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The bikini

Monday, April 28, 2014

I have never worn a bikini in public until this trip to Jamaica. Why did it take me until AFTER losing over 100lbs to wear one?!

I have been working my butt off, literally, to reshape my body. Lifting, running, boxing....

Some people struggle with working out, but I love it. It allows me to build definition (and eat a little more!). My struggle is with food, however looking at pictures of me from my vacation will hopefully add fuel to the fire and keep me on track.

before:
around the beginning:


a little ways in- 25 lbs down?:



Now (not sucking in):





A work in progress......
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HIMELISSA2007 6/2/2014 1:34AM

    Amazing and confidence to wear a bikini. The bikini waved bye bye to me years ago but there is still hope!

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MUSICALLYMINDED 5/13/2014 9:47PM

    You give me hope!!!!

Your stomach is freaking awesome.

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READY4CHANGE81 5/10/2014 10:16PM

    You look incredible!!!!!!! You can definitely tell you workout! emoticon emoticon
Keep up the great work! I agree that your amazing progress is total motivation in the right direction!

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    Fabulous :).. emoticon

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    HOLY TOLEDO!!!!

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TIGER_LILY_613 5/2/2014 2:17AM

    A-MA-ZING !!!! Wow !
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TARALYNN669 4/30/2014 5:26PM

    you look awesome! Congrats to you on such an amazing accomplishment! :) Must be nice not to have so many tans lines LOL

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HDHAWK 4/28/2014 8:03PM

    You look fantastic! I bet you had an awesome time!

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STRONGDJ 4/28/2014 3:49PM

    You look great! I'm so happy for you.
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You look terrific!!!
All of your hard work has really paid off!!


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SWEETRACHEL313 4/28/2014 12:12PM

    You look fantastic!!! Good for you!

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ADARKARA 4/28/2014 10:27AM

    WOW! You look incredible! What an inspiration!!!

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MISSUSRIVERRAT 4/28/2014 10:14AM

    OMG. Wow, the transformation that you have made is amazing!

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PRETTYLILHEFFER 4/28/2014 9:51AM

    You look stunning!

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    You look amazing!! emoticon emoticon

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JAYDEE16 4/28/2014 9:33AM

    WOW. Just . . . WOW! You look spectacular! And you've given me hope that I can get rid of my wobbly stomach-bits, which I had kinda decided were just not ever going to go away. Whether I could ever commit to the kind of workout routine you have, however, I am not sure. But at least it's theoretically possible! :)

You are freakin' awesome!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 4/28/2014 9:07AM

    You look AMAZING and you should be SOOO proud of yourself!
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POOKASLUAGH 4/28/2014 8:12AM

    You look fantastic! And wow such an inspiration! I'm still struggling with the idea of actually WEARING my bikini this summer. :)

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    emoticon lookin emoticon Hope you had a fantastic trip!!

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JOHNWBROCKSR777 4/28/2014 6:44AM

    Great job......I love working out as well...finding more time is an effort...

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GETSTRONGRRR 4/28/2014 6:27AM

    Congrats kiddo, you look great!

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Working Out

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Weight loss. A game played for keeps.

I took these pictures last week. I need one with better lighting to show off the muscle definition better- I'm pretty proud of how far I've come.



Compare it with the one I took 50ish lbs ago:


And the one I have 110ish lbs ago:


I am so happy I pushed myself through all those workouts to get here. All that healthy eating. All the stressful times where I didn't eat the world- success!

Just today at the gym:


Compared with 50ish lbs ago:


I wish I had one from 100+ lbs ago.
All different poses, but it shows what working out can do for your definition. I aspire to look better by the summer. Better by the fall. Better all around! Being fit and lifting makes a person look smaller than they might be! I love it.
My trainer says he notices a difference since I started with him about 2 months ago, and I would agree. I have leaned out and built muscle especially noticeable in my upper body.

Good thing I enjoy working out!

