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tired of the pain!!!!!

Monday, July 25, 2011

This is a email i sent to someone who is trying to help me lose weight but unfortunately i cant afford the food for medifast program and he is trying to help me with a fundraiser.... this is the email i sent him.. i felt like i was at my lowest!!!!!!


hey friend,
oh anyway i wanted to say i really enjoyed our talk friday and i was so excited about the whole thing and then i came home called one of my best friends and when i told her what i was planning on doing she did nothing but tell me how i should not do this and she doesnt understand how i will be able to even walk a mile and how the only thing u guys are doing is using me as a publicity stunt and arent really trying to help me and i argued with her about how that is not true at all. and she just kept going on and on till i was crying so bad.... its like when i wanna do something there are people telling me not to.. i just want people to understand i CANNOT live like this anymore.... i just feel like i cannot go on... and no one understands... i feel everyday like this is my last day and i am tired of feeling like this and tired of all this pain that my weight puts on me... but how am i supposed to move on when the most important people in my life have no faith in me and think everything i do is wrong... sometimes i feel like maybe it will be easier to check out pemanently, i just dont know if i can do this now... i really dont know how to go on... i am just sad everyday... and feel like no one understands how bad i feel... i dont know if i ever told u but i am not hiding this anymore i am 5'4" and 550 pounds... i dont know how i got there and i dont know where to go from there and feel like it will be impossible to lose all that weight forever... im SO TIRED OF ALL THE PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! alicia

  
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SOFT_VAL67 7/25/2011 8:19PM

    if there are ppl willing to help u, take the help, as long as it isnt compromising your integrity or you are being asked to do something illegal or immoral, i say take the help where u can get it.
but keep in mind, the fundraiser may be subject to taxes or permits, i am not sure about it, you might want to ask about this before hand.
also, will you receive enough help to see you thru to your weight loss goals, or will you need help again once this first round runs out???
these r questions i would ask and think about
other than that, i say if ppl want to help, take the help, and maybe your friend does have your best interest at hand, if shes a little unskilled in verbalizing that to you.
look into some counseling to help you and know that there are many support groups here on sp to help you.

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hard day

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

i have been doing so dang horrible i don't eat so often the problem is the things i eat is very bad for me i am having a hard time with the fast food i need to completely cut it out!!!! but it is so hard. i am trying to do good and trying to exercise more but then i eat like crap and that ain't gonna help me!!! i just need some serious help!!!

  
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KIMK75 7/5/2007 12:23AM

    I'm sorry you're having a rough time right now. It can be hard to give up fast food - I know it was for me! It's sooooo easy to hit the drive-thru instead of cooking. It's fast, there's no mess in the kitchen, and no dishes to do after! And it's pretty darn tasty, too! But, it's not good for you. It is not nourishing for your body. As hard as it is to do, you need to try your best to NOT have it as much as possible. The good news is that after a while you don't really crave it anymore, and if you do slip up and have it, it doesn't taste as good as you remember. And, if you're like me, you'll end up paying for it with multiple trips to the bathroom (if you know what I mean!!). Try having several smaller healthy meals throughout the day. That will help keep your energy up and metabolism going during the day. Try to stay within your calorie range, not higher and certainly not lower, drink lots of water, and continue with your exercise and you will be fine. If you slip up and have fast food, just try to get back on track with your next meal. You can do it!! Good luck!

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