Friday, May 25, 2012
There is a front passing through here so when I got out this morning it was really windy and cold. Deciding where to go was easy, just run downwind until I was warmed up, and do the upwind leg on the way home. I did my 5 minute warm up walk then started my run, and I was really feeling like "screw this, I'm going home" but we have a client with a mast in the boat yard, so I decided to go see it, and after that I ran out to Clement St, and I could see the light at Park street, and thought that it wasn't that far, I could make it. When I passed a friend's house (which is a 10 minute walk from home) I checked and I was on track for about a 30 minute session, But only 25 minutes of that would be running, and I told myself, "you're better than this, you can do 30" so I extended my run. In the end I was out 39 minutes, and did 3.2 miles. I worked on varying my pace some. I watched my heart rat a lot, just to see what was going on, and it stays around 171 the whole time. My breathing feels pretty consistant and regular. All in all, it felt pretty good today.
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Today I am giving myself points for consistency. I did another 2.6 miles, and I pretty consistently turn in 2.6-3.1 miles, though lately it has been on the low end. My heart really wasn't in it today, nor was my head, and the first block I really thought about just going back home. (I had a weird message from my parents last night to call home, and the phone call was looming, and I knew it was for unpleasant news.) But I was there and running, so I just kept going til I felt like turning around. Then I walked a block to bring my heart rate down, then ran home again. I know I should feel good about this, and I am so grateful I can move my body and run at all. And my body has never been pushed this hard physically before. But part of me feels like I am failing. My friend doing the 5 k with me next weekend just started running a few months ago, with less regularity than I have, and she is up to 20 minutes as of Friday. I have been doing this almost a year, and 30 minutes takes brute will power. And I'm running on a flat island; she has all hills at her house. Shouldn't I be able to do better? Faster or longer or something? Yet this is me and my body, and I'm still learning. And I'm tired. I've got work and a life, and a tight time frame to fit all this exercise in. And as of June 18 my office is moving and I have to fit a commute in too. That is unbelievably depressing and I think I may send my resume out. All these things together make me think I should say that really I am doing just fine for me and my body. Still, am I too hard on myself or too easy on myself? Oh, and the news was that my grandmother had a minor heart attack. I was braced to hear she had died, so that was actually a relief.
In other exciting & good news, DH is becoming a bicycling fiend; he circumnavigated the island yesterday, 14 miles! And the rest of the parts to fix my bike should be here this weekend, so soon I will have a bike to cross train on, and maybe that will help with the running.
Monday, May 21, 2012
Off I went again this morning, on 5.5 hours sleep...oops. Anyway I got another 2.5 miles in and was gone for about 33 minutes. It is really amazing the difference in calories burned that my Forerunner calculates for 33 minutes vs 43 minutes. It calculated about 250 calories today for all that work! Yesterday accidentally turned into a caloric disaster and I am going to have to be really good this week to offset that. Not even today's run can save me Anyway, back on track today. The See Jane Run 5 k is now two short weeks away, or 5 runs away is another way to think of it. I was planning to take the Friday run before it off, but now I see the race is on Sunday, so maybe I will run Friday anyway.
Saturday, May 19, 2012
This week is two weeks in a row the scale is finally reporting a win. I am at 149.2, which is only 0.2 off what my ticker reports. I haven't changed that much I don't think, but finally I think I am hitting my calorie requirements along with the exercise. The biggest difference is that now DH is also trying to lose weight, and that really seems to have a huge impact on me. I know they say that is true....I guess it really is.
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