Thursday, April 07, 2011
I'm finding it really hard to eat my calories some days. It's not that I don't want to or have an issue but that I'm genuinely not hungry. I'm really not sure how to approach this. I'm trying very hard to eat mindfully and stop when I'm full so I feel like I'm disrespecting my body when I'm wandering round the kitchen at 9PM trying to find something to eat that will get me to the magical 1,200 mark for the day.
I've spent years mindlessly shovelling crap food into my body, even when I really didn't want it, just because it was there. I'm no longer the same person who just eats for the sake of it so maybe that's why I'm feeling so conflicted.
I'm thinking I'll try and keep to an overall for the week so if some days I'm under and others I'm over as long as it equals out over the course of the week I'll just let it be and see where this new journey takes me.
I really do feel like I've stopped dieting and started eating again like I used to. I'm not thinking "I can't have that" but more "I really don't like how I feel when I eat that" these last few weeks. I've noticed that bread and pasta, my former go to staples, make me feel really bloated and uncomfortable. I've cut them out and feel less bloated and my tummy is definitely flatter. So much so that other people are noticing. I'm thinking refined flour and I will have to have very few and far between meetings for a while and just see how I feel. That's not to say that I'll never again eat a sandwich, cake, pastry, mac&cheese, etc but I'll be far less likely to go there first.
So, yeah, that's rather a lot of ramblings about calories and such. Oh, and I decided on Quorn pieces with spinach. Good protein hit and I can add another veg to my daily total.