Friday, September 02, 2011
Just read this: www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
And then I downloaded this from iTunes: youtu.be/6SjOqsAcfbQ
Imma READY birches...let's do this thang!!!
Monday, August 22, 2011
In a land far, far away there lived a girl who lived a charmed life. She could eat whatever she wanted and exercise on a regular basis without exerting herself too much and still get to her happy weight! She loved running and chocolate, in equal measures, and ran when she felt like it sticking more often to a nice easy, comfortable pace and then ate chocolate to her heart’s desire. Like this, she was able to live happily ever after.
Okay, so does that sound like a fairy tale? Good – because it SHOULD. It is exactly that…a total fairy tale. And here’s how that fairy tale came about. Recently I was reflecting on the fact that I haven’t lost any weight in quite some time. Like YEARS…seriously. It’s probably been at least 1.5 years since I actually lost any weight (as in weight I didn’t gain back). Now granted, I have lost over 60 pounds total and only have about another 35-40 to go. And the weight I keep bouncing around is 5 pounds. So I was reflecting on that and began wondering “is this it? Is this my “happy weight”? You know – “they” always say that your body will get to a “happy weight” and will refuse to budge past that point. No matter how hard you try, your body will NOT release any additional pounds because, well, if we believe the fairy tale, or the myth, because it is “happy” at that weight. (Side point: Who is this mysterious “they” anyways??? LOL)
So my thinking then is “well, if this IS my happy weight, then shouldn’t I be happy that I’ve gotten there? But then I realize that hey – I’m not anywhere near a healthy BMI that “they” (there’s those mysterious They again) say I should be at. Would my body be “happy” if I wasn’t actually “healthy”? Would my body truly be happy carrying around an extra 40 pounds? Would my body be truly happy with all this extra fat on it causing my organs and skeletal system to work harder than it needs to? Would it be happy like that???
Then it struck me like a fist to the gut. I’m not at my happy weight! What I’m at is my “Happy Lifestyle”. Yep – my body IS happy. But for the wrong reasons. It’s not happy because it’s carrying around the optimum amount of weight that allows my body to function at its highest level. My body isn’t happy because it is in a healthy BMI. My MIND is happy because it gets to exercise at a moderate level and eat what it wants without really putting on any extra weight above and beyond this 35-40 it is carrying around. My mind is happy because it can put on clothes and they fit. My mind is happy because it can eat cookies or chocolate or have a little splurge once in awhile. My mind is happy because when I go out to eat, I get what I want for the most part. That makes my mind happy. But my body…well, that’s a different story and one that I’m afraid we all know a little too well.
You see, I realize that “happy weight”, at least for me right at this moment, is an absolute myth. I’m not moving on the scale and in my progress because my MIND has decided that it has found a happy lifestyle. But what happens if just one thing in my happy little lifestyle goes out of balance? Well, I’ll tell ya – it starts with my 5 pounds I’m bouncing around turning into 10 and then those 10 invite a few more friends and before we can all say HalloweenThanksgivingChristmasNewYears I’m back where I was!
The reality is that if I ever want to find my happy weight – I’m going to have to SACRIFICE. Yep…it’s going to take shaking my MIND out of these happy places it has found. It’s going to take pushing my body. It’s going to take giving up some treats. It’s going to take getting back to a place where I am giving up some of what I want in order to have what I want, what I really, really want (okay, stop singing in my head Spice Girls!). Chocolate on occasion. More water. Less bread. More veggies. Perfect portions. HEALTHY Snacks to keep the hunger at bay. Cooking substitutions. Working out every darn day! Working up a totally awesome sweat. Making healthy choices over comfortable choices. Because even though I started with a fairy tale, it doesn’t mean that this princess CAN’T live happily ever after. Right? I just need to get out of the myth and totally freaking ROCK the reality!
Okay – so now that I got all that out of the way you might be wondering what I’ve been up to lately. So if you stopped in to be motivated, you can just stop reading now. But if you’re one of my buddies or pals – keep readin! The rest is boring, but hey –I know I always want to know what ya’ll have been up to when you’ve been away for awhile!
I’ve been ridiculously busy at work. I was helping with a massive report that we have to submit every 6 years to remain accredited and even though I didn’t have to write the silly thing, I had a major piece of it in the formatting, organizing and hyperlinking to our supporting evidence. Our report ended up being about 470 pages long with over 1,200 pieces of evidence. There are approximately over 2,500 hyperlinks to our evidence in the document all created by moi within a few days time. The formatting, as much as I love that kind of thing, was very tedious and time consuming. And it didn’t help that some people were attempting to rush the project after not rushing it for the past TWO years we’ve been working on it. Seriously – I’m kick-a$$ at my job, but even I’m not capable of formatting 470 pages and creating over 2,500 hyperlinks in a matter of days. No worries though – I got the time I needed in the end and the entire beastly little baby got mailed off last Friday. Big sigh of relief!
