Tuesday, April 07, 2009
OK, I'm done whining about my lack of progress. Obviously, I don't know what to do, so I made the decision to just start over. That's MUCH better than what I would have done in the past, which is to just give up and forget about even trying to do anything to get myself healthier. If it wasn't going my way, I wasn't going to do it anymore. So you see, I AM making progress! None that shows, unfortunately, but I'm not going to give up again, no matter what.
I honestly believe I had just been pushing myself too hard, too fast. Every time I renew my intention to start living healthier, I tell myself that I'm not going to worry about the scales. I'm just going to take things gradually, s l o w l y working my way into a firm but plausible fitness routine that I can live with. That's what I tell myself. But by the end of a couple of weeks, those baby steps have turned into giant leaps. That worked for me once, but it's certainly not working anymore! So I'm forced to face the fact that my body doesn't WANT to change, and take a different approach. Rather than forcing it to change by pushing it to its limits, I guess I'll have to "sneak" those changes in, gradually. Baby steps (again). And so it goes...
Saturday, April 04, 2009
I'm trying to keep a positive attitude this time. Really I am! But it's so hard when I'm feeling as many negative as positive results. I KNOW that exercising is good for me, whether or not I lose weight in the process; just as I know how important it is to eat right. And I have been known to be impatient, I admit, but I just can't help but feel frustrated.
I began as the epitome of the stiff, achey, unfit person. Granted, I am still certainly not fit, by anyone's definition, but I'm becoming worn down from all this exercise I'm doing as I try to become fit. My body's no longer stiff and sore from inactivity, but now it's stiff and sore from over activity. I try to do crunches to work on my core (and abs, of course), but even the most modified attempts, with a stability ball, end with my back screaming in pain. I'm currently working on adding some "crunchless" ab/core exercises, done while standing. I can do those OK, but my lower back still gets really sore from them. Is this progress, or am I just creating more back injury?
And as for diet, I am staying within my calorie range at all times, tracking extra vitamins and minerals, and seeing to it that I get near or above 100% of the RDA from my diet alone (although I've recently begun taking supplements as well). I haven't "cheated" once since I became active in SP again last month, yet with all the exercise and healthy eating, my weight remains the same. Oh sure, I might lose a fraction of a pound now and then, but it just comes right back the next time I step on the scale.
I try to tell myself that I feel stronger and healthier, and should just be happy about that. But the truth is, I'm not feeling stronger, and although the aches I'm feeling are different, they don't feel any *better*. And, let's be honest, I'm getting pretty tired of seeing "obese" next to my name on all the charts. Yet I still don't really know what to do about it. I've tried keeping my calorie range ridiculously low, as well as the higher end of my range, and all the while SP keeps informing me that I'm exercising beyond what my calories can support. So...am I moving too fast here? Is my impatience and desire to see some results causing me to push myself beyond the point at which my body is ready? Or am I merely feeling the "burn" that can be expected from exercise? But if that's the case, why can't I even lose one single pound?? Not one inch!?
How can it even be POSSIBLE that I haven't lost even a fraction of an inch, with all this exercise I've been doing?
Seriously, I'm not just whining here, I'm just trying to figure out if I'm on the right track or not. Maybe I should just slow things down a little bit, and try to move more gradually to give my body a chance to catch up with all these paces I feel as if I'm putting it through. I just don't know what to do anymore. It's been less than a month since I began posting on SP again, and just a little longer than that since I began eating better and exercising again. So yeah, I am impatient...but at the same time, I don't think it's unrealistic to expect to see SOME results by now. Heaven knows I'm working hard enough at it! Hell, I can be fat and sore and achey without doing anything. So I gotta wonder sometimes, why am I bothering?
My motivation is starting to fade, with no tangible results. But I really don't know what I should be doing to get those results. Somewhere, I've gotta be missing the boat. Am I doing too much? Am I not doing enough? I just don't know.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Sometimes it just takes opening my eyes for more clarity. I started easing my way back into healthier habits on March 11 of this year. Just baby steps to begin with, so the change would be gradual and easier for me to take. I made a conscious decision to weigh myself daily, rather than wait a week to dash to the scale to see what I've lost, only to find I've gained.
