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Donít think there is much of a difference, honestly

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Iím one of those people who are slow to appreciate differences in others who have lost weight, sometimes saying nothing lest I insult someone who hasnít actually lost weight. That tendency extends to my own self, in terms of not feeling like there was all that much difference in how I look from when I started this trip (September 2011) and now. I mean, I *know* there's a difference, between the scale telling me that 25 lbs have flown the coop, and the tape measure proclaiming a difference just since July (didn't measure at the outset, unfortunately), but...

I look at these two pics (the before is from October 2011, and the Now was something I posted last week) and, to me, there isnít all that much difference. I mean, sure, I could claim the face is slightly less roundish, but it's not something I'd comment on if I perceived that degree of difference in someone else.
October 2011:
January 2013:

I'm not entirely sure what to think about it. After all, I can pull pics from various points along that timeline to prove pretty much whatever I want; witness the profile pic I'm using now, which certainly caught me at a good angle. Bottom line, there's still a way to go in this rather open-ended journey. I hate to use the BMI healthy range (top end is still ~25 lbs away) as any sort of actual goalpost, but it may end up as just that. We shall see.

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KMM1123 1/25/2013 11:56PM

    I can see a difference too. Of course this is your face we're talking about so it's only going to be a slight difference. Unless you happen to carry all your weight in your face - which you don't (thank goodness too because that would look weird).

And congrats on your 25 pounds. That's a nice solid amount of weight to have lost. Have you tried picking up 25 pounds of weight and walking around with it? If you're not noticing a difference in photos, you'll definitely notice a difference in walking around with the extra weight now that you've become used to weighing less.

I'm sure your knees are grateful they no longer have to deal with 25 pounds of additional gravitational pull. Wait, you're the scientist here - is gravitational pull the right terminology to use? Sorry - it's been a while since I've taken a physics class.

Anyway, in summation (another science-y word), I've concluded that whether you see the difference or not, you must try not to let it interrupt your journey. Keep pushing!

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CLPURNELL 1/25/2013 6:01PM

    I can def see a difference emoticon

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LW8843 1/25/2013 11:06AM

    I can see a difference in my own pictures but when I go shoping I still "see" myself as bigger. I pick up old sizes I wore and have to be reminded that those won't fit any longer.

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It's a moron, of the oxy persuasion

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

I canít recall the last time I had caffeine.

I had a 12 pack of Coke Zero that ran out at some point before January 9th. I know this, because I went into a grocery store looking for a particular grapefruit package that was on a good sale, along with a few other things, and recall specifically deciding to not grab a replacement case. As they didnít have the grapefruit, I took a shot at the customer service counter, and they were kind enough to provide a rain check for the discounted price, and it is dated 1/9/13. I did go to my brotherís house the weekend after, and at the end of the visit, I had him check the fridge to see if he had any cans of Diet Dr. Pepper left. He did not, so, I drove home with the music turned up loud to stay awake (not that with my insomnia and night owl-y-ness, Iíd have any problems staying awake at 11 pm). After that, the past week and change? No soda pop. Iíve turned down any offers of tea or coffee.

For me, the interesting part is that I didnít plan on it at all. This was not an effort to cut down on pop, no try at reducing caffeine to see if itís playing a role in the insomnia. Itís just happened, because there doesnít happen to be any pop in the place, and I havenít ventured out to a grocery store in a couple of weeks, and I havenít gone inside a gas station even when I filled up the tank. And the weird thing is that I havenít noticed until now.

This is very strange, because last spring, I did explicitly try to quit drinking pop, to cut myself off caffeine. Part of it was a perverse, letís see if I can do this! challenge, and partly it was an effort to see if my wrecked sleep patterns could be tamed if I just reduced the caffeine in my diet. That experiment did not last long, as I spent a few days with a constant ibuprofen resistant low level headache. Eventually, I imbibed a caffeinated pop, and the headaches abated, and the experiment was abandoned with no further trials.

Itís an oxymoron, then, or perhaps a paradox if I want to be linguistically correct, that this non-attempt is succeeding, where actually trying to reduce/quit caffeine had such disastrous results. As the insomnia hasnít abated, Iím willing to declare that caffeine isnít the culprit. Have to get to the grocery store soon, and maybe Iíll grab some pop, maybe I wonít. Iíve proven, without trying, that I can exist without caffeine for a couple of week, for whatever thatís worth.

