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Still resisting

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Still seem to be resisting this lifestyle change, now this week it could be due to Bronchitis the antiboitics that my doctor has me on are knocking me on my butt. Wow they pack a nasty punch. Not very hungry and trying to make good food choices but all I want is ice cream. I am also not looking forward to my birthday tomorrow god how have I become 37? Where has the time gone? I know that its just a number and that you are only as old as you feel. So let's focus on all that I gained in these past 37 years... 2 amazing daughters, a wonderful husband, good friends and discovered the joy of being the owner of small dogs. Night all

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STREO2004 1/11/2012 11:48PM

Happy, Happy, Happy Birthday! Feel better, and Smile, it becomes you. Really do hope you have a special, wonderful birthday.

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HUNGRYWOMAN2 1/11/2012 8:54PM

Focusing on the positive is a good plan. The more we think how miserable we are the more miserable we become. It is particularly challenging when we don't feel well. It is important to take the best care of yourself as possible, but sometimes we just need to allow our bodies to rest. You are not alone. Take care now and know that as you heal things won't feel so overwhelming. Birthdays are sometimes difficult, but you have been successful in many ways. It is my experience that as I grow older, I am actually growing younger. Younger in outlook, more wisdom to live as I choose, and make my own choices.
I hope you feel better soon. Best wishes as you pursue the goals you have chosen.

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progress

Wednesday, January 04, 2012

So today I logged all the food today even though it was not a very healthily eating day. I am going to focus on my trackers the rest of the month until its just a normal part of my day. I am going to still watch what I eat but make myself track on the bad days. I want to find the pattern and see where to make that bad habit disappear forever.

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STREO2004 1/7/2012 12:04AM

Well, how are you doing? With the logging of foods, and overall feeling? Hope all is better.

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SLFGOLF 1/5/2012 1:00AM

Congratulations. Tracking is a very important step. It helps you become accountable. You can start looking at alternatives to your menus to find healthier choices. It will also show you where some of your weaknesses are. Then start finding those small goals that you can start with. Make them simple and very specific. This will help you get started and motivated. Good luck.

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STREO2004 1/4/2012 11:51PM

Good for you! One good choice @ a time. Seeing your patterns is a great proactive choice. Congratulations! Journalling too may help you see the patterns too. Hope all goes well

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such a struggle

Wednesday, January 04, 2012

I am struggling staying on track, avoiding tracking my food as I don't want to see the truth. I don't know why I am resisting so much with this lifestyle choice. I hate the way I feel and look and know what needs to be done to fix it yet keep making poor choices. I need to get off this self destructive path. Do I keep choosing the wrong food and avoid exercise because of the lack of sleep or because I am scared of this journey.

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ADUMBLETON 1/4/2012 11:49PM

Thank you for ur helpful advice. I just need to keep at it one day at a time

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YDAVIS23 1/4/2012 5:54AM

The truth can be painful, but it's necessary to experience success. I agree with STREO - at least get into the habit of logging even if it's not where you want to be. Knowing that you must write it down will probably affect the choices you make. Good luck!

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STREO2004 1/4/2012 4:17AM

When you get up in the morning, ask yourself the question you have stated. Why do I keep choosing....., whatever answer comes to mind is most likely the one you need to work on. Meanwhile, you might just log in your foods, just as a review, for when you are ready. I am struggling too. Some emotional "thing" keeps me from being motivated. I want to lose weight, I want to feel better, enjoy daily activities, yet here I am. Stay in touch if you like.

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back on track

Sunday, January 01, 2012

I don't know about you but I am very happy to see the start of a new year. I am a huge believer that the only one responible for your happiness is yourself. I have not been tracking at all this past week but am proud to say that I was pretty good considering its the holidays. I tried really hard to watch my portion sizes and to try to be active. I am not focusing so much on wieght training or anything but on being active with m children. I want to play with my 4yr old without getting winded in the 1st 10 minutes. I was able to give that to Abby as I was in much better shape then but I was also 19 when she arrived. Talk about a huge energy difference lol. My sleep is still poor and learned last night that the next time Abby has a sleepover they need to sleep in her room not in the living room as I had no where to hang out. If I was downstairs I worried about waking the girls and when I would go back up to bed I worried that my tossing and turning was going to wake up Paul. Amazing how we women worry about everyone one but ourselves, at least I do heaven forbid I make lifestyle changes just for myself. I was unable to quit smoking until I had Abby at age 9 ask me why did I want to die on her and leave her alone and Paul at the same time telling me that he couldn't stay with me and watch me slowly kill myself. Sure I knew all the bad things that could happen but until I had the 2 most important people in my life tell me how it was hurting them did I care enough to quit. Now here I am 135 lbs overwieght and my reasons for now doing something about it is my kids. I want to play with my kids. We went ice skating last night which was the 1st time in about 9 yrs and I only lasted 10 minutes. I can't describe to you the pain I was in and how scared I was about causing myself a serious injury. It was Avery's 1st time ice skating and Abby was the one who got to share that moment with her as I watched from the sidelines. I have not felt that disappointed in myself in quite some time. That was my job to do not Abby, she shoud not be the one having to cover for me when I am unable to meet the physical demands in my role as Mommy. I need to get healthy so days like this happen less and less.
So to end on a postive note as that was a lesson I needed to learn to give me the motivation to each day get up and start againto stay on trrack to becoming the person I want to be.

Happy New year everyone!