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Wednesday, January 11, 2012

After my first blog entry, I felt so, so, so good. Like, better than coming out of a message good. Why? Let me count the ways...

1) I am just happy i finally figured out how to do it.
2) I love reading blogs, and the thought of someone reading my blog, albeit a small chance in this huge Spark Universe, is exciting.
3) It was a big relief to make my thoughts more concrete by writing them down.

The topic I would like to elaborate on today is comparison. I often take notice, probably too much notice, of other members' goals. My goal, as a 5'5" person, is to weigh 135. I notice many other people, many other who are even taller than me, whose goals are 130,125,120. I struggle a lot with reaching and MAINTAINING my goal of 135; I can't even imagine trying to lose another 15 pounds!

I can't offer any solution. I'm sitting here thinking of some wise response, something I can use as comfort. Unfortunately, nothing is coming to mind.

I guess one thing I can do is be happy about other things, like the fact that I've been exercising, sleeping well, playing with my adorable babe, and eating delicious, healthy food.

Hopefully, if I concentrate on the positive, I'll forget about the negative.

Or something.


Day 1 of Blogging

Monday, January 09, 2012

Hi everyone. Some people know me as Pam, some as Ahuva, and others as Pamuva, and yet others as Puva. No, I do not live in a Dr. Seuss book, unfortunately.

Instead, I am a 25 year old nurse, mommy of 1 crazy baby, wife of 1 crazy husband, sister to a crazy sister, daughter of a crazy mom and dad. Is my life crazy? Yeah. I am an orthodox Jew, which means I make home-made potato latkes, challah bread, and all sorts of quiches, kugels, chicken, roasts, cakes, pies, and the like. I am obsessed with food blogs, especially smittenkitchen.com. You rock Deb! The vegetable that I could eat tons of at the moment and not get sick of is fennel. The vegetable I will never in my life get sick of is beats. They taste great together. Coincidence? I think not.

To briefly describe my weight loss journey.... I have been puggy my whole darn life. Darn! When I graduated high school I reached my mature height of 5'5" and weighed about 153 pounds. It was really hard for me to always feel like the heavy girl, and it continues to affect my self esteem to this day.

I studied abroad in Israel after graduation and lost some weight. I felt much better, but I because my goal was 135, and all of those years of bad self esteem kept me from feeling good about myself.

I got married (!), and during my pregnancy I was really, really, really careful. No milk shakes for me. I made my own yogurt and cottage cheese. I love that kind of stuff. I especially like it when I tell people that I make my own yogurt and cheese, and they say, "You are amazing!" Groovy. It turned out that I lost weight, and after my baby weighed 138 pounds! Go me!

I still am struggling with maintenance and feeling good about myself. I always am sweating about these few (usually around 5) pounds that I desperately want to get ride of. I also continually compare myself to other Spark Members' goals, and feel that I should be lowering my goal, even though my doctor told me 135 is fine. I am hoping that this blog will help me accomplish these things.

I love reading the classics. Right now I am on a Henry James binge. I am always and forever on a Pride and Prejudice Binge. I think there should be a Jane Austen team on SP. I love Mr. Darcy. Don't tell my husband that he is nothing like him.

I have no idea who is going to read this, but whatevs.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

PROVERBS31JULIA 1/17/2012 1:33PM

    Hi Pam!
Welcome to SparkPeople!!

I know, I'm the Johnny-come-lately or um, well, maybe the Julia-is-lately... ha.

I think I read Pride & Prejudice years ago but I really haven't done much recreational reading in years.

But you can start a Pride & Prejudice SparkTeam!! Or at least mention it in your status to see if you get any feedback on it?

See you around!


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