Title courtesy of echolyn, from the song "Mr. Oxy Moron", as seen from apprx 5:00 - 12:00 on this youtube video.

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CLPURNELL 1/25/2013 5:35PM

    Sorry lowering the caffeine didn't help with the insomnia.

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SHRINKING_SARA 1/24/2013 11:02AM

    Hey -- congrats for kicking caffeine! I did it for over two years, and am in a caffeine relapse right now. What I noticed was that I fell asleep quicker, but I also woke up a lot quicker. A quick glass of water was enough to get me up and moving!

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EJRANVILLE 1/23/2013 3:49PM

    Is the insomnia all the time or just occasional? I was having an issue staying asleep (would wake up middle of night and not fall back to sleep) and the doctor suggestined Melatonin. I get a bottle at Whole Foods (purple label) that is 3mg and I'm usually good for the night w/no ill effects the next day.

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All that is shall be in the world

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

How can it be not what it is, when being is in itself?

Gibberish? Exactly. Spockís Beard, to be precise

Interview today wentÖactually, I have no idea. Decent enough, I suppose. Guess Iíll find out next week, see if I made the first cut and get to go back to see the lab boss. Spent a couple of hours on the Michigan campus thereafter, taking a peek around the Diag. Iím a local product, so itís not as if Iíve been completely away the 15 years since Iíve graduated. But I did live in Wisconsin the last 9 years, so there definitely are some major changes that I hadnít noticed before.

Hit the gym later in the day for two hours of pickleball. Gotta work on the consistency, I can have 5 good points in a row and follow that up with 5 bad shots in a row. Todayís wog was run 8:4 walk, up to 5 consecutive laps, 5/12ths of a mile. Next stop half mile, though Iím not planning on it the next time I go. Unless I feel like it. Time today was 12:10, which I would assume was a typo, except Iím reading it off my phoneís stopwatch app, and as far as I know, it doesnít do typos. And that was after the pickleball, soÖ it suggests that if ever I develop a mileís worth of stamina, I can probably run it in 10 something, maybe even challenge single digits. I am aching something fierce right now, not sure if thatís from the court action, or from stretching out and going a little faster the last couple of laps.

Curious to see what the weigh in is tomorrow. Having tracked everything since Friday, it seems like Iím eating on or under the calorie goals stated by the SP tracker. I double checked it against a couple of different sites, and apparently, its numbers are correct for my age/height/weight loss goals. Still an open question as to the accuracy of my tracking. Iíve done a decent amount of fitness minutes, but I had a huge corned beef deli sandwich from a fave old place on campus this afternoon. Curious if that will all cancel out.

And, just because I started with a song with a bit of counterpoint vocals in it, how about I end the same way? ďChanceĒ by Savatage, the counterpoint section starts around the 7 minute mark.

This vid takes me way back to 1998, seeing these guys doing this song live, with the awesome sight of 5 guy across the front of the stage, each singing their separate parts. I have goosebumps right now.

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CLPURNELL 1/25/2013 6:47PM

    I agree with Ken. Watch the sodium. Good luck on the Job!

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KING_SLAYER 1/23/2013 3:47PM

    That corned beef deli sandwich may throw off your weigh in due to sodium content trapping water in your system for a day or so. I've had that happen to me, know that I'm due for a good weigh in and then eat a meal that has more sodium than I would have preferred. Weigh in sucked, but the next day the weight was done a decent amount. Go figure, our bodies are fickle!

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WHISPERINGPINE9 1/23/2013 8:11AM

    You are doing great and working hard and getting some great results.. All the best to you on the job! Thanks for sharing the songs! You have a wonderful day my sparking friend.

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CAMAEL100 1/23/2013 5:36AM

    Best of luck with the job and the weigh in!

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Gummi bears for a shot?

Monday, January 21, 2013

Trying to look back on stuff I used to do 5, 7, 9 years ago, and dredging up a ton of memories. The details are pretty fuzzy, even if I did take the retrospective peek a couple of times during the last year. All in all, it's been like being back in school, studying for a test covering the entire semester, wondering what the heck the prof/interviewer might throw at you. Come down to it, I'm just going to be winging it anyway, so why the stress? Might as well relax and get some sleep tonight, right? Oh except for that insomnia thing. Well, then.