So I've been weighing in on a daily basis, and was losing weight. Not pounds, but fractions of a pound...but I was LOSING, and that was all the incentive I needed to REALLY get with the program. That 30 minutes of cardio 3 days a week became 6 days, most of them an hour. I started really getting serious about my strength training as well, and really paid attention to what I was eating, logging every bite. I even took to planning all my meals and logging them before I ate them, to further encourage me to stick with my plan... after all, it was in writing for the whole world to see! I was doing great! The only problem was, I was no longer losing a fraction of a pound every day or two. So I decided I'd better just stick to the lower end of my calorie range, keeping things between 1200 and 1300. Gradually I saw results, but the wrong ones. Those fractions were moving UP, until I'd gained a pound!
OK, it looks so obvious here in print. I can't believe I got so crazy about things, but I did. I felt it was just hopeless, that no matter what I did, I just couldn't make the weight come off. But it WAS coming off when I was still taking baby steps. It was only when I decided I had to get "serious" that things started heading in the other direction for me. I had seen those warnings on the bottom of my fitness page after I logged in my exercises, but wasn't sure what to do about them. I raised my calorie range by 100, and kept doing my fitness. Didn't help. FINALLY I figured out that I had to enter the calories I burned in a week onto the fitness goals page, and THEN SP raised my range, by 400+ calories! So I started eating more.
I am not a neophyte here, I've been down this road before. I've hit plateaus and come to find that I just wasn't eating enough to support the level of fitness I was working. But, for some reason, that just wasn't clicking for me this time. I have also made the mistake of thinking I needed more calories when, in fact, I didn't. Inexplicably, the thought of making that mistake again kept me from being proactive about getting my calorie range set right THIS time. Silly, silly girl!
Today when I stepped on the scale, it showed 1/2 pound lighter than two days ago. I guess it just goes to show that it pays to use some common sense from time to time! I was losing until I changed my program, at which time I started gaining. Shouldn't have taken me getting all frustrated and upset, nearly to the point of tears, to figure out that maybe I should just go back to doing whatever WAS working. So here I am, doing was was once working...and it's working again! Go figure
Friday, March 27, 2009
I'm late getting this posted today, but I had an appointment so couldn't get to it earlier. My goals for today are pretty simple, 30 min AM cardio and then another 30 min in the afternoon. My knees are much better today, but I don't want to push thing too far again.
As for the "other stuff", I managed to find some 2 and 3 minute Leslie Sansone workouts on YouTube. These would be great for people with a home office, or even just during commercial breaks when you're watching TV!
2 Minute Mini Walk:
3 Minute Mini Walk:
And here's one that you can do in your desk chair, or any chair, for that matter!
So now you don't have ANY reason not to get some exercise in!
Hmmm...I might have to start watching TV again, just so I can do these mini workouts. Yeah...I'll sit on my balance ball and watch until a commercial break, and take an exercise break during commercials!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Before I post my goal for today, let me start by posting yesterday's fitness for my 21 day fitness habit.
30 min AM cardio - Walk/Kick
30 min PM cardio - More WATP
And now, on with the program!
Daily Goal: 3/26/2009
I am going to start setting goals day by day, set the previous day. For today my goals will be really big, for me. But I'm pretty sure they are attainable, so here goes:
30 min AM cardio - done by 11:00.....DONE!!
30 min AM ST - first 5 exercises (I split 10 exercises into two smaller groups, which I am hoping will allow me to focus and work harder on each exercise, while still doing more of them in than I have been.).........DONE!!
30 min PM cardio...... only got 20 min in - goal not met
30 min PM ST - second 5 exercises..... DONE!!
If I succeed with this, I will have a total of 120 minutes of strength and cardio combined. I hope to stick with this routine for a bit, to get a better idea of how much I can handle, in regards to both weights and intensity. Once I have a good idea of what I can handle, my next goal will be to start doing these exercises in intervals combining both cardio and strength.
Well...that's my goal anyway. In the meantime, before I get an interval routine figured out, I will try to focus on doing supersets whenever I can. I just hope I'm not getting ahead of myself. I want to start pushing myself a little more, yet avoid setting goals that are too lofty. Balance - it all comes down to balance. Oh geez, I don't HAVE any balance! (You should see me wobble when I try to balance myself on one foot, lol)
Obviously, I did not get 120 min of exercise in today, so did not meet my daily goal for today. The good news is, I got 110 min of exercise in today, and that's my personal best... THIS time around anyway :D
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