Thursday, June 21, 2012
First of all, thank you thank you thank you, to everyone who posted a comment on my first blog. Your words of encouragement mean a lot to me. I'd like to take some time and write about ownership.
As long as I can I remember I've had a problem with taking full ownership. Even more so with my diabetes when I was diagnosed back in 1996. And by ownership I mean turning my diabetes into something positive and doing the best I can to control it. Think of the classic quote from Spiderman told to Peter Parker by his uncle Ben: "With great power comes great responsibility." I fully admit to being irresponsible with diabetes far more often than not. So what's the big deal with diabetes?
Diabetes is universal. It affects the young and the old. Everyone is either diabetic or knows someone who's diabetic. Type 1 Diabetes, my kind, means my body is no longer able to produce any insulin to regulate my blood sugar, meaning my body goes into full panic if my pancreas doesn't produce it. Therefore, I have to get my insulin synthetically and prefer to administer it by an insulin pump. Controlling my blood sugar, eating a "balanced" diet, and exercise have always been a struggle. I've lost weight here and there, but I've always found a way to put it back on. So when I tell you it was easy to blame my lack of participation or effort on diabetes ,well.... It was. So let's take a journey back in time to 96' when MTV still played music videos.
Ok so this isn't me. But just imagine diabetes is the chair and I'm this poor chubby kid stuck in it's grasp. ;-)
Fourth grade. I had just gotten back from the hospital after a month and everyone at school was overly nice, and concerned. I recall my teacher letting me skip ahead of the single-file lunch line every day and later that year I convinced my mom to let me have Halloween candy. A few years later in 8th grade I convinced my football coach to let me drop out in favor of P.E. because of low blood sugars when in reality it was just an excuse to save face among the kids who made fun of me for my poor football performance the previous year. I would leave classes early sometimes just to not deal with people and go to the nurses office with a low blood sugar. The truth is I did get low and high readings, but not to the extent I let on. Later on in band in high school, normally if you were late to practice, you'd have to run 3 laps. Not I, because I always had the low blood sugar excuse and it worked like a charm! I felt bad afterwards though. Even up to just recently I used low blood sugar as an excuse to binge on unhealthy food. So what's the point of all this?
We need to take ownership. In everything we do. Be completely honest with those around you. That goes for anyone. Not just diabetics. I'm still learning how to best manage my diabetes, but I know the first step is owning up my mistakes and moving forward with healthy dieting and steady exercise. I've already seen a dramatic change for the better in my readings and I haven't felt this good about myself in years. Trust in yourself.
PS. I was reading some really cool articles and I found these awesome links. One is a guide about olive oil and how to find actual GOOD olive oil and how to avoid the junk they sell in the supermarket. The other link is to StillTasty. If you're like me or my wife, you've probably noticed yourself buying a lot more fruits or vegetables or trying to be creative with the food that's about to expire. StillTasty offers fantastic advice on how to best store food once you get it home. It also tells you when food is unsafe to eat and how long or if food can be frozen to increase shelf life. Definitely check it out.