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New year, new start (for the last time!)

Saturday, January 01, 2011

So I changed my introduction on my page today to this:

I am doing this so that I can be here for my two gorgeous boys!

My kids are my life, and I want to live to be with them! Everything I do is with their best interests at heart! So, I want to be here and I need to be healthy in order to do that!

After losing 49 pounds between October 2006 and November 2007 and being my smallest in years, I have officially gained back every thing I lost and then some! I am so very disappointed with myself and those who looked up to me when I had great weight-loss.

Today is 1/1/11 and this is the year for permanent change! I have to change my starting weight to be realistic. I'm more than the 188 I had on here now with all my weight gain. It's a big slap in the face and I'm ready to do this!

I even changed my ticker to the mountain and the icon to the person running. These symbolize the mountain I have to climb to reach my goal not only of weight-loss but in life.

To quote Miley Cyrus "There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna want to make it move. Always gonna be an uphill battle. Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there. Ain't about what's waiting on the other side. It's the climb."

I know it may be a little tacky but it sure is a song that makes me cry every time. Life is hard but so long as we keep trying, we are climbing!

I love you all!"

This change was more for me than for those who read my page. Life has been super difficult this past year but today is not only a new day but a new year and once more chance to get it right. So long as I keep going and never quit, I know I am ok.

I love all the friends and family I have. Those I have met and those online who I have never met in person. I wish all of you the most prosperous, healthy, and happy year of all. I know we can do it! The fact that we are all still here, even if only every once in a while, is proof that we have not given up and that anything is possible. I have been working on my journey for 4 years now and although I am starting again heavier than the first time, I know that I can never get "comfortable" and never forget that every piece of food I put in my mouth is a conscious decision. "Will this help or hurt my efforts?" If it hurts them, then it doesn't go in my mouth. Special occasions are not about the food, they are about the ones you are sharing it with. Remember that (talking to myself) and things will be good!

Vow to get in some sort of exercise every day. It doesn't matter if it's heavy cleaning, walking up and down the stairs or "real" exercise. I MUST be able to say that I did SOMETHING every day! If not, it was a wasted day. Exercise clears the mind and I need that more than anything!

I love you all and I truly hope you have a great year! Most of all I have to love me and GIVE myself the best year ever! I deserve it too!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

LUVSNOAH 1/6/2011 12:50PM

    Every day is a new start. Forgive yourself for the past that you can't change. Work on today and celebrate today's goals!

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DEE797 1/1/2011 12:55PM

    emoticon I like your blog and how you laid it all out there for the universe to read. Wishing you all the best in 2011! emoticon emoticon

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ABC's of me!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

A - Age: 34

B - Bed size: Full

C - Chore you hate: Dishes

D - Dog's name: none :-(

E - Essential start your day item: Banana

F - Favorite color: Red

G - Gold or Silver: Depends on my mood but I wear gold on my left hand and silver on my right.

H - Height: 5'3"

I - Instruments you play: None very well...used to play the keyboard and the saxophone.

J - Job title: Bookkeeper/Office Manager/Business Owner

K - Kid(s): Alex and Ethan

L - Living arrangements: With the kiddos

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Tonsils, adnoids, and tubes/also Appendicitis.oh and the birth of my kids lol (hey it's not MY birth)

P - Pet Peeve: Liars, thieves

Q - Quote from a movie: no single quote comes to mind.

R - Right or left handed: Right

S - Siblings: 1 sister

T - Time you wake up: to STAY up? 8 am...first time up to get child ready was 5am

U- First word that comes to your mind for "U": Umbrella

V - Vegetable you dislike: cooked veggies...I love most veggies and love them raw.

W - Ways you run late: getting kids ready

X - X-rays you've had: on thyroid, on mouth, on abdomen (I think that's all)

Y - Yummy food you make: My best dish is a chicken, fruit, and pasta salad. It's soooo yummy!

Z - Zoo favorite: Hippos or Rhino's!

Now cut this & paste it into your next blog post! I want to read about you!!

