Tuesday, January 01, 2013
First entry of 2013, and I think I'll recycle the title with which I began in 2012, referencing a top 10 favorite album, "A Pleasant Shade of Gray", by Fates Warning.
So where do we begin?
And what else can we say?
When the lines are all drawn,
What should we do today?
And so 2013 begins, as the ashes against the grain of 2012 blow away, leaving behind...what, exactly? Hope?
I might not go that far...but I have to say, a peek back to that first blog of the year past did provide a couple of surprises for me, and cause for some optimism. For example, I thought I'd gotten off to a far more explosive start on the spark journey, and was under the impression that I'd lost 10 or less pounds in 2012. Instead, that look back tells me I started the year at 198 pounds, which makes the 183 I weighed in at after midnight on 1/1/13 a loss of 15 pounds.
That's not bad. Ain't spectacular, but a solid figure, and a decent goal to shoot for again, one that if I can make happen, would fulfill my not resolution of peeking under the 170 mark.
I think I can. Actually, belay that...I think I will.
(And for the record, I know that being literal in this case is both denying myself some credit, as well as cheating a tiny bit, since I'm actually up 5 pounds in the past 2 weeks, since moving. That means that I actually did, for a short time, achieve a 20 lb decrease. Also means that the initial 5 pounds of the 15 lb goal *should* be relatively easy)
January 1, 2012: 198 lb
January 1, 2013: 183 lb
January 1, 2014: ??? lb
Monday, December 31, 2012
Or maybe it's the metaphysical cliff of the odometer rolling over on the calendar, I'm not sure. Either way, last day of a not fun year, and an inevitable pause for reflection, no matter how hard I tried to resist doing that, since, essentially, I've been doing that all year, without much success. Maybe something will click in 13. Hopefully something will click in 13. It has a rather low bar to clear, as the standard set by 12 isn't very high. So here's to clearing that bar by 5280 feet.
And the same to you, regardless of how well your 12 went, I hope your 13 beats it by 1760 yards, or 63360 inches, whichever suits your fancy. I'd offer a metric option, but I am, after all, an American. Either that or I can't find my calculator.
Enjoy your Eve, and roll on 13.
And though this isn't a resolution, this next year will see my weight dip under 170 for the first time since 2004. Just sayin'
Sunday, December 30, 2012
On the list of blog entries I've done, I see one listed as December 29th, but others have mentioned that it's listed as on the 28th. The former software tester in me wonders if what you see depends on where you are? As in, I posted it at 12:xx am Eastern time on the 29th, so I see it as such, but those in the central time zone see it as the 28th because that was when I posted it according to their clocks?
Doesn't matter, the initial point of that particular diary was, after all, to make excuses for the inevitable day when I forgot to extend the blog streak. I suppose that I ought to keep that in mind for when I start posting things to the BLC21 challenge, which I attempted to sign up for yesterday. Suppose I'll find out soon enough if I'm cool enough to hang with those folks. As mentioned previously, I have only tried to participate in one challenge before, and didn't last long before washing out, so here's to better success keeping up in this one.
Went sledding on the hill behind my brother's house today. While it's not huge, it's decent enough for a few slides, and I decided to run up the hill on the way back to the top. Totally claiming that as cardio. If I pop back out there during the next couple of days, I might try jogging (which I never do, but am also considering messing with in 2013, a fact that is making me wonder if indeed I have gone around the bend) through the untouched snow. 5 to 6 inches of the white stuff makes can get the heart rate going in a pretty short amount of time.
Saturday, December 29, 2012
If it were a real blog, I wouldn't be starting it at 11:52 PM, and attempting to see, when I hit Post after midnight, if it posts as a 12/28 entry, or a 12/29 entry. Granted, if it's the latter, it'll also extend my streak to 21 days in a row scribbling out a blog post, a streak I'm glad to have done (assuming it does post to the 29th), but also one that's become a bit of a burden, in that I feel like I really oughta keep going, but sometimes don't really feel like extending, and then when I do decide to scribble, feel like I really oughta type out something worthwhile, rather than just bashing out something piddling for the purpose of streaking along. To credit myself, none of these posts were one liners. But as mentioned/pondered way back in the days when I lived 400 miles away, some items do feel forced, or rather (completely?) uninspired, and I fear that this is one such missive.