So you know when you are working on a project and you push off everything else? Well, that’s what I’ve been doing for awhile now. In spite of working a ridiculous amount of overtime in the past several weeks, I still haven’t been able to make time for the every day kind of tasks. So I came in today to a to-do list of 27+ items. But I’ve seriously kicked butt and am down to only one more! Woohoo! That’s right…26 items minimum crossed off the list today. Yep – now that feels good!
As far as my spark – it’s still burning pretty bright. I’ll admit that I’ve done some stress eating the past several weeks. I went to my go-to snacks of Good & Plenty, Starburst, Hot Tamales and then I found these evil little Starbucks Refreshers – Very Berry Hibiscus is perfect for starting the morning off, and the Cool Lime is perfect when the day is hot and you need a little afternoon turbo boost. Seriously – they have gotten me through the report writing process. My friend and I are, not kidding, addicted to them not just because they taste good but because they FEEL good too. Uh-oh – scary feelings to have about food!! LOL Now granted, it’s only about 150 calories in a Venti. But that’s 150 calories I’m drinking that I really don’t need to be drinking. Okay – enough about that. I’m cutting back starting NOW.
We’ve been taking a long and steady approach to our half training and even though we still have close to 3 months to go, we are already up to 8 miles this past weekend. It’s really nice because we have been at it already for a couple of months and have scheduled in a lot of hikes (about every 3 weeks) and lots of active recovery weeks. I’ve found that it is really helping us from getting burnt out on nothing but long run after long run every single weekend! For example, a week ago Saturday we ran a 5k race in Crestline (side note – the last three races I have done have been at altitude and hilly…seriously – what is up with THAT?!? I want to run on flat land so I can see what I can do already! LOL), then this past Saturday we banged out 8 miles and it felt really GOOD, then this coming Saturday it is up to the mountains for a 4.5 mile hike. By the middle of next month we’ll be doing 10 miles and then by the beginning of November we’ll hit the 13 miles just in time for our first half marathon. It’s been awesome!
Life is still crazy busy at home, but it is all good. I love having the kids around. The grandbaby is getting ridiculously big! He turns 1 on 9/13 and we’ll be celebrating with his first trip to Disneyland. My daughter-in-law’s little belly just keeps on growing and in another 6-ish weeks or so we’ll be welcoming the newest member to the family – a girl!
All in all, life is good! I’m having fun. I’m getting my job done at work. I’m enjoying quiet evenings at home now that the 10-hour days are over. I can’t complain. Really, I can’t! My only complaint would be that I am almost done with Dexter Season 5 and the new season doesn’t start until October! Oh what am I going to do?!? That and I already finished A Dance with Dragons and who knows when the next book will come out?!?! But I did find all the seasons of Six Feet Under at a local video store so I'll be watching those in the very near future thanks to a recommend. Orrrrrrrrrrr, I guess I could always go ahead and focus my efforts on finding a TRUE happy weight instead of a Happy Lifestyle!
Ciao peeps! Keep pushing through the barriers! I know I will…
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Hey there Spark World! I know I've been quiet lately but there just isn't any real way around it. I actually have been doing a whole heck of a lot of contemplating about my activity on SparkPeople as of late. You see, I admit it, I do most of my Sparking from my desk at work. And it can become quite the obsession at times. As in: Hmmm...need to get some filing done, well, let me just check my blog notifications first and then 1-2 hours later after reading blog after blog I finally get around to filing. Well, yeah - I'm embarrassed to admit it because that just isn't being a cool employee, right? I have actually had imaginings that what if I got fired for spending all my time on the computer conducting personal business and had to go home and tell my family "uh, yeah - I just lost my really kick-ass job because I couldn't control my addiction to SparkPeople". That would be so EMBARRASSING!