  
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MISSUSRIVERRAT 4/28/2014 4:35PM

    Inspirational pictures!!

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READY4CHANGE81 4/20/2014 1:39PM

    You look incredible!!!!!!!!!!!!! Your muscle definition is amazing! Wow...I need to do whatever you're doing ;) Keep up the great work hottie!!! emoticon

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MJ-SHE-BEAST 4/16/2014 3:22PM

    I'm so impressed with your back definition. Love seeing pictures like this. Gives us all hope and motivation. Thanks for sharing!

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JAYDEE16 4/16/2014 1:40PM

    I was so excited to see a new blog post from you!! :)

You look fabulous! Enjoy that bikini, you worked hard for it!

Now I might just have to rethink my "I don't need a trainer" decision I made awhile back . . .

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UWHK8STER 4/16/2014 12:50PM

    These pictures show such a difference - thank you so much for sharing. Very inspiring. You look great and keep up all the hard work because it has paid off.

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ARUNNINGKAT 4/16/2014 12:37PM

    Way to go! You have accomplished wonderful things and you are a true inspiration!

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KLWALDON 4/16/2014 9:47AM

    Awesome! Your hard work has paid off!

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    Amazing! Inspiring! You are a rock star! emoticon

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AMBERLICIOUS88 4/16/2014 9:27AM

    Wow! What an amazing difference! You are soooo motivational!

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    You look awesome!!! emoticon

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SMILINGTREE 4/16/2014 9:00AM

    I'm not sure you *can* look much better than you do now :) Thanks for sharing. I've been in a slump, and seeing this, and knowing what you have done to get there is helpful.

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ADARKARA 4/16/2014 8:05AM

    you look AMAZING!!!!!!

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POOKASLUAGH 4/16/2014 8:03AM

    Your back looks incredible! Wow!

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STRONG_SARAH 4/16/2014 5:17AM

    Wow, that's great!!! You look awesome. All of your hard work paid off, congrats!

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In the beginning

Monday, January 27, 2014

In the beginning there was me. And a mission. And the two fused at the beginning of April, 2011. My journey is 3 years in the making- a drop in the bucket, really.

Without fanfare, without celebration I got myself together, mentally ready for this journey. It was so easy not caring about what I ate, having extra free time because I was not active. But that time in my life was coming to an end. I wanted cool clothes, I wanted to turn heads like I did when I was younger, I wanted to blend into a crowd and not be the largest in a room, I didn't want to feel uncomfortably big anymore, and I wanted to be fit. My reasons were not based on health, per say.

I quietly joined a gym. I started where I knew- with cardio (treadmill walking and elliptical) and weights. I kept my blinders on, going from exercise to exercise in my own little zone. I was not intimidated by anyone or any machine. I was inspired. I was on a mission. A mission to build a better butt.

Healthy foods replaced pre-packaged foods, and I stopped going out for meals often. I weighed and measured everything. All the deliciously tasty fresh foods I prepared were fuel for my fire.

I told no one at work. Not even my friends knew (except for 1- we started a weight-loss competition a couple weeks in, but she dropped out a couple months later). I had been down this road before- losing 70 lbs and regaining it all and then some. This time there would be no regain. This time was it, I thought to myself.

I started taking a few classes- yoga and bootcamp when I was 100lbs overweight. I modified it all. I sweated like a pig. And I kept going back. I even gave my bootcamp instructor a Christmas card because I was so happy with her classes. I don't know if she ever knew how much I loved the challenge. She did comment on my weight-loss though :)

Slowly, quietly, I made a couple friends at the gym. Slowly I branched out and tried new classes. And one day in October of 2011 I decided I wanted to be able to run. To outrun the zombies in case of a zombie apocalypse. In the beginning my goal was to make it the equivalent of a room's length or so without my lungs exploding. And each week I'd tack a little extra distance on. A friend I met at the gym told me about the run 10 walk 1 method, so when I got up to 10 minutes I could walk a minute. Woohoo! A glorious break to look forward to! I never thought I'd be a runner! What an exciting surprise.