Full on ramble tonight, no coherent thoughts populating this brain, no sir. From nf-kb to gbr12909 (that's a reference from when I got to play with cocaine) to monkeys flinging poop, it's all flooding back, those ghosts of past jobs. Some on my blc team board mentioned Synvisc, and I figure that'll play a role in tonight's dreams, as I gave a thousand imaginary patients imaginary shots of that stuff when I used to do software QA for a med records company. Irradiation, catheters and brain probes, oh my!

Haven't done a lick of exercise yet today, but today has an hour to go yet. Might have to take a turn on the old exercise bike, try to tire myself out. You know, I think I will, if only to calm the hamster wheel in my brain. It's spinning at a fantastic pace. Spin one to unspin the other, isn't that how it goes? In theory, anyway. Let's see if reality agrees, shall we?

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WHISPERINGPINE9 1/22/2013 8:35AM

    Hope you got some exercise in tonight. Sleep is good hope you have a good one. emoticon

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KMM1123 1/22/2013 12:21AM

    While I didn't understand anything at all in your second paragraph - hopefully your interviewer will. I'd offer you some tips on landing your dream job but seeing as I'm still hopelessly unemployed, it's probably best you not take any of my advice.

Good luck tomorrow!

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EMMAEKAY 1/22/2013 12:20AM

    A tired body frees a tired mind! I have been much less insomniac and much more balanced since returning to regular exercise. :)

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Fool for your running

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Title's going to have to wait until I find out what I end up typing out. Today's wog tilted towards the run, with the mile breaking down as 7/12ths run, 5/12ths walk. Which means that I ran a third of a mile (and a separate quarter mile) without having a ball or disc to chase. Time was 13:39, which is sad from the perspective that I did 13:45 with a 7 walk: 5 run split on Friday. On the other hand, once again, the wog occurred at the end of my time at the gym. One of these days, I'll try doing that early in the sequence, and see what I can pull off.

I'm very much not enjoying running. But I've done it, to some degree, three days in a row. Not expecting 4, but you never know. Insanity may prevail yet again. Having done 4 laps, I'm of the opinion that I could probably do a consecutive six (half mile) without collapsing.
But then I'd have to wonder about 7, or if 8 was feasible, and before long...you see? Madness!

One odd thing about the BLC is that it's taking up all my SP attention, in terms of message board activity. Need to remember to visit the teams I was on prior to this challenge, get a dose of sarcasm once in a while, y'know?

Also, am hoping to fall asleep at a decent hour tonight. Might be useful to wake up at a normal time tomorrow, so as to be able to repeat the feat on Tuesday, what with an interview lined up for 10:30 AM Tuesday. Wish me luck, might well need it. It's for a position that I applied for despite thinking I was underqualified, so I'm amused that they actually got back to me where I haven't heard from so many other positions where my experiences might fit right in. Thinking if this doesn't go well (I'm going in with no expectations, for better or worse), I might take a couple of shots in a radical direction. But I'll cross that bridge if it becomes necessary.

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ANDY_54 1/22/2013 3:01PM

    Hey, you never know--running might be your thing if you stick with it for a while. Do you have music while you run? That helps me a lot.

Hope the interview turned out well!

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CLPURNELL 1/22/2013 11:50AM

    Good luck on the interview!! Awesome job on the wog lol

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SHRINKING_SARA 1/21/2013 12:52PM

    Good Luck!

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FLEURGARDEN 1/21/2013 7:29AM

    Congrats on the running progress and best of luck with the interview!

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SLIMINDOWN31 1/21/2013 12:20AM

Keep running

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MYOWNHERO 1/21/2013 12:08AM

    Good luck on your interview!

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    Yessss, insanity will eventually take over! Train safe to prevent injury!

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RUNNINGWILD 1/20/2013 11:52PM

    Insanity will take over ... I started out with a bad attitude toward running and now I run three times a week training for half marathons. It's been 8 years since I claimed that I was never running again.
ps: I'm with you on the BLC taking up all my Spark time. I have got to remember to visit my other teams, too. Especially since one of them is actually MINE.

Sleep well!!

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