Thursday, July 04, 2013
As I logged on this morning, I realized that I have been a member of SP for four years. When I think about all I have learned, the friends I have made, the freely given support, love and appreciation -- I am truly blessed. It has been an incredible learning experience, and I realize that I am ready to tackle the unknown.
The first year or so hanging around here, I bobbled around, I hung out in the Café, made a few friends, explored some teams, and yo-yo'd up and down a bit. Then a little over 2 years ago, something clicked -- I realized that the people on my teams and the friends I had made were serious -- they weren't just hanging out talking about losing weight and keeping it off, they were really doing it. The support, care and advice there were giving was 100% genuine and sincere. These cool people really wanted me to succeed and reach my goals, they wanted to help me, to celebrate with me. That was the day I got off the yo-yo, I started losing again -- and more amazingly I have been able to keep it off.
Thanks to Spark I got down to 181 and have been able to maintain that average weight for over 2 years. Prior to that, the smallest weight I can ever remember seeing on the scale was in gym class in 7th grade -- I was 185. I even fit into my prom dress, and the dress I wore to my stepson's wedding is 2 sizes smaller than the one I wore to my Jr. Prom (I realize that sizes have changed over the years -- but it is still cool).
While I have been maintaining, it has been a great learning experience -- it isn't easy. I always operated under the illusion that once I got to 'goal' life would be easy and perfect. Life has a way of humbling you.
When I first got to a 14 and hit the 180s, I made the decision to maintain my weight -- I am the size I was in 7th grade -- I was/am unable to comprehend the possibility of anything less.
The first time I bought jeans outside the plus section, I cried and couldn't get them into the cart -- even though I had tried them on. When I shopped for my dress for my step-son's wedding I started in the plus-size mother of the grooms section. Still, I will look down and see my wrists and be surprised they are mine, or hang up a blouse and be in shock that I wear that. Sometimes I still see the 375+lb Terr looking back at me in the mirror, and sometimes I barely remember her.
I truly think fear of the unknown stopped me at 181 -- today, I realize that I am ready to stop maintaining and start losing again. I am going for a size 12 -- I have never been there before -- at least not that I can remember. After that, who knows. Thanks to my friends at SP -- I can do anything!
Thank you for the last 4 years!
Friday, February 17, 2012
Yesterday, after a particular stressful meeting, I logged into my email and saw a list of messages from my fellow Sparkers congratulating me on being listed as a Motivator of the day. I am so touched that those I look to for advice and inspiration consider me motivating.
Prior to joining Spark, I had been able to lose weight, but I have never been able to keep it off. The first couple of years I was on Spark, I quit gaining but wasn't losing either. Two years ago in April, I started losing again and lost another 60 lbs, bringing my total loss to 189 lbs. For the first time -- I have kept it off. The credit goes to my Spark team members and friends. You have given me an incredible gift -- through your understanding, advice and friendship, you have taught me how to keep the weight off.
Sunday, August 01, 2010
Just had to share! I just found out that I will be transferring to our District Offices in mid-August. I am so thrilled! -- it is my dream job. Assessment and Evaluation specialist. I love numbers and data and figuring out the root causes for trends in the data. I have been wanting a job like this for a really long time, but they don't open very often -- the last time was 6 years ago, and I didn't have the confidence to apply back then.
I need to get some more professional clothes before I start and I am determined to get them in a size 14. My 16s are getting a little loose, so I have 20 days to make it happen. I am so ready!
Saturday, June 26, 2010
I bought a swimming suit yesterday -- Do I look good? Of course not! But I look loads better than I did 40 lbs ago, and parts of me look pretty nice.
I am going on vacation on the 7th to KY to see my brother and his family. When we were talking about the trip he mentioned that the kids were really excited because they are taking swimming lessons and they want to take me swimming to show me what good swimmers they are now. I refuse to not be a part of my family's lives because I am self-conscious so I usually try to get tan then suck up the nerves go swimming with them. Anyway, I dug out my 'old faithful' suit that I have taken in and let out a few times -- it was just too big, old, and hammered to try to fix again, so I went to Wally's in hopes of getting something workable.
I grabbed a 2-3 different sizes and styles and hoped there would be one that would work with minimal re-building (I usually take out the built in bra and put one of my own in that actually has some support). The first 3 were dismal, the 4th one I picked up on a whim just because I liked the pattern -- I figured it would never fit, . IT DID! a size 16 not a 16W but a straight 16. Even the top had enough support to give the girls a lift.
I stood there in the dressing room and cried (I know the associate thought I was completely looney). I can't believe I put on a swimming suit and don't look too bad. I could still star in People Magazine's - Cellulite legs and behind photos, but the top half looks pretty good. Thank you HCG & SPARK!
Friday, June 11, 2010
I am doing to well and want to do more but I can't and it is frustrating. I feel so good, have so much energy and want to get in some serious exercise -- especially since for the next rew weeks I only need to work part time.. But, my foot hurts all the time -- it is just the level of pain. I can feel it all the time, and mostly it is just an irritant, but when I do too much it feels like something burning is stabbed through the bottom of my foot. One Dr. says it is a LisFrancs fracture between my 2nd and 3rd toes, another says it is a Morton's Neuroma -- either way it hurts like heck when I put too much pressure on it, and there is not a whole lot they can do about it either way/ without surgery and it is not guaranteed to solve the problem. I am whining because I am so frustrrated -- I am still able to do most things as long as I pay attention and quit when it gets hurting too much. But I am mad because I feel so good right now -- about my weight getting where I want it to be, about my health improving, about life in general. I am so motivated and I fell like I am dragging around an anchor!
Ok, I am through whining. Thank you for letting me vent.
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