And my group of friends through exercise grew. Bootcamp friends, running friends, boxing friends, kickboxing friends. People talk easily with me again, I seem to fit right in.

When I asked a friend who never knew me before the weight loss if she could tell I lost 100lbs she said, "NO! I would have never guessed."

If I wouldn't have ever lifted, or gone to bootcamps, or run, or boxed I would not look like I do now. I have some definition going on- I look toned. Granted, I still have more jiggle than I'd like, but hello! I've lost about 100lbs. I'm never going to look 'magazine perfect'. But I'd never look like this without the exercise. I have a bit to go, but I am humbled and empowered by my journey and strength to persevere every single day.



(this picture was taken last month and I'm working on dropping the 10lbs to get back here).

I've had many ups and downs on my journey. I've had smooth sailing, and bumpy roads when my motivation to eat healthily wanes and I have dove into a pan of homemade cinnamon buns or chips. I've lost and regained and lost again these last 20-30 lbs at least three times.

But I've never given up. Because to feel and look like I do compared to before is sooooooooo worth it to me! To know I can run at least a 10k at a drop of the hat, be physically fit, and fit some pretty cool clothes in sizes I never thought possible is a dream come true. And if I'm accomplishing these dreams I never thought possible, which ones are still out there that I don't yet know are going to happen? I must stay on my game, excitement and adventure may be just around the corner.

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PRETTYPITHY 5/16/2014 2:52AM

    It is wonderful to see your positive attitude in this blog, very inspirational for me!

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WORDLILY 5/8/2014 4:22PM

    Our start dates are pretty close, but I've still got a long ways to go to get to where you are. It's going to happen, though.

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EDENFELL 2/11/2014 9:36AM

    That is pretty impressive that you can run a 10k at the drop of a hat. More than the weight lost, you sound so confident and content with your life which is huge. Congratulations on accomplishing so much! emoticon

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JAYDEE16 1/30/2014 1:11PM

    I have to second the emotion that you are a tremendous inspiration. :) Seriously, I aspire to be you, with your ever-growing list of fitness accomplishments. Your "debriefs" after setbacks are so insightful, and honest, and it is reassuring to know there is a way back from the brink!


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Great Job!!! You have done an awesome Job!!!!

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    I just love success stories! emoticon

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    I am empowered too! By you! Thank you! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 1/27/2014 7:10PM

    I love this blog and I love you! You're real, you're honest, and more people need to be this way. Congratulations on your success, and I have NO doubt that you will get where you want to be.
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WINNIE1978 1/27/2014 6:42PM

    You are an inspiration... and not just because you've kicked some serious butt with losing those pounds, but because you have never given up even during the bumpier parts of your journey!

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GETSTRONGRRR 1/27/2014 5:42PM

    Very, very cool! And you look great.....I bet you feel even better!

You've done great.....and cheated the zombies out of an extra 100 lbs of food!! Keep running and remember, you don't have to outrun the zombies...you just have to outrun whoever's trying to outrun the zombies with you!

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    You look amazing!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon on all your accomplishments!!!

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POOKASLUAGH 1/27/2014 8:26AM

    You are one of my biggest inspirations, and I definitely consider you a success story. You look fantastic! :)

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    Wow! You look fantastic!!!!!
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    emoticon emoticon Persistence always pays off in the end. Thank you for sharing your story.

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BABYSOX 1/27/2014 6:39AM

    What a great inspiration you are for many of us.

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FIREFLY4407 1/27/2014 5:54AM

    Way to go on all of your hard work and persistence, and congratulations on your resulting success!
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STEPH-KNEE 1/27/2014 2:23AM

    I feel the same way about my journey as you do about yours and that makes me happy! When I have the some attitude and outlook as someone as awesome and successful as yourself, it reminds me that I'm on the right path! And how did I not know how stunning you were before this blog? Seriously, stunning and amazing! emoticon

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TIGER_LILY_613 1/27/2014 2:00AM

    Wow. What a wonderful, inspiring journey, and a fantastic transformation. Congratulations, and THANK YOU for sharing your story ! You're awesome !