So I've consciously decided that my time at work needs to be spent on work...and lately it just so happens that I'm working on a time-crunch deadline so I've been able to mostly quit cold turkey. But what this means is that I'm not able to stop in and motivate ya'll and tell you how I think you're doing so fantastic and be inspired by all your hard work and forward progress. I can't cheer you up when you're down. I can't tell you to go get 'em tiger. At least not as much. Just know that I am thinking about you guys even if I don't have time to stop in and let you know. :-)
So you may be wondering, well, what about your "free" time after work - can't you Spark then? Well, yeah, I could...but honestly, I kind of like to LIVE life when I'm not tied to a desk. I have people to see, places to go...LOL So I guess what I'm trying to get across here is this: Just because I'm not as active on Spark does NOT mean that I'm "off the wagon" (whatever the heck that means), that I'm not exercising or that I'm eating copious amounts of junk food. Nope - it just means that I'm sparking my "real" life and not the computer one.
Anywhoo - this post actually ended up taking a very different turn than I had planned! LOL But I guess my checking in is just letting you know - hey, I'm here as much as I CAN be, I'm cheering for each and every one of you, I'm still eating right for the most part and I'm still working out and pushing myself to be better...and in the process I'm hoping to get closer and closer to goal weight. I'll still continue to check in, but just don't be surprised if it isn't as consistent as it has been in the past. And if you choose to quit "following" or stopping in to say hi on my page I completely understand. There are plenty of folks in SparkLand to support that have more time to reciprocate. :-) I won't hold it against ya! LOL
Alright - break time is over...so back to work! Take care and push on - keep fighting the good fight!!!!
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
So often on this healthy journey we focus on where we aren't yet. As in:
I'm not at goal weight yet
I'm not fast enough
I'm not strong enough
I don't eat healthy enough
I'm not perfect
And as much as we DO need to think about those things, as in keep our eyes on the prize and strive for being better than we are at the moment, too often we completely forget where we have come from!!!
I was thinking this morning as I was coming into work about the fact that the pants I'm wearing today feel really great. They fit perfectly and I feel comfortable and confident in them and that's a GREAT feeling! It's kind of shocking to me that I'm in my PMS week and I actually feel good in my clothes! LOL But the point is coming...I was realizing that the pants I'm wearing are size 12 and they feel awesome. I started out in a size 18W, and even had some jeans in 20W! So that started some other where I've been thoughts:
* When I started I was 240 pounds (way back when) and when I got recommitted to my journey I was 214. I'm now about 176 give or take depending on the day, and I certainly don't plan on staying at 176 for much longer. That number is coming down even more.
* When I started I was wearing XXL blouses, I'm now wearing L; and race t-shirts were XL, now they are M.
* When I started I was shopping in the plus sizes, now I am fully 100% in the "regular" section at stores.
* When I started I was running a 16 minute mile on a good day, now I'm running a 10-11 minute mile on a good day and a 12 minute mile is a super easy pace.
* When I started I tried 30DS once and gave up, I'm now on Level 3 and even though still a challenge, it's nowhere near killing me.
* When I started my wedding ring barely fit, now I can wear it on my middle finger and sometimes HAVE to wear it on the middle finger so it doesn't fly off.
* When I started you couldn't see my collarbones, and now - oh baby can ya see them! They are beautiful (yes, I think collarbones are probably one of the sexiest things on a girl...LOL)
* When I started I was using 3-lb weights, now I'm using 5-8 lbs (and seriously, if I wanted to push it I could probably do more)
* When I started a bowl of cereal was probably 3 servings, now I really truly do eat a single serving.
* When I started I had no idea what portions were and thought that eating a salad was making a good choice, now I am informed about portions and making good decisions no matter where I am!
* When I started I was only walking 3 days a week and that was more than enough, now I am working out 5-6 days a week and love being so active...if I don't start my day with a workout I am seriously cranky all day.
Anyways, I could actually probably go on all day but that would take too much of our time. hehehe So let me wrap this up somewhat succinctly. The fact of the matter is that even though I'm not where I ultimately want to be, I have come a helluva LONG way from the beginning! And that didn't just happen by accident - I worked my tail off for it! I put in blood, sweat and tears to get to where I am right now...I did this! ME!!! And I should be celebrating what I've accomplished, right?
So I challenge you today to take a little time to reflect on where you've come from and what it took to get to right here, right now (great...now I'm going to have that song stuck in my head and then it makes me think of Big Fat Liar, and then that takes me to Hungry Like the Wolf by Duran Duran and now I have THAT song stuck in my head. Sheesh...LOL). You've worked hard to get here! Be proud of yourself! Shout it from the rooftops! So what if you aren't *there* yet....you're getting there! So every once in awhile, look back and remember who you were compared to who you are now. I think you'll realize you have SOOOOO much to be proud of! Even if you just started today, you've already come a long way towards the you that you want to be because you are HERE and are doing something about it! That's definitely something to be proud of too. We all started somewhere, right? So where did YOU start??? Don't forget...
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