Thursday, March 10, 2011
Now I am not the one to complain about pain... I live with pain everyday.. I have Fibromyalgia and have beaten alot of odds that are stacked against me...I thankfully have great meds that keep me upright and walking...and now zumbaing...it has taken a while to get to this point...i still have other things going on medically they havent figured out yet but i am still pushing... This week I have to say has been the toughest week yet... seems like in March is when my fibro flares the most...I am hoping that this will go away soon.. i have still gone to every class this week and i have 2 more classes to go which is fine ... but my pain levels are through the roof with the weather changing back and forth back and forth.... I have literally shed tears in all my classes this week from the pain.. but i still gave it 200 percent,... I thankfully have not had anything important to do after classes so i have been taking naps on my heated matress pad.. which helps alot but i cant stay there forever lol (wish is could somedays) you cant describe to someone what the pain feels like when they dont have fibro... when i go to exercise i can get my body to go numb while exercising and dont feel the pain because it has gone beyond that... and sometimes it peeks thru...not only did i feel the burn all this week while exercising i felt the uncomfortable pain and I know if I wasntt taken my meds for fibro I wouldnt have been able to get out of bed....
I havent flared this bad in a few months so I guess i have forgotten the pain levels... if the tempetures are consistent enough i feel ok .. (use that loosely) i can tolerate the daily pain level.. i could up the dose of my meds but that will make my battle of the buldge that much harder since it causes weight gain and i am having a hard time getting the 20 it put on me in the first place....so i wont go that route but i just pray this weather evens out sooner then later...
New england weather is just not nice to us with fibro... I am hoping once we move to the carolinas that i will fair a bit better with the weather aspect.....since there winter is way shorter and the warmer weather is more consistent..i will also have to find a great zumba teacher like my Sallie here :)
I guess i was making a mean face at her today LOL in buns and guns and i said no it is the pain level but i could get to the I hate Sallie mode if you want lol.. She makes me smile even when i feel like crap lol and keeps me grounded when the pain is like today... Sorry I am rambling... just cant believe this flare :)