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After the win.

Friday, December 20, 2013

I won my work's 10-week weight-loss competition.

I shall preface this with- I am a competitive person.
I should also add in that before I started the competition I was eating so horribly that I was riding a one-way train to Regainsville. 'One more day' was happening on repeat. My healthy world seemed to be side-lined. The eating part, anyways. The fitness part was chugging along just fine.
So in the first week, because I went back on-track and cut the cr@p out I lost 8 lbs. 8. Pretty rockin' start. Alright, I told myself, let's get this show on the road.

Lots of friendly competition, lots of saying no, lots of 'awwwwww, I waaaaant that chocolate/etc' and then not having it, lots of chicken and eating healthy (my body and my taste-buds LOVED that!), lots of strength to persevere.

I dropped a pants size. The Jessica pants say 4 (compared to my old Ricki's 8's), but really- they are as big as my new 6's from Rickis. hahahaha. Vanity sizing.




I worked my @ss off- in the gym (nothing new there) and in the kitchen (tightening up my eating). It was not easy. Then again, what weight-loss really is? But it kicked my @ss back onto the straight and narrow, and I regained my focus. If I wouldn't have won the money I still would have won because of these reasons.

I made a couple realizations or confirmations about myself:
I *like* having a goal time-frame. 'Forever' seems so far away and non-attainable.
My body doesn't like the amount of salt and sweets I've consumed since weigh-in.
The regulated eating was SO good for my body.
I can do anything if I put my mind to it.

And then I won. My percentage was higher than everyone else that was in the competition. And many people congratulated me. And I felt like a bit of a star. And I'm not generally a center of attention kind of person at work. I was, and am, on cloud 9.

And what I wasn't expecting was some genuinely cold shoulders from the 3rd place lady (who thought she was going to be within top 2) and her friend on staff.
The 3rd place lady (and/or her friend) has seen me since then have a slice of pizza, eat a couple tortilla chips (with guacamole), about 5 chips and dip, a cookie (gingersnap. OMG. I actually ate 3. And promptly felt (feel) ill), and perhaps they saw me eat another thing or two. Nothing has been in excess....except the cookies. I love a good gingersnap- one of the few cookies I like. Anyways, I can't eat much of that after 10 weeks of eating so well. At home I've eaten a bite of each cookie I made. Literally a bite. I want to make sure they are good to hand out. The rest of the cookie will wait till a later. If I ever get around to eating them.
All I get is a roll of the eyes from the one lady, and the one who came in 3rd hasn't spoken to me. I've congratulated her on her 30 lb weight-loss, because any weight-loss at this time of the year is amazing, but if I try to engage her in conversation she walks away.

I never thought that my losing weight would have a negative consequence like this, but I guess it affects people in various ways. I don't understand some people sometimes.

My biggest struggle will be minimizing holiday gain. I do feel like a puffball at the moment because I've probably doubled my salt intake, carbs and sugar. That will come off.

By participating in this competition, I have kept my indulging within a narrower window of time and have managed to LOSE weight in the beginning of December. That alone impresses me to no end.

Anyways, just a bit of 'after the win' ramblings from myself.

My after. Bear in mind I had just cut out all salt for a week previous to this picture and was probably a little dehydrated because I was waiting to drink until after the weigh-in. I am about back to where I was at the end of May/beginning of June. I weight a little more, but I fit the same clothes/fit clothes better/fit slightly smaller pants. Yes it is the middle of winter on a super cold day, and that is a shrug you see on the counter. But are you kidding me? I weighed my clothes and came up with one of the lightest combos that was legal to wear haha.



Although you can't tell in this picture, my stomach felt so flat here! That impressed me so much as well.
Merry Christmas and happy holidays!

