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Wednesday, July 18, 2012

The scale was kind this morning, showing a number not too far away from where I was at the end of April, when dreams of reaching the goal weight swirled betwixt the tendrils of thought roaming my brainspace. Didn't really help matters much by going to Quiznos for dinner, I'm sure, but once again I'm reminded of the importance of perspective, as the number, in and of itself, was just 2-3 lbs lighter than a number I was kvetching about just a week or two ago.

Looking into the mirror, I also tend to whine to myself about the face staring back at me. Perhaps it's the result of seeing it day after day after day, but I think it looks pretty much in line with my age, and certainly older than it looked ten years ago. But then I keep hearing from people that they totally wouldn't have guessed how old I was. So maybe there's a bit of "feeling old on purpose for the ego boost of hearing how not old I actually look to others" going on?

The most recent example of this occurred out on the frisbee field last week, where a teammate was bemoaning that another former teammate no longer played with out squad, as that made him the oldest Ass Clown (the team's name is No Talent Ass Clowns, as derived from Office Space's Michael Bolton bemoaning his musical namesake's fame making his life hell). I asked him how old he was, and with a chagrined look on his face, he admitted that he was 32, going on 33 (his birthday is this week, apparently). I gave him a look, and said that he wasn't even close to the oldest. Seeing a couple of quizzical glances, as I was one of only three new members of the team this summer, I told them I'd hit 37 in May, and was rewarded with a couple of astonished looks, and a couple of the women saying things along the line of, "I never would have guessed."

I promise, I don't set up conversations to get those reactions. But I do admit to thoroughly enjoying them when they come around.

And I still go home and see that verge of middle aged man in the mirror. Not sure why that is, when I get, like I said, quite a bit of feedback to the contrary.

Rush - "One Little Victory"

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CATHOLICCORGI 7/22/2012 10:21AM

    OK! ALL of you are young! I will be 57 in December!
The brain is young, the body, well, due to Rheumatoid Autoimmune Disease, it feels like 70 some days. But the spirit IS willing, so I guess I'll never grow up! LOL!
May you all live to a HEALTHY 100 years old!
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KING_SLAYER 7/18/2012 11:10PM

    I think it's great when a person thinks you're younger than you are. I'm 42 and due to so many injuries I often feel like I'm 70. Plus I find no pleasure when I look at myself in the mirror, I tend to think I look hideous and do not consider myself to be attractive. But just last week I was talking to the soon to be 23 year old knockout that works the front counter at my gym and the subject of my younger brother came up. My brother works at this same gym and when I mentioned that I was almost 6.5 years older than my brother, this wonderful girl looked stunned and said "no way, I thought you were younger than him".

A big grin crept across my face and all I could do was just say nope, he's my baby brother. What's surprising is that he has always been sort of baby faced, looked younger than he actually is. Made this ugly old man's day, she did!

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ANGIEJAY77 7/18/2012 11:32AM

    Great blog post. I don't think you're old...I'm almost 35, so I'm catching up to you. However, I am still the third youngest person in the office lol.

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BOSS61 7/18/2012 5:35AM

    You all are babies. A couple of years ago I attended my 30th high school reunion, and was in the presence of a couple of hundred people I (purposefully and happily) had not seen for three decades. Here is what I saw:

1. The women were had physiques best described as bimodal. There were the preponderance of very fit ones, probably within 10% or 20% of their high school weight and more-or-less dressed to the nines. There was a sizable minority who were, well, sizable. Hair colors were every natural shade of the rainbow, with more than half some variation on that (to me ugly) frosted blonde thing. Back in the day, over 80% and possibly 90% were dark brunettes. Interesting that age does...

2. The men generally had outgrown their hair (lots of partial or complete balding) and their pants (average weight gain had to be every bit of 40 or 50 lbs). I had the most, and the darkest, hair in the room. As I once again approach my high school graduating weight (about 20 lbs to go), perhaps I'll go to the 35th (if they have one) or 40th after all. Just to show off. And if that is not high school, what is?

Of course, none of us could play ultimate frisbee worth a whit anymore. Oh, and many thanks for the blog idea!...

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Got my car back, two days early

Monday, July 16, 2012

Someone canceled an appt at the dealership, and they snuck my vehicle into the slot. So I walk the couple of miles out there, in 98 degree heat, arrive soaked through with sweat and rescued my steed. The tests they did made it seem like it was a battery issue, so a $150 solution, rather than the ~$500 alternator plus battery plus ??? that was mentioned as a possibility, so that's nice.

Unfortunately, the mechanic couldn't give me a definitive "all's well", more like a, "we took care of the immediate issue," drive it around a couple of weeks, and let us know if anything else goes wrong. Bit of a seed of doubt there. But hey, I'm mobile again.

