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Im going to gain weight instead

Thursday, May 21, 2009

I decided I need to gain weight to lose weight. Yep I said it. When I was almost 350lbs it seems like I was burning calories like it was nothing and consistently dropping weight every week. Now itís like I am stuck in weight loss purgatory. I am to blame of course. My daily stressors have increased tenfold and I am not motivated enough to go to the gym everyday. So what am I going to do? I could sit on the couch and eat the weight of a small child in Mexican food, ice cream and fresh sourdough bread dipped directly into the Country Crock bowl. But guess what? I canít! My body doesnít even crave that stuff anymore let alone be able to tolerate it. Maybe subconsciously I am self sabotaging myself because I put the pressure of my 30th birthday on the line. I am known for that. As realistic as it was in the back of my mind, I have not been doing what I was doing before to get closer to my goal. But of course I havenít gained any weight either. So I have 2 angels (no devils just a angel with a lil dirt on her wings) on my shoulders. A lot of it is attributed to my job, I know this but I canít do anything about that right now. I can only control ME and what I do with ME. Although I could lay around and squeeze Redi Whip into my throat, Iím not because thatís not what I want. I want to get the fire under my heels again. I want to be completely disciplined again. I once read somewhere, proper diet without exercise is like being asked did you want your plane to have wings or an engine. Well seems like Iím not going to be able to gain that weight after all, eh? Drats.

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EMPOWEREDN09 6/1/2009 9:09PM

    Great blog. My plan has an engine but no wings! Thanks for the enlightenment.

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AMJSATURN 5/21/2009 7:25PM

    Awesome blog, I have been thinking about gaining to lose the weight. One program suggest that because of the adrenal glands being overtaxed.

I thought you and I we partners in crime. until I read the blog of course. Keep yourself positive and you will succeed

The following quote is from a sista "Sparker"

The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather in a lack of will." ĖVincent Lombardi


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MSHOPE2009 5/21/2009 1:44PM

  You have the will of prize fighter... I 've seen it. Get that fire in your belly and make it do what it do! emoticon

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    Well good luck on gaining or losing weight. Hopefully the purgatory will come to an end soon! :-)

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BASICS checklist and something extra

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Today I am celebrating my one year Sparkaversary. This is such an amazing site I am so blessed to have been introduced to it. It only has cost me diligence and perseverance to be here. What a good price! I have met some wonderful people thus far and glad that you all have played a part in my journey. Many thanks to the Sparkpeople team. To celebrate I have decided to create the back to BASICS lifestyle change check list.

B-Begin New Habits
A- Assess your goals realistically
S-Start somewhere
I- Incorporate
C-Claim it!
S- Stick to it!

Beginning a new habit could be as simple as eating breakfast every morning or giving up a ďcanít doĒ attitude and telling yourself it can be done. I remember when I decided that I wanted to change I cleaned out my cabinets and refrigerator. I joined a gym and took water aerobics at a recreation center twice a week. I even did some exercises off the TV. If you donít want to ever change continue on doing the same things you have been doing.

Realistically speaking we all will never be the same size or perform at the same fitness level. Its hard to measure your success off of someone elsesí accomplishments. You will excel at your own pace with consistency and a plan you know you can execute. If you are addicted to fried chicken then you need to figure out how to beat that addiction and bake it. I told a friend I would get her a pedicure done if she gave up her addiction to soda. I have a friend thatís going to buy me a dress (I love dresses) once I reach my goal

Park further from the entrance at the mall. Take the stairs instead of the elevator. Ask for a side salad instead of fries.
All these small steps will aide you in your ultimate goal: healthy weight loss and a new sustainable lifestyle.

Incorporate all these changes into everything you do. If you donít already have one obtain a support system. Someone thatís going to hold you accountable on those days youíd rather sit online playing bejeweled snacking on butter popcorn. Never be ashamed that you are taking on the task of creating a better you. Share what you are doing and make sure you surround yourself with people who will be supportive, especially in the beginning.

Claim victory over weightloss and healthy living. If you want it you can have it. Take it! Every single day in my travels across the world wide web I am finding people who are inspired and encouraged by me, lil ol me! The other day I had posted some new photos on another site and my big sis (I have a lot of sisters now lol) told me she couldnít wait to log on at work so she could show her coworkers my progress and how proud she was of me. I had my own lil cheering section of lady officers at a Correctional facility in South Carolina and didnít even know it!

Never give up. You are going to have some very low moments and you are going to have some amazing OMG look at me moments. Its all part of the process. It took me a good 10 yrs to reach my maximum fluffiness and I had no expectations that it was going to melt off like butter on buttermilk biscuits (ohh I miss those). I have not given up on myself and I know that anything worth having has got to be hard earned-blood, sweat and tears ( not so much blood though lol)

I have also published an Imix on Itunes called the Fly Fat Chix Mix 1. Check it out and download it. If you donít have access let me know and I will burn it for you. There is one song missing ďBaby PhatĒ by De la Soul as it was not in the Itunes store for some reason but I can send that to you as well.
Many Happy returns!

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BUTTAFLYH 5/31/2009 2:45PM

    This was a wonderful blog post. Very positive and encouraging.

Happy Spark Anniversary too even though I'm all late on it. :)

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TRUSTAMINA 5/12/2009 5:17PM

    It's your's your anniversa-ryyy......

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LKRMOM 5/12/2009 4:23PM

    Happy emoticon

Thank you for the inspiring blog!

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LMROBERTS 5/12/2009 4:02PM

    What a great blog post!