  
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READY4CHANGE81 12/21/2013 9:24PM

    As they say, "Haters gonna hate." You rocked the competition and won fair and square. I've never understood why grown women cannot be happy for one another?! You keep doing what you are doing...you look FABULOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S.R>Merry Christmas!
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STAY39 12/21/2013 12:57PM

    emoticon great job! You look awesome!

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RUNNING-TURTLE 12/21/2013 9:38AM

    Way to go! Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays.

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CLPURNELL 12/20/2013 9:34PM

    There will always be haters. Pay them no mind. you look great!

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GETSTRONGRRR 12/20/2013 7:02PM

    Congrats kiddo, you're right to be proud! Don't let the negative ankle-biters bug you too much....if they can't be happy with they're weight loss and are focusing on not being #1, then they're pretty screwy in the cranium!

Enjoy the holidays.....bite by bite!

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SUGAR0814 12/20/2013 3:37PM

    You look amazing! emoticon emoticon As for the haters, ignore them. Let it go! They'll eventually come around to their senses & realize what buttholes they are!

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TIGER_LILY_613 12/20/2013 1:14PM

    Congratulations on winning the workplace challenge. Never mind the sourpuss people - sounds like they're overly competitive folks who just need time to get over it :)

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MARGARITTM 12/20/2013 12:46PM

    What a nice gift you gave yourself - congrats

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ADARKARA 12/20/2013 10:30AM

    You look amazing!

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POOKASLUAGH 12/20/2013 10:24AM

    You look fantastic! I'm sorry there has been some negativity with your coworkers. :(

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PEGGY11 12/20/2013 9:29AM

    Congratulations on your win, win. The disgruntlement of the sore losers is funny really. They should be proud of their losses instead they are lose, losers. How can anyone help them celebrate when this is their attitude.
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SKINNYINMYHEAD 12/20/2013 9:19AM

    You look GREAT!!! As for people's reactions... I hear ya sis.. overall I've had very positive reactions from people... but i have several friends (like one I've known since college 30 years ago) who have said ZIP ZERO NADA.. and then there's the few food pushers.... shrug... the biggest kick for me is when someone doesn't recognize me! LOL I hear ya on the short term thing.. I had to break this journey down into chunks otherwise it seems too overwhelming..

GREAT JOB!
Annie

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DEBJAE 12/20/2013 9:16AM

    Total awesomeness!! Well, except for the sore loosers, good grief!!!

My taste buds are happier eating crap so I have to ignore them and rely on how my body feels, looks and how my clothes fit!

Great job girl!!

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PRETTYLILHEFFER 12/20/2013 9:14AM

    You look great! Ignore your office Grinch, be proud of what you accomplished!

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    Ugh@ your disgruntled co-workers but WOW at you! emoticon!! Congrats on winning that competition emoticon

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IAMZBEE 12/20/2013 8:47AM

    Fantastic job!!!

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What's one more day?

Thursday, November 21, 2013

In the whole grand scheme of it, what is one more day, really?

I've been following my Spark friend, steph-knee's blogs and status updates. She blogs about approaching/hitting a goal and self sabotage. I've ridden those same ups and downs as she is riding right now.

What comes after we get to goal, really? Unless something out of the blue happens we are the same person we were 2 pounds ago, the same person on the inside and on the outside, driving the same car, having the same amount of time in the day to exercise, shopping at the same grocery store, dating or married to the same person, and having the same amount of money as you did 2 lbs ago to buy your closet full of new clothes you promised yourself you'd get once you are at goal. The exact same person. Weighing in at 2 pounds less.

It's true. The city will not throw you a parade in celebration of getting to your goal range, or to celebrate 100 lbs gone, even though we feel as if the world should know and celebrate with us, a trophy should be given out, and at the very least a day off of work in commemoration would be nice! (That is why we have Sparkpeople, dearest sparkly peeps- to throw us those virtual celebrations).