Of course, 20 minutes after I get home, I get word that the only thing I needed to get to tomorrow is cancelled. Shouldn't be a problem coming up with alternate things to do, need to go find me some boxes to continue the packing process.

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SEASONS__CHANGE 7/17/2012 10:02AM

    Glad to hear that you have your car back and don't forget to log in those fitness minutes packing...

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BLUE42DOWN 7/17/2012 1:17AM

    Hooray. Hopefully that is the solution. Problems like that can be such a mess (I had a car once that went through two batteries and two alternators before someone else found a short in the starter.)

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The end of Fitchburg days

Sunday, July 15, 2012

As mentioned, moving soon from the current apt. in Fitchburg, over to the east side of Madison. I'll miss living across from McKee Farms Park, which until this spring would have been more of a generic statement than a real one. But I've actually used the space this spring/summer, going for a number of walks, or just going over there with a book and sitting scummy pondside in the middle of a hundred degree day, surveying the wide expanse of crispy brown grass. I've been over there far more than the sum total of the first two and a half years I've lived next to it.

Mapping out the walks on this site's route mapper, which is surprisingly agile, the basic route is approximately three miles, a 45-60 minute trip depending on the day, and how often I stop to engage in a staring contest with a rabbit in the brush.

It appears that where I'll be going is about a mile away from Olbrich Park on the Lake Monona shoreline (and if anyone is able to divine the song that just flitted across my brain from that phrase, I'll be highly, highly impressed). That's a fave park of mine in town, for the Botanical Gardens, and from playing frisbee there over the summers (though it's not is use this summer, and I don't know how long parks are rested for). So I expect I might wander over there and...wander. Looking forward to it.

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EJRANVILLE 7/16/2012 10:08AM

    Hope you enjoy the new place and surroundings. Always fun to explore new areas!

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Well, I was going to go to Milwaukee

Saturday, July 14, 2012

But I was low on gas, and so I stopped at Speedway, after passing by the BP station I usually stop at, after passing by the Mobil station that I stop at if I don't choose the BP. And I fill up at the Speedway, which I've only done once or twice in the three years I've lived just down the road, and I go to start the car for the journey down I-94, aaaaand....nothing.

Car won't start. Fortunately, that gas station I never stop at happens to be about 50 yards from a dealership. But it still took me two jumps starts to get there. And unfortunately, it's not just a (realtively cheap and same day fix) bad battery, it's something that requires further study, possible bad alternator, $500 worth of repairs. Fun stuff.

But I'm amused at how instead of heading right out on the highway (just on the other side of the intersection from where I stopped), I did stop at that gas station. Could have been far worse, or more annoying anyway, if I'd lost power after having gotten out onto the highway, or if I'd made it to Milwaukee and got stuck there. At least here, I was able to walk home, and call it exercise, to boot.

Now if you'll excuse me, I think I'll take a nap. I forgot to grab a hat out of the car before I left it in the dealership's hands, and the sun beating down on my scalp too a bit out of me. I was thinking of continuing on, another couple of miles and walking to the movie theater again, but the second thoughts are winning this battle.

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SEASONS__CHANGE 7/15/2012 11:17PM

    Sorry to hear about a sucky day and the car situation. Another unexpected obstacle that you faced, dealt with and moved on.

Love your attitude and strong coping skills... very rare talent to have.

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KING_SLAYER 7/15/2012 3:14AM

    A little Divine intervention perhaps (if you're into that sort of thing), stopping at the station that was so close the dealership. Whatever the reason, you got a little unexpected exercise out of it and possibly will have something fixed now that may have been a bigger burden later.

Great attitude about the whole situation, by the way.

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Flipping the mental coin

Thursday, July 12, 2012

How likely am I to fit in those size 34 waist jeans at any point soon? Is there any hope of ever using the 33 waist dress pants for myself again?

It's the pre-preparation process for moving that has me pondering these precious proposition, perusing pants I haven't put on in perhaps 5 years, and wondering whether perchance, I may probably be able to parade down the street and not split a seam any time soon?

Problem I have, I don't quite know how much space I will have for storage when I move. And, being the packrat I am, I have a lot of stuff. One pass through the closet, and I didn't really weed out very much to discard or donate. With so many of my articles of clothing, there's a recallable story behind the acquisition of that t-shirt, or the purchase of those pants. Ok, maybe not so much the pants, but a lot of my t-shirts are of various bands I like, so I'm loathe to get rid of most of them, even if I'm old (if not mature) enough now to look askance at wearing some of them out in public.

