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Losing It with Jillian Michaels / Learning to Live theme song

Thursday, July 08, 2010

I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE Jillian and her new show is AWESOME!!!!!!

you can watch it for free on Hulu here

and the theme song is awesome...Learning to Live by Beth Hart

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60SIXTY 7/10/2010 8:05PM

    emoticon for the links.
I bookmarked Jillian.
P.S. I just watched episode one.
I'm hooked.

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MICHELEJ529 7/9/2010 10:19AM

  Yes! Love this song! Use it for warm up and to inspire me to work harder! Gotta love iTunes! emoticon

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MERISSA1315 7/9/2010 9:45AM

    LOVE the show!

LOVE Jillian!

LOVE the song!

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'One Little Thing' ....

Thursday, July 08, 2010

I'm realizing how 'one little thing' can blow it all. I was right in range of calories and under in carbs...and one glass of mello yello blew me OVER in both . wow. The numbers do not lie. 132 carbs turned into 249 for just a few sips. Sweet beverages today that were completely unnecessary cost me....655 calories!!!!!!!!!!! For ONE sweet tea from McD's and ONE mello yello......OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!! OMGGGGGGG!!!!! and add the COOKIES that I didnt even WANT and would not have noticed if I didnt eat them....another 290 cal!!!!! for a grand total of 945 EMPTY UNSATISFYING no substance calories!!!!!! NINE HUUUUUUNDRED AND FORTY FIVE??????? IS THAT .....REAL??????? well. If that is not proof that EVERYTHING that has made me FAT is in my CONTROL...i dont know what is....
If I had eaten only the substantial FOOD today...and skipped all the junk that didnt even satisfy total would have been 705 calories and 29 carbs. I wonder how much faster that scale would go down with THOSE numbers??? we shall SEE!!!!!!!

PS....i was gonna title this blog "This is total BULL@#%&!!!" but there was no one else to blame but me :) emoticon emoticon emoticon


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SLOLOSER 7/8/2010 11:59PM

    It's good you did the math.

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I finally decided on the plan for me

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

I started my program of the Weigh Down workshop today, after listening to 9 of the 12 videos (of Weigh Down at Home) on Youtube.

I have known for years that my problem was an emotional greed for food, and Ive been floundering over what kind of DIET to start...Raw Food, no beef, no pork, high protein, etc etc etc...wanting to be in CONTROL and ignore this heart issue for fear of not being able to really surrender my desire to eat. Well, the control hasnt worked. WANTING to lose weight, hasnt been enuff to make me change. All Ive managed to do while on Spark is log my BINGES, and im glad ive done that because it gives me a picture of exactly how little physiological hunger has to do with what ive been eating. Have several days backlogged to track also, for reference.
Ive been thinking heavily about what to do over the last several days I've been on Spark and I remembered I had always wanted to take a Weigh Down Workshop class...and never did. So I decided to do so :) Im going to be taking one of the live seminars online to gain support from real people, and I'm going to OBEY my body's signals of hunger and fullness, and deal with the emotions that I've filled with food, by turning them over to God. That is not an easy to think about when Ive felt astranged from Him thru no fault of HIS. Watching Gwen talk about her relationship with God makes me want to have the same!! And believe me, this woman knows how to do SKINNY, and she looks great and is HEALTHY.

So today, I waited for the GROWL, just like Gwen said. I fixed exactly what my body called for, fried eggs in olive oil with coarse kosher salt, big fresh tomatoe slices and just the right touch of olive oil, and I SAVORED each small bite, and STOPPED when it didnt look and taste good anymore with about two bites of egg left on my plate.

So far Ive eaten about one TENTH of the amount I normally would have being AWARE of the growl rather than eating out of habit and emotion. I dont even really know how I managed to accomplish this exactly but...I do know myself being in CONTROL hasnt worked. I should have figured that much out huh? LOL, I got myself to 328 pounds by 'doing the driving', I'm prolly not the best one to consult on the matter. LOL. And I realize it has never been my body that has 'betrayed me', but my heart. I have completely IGNORED hunger and fullness signals, but they have been there and working perfectly all along.

If anything I've said has resonnated with you, here is the websites for the Weigh Down Workshop, and their Youtube channel :)

Best Wishes and keep on SPARKIN!!! emoticon emoticon The GROWL RULES!! emoticon

7pm Felt the GROWL AGAIN. It was a definate GROWL. I tried to out wait it, thinking it would go away, and honestly thinking "I shouldn't be hungry again until LABOR DAY with as much weight as I've got to lose" but that is the ditch on the other side of the road.
Went to taco bell, got ONLY ONE steak baja chalupa and guac. SAVORED each bite and left a few bits of what I call 'bread butt'. LOL. That butt of the bread that nobody wants to eat, but I have eaten in times past just because its there. And I'm done :) NOT OVER FULL!!!!! This is a so much better feeling.

I'm also looking at my 'recommendations' on my nutrition page, and now instead of going OVER to Kingdom Come, I'm way under....but I have to trust my body. If I can't trust my body I'll never be free.

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EARTHANGEL2B 10/11/2009 5:40PM

    This is a great blog! Thanks for sharing. I just started doing Weigh Down a few weeks ago and already lost 10 lbs. This is a HUGE accomplishment because I have tried pretty much everything else over the years and I was really starting to believe I just couldnt lose weight. I was thinking of asking my dr. to send me to a specialist to make sure...
NOW after only a few weeks of Weigh Down.. I will be looking to God for my help instead since I KNOW I am not broken after all.
: D

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NEXTYEAR 10/2/2009 6:45PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon It's working! Tremendous!

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SUSAN134 8/12/2009 8:29PM

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Good for you!!! This sounds like it is possibly the answer for you! I'm going to go check out your links, interesting concept and I'm always up for learning new
information regarding weight loss and control!

Good luck.....let that GROWL roar!!

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LOSETHEWTIN08 8/12/2009 7:46PM

    You are on your way. good for you.

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After tracking my food intake for a few days, I have only 2 words...

Saturday, July 25, 2009


I realize after looking at the NUMBERS of what I actually consume in a 24 hour period, that the grandure of my SIZE is surpassed only by the grandure of my SELF DELUSION about my behavior. If you would have asked me to hazard a guess at how many calories i actually consume in a day, I would have guessed half of the reality.

It's no wonder im fat.

It's not my metabolism, it's not GENETIC, its not the intergalactic gravitaional pull on MARZ interfering with my scales.....its because I eat like a big fat BUTTER-HOG and am as active as a PET ROCK!!!!! omg. what did I expect. I have been overweight basically all my life....and never really 'knew why'. omg.

Now I know.

And the bright side is...after picking myself up off the floor...this is something completely within my control. Not to say it will be EASY....but it is completely within my control :) That is the good news.

The bad news....i weigh more than Shaquile ONeil..and I'm a 5'4 FEMALE!!!!

God help me.

I dont EVER want to be in THIS PLACE AGAIN. EVER!!!!!!!! emoticon

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GOODGOLLY2 7/25/2009 11:30AM

  Ahhh! I completely agree!
I am actually surprised I dont weigh more, considering what i would consume!

But you are 100% is DOABLE, and that is the best news we can hear!

Good luck and God Bless!

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SUSAN134 7/25/2009 11:26AM

    LOL (laughing with you here, not at you). I remember so well the shock I
had the first day I started tracking. Oh my! emoticon

I also worried that being used to eating so many calories, how would I ever be satisfied with so much less. A month later, I am tracking my food every day and find now that I am at the lower range of my calorie allotment.

You CAN DO IT!!!

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