AUGUST 5, WORKING ON ME

Friday, August 05, 2011

When I got up this morning, I was dragging. Our air conditioner was out and my husband and I had planned to go to the chamber coffee with him but he stayed home to wait for the AC guy who fixed it and now we are cool. Anyway, I was droopy and I had a headache so I sat with my coffee and contemplated my feelings and mood. After that first cup of coffee kicked in I felt some better so I got dressed and went. It was so good to see all my many friends, clients and colleagues there and I won a doorpize, $25 plus candy. Whoo hoo! I realized that I have so many friends and they were glad to see me and I felt instant goodness! This morning I have been able to cope and actually do some work. I felt I had a good nights sleep as my husband said I started snoring instantly and he had to sleep down the hall in the guest room. But if the tylenol pm and the trazodone helped me to sleep and I dont recall waking up, that is something. On Monday, I see my regular doctor for a physical so I am going over it all with him. Probably need another sleep study.
I joined the I Need Sleep team and read that some people are taking vitamins and supplements that help them. I already have them so I'm going to start taking them. Why not, can't hurt. Anyway, I am looking forward to a weekend of sewing and enjoying myself. ANd hopefully a good night's sleep. With Air Conditioning.

  

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KASEYCOFF 8/5/2011 3:57PM

Yep, and you know what 'they say' about dairy products and tryptophan. Myself, I have a cup of chamomile tea every night, without fail. I don't know if it helps me get to sleep or if it's just psychological, but I wouldn't want to be without it now... Report Inappropriate Comment

COFFEE-MATE-Y 8/5/2011 12:12PM

Crossing my fingers the A/C works later for you!!! Glad to see you are working on you! :) We can all use a little "me" work. Report Inappropriate Comment

AUGUST 4, HANGING ON for me

Thursday, August 04, 2011

Been a struggle emotionally but I'm hanging in there. Had a grueling day and altercation with client that has been ongoing for months. Can't wait to finish. Anyway, I'm keeping track of my emotions, anxiety, irritability, depression, headache, heart burn, etc. Right after I took my meds this morning, I got mad at my husband and had a fight. He doesn't like me like this and I can't blame him. I'm seeing my regular doctor on Monday for a physical and he saw him today. Talked about my sleep issues and the doc said I needed to go to the sleep clinic again so we will have a chat about it on Monday when I see him. Had a much needed massage at 4:00 this afternoon and ready to relax for the rest of the night. Project Runway is on, my favorite! Later.

  

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SAFETYSUE 8/5/2011 3:25AM

I am so sorry to hear you are still struggling with all of this!! I hope you find some answers! ((Hugs n Prayers)) Report Inappropriate Comment

KASEYCOFF 8/5/2011 3:08AM

I'm sure the sleep study must be difficult for lots of people - trying to sleep in a strange place, having the monitors, all that, would make anyone sleep differently from usual. Surely they must allow for that and repeat the test as needed. I hope they schedule you for another to see if they can get to the bottom of the sleep issue - even a small amount of habitual 'nonsleep' can take a toll. Report Inappropriate Comment

BEVPRESLEY 8/4/2011 10:11PM

Today must have been the day for work worries. I know the massage helped relieve some stress. Deep breath, deep breath, tomorrow is another day. Report Inappropriate Comment

AMBERLEIGHM1 8/4/2011 9:29PM

I'm so sorry you are still struggling; I hope you get some relief soon. I know med changes can be difficult on your system and make life more stressful. I will add you to my prayer list that you find a solution soon. I hope you get an answer about the sleep study since you failed it and they didn't give you the CPAP and you have to deal with the restless leg syndrome on top of that. You're a trooper though, just do what you can and take breaks when you need to so things don't get overwhelming as often if you can. Peace, light, and blessings. Report Inappropriate Comment

August 3, Working for me!

Wednesday, August 03, 2011

Today I lost it. Something is not right with my medications. I am experiencing a good deal of anxiety and irritability when something isn't going right. This morning my internet connection came unhooked and I had to call in for help. During that time, I was frantic, and very irritable and not able to handle it. So I know my brain isn't working to the best of its ability. I guess maybe the meds I switched to left something out so I'll be calling my doc again today. I just want to sit down and cry so I'm heading to my sewing room as soon as I shower and get dressed.
I slept well last night I thought. Talked to my doc yesterday about this and we decided I would take a tylenol pm last night with a sedative. I slept all night. Must have as my husband slept down the hall due to my snoring and I didn't even miss him. POor thing doesn't even have sheets on the bed. But this morning, my brain is misfiring. I'm missing something that makes me feel good. And I know it. Been there before. Can't deal with my clients and I snap at my husband for nothing. I'm worried about my kids and just about everything. Got to get help for this and my head is splitting. This too shall pass. Depression is a terrible illness and it is real so please empathize with those who have it. Later. Got to call the doc.

