Wednesday, November 09, 2011
I was sitting here this morning at 330 am... andwas realizing as I facebooked thru my friends lives and other people i know but cant call friends.. that most people blog about negative things...then it occurred to me why my friends from my zumba class made this comment when I was up there recently visiting Lirio says in front a few women... could you please keep putting up positive messages every morning .. I read your comments everyday and you always make me smile.. I looked at her with a weird look ( i know she said) No really.. you inspire me.. you make my day more positive.. yiu make me smile or laugh.. you really make me look forward to my day.. and i remember all day what you say so when i am having a bad moment I think Adewyn said LOL
Now i understand what she meant lol...(Duh) I rad thru people comments and I always put a positive spin on there day to take the negitive and add a positive.. itsnt that what we are suppse to do?
I mean I could pos daily how much pain I am in every da from my fibromyalgia or how I cant feel my fet some days when i walk or how i burn my left arm at work because i couldnt feel the 200 degree steam searing my arm... But where would that get me?I live in pain daily.. minute by minute... I take my meds I get up I eat breakfast and I make a choice everyday!!! Everyday! Yes.. I choose to join the world... and make people happy! and show them we can live in pain and be happy I can live in pain and workout and achieve goals.. Does it take me longer to achieve them YES! Do I get frustrated Hell Yes! ut I get every morning anyways and choose to walk (which i couldnt as of 3 and 1/2 years ago today) Do I ever want to be like that again NO! Why Because I have come to far to end up back in bed again for months and not being able to move and then pushing myself to learn how to walk correctly again... I still cant walk up and down stairs correctly but who cares I can walk.... I have days I am stiff and in alot of pain I dont care I have work to do and classes to take THEN i can rest... I have weight to lose I have routines to learn so I can eventually teach Zumba now that I am certified... Yes this takes all my energy but I am worth it! I sit here in pain this morning from my last 3 days of working out and going to work... oh well.. i am gonna hurt anyways I might as hurt from exercise and look good in the process....
I have to remember the little things I accomplish every day... Everyday I am thankful for putting my feet on the ground ad standing upright every day I am glad I can put one foot in front of the other.. everyday I am thankful I can do my house chores again (as much as i hate them) I have days I have to stop.. I dont have a choice... there are days it rains or snows or the weather is changing again or i have done to much and my body says ENOUGH! So i crawl on my bed with the computer and relax with my heat pad and my flexril and calll it a day... and do light house chores or only get the things that absolutely need to be done and if nothing needs to be done I just rest... I stress my husband out I am sure.. he worries enough for the both of us... He has seen the Adewyn that couldnt move the Adewyn that wasnt the person he married the lively energitic person I was.. nw he sees it again and he fears I will be knocked down by whatever diease name they want to put on me... and though I cant say I will never be knocked down again with something medical (becuase I always do at some point) I know that I CAN and I will bounce back .. and I willl get up so I can inspire that one person that thought they couldnt to help another realize they can.. and to tell those doctors to shove it where the sun dont shine...Why Because I can! And that my friends is another day in my life and i am glad to have you all by my side!