How do you think your world will be when you get to goal? If you are very close to goal, lets hope the answer is- it won't change much at all. Oh, 'wait wait wait!' I hear you say, 'I won't have to exercise so much! I can go back to my favourite fast food restaurants again once, twice, three times a week!'
And then, my friends, sooner than you know it you will be back at square one.

Gosh, I'm sounding rather depressing, aren't I? Bear with me, I assure you I have a couple of points to make.

If you have a ways to go you are still forming those healthy habits, and finding out what works for you. Here is where you get to plan and daydream about what you will be doing when you reach goal. 'I'm going to run 5k when I get to my goal weight! I'm going to have a closet full of new clothes! I'm going to cook fabulous yet healthy delicious foods for my family for sure!'

Honey, put down the chicken finger and get off the couch. These goals don't make themselves. Find a new healthy recipe to try. Start by jogging for 15 seconds, walk for 2 minutes, rinse and repeat. Put $10-20 away every week that you lose weight. Before you know it you will be at goal, your healthy habits are formed, and you have a new closet full of clothes. It's working for me.

Those of us who struggle with eating issues know this is not always easy. Some days I feel like superwoman with thoughts of steel and full of determination and strength, and the next moment I find myself face down in a plate of my homemade brownies, one hand in the potato chip bag, afraid to step on the scale to come face-to-face with the 10 or 20 lbs I've gained back, the anguished voice in my head calling out 'How's this happen?!'

I swear, officer, those cookie crumbs are not mine!

And then the thoughts of......what's one more bad day?
One.more.day.
Famous last words.
I see some nods out there in spark land. You know that famous line we use to try to convince ourselves that another day of unhealthy eating/binge eating won't hurt. Besides, the scale won't budge tomorrow anyways due to what you've been eating. Or oh hey I still have 2 cinnamon buns left and I can't let them go to waste. Or ok, its my kids/husband's/mom's birthday and we are celebrating tonight, so I will get back to healthy tomorrow. Or oh, hey, I am just too tired to work out today but I will tomorrow.

I'm going to go out on a limb and say that many of us who binge eat (or who have binge ate) have fought this same battle. And not just once but many, many times. It is an epic battle. An epic battle that rages in your head. An epic battle that no one else sees and many cannot comprehend. But every time the battle is fought and won it leaves a stronger person behind.

That one day can be that one pound which is equivalent to one week of tracking food and working out like a mad woman. It can be the difference between getting to goal 1 week later then hoped for. All for 1 extra binge day. It's not worth it.

This healthy journey has provided me with many binge spirals and '1 more days'. This last 'one more bad eating day' lead to a 25ish lb weight gain. Gah. Let me tell you, it takes wayyyy longer to work off than it does to put on. I'm working on it as we speak.

Next time these thoughts start creeping in I have to try to remind myself of how far I've come and how proud of myself I will be tomorrow for making healthy choices today. I swear it won't kill me to put down that plate of brownies and to turn down the invitation to the all you can eat buffet just this once.

Make today healthy, and a day to be proud of!

  
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1SALMON1 11/21/2013 11:59PM

    I agree with you and thank you for this blog - it's something I've been thinking about a lot. I've lost nearly half the weight I intend to lose, but I'm the same person, with the same uncertainties & insecurities. The behaviours that got me fat are still lurking and waiting their opportunity to derail me again. Days when I feel most jubilant about being thinner are almost certainly the days something will bum me out & leave me feeling like a failure. You are teaching me to be aware that attaining the goal means also sustaining the goal - to think past the number on the scale & be conscious instead of the kind of life I'll need to live in order to maintain. I think that's a hard skill to learn & you've been sharing that hard part of the process with us - thank you because it helps and it's important. I tell myself today really is the only day that counts; I can have the brownies tomorrow if I still want them, but today I will eat clean; sometimes that actually works!