  

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AMBERLEIGHM1 8/3/2011 5:44PM

I feel so bad for you, I have suffered for depression and understand how it can affect every aspect of your life. I'm sorry you have had such an unsettling day, I hope you can get things worked out quickly with your doctor. It might help writing your fears or anxieties down and the reasons they are likely to happen or not to happen and see if that brings any relief. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Peace, light, and blessings, Amber Report Inappropriate Comment

KASEYCOFF 8/3/2011 12:14PM

I know exactly what you mean - I'd think that feeling down would make me quieter or something, but the frustration and anger just overwhelm, leaving me feeling worse than when I started. I'm not sure there's any solution, but I'm hoping it works out with the meds / doc. Report Inappropriate Comment

NOEXCUSES4ME 8/3/2011 11:00AM

I'm hearing ya! I hope you get it all figured out. Keep trying and glad your doc is involved. I don't know what I'd do without mine. It took a while, but I'm under control most of the time haha. Make sure to smile today no matter how hard :) Report Inappropriate Comment

AUGUST 2, WORKING ON ME!

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

This morning I walked with my friend Pat. She and I both have sciatic nerve problems and hers was acting up so we just mosied along. I encouraged her to go to my massage therapist as he digs around and gets those nerves untangled! I feel so much better after 2 steady visits to him!
Last night we had a horrendous thunderstorm! I was out picking up a flower arrangement and got caught! The lightening was just over there it seemed and often. When I got home, the electric was out so I put the thawed chicken in the fridge and we headed out to a local restaurant where I made some poor choices. Then we went off to a movie rather than sit in a dark house. Capt America isn't worth seeing but there wasn't anything else to choose from. When we got home we had electric and the dog was glad to see us.
I am so glad this debt crisis is over (I think for now). What a fiasco. I'm not sure what we got is what we need but at least make a decision and get on with it. Later.

  

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KASEYCOFF 8/2/2011 12:00PM

I mosey more than I power-walk, so I can identify - and I don't have sciatica. You're working on it, just take one day at a time. Report Inappropriate Comment

AUGUST 1, WORKING ON ME!

Monday, August 01, 2011

Kaseycoff made sure I saw the Spark calendar on 31 days to better sleep. I have it printed off and will read it every day! Now that has inspired me to start August off right and do something every day for me!

I feel depressed, like my meds aren't exactly right but I am fighting it off. There are lots of things I can be depressed about. I think I will list them just to get them out of my system.

1. Oldest son is not working but finishing up school next week and hopefully will get a job. Not hopefully but WILL get a job. His wife had surgery and is not working right now but she WILL go back to work soon, I hope! If this doesn't happen, guess who gets to help?

2. # 2 son is having job issues but likes his job.

3. Hubby is working part time at the local funeral home but hasn't had much work lately.

4. My business phone is not ringing for appointments! Been slow but doing all right with the appointments I've had.

5. The country is in debt up to its ears!

I'm going to stop right there and notice that all of the above comments have to do with jobs and debt and money! Ummm! There's a trend here!

My friend Pat is back from her vacation and we have scheduled a walk tomorrow morning at 6:30. We have vowed to get back into walking as we have been stagnant this year. Her mother's illness and passing have put a dent in her time but she is back in the swing of things. I'm looking forward to Fall and cooler weather! This has been a crazy summer for weather.

I just finished a bowl of shredded wheat 'n bran cereal with banana and skim milk. I vow to choose wisely for the rest of the meals and snacks today! Later!

  

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AMBERLEIGHM1 8/1/2011 12:22PM

I'm glad you have the sleep calender to focus on and your walking buddy back, the little things really can make such a big difference. I hope you get some good sleep soon. Report Inappropriate Comment

SGKAYLOR123 8/1/2011 11:55AM

I'll have to go check out the sleep calendar. I understand the money woes, I wish it didn't play such a big part in our lives but it does Report Inappropriate Comment

KASEYCOFF 8/1/2011 9:43AM

Oohh, I'm so glad to hear that the calendar may be helpful for you - fingers crossed! Re the money worries - I hear ya. We're having the same fretting over here. Looks like we won't make it to the States this year, which troubles me a great deal, but... what's the current phrase? 'It is what it is'? *sigh* And for what it's worth, I have a small bowl of shredded wheat 'n' bran every night before I go to bed. I forego the banana (spikes my BG) but I wouldn't miss my cereal! Report Inappropriate Comment