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REDSAMUR 6/7/2010 3:45PM

    My version has for M and N:

M - Mom's name:

N Nickname(s):

Maybe you're OP found those questions too personal to answer.

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AGOLDIE 6/6/2010 10:06AM

    I just realized that M and N are missing in the list! lol

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REDSAMUR 6/6/2010 9:31AM

    I always cheat on the movie quote questions and check IMDB ;)

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AGOLDIE 5/20/2010 3:05PM

    Thanks but I copy and pasted it from my friend! Figured why not lol

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MARIEPC 5/20/2010 2:55PM

    good job, imaginative!

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So sad for my "team"!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

So, I had this team called Sparkin' Losers! and it started off great! Now I am down to 3 people besides myself who post and even they haven't been that active lately. I feel so bad that I let things fall apart. What a horrible team leader! I have no idea how to get everyone back either! I don't know if I should open it up to the public to see if we get new people but I've done that before and got no one. I'm just sad that things got like this. I had some people on there that I miss dearly! Maybe some day they will come back!

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AGOLDIE 2/22/2010 4:01PM

    Thanks all! I have tried the challenges. A lot of the old members are in another team I'm on (but not an administrator of) so I get to talk to them, I just miss my team!

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*~*MICHELLE*~* 2/22/2010 9:26AM

    I think its just the time of year. I also have a small private team and its SOOOOOO quiet! But I cant make people post. Dont take it personally. Really!!!!!! emoticon

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PORGY_58 2/22/2010 8:38AM

    Take a deep breath and let yourself be the motivation that brings your team back together. We all need a break every now and then ... and it takes a strong leader to keep things going. The fact that there are still people posting means that you have done something right to keep them there.

These are your strongest members ... get their help to generate more interest in the team ... use one or all of them to cover your back when you just need a break.

AND, most of all just have faith in yourself. I know that I do.

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DEE797 2/22/2010 7:37AM

    You could send out invites to people you know and see what happens. I know how hard it is when people drop out and lose motivation to participate. Good Luck!

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FITN2014-TSP 2/22/2010 7:30AM

    Well it couldn't hurt to open it up again. Maybe you could entice some members with a challenge. Good luck. I hope it works out for you. emoticon

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Lack of motivataion? Lack of determination? What is it?!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Not sure what my problem is. I've been battling this weight for almost 3 years now. Within my first year I had lost 49 pounds. Never quite hit that 50 pounds and now I'm back up to a pound more than where I started! I know what to do. Eat right and exercise. So why won't I? I will sit here and cry that I just can't do this anymore, and do it while I'm eating something I know I shouldn't be, or watching tv instead of exercising. Is it lack of motivation? Is it lack of determination? I want this, thought I wanted it bad enough but can't get my head screwed on again.

I love my workout games for the Wii (the EA Active, the Gold's Gym Cardio Boxing, and more) and I love how I feel why I do them, so why don't I just shut up and do them? I did the first 30 day challenge on the EA Active (on easy) and loved it! It actually got to where it was too easy. So I started it again on Medium. Did 3 days and that was it! There was a lot of running exercises and I am soooo not a runner! I can't breathe and therefore, I just stopped doing it. I don't want to go back to easy because it was too easy. So there's part of my problem, when things get hard (just the running, the rest of the exercises I can do), I quit. Seriously need to work on that!

I am still paying for my gym membership (only $10 a month but still) and I haven't gone since like February or something. Maybe not that long ago but obviously I don't remember the last time I went. Why? Because I don't want to go alone! I need someone to help me get through and make sure I push myself!

I'm unemployed (well, finally back to work but only 10 hours per week), I'm in school full time (although all online so I sit and do nothing for hours), I'm trying to get a candy business up and running and getting orders out and things ready for craft show season where I make the bulk of my money, court issues with the little one's father, a single parent with a teenager and a toddler, and a million other reasons I can give as to the stress I deal with. I realize they are all just excuses. So how do I finally smack myself to get back in shape and lose this weight. I think I fall in the morbidly obese category (for my height and weight 5'3" and 189 pounds), and I know I need to be down to under 141 to be just at the top of the normal BMI range. My goal is 120 pounds. I've done this before so why can't I seem to do it again?