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DREAMS2COMPLETE 5/12/2009 3:43PM

  What an amazing blog. It really got me thinking. Thanks for sharing. = )

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Stability Ball Workout

Monday, May 11, 2009

Ok so I bought this ball last June and tonite was the first time i actually used it for the purpose it was intended for (yes I found other things to do with it besides workout on it lol) Anyways that is one helluva workout! I have no balance what so ever and I was afraid the thing was going to pop! It says weight on ball not to exceed 300 lbs but I still was leary. All I could envison was the thing burstin and seeing all this blue rubber all over the living room. Didn't something like that happen in the Nutty Professor? I will conquer this ball, I just have to make an effort to use it 2-3 times a week. You seriously do not know how out of shape you are until you try to follow someone a third of your size on a DVD. Plus all my belly and breast was on my ball and hers wasnt. I dont feel like that was a fair demo lol. OH WELL. Happy Sparking!

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BUTTAFLYH 5/31/2009 2:47PM

    LMAO...OMG that was funny! So how is it going with the ball now, are you still using it??

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TRUSTAMINA 5/11/2009 10:00PM

    GIRL! You are silly. But do you know I have that big blue ball in a spare bedroom collecting dust for the past 3 yrs?! lol. I am soo scared to bust the ball. You are motivating me to try and use mine. What is the name of the workout your using?

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FEMMEFATALE1 5/11/2009 2:21PM

    LMAO...u silly (belly and breasts on the ball)...I haven't used my stability ball yet either...Its all inflated and everything sitting in the living room lol..I think I prefer cardio over anything bc it makes me feel like I've done something lol.

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5/10 to 9/10

Monday, May 11, 2009

My 30th birthday is officially 4 months away and the prospects of me being at 230 are looking grimmer by the day. Some days I try other days my mind is off on so many different things I do not put forth an effort. I read an article on here today about boosting motivation and it was right on time. I know what needs to get done and I know what I need to be doing to make it happen. I have a photo from my birthday in 1998 I was 19 and I must have been 265 in that photo....the only recorded proof that Ive weighed less than what I weigh now in my adult life..I know I can get back to that and then some. I know I am going to have an amazing week working out though- the sun will be out and I hate being inside when its hot so I have to go workout. lol
Im not going to weigh myself for 30 days and just focus on working out and eating right. I can stay the course and in 30 days I know I will see some postive changes ( and negatives on the scale.)

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TRUSTAMINA 5/11/2009 10:02PM

    Girl, don't say it's done until it's done. Just continue to be a diligent as you've been thus far. I think 4 months is a really good length of time to lose that weight. Even if you don't make the 230 mark-you'll be closer to it!

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OMG! I gained 83 lbs!!!!

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

I am interested to read this article on Friday when People hits the stand featuring Kristie Alley at her ďwhoppingĒ 228. Sheís 5í8 like me and sheís currently the weight I want to be. Sooo whatís the deal? Is it because she was slim 30 years ago? Or rather even 4 years ago most recently when she was the spokeswoman for Jenny Craig? Is it cultural? I mean I think she looks fine and letís make note sheís almost 60! If she gets back down to 140 I am concerned about seeing a 60 yr old in a bikini but thatís just me! I have never been 140 lbs well Iím sure at some point last millennium but I have no desire to weigh that much. I love my feminine fat-from my chubby cheeks, to my back fat, my belly, to even that extraness on the inner thigh (as my boo calls sweet thigh meat). It really sucks that the media got a lady darn near 60 talking bout getting bikini ready. Not saying that if you are 60 you canít rock a two piece but that shouldnít be the focus. It should be Iím older now my snap back ainít what it used to be and Iím going to give it a go so I can be healthier in my golden years not worry about a bikini. But that REALITY doesnít sell magazines and that REALITY wonít help her sell books or meal plans after sheís dropped the weight again (oh trust and believe sheís coming to an infomercial near you in 18 months or less). All I know is donít come looking for me to be 140 pounds, if you find me there its clearly something else going on and I will be starring in my own reality series called ď Hanging out with Whitney and Bobby BrownĒ complete with seedy neighborhoods, shifty eyes and sweating for no apparent reason.

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EMBRACINGME2010 1/12/2010 6:34PM

    Tell me about it. 140 would not be cute on me. I will take 193 though. I wont go any less than that.

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BUTTAFLYH 5/31/2009 2:55PM

    Girl I love reading your blogs. Of course I'm having to catch up b/c we just became SP friends, but you are funny. This right here had me laughing "All I know is donít come looking for me to be 140 pounds, if you find me there its clearly something else going on and I will be starring in my own reality series called ď Hanging out with Whitney and Bobby BrownĒ complete with seedy neighborhoods, shifty eyes and sweating for no apparent reason. " LOL!

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TRINA_E 5/6/2009 10:04PM

    Man the media is a mess! Damn Kirstie is rich...can she just chill? You got to beat her up about her weight too? Trust when I turn 60 I will be praising the Lord for making it...not worrying about fitting into a bikini. I hate that the media puts this kind of pressure on people. What I hate worse is that so many people buy it. Kirstie didn't look bad to me at all on Oprah. I need her to focus on healthy weight loss like exercise and eating right and not fad diets. Losing weight the right way lasts wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy longer.

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    "It should be Iím older now my snap back ainít what it used to be and Iím going to give it a go so I can be healthier in my golden years not worry about a bikini." I completely authorize and co-sign that statement! Great entry!

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