I have declared the pants a lost cause for the most part. Even if I do shrink the waist enough to fit into them soonish, I'll just buy some cheap new ones. The average price for jeans I've purchased in the past ten years probably being south of 10 bucks, that won't break the bank, and besides, belts will help bolster the life of the currently comfortable pairs. Keeping the dress pants though, they're pretty spiffy looking.

So far, I've filled one trash bag with donatable threads, and will likely have another by the time I get though this first pass. A decent first step, I guess.

The perusal of the book shelf went far less well. I wanna keep 'em all (waaaaaah!).

I have a surprising number of Stephen King books for not really considering myself much of a fan of his. I have a great number of Harry Turtledove books, too but that's far less surprising. And I have a bunch of Lincoln Child/Douglas Preston Agent Pendergast novels, but those are surprising only because I didn't realize I had them on the shelf. Things get lost when you place books in multiple rows, and never go spelunking to see what goodness might lay behind the stuff you liked well enough to display in the first rank.

I did take a bunch of items off the shelf and place them into a box, but I suspect that plan will have to be altered, because the box is already too heavy for me to pick up, and it contains only about 30% of the books off my shelf. Multiple, smaller boxes is the way to go, methinks.

Today's (well, Wednesday's, anyway) exercise, then, consisted largely of moving stuff around, with intermittent stretch breaks, playing a random Coach Nicole sparky vid and moving along. Got a decent sweat going bringing things down from shelves, etc, and I suspect I'll be sore tomorrow. Since I kicked up a fair amount of dust, disturbing things that in some cases haven't been touched in three years (and yes, I am wondering why I'm insistent on keeping those items...self-awareness doesn't always translate to action), here's hoping I don't sneeze the night away.

And maybe tomorrow, I'll accomplish some other stuff that's been on the far edge of the plate for a while. We shall see.

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CATHOLICCORGI 7/14/2012 11:16AM

    As I have downsized, upsized downsized, and moved to an even bigger place, I have learned to de-clutter! This house looks empty to most people, but my DH and I have only the things we love the most or most efficient for us.
One thing I did was take pictures of things that I was sentimental about... things that I wanted the "feeling" I got when I looked at it... the memory was more important than the object. So, I now have pictures of things on a disc and when I want to "feel" the emotion, I use it as a screen saver for awhile, or just loking at the pic gives me a great smile! This really works!
Also, I donated a lot of books to my local library to resell. My book collection is down to one tall case now. I figure I can always go to the library and read a book again. The ones that truly are important will never go anywhere. I am a book lover, and although I like the electronic idea, there is NOTHING that replaces the feel and smell of the printed page!
My DH and I cut our special T's into squares, too. I took a fleece throw and sewed them to the top of it... instant T-throw! LOL! May not look professional, but it is warm and makes us smile!
One idea on the clothes, turn your hanger backwards, if you wear something you can then turn it right. If after a week or so you see you haven't worn it, it goes. I do this every time I "change" seasons(it's a woman thing! LOL!). If I didn't wear it the whole season, I donate it or toss. I now have the one item in rule, one item out.
Just keep to your SPARK basics!
If you find the packing/deciding is getting too overwhelming, break it into chunks and set a timer for 15 minutes... do what you set out to do, and when the timer rings, you have permission to quit. Do three sessions, then rest a session. It will be progress, yet you won't be going in different directions. You can focus on anything for 15 minutes!

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SEASONS__CHANGE 7/13/2012 3:11PM

    Later on tonight, when the dust settles, take a nice long hot bath to relax and soothe your muscles. Big, life changing moments heading your way and some very exciting ones. One never knows what awesome things are just around the corner.


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KING_SLAYER 7/12/2012 5:27PM

    The t-shirt quilt is a good one. Just make sure you get the special backing material to place the t-shirts onto or else the shirt squares will not last!

My mom is a longtime quilter, teaches it at the local junior college. She has done t-shirt quilts before, that's how I know about the backing. Definitely ask an experienced quilter how to go about doing it before yous tart cutting your shirts up! Gotta leave seam allowances and stuff like that :)

Good luck with the books, they are always hard to part with. But you could check with a local library or book mobile to see if they would take them. (If you can let them go that is).

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RANDOMLY_HONEST 7/12/2012 6:14AM

    For the band t-shirts, what I did was cut them up into squares so the image/logo showed, and then sewed them into a giant quilt. It's pretty easy to do, even with basic hand-sewing, there's no fancy techniques. That way you get to keep your memories, in much less space. If you don't feel like sewing (or can't get anyone to do it for you), just cut out the images and keep those - you can display them in picture frames, or just keep them as reminders. It takes up much less space than the whole shirt.

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EOWYN2424 7/12/2012 2:03AM

    I have too many books too!

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