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 11/21/2013 8:21AM

    Very well said... me personally? I never thought I'd be rid of the "binge monster" as Stephanie calls it.. and each day I don't have the desire to binge I count myself blessed.. but I am always on guard... always diligent.. and I wonder when I meet goal and I "get comfortable" and my diligence drops.. what will happen?? I hit a plateau and increased my calories while simultaneously not logging my food - trying to build my trust with myself (and so far so good)... trying to really tune in and listen to my body.. this whole thing is so much more complicated than I once thought...

Annie

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BABYBARNEY 11/21/2013 8:06AM

    Once you hit your goal...make NEW goals!!! I hit mine a couple times before my maintenance goal was made & I now have a BOUNDARY scale amount that I don't go over...It's a day by day process...just know by becoming healthy you are extending those days!

Keep on sparkin & food trackin,

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POOKASLUAGH 11/21/2013 7:57AM

    Honestly, for me, the goal is to get to a place where I no longer feel like a failure. I already eat/exercise in a way that is sustainable for the rest of my life, and I don't plan to change when I hit goal. But i hate being so close and just unable to get there. I hate feeling like no matter what I do or how hard I try, my body is just going to keep rebelling against me. I have never had the experience of getting close to goal and self-sabotaging, because I cant' seem to get anywhere near my goal! :(

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ADARKARA 11/21/2013 7:57AM

    emoticon I'm less than 20 lbs from goal, and I don't forsee my life changing much once I get there! I'm still going to be on Spark, still tracking my food, and still exercising! I am NOT going to go back to being fat again... EVER!

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PEGGY11 11/21/2013 7:48AM

    I am a long way from goal, probably a year and a couple of months, but these same things are true for my getting there even at this stage. It also helps my mind set for when I get close. I really don't want to sabotage myself along the way. It is bound to happen. I just hope not too much. Thank you for the blog. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SCOUTMOM715 11/21/2013 7:23AM

    emoticon blog!! Weight loss & maintaining are hard! I'm so happy for SP because I know i'm not alone, I can receive support from others who understand. This is a lifetime journey where we will all have good days & lots of bad days. emoticon emoticon

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BABYSOX 11/21/2013 6:45AM

    What you said is so true about the one more days. Thanks for the reminder.

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GETSTRONGRRR 11/21/2013 6:38AM

    Great blog! You're right...these are daily battles and decisions we make about an enemy determined to do us in.The soothing voice that tells you, "It's OK, it's only one more day" is a liar!

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STEPH-KNEE 11/21/2013 2:58AM

    I love everything you said here! What you said about getting to a goal weight or losing 100 pounds was always how I felt. I told my mom I know streamers aren't going to fall from the ceiling and that everyone isn't going to come running to throw me a party, that it is just for me. Like you said getting to celebrate with our Spark Friends and getting our virtual trophies sure is fun, but the world doesn't change that much. I think years ago I had those false hopes that EVERYTHING would be different if I lost weight. Luckily for me I had a firm reality check and finally accepted that I would be the same person, in a smaller, healthier body. I will say that I have gained confidence and things like that, but it is just becoming a stronger version of myself... because I am still the same person. :) One perk of course is that I can buy cuter, smaller clothes, but that is the only thing that is different and I'm actually pretty glad about that. When I started losing the weight I kept saying to myself "I'll be SO much happier after I lose the weight", and a couple months I corrected it. That saying implied that I wasn't happy now, at that high weight, and that I didn't deserve to be happy until I got to my goal. Boy was that wrong. So I started saying "I will feel better (physically) when I get this weight off." What I meant by that was the physical process of being smaller and not getting winded tying my shoes LOL. :)

I also love what you said about goal. Unless you go around telling everyone your weight (I know I don't, lol only on Spark), no one is going to know you hit your goal. You can tell them but that's it. But what is more important than the number on that scale is how you feel, how healthy you are, and if you fit into the awesome smaller pants you want to fit into, because we all know how fun that is! But I just love the reminder that things don't change just because we hit our goals. This healthy lifestyle is for a lifetime and we will have good days and bad days, but the point is that we just have to keep trying. :) emoticon emoticon

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