Sunday, May 04, 2008
WOW! I'd thought I was overcoming my emotional eating problem, at least a little bit, but such does not seem to be the case. I'm beginning some new challenges here on SP, and just realized that I spent the days before they were to begin eating "just because". I found myself telling myself that I really *should* eat this popcorn (or whatever), "just because this is my last chance to do this before the challenge begins". Or "I should run back downstairs and grab a snack before bed, because this is my last chance to do this before the challenge", etc., etc., etc,.
I joined these challenges to help me STOP doing these things, and hopefully to help me stop even thinking about them, yet this was literally ALL I could think about when I was "gearing up" for the challenges. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!??
I didn't really go much above my calorie range, so I've got that much going for me, but I'm surprised that I'm still thinking like a foodaholic! I honestly have no idea of how to become healthy enough to approach food in the same way a normal person does. I can't believe I'm behaving this way!
Thursday, May 01, 2008
I turned on the TV this morning to see if I could catch some news, and found some very interesting news indeed! Apparently I've been working out like mad for nothing... It seems that the ONLY way to get my shape back is to purchase and wear the *Kymaro Body Shaper*...and there's a Bottom Shaper too! Sheesh, who knew? And just in case you decide you really DO need a little actual toning, the same site (UbuyEZ) has a VibraBelt to tone up your waist and abs while you watch TV...where you can see MORE offers for MORE stuff like this!! What a find!
(Disclaimer: This was, obviously, a joke)
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
I was astounded when I joined that other diet/fitness site a few years ago and found that I actually *could* do all those things I swore I'd never be able to do...and THEN some! Astounded and proud, because I was really working at it, and it showed! What was even more astonishing was the fact that I was becoming one of those fitness addicts! Seriously, I just couldn't get enough exercise. When I went shopping for anything other than groceries, exercise equipment was the only thing I was interested in. I lived and breathed fitness...even when I went on vacation. I spent my time in airports walking, carrying my bags for added effect. Now that I think about it, I probably got in a minimum of 2 hours of exercise every day...and when I wasn't actively exercising, I was actively sitting. I rarely sat in chairs anymore, preferring to balance on my resistance ball. I had a setup which consisted of a wooden chair I used as a desk for my laptop, and my fitness ball as a chair. I'd sit on the ball and type, or do whatever else I needed to do online, tossing in a few crunches or other fitball exercises now and then. If I found myself unable to exercise, I became uncomfortable and anxious...and more than a little bit jittery. That was then...
NOW?...Well, suffice it to say that I'm not the same person. I gradually stopped working out due to a change of jobs, different hours, a lot of soreness FROM that job which prevented me from wanting to even try to exercise...a lot of changes, and I didn't adjust to them very well. Needless to say, I got seriously out of shape again, and things just went from bad to worse.
So here I am at SPeople, trying to start all over again...and having a bit of a time of it. I've really been blaming a lot of my lack of progress on menopause, just because that's the easiest thing to do. And really, if a person HAS to go through menopause, that person really should be able to use it as an excuse for just about anything...right? Right. Unfortunately, just because I have that excuse, it still doesn't mean my body is going to listen to it and forgive me for not trying as hard as I once did. Nope...in fact, it seems as though I'm just going to have to work even HARDER to get back into that same shape I was once in. That's a challenge for me, since my brain apparently missed out being informed that I'd been inactive for over 4 years, and was expecting my body to be in as good a shape when I decided to actually move it again as it was before I stopped moving it. ARGHHHHH!!!!
OK, so the lesson I learned is that, if I want to be in good shape, I'm gonna have to just keep plugging away. I'm going to have to try to remember how great I felt when I was in shape before (and by "in shape", I just mean in better shape than I am now...I never did make it all the way to any of my goals) and try to get back into that mindset. I need to go back to that place where I just couldn't find enough exercise to do to keep me happy. I need to try to get back to that place in which I felt at a loss when I couldn't workout for a few hours. And I'm not going to get to that place by being satisfied by doing "just enough". I got there before by pushing until it became a part of who I was...and that's how I'll get there now. Just watch me!
Monday, April 28, 2008
Alright, technically I've been here for closer to a month, but I wasn't really quite ready when I enrolled; so I've only been working the program for a week (I like to start on Mondays, lol).
I've learned that this is going to take a LOT more work than I'm accustomed to putting into my fitness. I'm not going to be able to cruise on through, getting by on the knowledge that "I'm doing more now than I WAS". Especially since what I "WAS" doing was, primarily, NOTHING! Seriously, I had become completely lazy and lethargic, so just doing more than that isn't going to be enough. Neither is just walking a mile a day...I need to get ACTIVE if I'm going to make this work.
Before I left eDiets I'd realized that it was taking a lot more effort than I thought it should, but I was convinced that I just hadn't found quite the right "formula" to make it work for me. Now I'm forced to admit that the right formula is just working out a lot more, and harder; and still eating within my calorie range. Oh, I can do this, I just wasn't really prepared for quite so much commitment.
I really need to get off my computer and get working now...but I'd also like to come back later to finish my comments on my first "real" week at SPark.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
That prolly dates me (might be good, since nobody ELSE does!!), "exercycle", but that's just what my last stationary bike was called. Now's not the time to go into all the changes I've seen in the past 5 decades, but it sure is fun to reminisce sometimes...so I like to "go retro" on occasion but this isn't one of those occasions.
That five lb. water weight loss I reported in my last entry is now a mere memory...got that water back, as well as the imaginary weight loss, so that was short lived motivation indeed! My new motivation is going to be the new fitness activity I discovered. I've always been curious about those spinning classes I hear tell of, though I knew they weren't really for me. My quads are so underdeveloped, evidently (though I have no explanation for why that might be) that I can't ride a bike for any distance farther than a mile or two, and have only been able to last 10 to 15 minutes on the stationary bike before my quads just BURN...so much that I really can't force myself to sit in that uncomfortable saddle and keep up the torture for a single minute longer! I began searching for "virtual bike rides" online, hoping to find some scenery to watch while I peddle, to *hopefully* take my mind off the monotony and pain of a ride that leads nowhere. I did find some, but while searching I also found some spinning classes.
Now, this stationary bike is not a spinning machine, and I'll likely need to make some changes in MY workout vs those shown in the spinning videos, but at least I'm finding some motivation in these videos! Motivation is something that is really hard to come by when I'm on any stationary equipment. I dislike stationary bike, treadmill, elliptical, rowing machines... I think that's all the stationary exercise equipment I've tried... but if I try more, I'll no doubt dislike those as well. But I'm going to give this "Spinning With Intervals" video I found a try, and see if I can find a way to create an actual program for ME, that I can do using this ancient stationary bike. I tried it yesterday for awhile, and gotta say that I really loved the intensity of the ride, and I was anything BUT bored, so I'm excited and motivated to try to do more.
And to think that just a few weeks ago I was trying to get RID of that bike so I'd have more space in my apartment for a weight bench. Guess I'll have to find someplace else for the bench (if I ever get one).
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