can taste. Or it's Friday, so we should have pizza. Or we ran out of time for whatever reason, so he'll go get McDonald's. I've been trying to keep the kitchen stocked with healthy food, but this is one of those times where time caught up to me and I don't really have an alternative. I have spinach for a salad, but nothing to go with it.
For the record, at this point I'm pretty certain our relationship is doomed. We get along fine as friends, but he desperately needs a wake-up call because I can't live like this anymore. I'm ready to grow up, and he doesn't seem to be. It's pretty depressing, but I've decided that I've spent way too much of my life being his substitute mommy while ignoring my own needs, and it's time to change that. I actually feel good about the changes that I'm instituting this week to set myself back on track, so while it's a bummer about where the relationship is going, I've actually got my head held high and am feeling confident in MYSELF again.
At least the exercise part of the program wasn't so bad. Well, okay, my arms STILL feel like Jello and will probably be really sore tomorrow, but it's a good feeling. I don't have a gym membership, so I was adapting a lot of the exercises for home, using dumbbells and bodyweight.
I couldn't quite get the right form for the narrow pushups. It felt wrong on my wrists, but at that point I was already feeling my muscles were pretty tired from the first 3 exercises. I also had to do that exercise on my knees (I did the wide pushups on my toes) because I'm still a little worried about tweaking my back again.
I substituted chest flyes (like in Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred) for the Flat bench cable flyes, using just dumbbells. And instead of the Triceps pushdown, I did Triceps kickbacks. I want to get a heavier weight resistance band for the Triceps pushdowns next week.
What I've learned today:
Sure, the morning meals were a bust. Sure, dinner's likely going to be a bust. But I'm going to make the best choices I can and keep trying tomorrow without kicking myself too much today.
Getting back to strength training felt really good. Arms are Jello, but it just means I'm getting stronger.
I can't depend on other people to do this work for me. I can ask them for motivation and support, but in the end I have to do the work myself.
I'm a good, strong person. I will get through this.
*sniffs* I need to stop blogging and go take that shower... >.>
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
This week I started my countdown to Blizzcon. I'd really like to drop another 10 pounds, or at least another jeans size, before I go. I finally broke that 166 plateau I was facing, but now it's wanting to stall out at 164 again. Stupid body. But I'll admit, I haven't been exercising like I should have been. Stupid me.
On the plus side, I'm not doing this alone. My friend Leo is getting himself back on track too. He says I've motivated him...and yet, he's motivating me. Today he called me to tell me a story about how he's only been working out for a few days, but his mom noticed that he looked like he's filled out a little bit. (He's a skinny guy looking to buff up.) I hadn't done my workout yet, and he said he did his already and teased me that I "was behind and needed to catch up." A little bit of friendly smack-talk, and I hopped to my workout as soon as we got off the phone.
I'm so proud of him, too! (In the picture below, Leo is the guy on the far right.)
As for myself, I FINALLY got my "I'm below 170 pounds!" reward! I got my ears pierced Blood Elf-style on both sides:
The middle stones are faceted black crystals. The upper and lower stones are red simulated opals. I have the same on each side.
I say that they're Blood Elf-style because my favorite earring style that almost all of my Blood Elf girls have is like this, with emeralds in the center and pearls above and below. However, I don't wear a lot of green (although it looks good on me), but I DO wear a lot of red and black. Horde colors. Blood Knight colors. Firebudgie colors. It all works for me. ^_^ This pic is pretty decent, but they look DAZZLING in the sunlight.
I am looking at my other rewards, and reconsidering what I want to do. I'm just a few pounds away from 160...maybe I should get that other bikini I wanted while it's still available? I WAS going to get that bra from Victoria's Secret, because lord knows mine aren't fitting very well anymore. At the same time, I don't want to spend a lot of money on even a pretty bra when I won't be able to wear it for long. And unlike a bikini, it's harder to judge what size I'll need in the near future.
But anyway, my goal is 155 by Blizzcon. If I stay on track, I can do it. I would LOVE to get to 150, but that's a stretch. We'll see how it goes.
With Leo's help, I think it'll be easier to stay on track this time.
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