Sunday, November 04, 2012
For the past few weeks I've been feeling lost. It's like I can't seem to get myself motivated to start moving forward again. Yes, I do want to move forward. I want and need to get myself healthy. Feel like I;m stuck in quick sand, unable to free myself. I need to dig deep within...Remove the road blocks (Not sure what they are??) ...,so I'm looking for some suggestions, possibly some support.
My health conditions do not help. They would be greatly improved if I lost more weight.
I do feel over whelmed by my heath, I am completely out of my comfort zone with medication. I am now on medication for depression. I don't sleep well, I have sleep apnea, and sciatica pain at night. Ra is active, Fibro leaves me in a fog. These are just a few of my health issues.
I really hope that someone can offer some suggestions. They are very much appreciated.
Tuesday, October 09, 2012
The past three weeks have taken there toll on me. On Sept. 14th I went to see my primary doctor for my check up. She took several test. She was very happy that I had lost some weight, told her I had gotten serious. We also discussed something that I was not comfortable talking about. I told her that for the past six months, I have episodes of crying for no reason. Several of these episodes happened while talking to my best friend. There was nothing unpleasant about in our talks. I just suddenly burst into tears. It happened at work, home, and scared me.
The doctor said that it is depression. The past two years have been tough years for me.
In 2010 I was diagnosed with diabetes. Early in 2011 I was told I had Fibromyalgia, RA,
Sjjogrens Syndrome, and that it was l most likely had others that could not be confirmed since my inflammation levels were still high. Both my doctor & Diabetes educator were concerned that I was not accepting it well,. My diabetes educator recommended Sparks
for support for my diabetes. They knew I had no support from family, and only a few people that I felt were supportive. I was told that my health conditions, along with a very low Vitamin D level can lead to depression. This has only made me feel worse.
My doc replaced one of my meds for Fibro. She feels that it will also help with the depression, Well This is my second week on the new medicine, & I am starting to feel a little more in control. I know that I need to start taking steps to get my life in balance.
I am learning that I need to continue to move forward. I need to push myself out of my comfort level. I cannot use the excuse that my body hurts, there is always something that can be done that will be a gentle form of exercise. (water, Tai CHi or yoga). I need to make
myself a priority. I have said this in the past, now is the time for action. I'm working on learning to love myself, to be positive, and reduce the negative that runs thru my head at times. It's a learning process. It starts with one step at a time, one day at a time. I started on this journey to get myself healthy..It has had many detours, challenges, and road blocks
along the way. Sometimes I get lost, but I will eventually find my way. I WILL NOT QUIT!!
One thing I have learned is that I am worth the effort. We all are. Never give up on yourself.
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Week three was a tough week for me. Doctor appointment on Friday the 14th. A follow up on my health issues. A blood draw show that my A1C is stable at 6.1. That's good news. BP was good, and I lost weight. Other test were not so friendly. My Vitamin D level still remains low. They will re-test in three months. My C Reactive Protein, which measures inflammation levels remains high. That is not good news for my RA, Fibro, and Sjogrens. We talked about fatigue that I have been experiencing lately. Decided I really need to give the C-path machine another try. Since I have sleep apnea, as well as Fibro, sleep issues are a problem. Another problem we discussed was crying. While it doesn't happen all the time, I cry for no reason what so ever.
Doctor thinks it's depression, she knows that I have had a hard time accepting some of my health issues in the past two years. Also some of my health issues contribute to depression. So we are changing my Fibro medicine. I start the new medicine October 1st. Doctor thinks I may have depression. That scares the hell out of me!
Hoping that the new medicine will help.
Since my goals for the previous weeks were working without any real problems, I decided with Week 3 to kick it up a little.
Added an extra 5 minutes to my exercise time, for a total of twenty minutes. .SO SO
Continue to work on a positive attitude ---DONE
Listen to my self improvement tape at night ..DONE
Take my medication daily ... NOT SO GOOD
Use the C-Path machine ...ONE DAY ONLY
I know it doesn't seem hard to do. Medication, I take 14 pills daily, and give myself an Injection. I've never been a pill person. In the last two years I've become overwhelmed with them.
Bottom line is that I'm not giving up. Gotta stop feeling sorry for myself and push forward.
This is the last week of September, and as promised I want to make it the best ever.
Think maybe I will consider I group that deals with depression. It can't hurt to know your not alone.
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
My goal for September is to Exercise, Stay Positive, and Reduce my debt.
I'm proud to report that I have been successful on all three.
Week 1 lead to a 5 lb weight loss. Exercise has been a key reason. By managing to do
15 min's of exercise daily, and by staying within my calorie range, weight loss happened.
I have maintained a positive attitude for the week. Some days were more challenging than others, but I do see improvement. " What you think is what you attract".
Finally I have been successful in reducing my debt. Cash only is working so far.
Progress begins with the first step. Every day gives us the opportunity to make additional steps. I think I may be ready for more steps starting in Week # 3.
I want to Thank my Spark friends for their support. It means a lot to me. The journey to getting healthy is best traveled with a friend, so Thank you again.
Tuesday, September 04, 2012
This is day four for me in making September the best month ever. I'm proud to report that I have exercised every day for 15 min's. Wasn't able to workout at the gym, they had a power failure, so I did my workouts at home. Working with weights & Resistance bands. I've also been working on a positive attitude. Today however, is really a challenge. Glad I go back to work tomorrow. Way less stress then being at home.
Everyone have a great day. Keep pushing forward
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