Sorry, was just hoping putting it in writing would help me get back to action.....still don't feel any better though :-( Just more depressed and mad at myself. emoticon Yup, feel like a loser and not the kind I want to be! lol Want to be a weight-loser! *sigh* I know I am the only one who can do this. Just wish I had someone to do it with. Obviously I'm not good at doing it on my own!

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AGOLDIE 10/17/2009 2:09PM

    Ok Auntie, it's time to get back to the gym! The treadmills are useless in my living room if we are not using them (I don't like Cory's) so I guess I need to get back there. Alex will probably watch Ethan. Well, if not, Skip can have the boys! lol Good thing he loves kids!

I want to be down at least 10-15 pounds by Thanksgiving and 15-20 by Christmas! That is sooooo doable!!!! It SHOULD be much more but I'll start there!

Thanks all. Just needed to vent! :-) Love you all!

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DEE797 10/17/2009 1:38PM

    I know you can do this. I've seen your determination with your kids and I know you can apply that to weightloss and exercise. As for the EA Sports, just click on the checkmark and it will turn into an "X" and you won't have to do that exercise. Or set-up your own workout on the EA Sports and pick the exercises you want to do. Just getting started is often the hardest thing to do. I have often walked in place when I first tried to do the running and/or the kickups or whatever those things are called cause it hurt my calves so much.

Just start one exercise session at a time for like 10 minutes.
Then adjust your eating and water intake. Don't cut back on everything at once. YOU CAN DO THIS! I have every confidence in you.

Much success on your journey! emoticon

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Comment edited on: 10/17/2009 1:39:08 PM

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STAR2SHINE 10/17/2009 12:08PM

    I live one door knob away and would love to go back to the gym but have no way to get there as you know. I would go at any time you wanted. I'm tired of my gym membership lying dormant too. So lets do this.

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KOOCH4 10/17/2009 11:23AM

    I AGREE WITH Firegirl,
one day at a time.
Try to get to that gym and make a buddy, you know you can do this.
We all have these hurdles.
Thanks for sharing.
I know you have so much on your mind, it's just so difficult at times.
God love ya!
Now get off that pity pot (the one I've been on , so many times), and start moving on.

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AGOLDIE 10/17/2009 10:34AM

    Thanks girl! Wouldn't be easier if we were all close to each other?! lol We could have a gym party every day! Then we'd all be hot momma's!!!! lol I know we can do this, I just need to figure out how!

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FIREGIRL19 10/17/2009 10:27AM

    I know how you feel...I want to lose weight bad also. But I keep going back to what I call my comfort food and it isn't the best stuff in the world, I know its not but I keep doing it. So we both need to try and take it not really one day at a time but maybe one meal or snack at a time and try to stop and think about what we are going to eat or what we are going to do for the day. Just thought I would let you know that you aren't the only one out here who feels the same way.

It will get better. emoticon

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Who woulda thunk it!?.....

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

...that I didn't die from exercise! You would have thought I would seeing that I haven't really done "real" exercise in forever. I have been walking every day but with a 3 year old!

So today we went for a 70 minute walk....
Also did 35 minutes on my Wii Fit (doing the step and hula games)
ALSO did 15 minutes of cardio on my Wii Fitness Coach!!!

2 hours in today!!! And I"m still alive and waiting for little man to wake up so that I can get him back outside for another walk.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

BALDYJOHN 4/18/2009 7:40AM

  You rock Amanda....way to go. Keep it up now and you'll get there.
Keep smiling

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DIANAMCC 3/20/2009 9:44AM

    Great work Amanda!!! I bet your body is loving you for getting so much in!!! Enjoy!

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DEE797 3/17/2009 10:27PM

    emoticon You are doing GREAT!! Keep it going!!

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JEANNIE2600 3/17/2009 6:33PM

    YAY!! I am so proud of you. We can do this - I am at an hour and a half so far today and looking to get in 2 hours today.

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MISSBEAR11 3/17/2009 4:12PM

    Way to go!!!! Keep up the hard work.

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