So, I think that if I don't really have anything to say, I won't. Maybe blurt a thought onto the community journal thingy I mentioned the other day. Maybe not even stick my head into this site, if I really don't feel like it (although, I think I'm about a week away from breaking my old record streak of at least spinning the wheel). We are all adults here, after all (actually, I don't know that...are there any kids around? I'm sure there are teens who could use the wisdom this site provide, even if they ought not to be obsessing on matters of weight quite yet).
To cop a phrase from some guy named Bill, "To spark or not to spark, is that the question?" But I guess if I put it that way, the answer's a rather unequivocal Yes. So I guess I'll keep on bothering. Just with an option to slack. If I feel like it?
Since I still have a minute or two to kill, I'll prattle on thusly: I'm not really sure what brought about this moment of reflection on the website and how I use it, and what I get from it. I've mentioned, a long time ago, about how I am with certain websites, using them regularly for a time, even a long time, and then suddenly finding myself not caring. I'm not at that point with this site. If anything, judging only by sparkpoint numbers, my usage and interaction with sparkpeople have increased over the past few months. Hoping that results follow early on in the new year. But I am also curious if that point comes, and I suddenly grow annoyed, or worse, bored by SP, whether it'll be accompanied by an abandonment of the things I learned by perusing its pages and participating with its people. It seems like there are a lot of boomerangs amongst our numbers, people who join up, initially succeed in losing weight, then go away from the site, only to come back to it, almost apologetic, professing to have slipped back into old habits, and regained what was lost (in terms of weight/good habits).
Are we doomed to such fates, if we drift awry? Will spirits visit us at some point in a dreary future, reminding us of what might have been? (In case you were wondering, yes, I've begun reading Dickens' "A Christmas Carol", available free at www.literature.org/authors/dickens-c
harles/christmas-carol/ , a very nice website that I just discovered a couple of days ago. I'll certainly be haunting that site extensively, as it contains a decent spread of classic books, for free reading. I think "The Count of Monte Cristo" might be next once I polish off Ebenezer's adventures).
Hey, maybe a fear of something like that occurring might just keep me poling my head around here for a long time to come. Maybe, when I do finally manage to get a flipping job, that might prove detrimental to the health, in terms of limiting time to exercise, even as it would help it in terms of reducing stress. I think, the more I blather on, the more I make the case for staying interested in this site on a long term basis. But for now, I hit post, and see if it registers when I started, or where I ended. I'm betting the 29th.
Edit: I win! the bet, I mean. And now for a cookie to celebrate.
Friday, December 28, 2012
I have not set hard and fast deadlines for any particular bit of weight loss, or exercise goal, other than the fact of moving making me get to the gym more often in order to score the ugly t shirt (which, for the record, works quite well for sleeping in!). I see so many blogs titled "Day XX", pertaining to the days from the start of the overall journey, or of a particular challenge, and I wonder if that's a strategy that I could employ sometimes. But I'm not sure it would work for me.
I really don't know how I'd react if I set such a deadline, and failed to get there. That's part of the reason I have only tried joining in on one challenge while on Spark People. I didn't last more than a week of the month long challenge, finding myself unable to keep up with its modest demands, before I quit that particular spark team. It didn't lead to falling back into bad habits, or anything dramatic like that, but it was a bit disheartening.
Considering jumping in on another such challenge, but really not anticipating any particular success from something like that, beyond what I'd already do without it. Will have to think about that one a bit.
In a similar vein, I'm not someone who sets any particular new year resolutions. I just figure, a) I'd just be setting myself up to fail, and b) I feel like there's nothing particularly special about the New year that demands resolutions must be set then, and at no other time of the year. A St Patrick's Day resolution made under the influence of green beer can be just as valid a motivator as one made under the last vestiges of yuletide cheer.
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